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@PurpleTree thank you

@softlyblossoming I just imagine that

@ChrisZoZo was waiting for an experience during meditation to arise but nothing happened so I stopped trying:/. All it did is make me meditate easier now

Hi , Does anyone here have advanced water system on filter machine in there dwelling.

That I’m not the human

I was doing intense walking meditation on my way to the dollar store. I almost walk through people because I was so escaped from thought I couldn’t think to move away. It was just for a sec but it’s hard to stay in that state

@KatiesKarma according to what?

@Forza21 hi what’s your business if you ever let it go pass it to me

How

@Leo Gura what is it doing?

Dealing with huge inner conflict this only arrised after she got pregnant. This was never a problem I didn’t care about this at all but I don’t know what is going on in my psychology something is hunting me and making me emotionally unstable it comes and goes away so I’m living in emotional roller coaster. so the situation is that i met a girl in the summer we kept hanging out every day we fell in love quickly we are just naive like that lol. after just 1 month she got pregnant I told her I’m not ready!! but in her head she really wants a baby so talking to her didn’t work so I just accepted it easily, her personality very not mature she is 21 I’m 24. I didn’t care much at first as my personality is very carefree and go with the flow. i was trying to stay positive so I didn’t go crazy and be persistent so now she is 3 month pregnant we are still together and seeing each other very frequently and text each other like every hour. but there is one thing that is hunting me daily deeply it’s damaging my psyche and causing me discomfort mentally about her that keeps bothering me and makes me regret this and that she is only 21 and before she met me she had sex with 5 guys in her life which is hunting me and bringing negative emotions to me I know this is reality of human females and taking her environment into account and her insecurities but I can’t get over is i feel angry towards her is my head I can’t accept it before she was pregnant it was ok to me it didn’t bother me at all not even cross my mind. bshe had told me this from our first date so I always know this about her, that her body count is 5 but I didn’t think much of it at the time I know this is silly maybe but I can’t control my psyche and how it works I really want to get over it but I don’t seem to get over it she really loves me and I love her too but. Regardless I feel like disgusted and very angry when I imagine that other men have had sex with my girlfriend but only when she got pregnant my brain shifted some how into this pattern on thoughts this thinking idk maybe it’s genetics as I’m originally from Middle East but she is half Jamaican half filipino. But I really want to get over it because i have no choice but too accept it because what she did in her pass is already done. I have a feeling it will be hard to fix this issue as it’s inbedes in my core personality and I feel hopeless maybe I will feel sad and angry and rage inside about this for longer. I will take some mushrooms today and ask for help.

@DoTheWork I’ve zoned out from voice in the head on mushrooms like 1gram .

@Zen LaCroix it’s not hard

@HypnoticMagician yo link me up with the secretaries

dug my self in a whole financially and I’m working every day now I want to do 12 hours a day but I can’t do it as i fatigue quickly after 6 hours.

@Nahm Yo i need to look that guy up, thanks I’m close I feel like

@diamondpenguin spend all my money and I don’t have savings

@mmKay eyo Uber is actually a great temporary job for grinding for a while but i feel like i need some sort or remedy or something for me to reach 10 hours everyday for like 60 days straight I’m gonna need cocaine cuz coffee won’t cut it i yet tired easily

@Nahm i drive my car do delivery i was working lifeguard this summer also why i want to do this, my this i mean grind and work my ass off, long story short , i got a girl pregnant and she wants to keep it that’s why i work because knowing there is human being coming I work hard for that cause before this i was basically living like hippie/rockstar i was just fucking around i uad zero worries so I didn’t have motivation for financial success because I didn’t have responsibilities but now i feel like i have responsibility and I don’t mind it , I actually like the fire and desire this has give me,i feel like I WANT to work I always hated work but now hating work is not option lol for now I guess i want to love work ! Also I don’t like my current job i want to start working from home

@gettoefl hold on is he wearing a wig?

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@gettoefl I feel same way

@herghly ama give it a shot

Can you guys share your favourite Quotes non-duality, love , self love ...Ect

it just makes me more turned on during sex if a girl calls me daddy , like the girl im taking care of her and treating her well so im her daddy now lol idk why it turns me on but has to do with dominance i guess.