SonataAllegro

If you do, smoke toward the tail end of the trip after 4 or 5 hours. I'd use an indica strand as I've found sativas can give me anxiety when on shrooms.

@Depersonilized this is almost paranormal; literally minutes ago I just came to the exact same realization. I have been a composer for a while and am trying to turn it into a life purpose, but I realized that what is stopping me in being truly authentic and creative in my work is my attachment to music, my identification with being a composer. I realized there is really no such thing as "my" music, and that I have an unhealthy obsession with originality and individuality in my work. In truth, music is music. And music is everything. Trust that if you let go of this identification as I began to do, you will come to a deeper realization of what music is and how it can be used to find truth and love.

This jigsaw puzzle is 1 million pieces that are all blank... do NOT think that you will solve this quickly.

I find truth in both points. This forum is certainly not therepy, in fact you may find the exact opposite of the advice you need at this time in your life.... And yet most psychologists aren't aware of the spiritual dimension of life, though they are perhaps more likely to be open to it. OP has good advice, but I think if you've gone down the route spirituality long enough to understand existentiality, you won't be satisfied with "just" a therepist. This forum isn't always the best for people who need serious emotional help, but it can give people guidance and a higher vision.

“Guided exercise for realizing you are God” *2 months later* “How to Get Laid”

It’s a distraction if you get distracted by it Try to remove all labels you assign to it, like it’s name, function, whether it’s a help or a hindrance, etc. Just experience it as it is and you’ll know whether to deepen it or leave it alone.

Not to @ you specifically but I’m getting tired of all these threads asking when Leo’s gonna post again. Have you noticed he doesn’t respond to them? The guy deserves a break, if the 500 vids he’s posted so far aren’t more than a lifetimes worth of self help then idk what is.

As you've realized, becoming un-neurotic about self help is itself self help. But obviously not all self help is of the same quality. You need to dig deeper into the feelings of lack that are causing you to chase after the right video or book, the right person, the right idea, a high state of consciousness, or a feeling of satisfaction. Get more in touch with enjoying what you already have in the present moment, especially through developing a skill. When you fall in love with the joy of sensation and being itself, you'll stop being so neurotic about PD.

Something tells me it's not like a button you press...

Depends how conscious your life purpose is and how fully you embody it

The importance of slowing down/lifestyle minimalism. It's so easy for self actualizers to forget that life needs to be slow and simple for true growth to occur.

I have that to, especially when doing breathing exercises. Normally all the music and monkey chatter that occupies my head blurs it out but when I’m concentrating those really high tones come in super loud. I believe it’s related to tinnitus but I wouldn’t worry about it. Just don’t listen to music too loud.

@Leo Gura having grown up a die hard leftie, then getting indoctrinated by JP in college, then watching you and seeing through all his bullshit, I now approach his lectures much more critically. He has the intellect of stage yellow with the moral compass of stage blue. This makes it so easy for blue/orange people to use his ideas as confirmation bias for their own worldview. The psychological topics he discusses in his lectures can be either a much-needed eye opener to the limits of ideology, bringing you closer to yellow, or they can be made into an ideology, bringing you down to blue. Having swung back and forth several times on JP, I think I can say now that I've eaten the grapes and spit out the seeds, and watching his lectures helps to integrate my blue shadow in a healthy way while remaining a leftie.

Sounds like what I'm trying to do in my LP. What do you do?

@vibv by masturbatory I mean that It's difficult to see the purpose in doing it, or more accurately, its harder to delude yourself into thinking that there is an inherent purpose. The purpose is to have fun with it, to connect with others, to express emotions. Which I agree, makes it a sexual activity. It's amazing when you study music history (especially "classical" music, though I don't really like that term) just how much the definition of music changes over time as we encounter new ways of doing things. I was watching a documentary the other day and someone said that the technology always comes first for a practical reason, and the musician comes along and shows people what it can really be used for. Like how the electric guitar was invented merely to amplify it over the rest of the band, but Jimi Hendrix took it to a whole new level. Art evolves in the same way organisms do, through quantum leaps in consciousness.

