Gesundheit

Same thing. Fear/attachment and love/attachment are two sides of the same coin, attachment. Two polar opposites. Loving myself fully and truly would mean no attachments, at least that's what it seems right now. I don't think about this at all. I always put my family first as long as I am feeling well. But when I'm not, priorities change and I start caring more for myself.

Yeah, I am currently watching the show for the very first time. I know I'm late, but that's because I was always too busy to watch TV. When I saw that clip, I wanted to post it here, but then I forgot. Phoebe is a hippie and has a lot of wisdom, but she's also very delusional. Great show, regardless.

Really? A masterpiece? He sounds like a condescending madman. And the disclaimer at first didn't help. It's as though he's talking to desperate seekers (which may be true). Regardless, the video was not exactly what I'm looking for. He said realization is different from life. Okay, I don't want the realization. I want life. How do I achieve fearlessness in life? I was able to do it back when I was Muslim. It was easy back then. Just do your prayers and be a good Muslim, and you will live in God's protection for good. This is probably the only thing I regret about growing beyond stage Blue/Orange. Beyond rules and logic, how do you get that fearlessness? What is the difference between the state without fear and fearlessness?

From my personal perspective, I essentially don't care about myself at all. I don't have much preferences. And although I've made some progress over the years, but still I could never fully transcend the attachment to my family. I know that it all comes down to me, but people have some kind of pressure with their suffering. When I see them suffering because of me, I find it more appropriate to bite the bullet of living in fear instead. I don't know if I will ever transcend this attachment. The fear is not really bothering me per se, but you know, who would like to be limited to it?

Thanks. I'll take a look at the dreamboard thing.

And Leo thinks his stuff is advanced? Phoebe knew it all even before the 21st century.

I know you didn't ask me, but I would say don't do anything for now. You clearly are not in your optimal state. Keep observing your inner reactions until you feel enough stability to make decisions. Right now is the time for more understanding of yourself imo.

I feel grateful for having walked this path. I can see that I am light-years ahead of humanity. And I can guarantee that many people will necessarily have to walk the path somewhere in the future. This will give me an advantage over 90% of people. Let alone having been doing personal development for nearly half a decade. I am now futuristic.

I want to experience fearlessness in the same way I used to back when I was Muslim. Things were simple back then; you just follow the rules, be a good Muslim, do your prayers, and you're good to go. The mind was very silly and gullible, but that particular thing was not bad. It is true that the tree of knowledge threw our parents into hell. I don't want to know anymore. Knowledge is for devils.

Thanks. You're right.

Won't it though? That sounds nice on paper, but I'm talking about gun to my head kind of fearlessness. Not lying on the couch and eating cheetos.

God told me it's BS.

I would love to live alone, but I don't see my life unfolding in that direction. Thanks. I'll contemplate that.

Yeah, I agree. Can you suggest a few particular practices for that?

I understand that. It's because I've been doing the work that I am now able to realize this. But I don't think it's that simple. A lot of people think they are enlightened when their lives are comfortable and they don't face dangerous situations. It's very easy to be fearless when you're in an ashram. I thought the same thing many times, only to realize that I was bullshitting myself every single time. In this case, lifestyle would be a facade for true enlightenment. And I don't want that. I want to live in fearlessness.

Well, I would rather be afraid of losing just one thing than a million other things. Quantity matters. I can't do that precisely because I have attachments, mainly family. Once I was on a retreat, and I thought that I have transcended fear and attachment. Next thing you know, I went outside and did something borderline dangerous, and the first thing I noticed was that my fear was all about attachment to my family. See, if I was homeless, I would probably not care, but since I have family and I don't want them to get hurt or be in trouble, I have to behave in a certain responsible way. Fear is what's maintaining that for me. How can I be responsible and not afraid?

Yeah, I guess so. Thank you. I'll try to increase my mindfulness.

Not-knowing is a state of consciousness. It's not a thought. You can't say I don't know and be truthful unless you're in that particular state. Everything outside of that state is beliefs.

Just keep observing yourself like that with love. Complete honesty with yourself and without judgements. You're healing...

I'd rather believe crazy scientists than some crazy ordinary people.

I'd rather believe my own eyes than some crazy scientists.

But do you have tears?

There already isn't a center to consciousness. And life is already just happening. Awakening is part of life, and so is delusion. The only difference after awakening is that there will be no more fear or resistance.

@Preety_India Jeez! What's with people?! You shove your shoes into their mouths and brush their teeth with the dirt on them. I'm guessing that you treated them well at first and they took advantage of that. Just like when boys treat their sisters carelessly. You made them feel like family, and they showed their true faces. In the case of work, you probably can't keep avoiding them forever. In case they do that again, you may have to do something physical. Some people just don't understand kindness. If it's over lunch, throwing food plates onto them and then storming out is optimal. I don't think that'll happen ever again though because it's pretty rare to find such jerks. But in case it ever happened again, same advice above. Show them that you are strong and willing to use force to be treated well. The reason why they talked to you like that is probably because you didn't demonstrate a strong frame from the beginning, and so they knew you were vulnerable and then used your vulnerability against you. In this case, nothing will restore your identity like force. Of course, if you're able to report them that would be the best solution, but I'm saying just in case you don't have that option. Either way, don't be afraid. They can't harm you.

Speechless, huh?