beastcookie

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  1. Yes, seen from the absolute/highest perspective but this is not accessible for most people. Even as an "enlightened" being, there is still duality operating and intentions that leads to actions and results.
  2. RASA = energy transmission from an already enlightened being RAMAJI = popular advaita spiritual teacher, author of Ramaji1000 (basic concep is that there are levels to enlightenment and enlightenment=maximum clarity not transcending humanity and being unaffected by life) So I was first assessed as LOC734 and now my latest session I was assessed to LOC804. This is my report of this LOC-level: First concept to be encountered in meditation is the absence of a self. I am "here" and thoughts and feelings are "there", feelings of being the observer. Naturally this leads to more happiness as identification with troublesome thoughts becomes less. It doesn't eradicate emotional pain but it's more manageable. As I was going in to the 800s emotional pain intensified as more psychic trash was floating up to be dealt with. Some people even experience trash from previous lifetimes but most have enough from this one. My best tool to move forward atm is breath meditation. I was moved to write a small report after seeing posts here about enlightenment and free will. It's a popular opinion to claim that there's no free will but there's multiple dimesions and timelines operating at the same time and we can switch between these. With higher levels of consciousness I think this becomes pretty obvious as the self returns as a much more powerful self, a universal self. The little ego I might be powerless to a large degree, but the universal self is an amazing creator. My experience is increased doing-power as the "non-doer" and also a signficant effect on other people. My presence has effect and people find me a lot more attractive, but I just radiate more love and acceptance their way and they pick up on that. I don't feel much peace and love otherwise but I feel that I'm getting there. End of report
  3. What do you mean with "white light spiritual blast"? I must have missed that part of the book, I'm having a session in 2 weeks but attended group RASA yesterday. I'm currently in a process where a loooot of psychic trash floats up and I'm moving pretty fast. Currently looking forward to more LOVE, being able to radiate love without ego fixations getting in the way
  4. Done this type of purging as well, prefer other substances though but thanks for the invitation!
  5. Talking about this type of stuff daily as we are both working with ego triggers atm.
  6. Yes, I'm working with my ego triggers and inferiority complex and "lack of love, lack of attention, lack... something's missing" it's in my focus Purging IS happening and has been happening since february this year, but have a little left to purge!
  7. Yep you're right but have a hard time backing away when all I need is ATTENTION (and sex) I really feel bad for all the guys out there that are with women with low sex drives. I listened to a video with @Leo Gura (https://www.actualized.org/articles/how-to-make-a-guy-fall-in-love-with-you ) about how to keep a man and he really emphasize having your weight handled (check, fitness girl), having an active life (check), and providing interesting, creative sex (check, no boring vanilla stuff here) and yes they fall in love but I need MORE and it's a constant trigger. I've considered having a rotation but I'm very loyal so, perhaps not an option.
  8. Talked to Ramaji about it and he thought old pain and a triggering partner could be a blessing. But yes perhaps an ideal partner would match me in having a high sex-drive or sharing sex as a love language. My type of guys are rarely like that unfortunately. Enlightenment for me is perfect clarity and ability to deal with psychic trash. I'm not having perfect clarity atm even though I've come a long way. I know I'm not seeing everything as is, but currently in a process of letting everything false and inauthentic be washed away. Perhaps this romantic relationship will be washed away as well, perhaps not. I'm an enneagram 4w3 - a pretty dramatic person that LOVE attention and getting seen as special. Partner is 5w6.
  9. Hey! I have a question about dealing with triggers in romantic relationships. I wanted to post this in the relationship-forum but think it fits better here. The problem: I need a lot of attention in romantic relationships, especially sexual attention. I'm a female, don't need to go into too much detail but I find it hard to find men that I can connect with intellectually that also enjoy sex as much as I do. I'm not extreme or anything but my reaction to sexual rejection is strong. Rejection can be when it's been 1-2 days without sex and a boyfriend isn't showing much interest in me even if I'm reaaaally trying to get his attention (I get really creative in sex and no I'm not ugly, fat or old just find it fun and think it's an important part of deep emotional connection) If I don't sense a high interest in my partner, emotional pain is instantly activated. I really work on myself spiritually so I can be the witnessing presence to this most of the time, but it's challenging. To the question: Lately I've seen "old reactive ego patterns" clearly as they float to the surface. Romantic relationships bring it all out for me, but I wonder if this is a productive purge (getting it all out and into the light to be transmuted) or if it's a sign of incompatibility. Since I'm not completely enlightened, it can be really hard to tell, especially if I'm with someone that is also working intensely on spiritual awakening. I guess core question is about telling productive purge from just creating new emotional pain, being desperate for attention isn't very enlightened for sure but perhaps there can be some kind of yin yang balance to it...?
  10. Thanks! I also get kriya (?) during psychadelic sessions so I know what you mean. Now I decided to continue with RASA instead of a retreat with Jan, but I'll consider it in the future
  11. Thank you, this is great. I'll let you know how this goes!
  12. Hello wise friends, Have a new question here, a question I am very hesistant to ask because I absolutely HATE when people ask questions for someone else. I typically don't go into other people's businesses but... this is the situation: My friend is completely stuck in the "I need my small ego-I to die"-phase and it's annoying as fuck. He's seen his higher self and been there through various drugs (DMT, LSD, 5-Meo etc) and even regular medication (SDRI) can work periodically. This has led to the typical "I can not live with myself any longer"-dilemma where people typically break through (like Eckhart Tolle, Katie Byron, Russel Brand etc) but no break through occurs. I was there myself 9 years ago and broke through quite fast w/o drugs, just agonizing emotional pain lol. This dude can take so much pain, too much. He desperately wants to understand non-doership but he just don't get it when I try to explain it. I don't think his brain is ready for it, or I dunno... are there any alternative routes to jump into non-doership from the point he's at? It's been 2 years of this bs where I try to guide him but fail. I think this is not my business, but he keeps begging me for help to transcend. Any advice?