Coldturkey is really helpful, you literally cannot use whatever websites you put into it and you can't turn off the block or delete the app while a block is going. Ultimately the solution is to change your whole relationship to youtube but you have to start with a good chunk of time away from it completely. A month, I'd say.

I'm also a composer in my twenties, also currently taking the LP course, and also facing the same dilemma. Music is an inherently masturbatory field, as my friend once put it, but what I've realized is that doing it can really change you on the inside if you treat it as a tool for self reflection, contemplation, and meditation. And music IS the structure of reality -- if you've ever tried a psychedelic and listened to your favorite pieces you'll realize that consciousness itself is deeply musical, poetic, story-like. My username is SonataAllegro because for me, sonata form is a universal archetype in music. It reflects the hero's journey archetype, which is the structure of the way consciousness discovers itself on a fundamental level. Music is amazing at producing feelings of departure, return, discovery, and reflection, which I think "teach" us about ourselves on a subconscious level. This IS the deep structure of reality, and as composers we have to tap into that and bring it forward. With a career like music, it's so wide open a field that it's automatically one of self-actualization. The arts are most profound when they're the most authentic, so I think the most important aspect of an artist's work is to turn inward and find deep truth. I wish you luck on your journey. I'd love to hear some of your work!

I’ve learned the hard way it’s best not to go telling everyone I meet about actualized.org

His book Inner Engineering, which I found a pdf of, is pretty good, but it also won't teach a single yoga move.

For me, I find myself arguing a lot with people attempting to justify to them my abnormal outlooks and lifestyle, but when I reflect on it I realize I’m just projecting outward an inner conflict within myself of not fully accepting the ways in which I’m different. When you no longer need to justify to yourself why self actualization is the right path for you and you make it clear to yourself why it’s important, living among people who aren’t on the same path becomes easier.

“What is the point of life”. Put a smile on my face.

Agree^

Keep in mind, these Sadhguru vids are extremely click-baitey. The thumbnails disgust me. Also Sadghuru always speaks on the side of caution, for better or worse, since he's addressing a mainstream audience.

I'm planning to buy the Kriya yoga book on Leo's booklist, but Sadhguru really be out there giving me doubts about the effectiveness of "book yoga". Anyone with experience able to say if it's still worth doing, and if so, what practices to maybe avoid without supervision?

So sorry to hear, man. My mom died in July, I'm 21. Grieving takes time, and you have to honor it. Love yourself fully, even at the expense of loosing footing on your habits and productivity. Sometimes going easy on yourself is the thing you need most. Trust that as you move forward, you won't forget your friend. You'll think about him less often, but his memory will change meanings for the better. You'll start to look fondly back on the positive memories you had with him rather than dwelling on the regrets you might have. This can become a great source of motivation and an outpouring of love in the future, but don't be mad at yourself if you feel self-focused and lazy for now. This is your greatest opportunity to give yourself space and radical self love, and you'll inevitably live from a much deeper place after this. Also understand that "moving on" and suppression of emotion is not always bad -- sometimes there's just too much to handle all at once. There's very little you need to do, just make sure to not get in the way of your healing. Try to sense the complex interplay between your thoughts and your feelings, this makes you more mindful of emotions. Yoga is especially helpful -- it's really the whole body that's experiencing the grief, not just the mind. And when you're ready, psychedelics can really help you overcome emotional pain, as LSD did for me recently. Work toward something -- I highly recommend the life purpose course if you don't know yours, or if you do, go deeper into your purpose. And then there'll be days when you're just plain depressed, and you'll have to be present with your emotions. See Leo's episode on how to deal with strong negative emotion. I also found much comfort in the what is death episode. Don't spend hours on youtube finding the cheap fix for how to cure emotional pain, learn to feel it. Bottom line is, give yourself plenty of space and radical self love. My condolences, man.