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Unless you posted something over the top, I'm sure it's like you said (standard German blocks) you'll be back on in no time! Perhaps actualized. org can request to have this site "unblocked"....or, can you go to a local computer shop, café, etc and ask around if there is a way to bypass the blocks? It seems wrong that they block anything in the first place....there is a thread called "location of actualized followers" if you scroll through and find other people living in Germany, I'm sure you could ask them too....

Bye Popi, you are rad and I will miss you in here in actualization-land (I like how that sounds, maybe Leo should open a personal development theme-park...with binaural beat boat ride, self-love hall of mirrors, and roller-coaster to overcoming fears, etc....lol )... Anyway, I totally support anyone that needs to leave, a forum is not a necessity for personal development, and if addiction occurs, it's best to do whatever you need to do, in order to manage your time, etc...you can always return when you are ready...That said, I do agree that it is an excellent tool in general....

@Gabriel David Gomez What Kali represents is exactly the point...some of us are visual thinkers ("a picture is worth a thousand words"). She's destruction & creation, death & rebirth, construction & deconstruction, etc....Kali represents your philosophy precisely; how both sides are necessary and intertwined. So, I thought she was completely relevant (also super hot...lol) The process of actualization emphasizes open-mindedness, yet I find there are continual requests on this forum for me to censor myself...like you have asked...Do you feel all posts should be in text format, or do you simply dislike that particular image, or her representation? Also, calling Kali a mythical creature does not show compassion to those devoted to the Hindu religion....people may disagree on weather or not Jesus could walk on water, or be resurrected but he is rarely called mythical...therefore, I feel it is inappropriate to call Kali "mythical" based on her unique appearance, or her definition. There is nothing wrong with rediscovering ancient wisdom (like how your insight appears equivalent to Kali's representation). Every epiphany we have does not need to be a fresh addition to the consciousness of the world. You have a unique way of expressing it, and that's totally awesome!

Reminiscent of the goddess Kali....

@stevegan928...practicing gratitude is miraculous...the trick with the "bad stuff" is to be grateful for the learning experience... "our worst tormentors can be our greatest teachers"; if we can only be open to, and accepting of the lessons... Being grateful could never be a harmful practice....that said, expecting things to manifest in order to meet your specific expectations could be...gratitude will result in manifestation, but not in a predictable way....the universe is amazing and mysterious!

@ishaq Interesting, I can relate to your struggle, but I am coming full circle from the opposite side. I felt the oneness from an early age, but it was consciously, and subconsciously diminished by those around me. Here's an example from my early 20's when it seemed like others were trying to squash the last lingering remnants of this beauty: Before animation school, I studied Fine Arts in college. They gave us a project "Individual Identity" and asked us to use old photos of ourselves to form a piece that would show our uniqueness. My piece said "Individual Identity is Meaningless, We are ONE" and showed my old photos breaking apart into the vastness of the universe. I thought it was rad. The teachers and head of the department were furious, and demeaning. Despite my many eloquent attempts to explain that I had a valid perspective, they insisted that I had not done the work as requested and suggested they would fail me if I did not do the project their way....so, I left the school. That last lingering drop of oneness is still there, but I remember how it felt to feel it fully, and so I too am looking for a way to tap back in! Sending the best intentions to you on your journey!

@Leo Gura @Heart of Space @ChimpBrain @Outer Thank you all so much for the input! To clarify, I did not mean that I intend to do this myself anytime soon (nor should anyone new to psychedelics). Personally, I know I am not at a high enough level currently to consider it (and have debilitating nausea with this experience now too, brain injury mimics concussion vertigo, suggestions to overcome?). That said, what I want to discover is: if there is any potential merit, (for those at Leo-ish level) to have a joint psychedelic experience with other people that have the same intention? Personally I do believe in collective consciousness, and the scientific evidence of this that is emerging all over the world. Do any of you feel that, on the path to enlightenment, there is the potential to raise the consciousness/ frequency of the population in general (+ your own) by sharing these experiences? Maybe a music festival is not ideal, maybe a nature retreat (or something) is better... but the concept... What do you think? As for recreational vs personal growth use, isn't that more dependant on your intention, than on your location? Thank you for the references, I will do some research! @Outer / Leo, MAPS (that Outer mentioned is a wonderful organization). What do you think of the environment/ setting style they use for therapy purposes? Is having a psychologist with you in this state, in an unfamiliar analytical place, also a recipe for a "scare the shit out of you" experience? Thanks!

@Naviy Taking the risk to make a positive change is awesome! Consider putting less focus on the time frame; a week alone in nature (distraction-free) could yield more results than a month with distractions, if you were truly focused, etc... Maybe try things like mainstream "skills and interest tests". (I think this is from a Leo video, but I don't remember which): make lists of activities that bring you joy (no financial incentive) , THEN brainstorm ways some of those things could earn you money. I have found with most people I know that have found their purpose, there was at least a flicker of this light since childhood. Perhaps, your limited savings could be used to help start a business if your path became clear, early in your homemade retreat! ...or, you could consider volunteering in fields where you see a potential spark....during some of this "time off"....

@Emerald Wilkins That sounds like it was an incredible experience for you! I was laughing to myself, because I share all of your opinions of *Fear, Teal, and Vaccines*. Your subtle lurking fear metaphor was perfect "It’s like all the best food and drink is ruined by a subtle nasty after-taste that won’t go away". Teal is amazing, still, even a "far from mainstream" (lol) person like myself can be thrown off by what can come off as flaky with her (yes, probably ego related). To me, it doesn't matter if what she told you is "real", or not; if you have had this desire since age 12 etc..., it seems to be your ultimate chosen purpose. Of course, the more fear you are able to overcome, the more wisdom you will have to share with the world!

Reshi, and Turkeytail mushrooms, also Astragalus....all amazing immune boosters...and the first two also shrink tumours....anything "adaptogenic" is amazing; the medicine will work in a unique way based on the needs of each specific person....but all of these tonics are only amazing boosters to our own potential healing system! So many people that have found tumour shrinking technologies have been killed or died mysteriously, there is a whole documentary on it now, i haven't watched it yet (The truth about cancer). My mother had cancer, and the day she found out about Dr. Royal Raymond Rife she became uncontrollably upset for months! He CURED cancer using sound. He was murdered and his lab burned to the ground (see the whole story). There have been many others since...but, they can't stop us from picking Reshi and Tukeytails (you can even grow your own in sawdust)!

@Ayla total magic! @Orange Males and Females often wish for children long before puberty/sexual instinct...I feel like it may be a strong factor for some, not others, and that it is often most evident in conjunction with "biological clocks"...as in; the desire is beyond instinct, but as time starts to run out, instinct may become stronger. I think any of the "take care in old age" stuff, only happens with narcissistic types, of subtly, and subconsciously. @ArabiaNytes My desire was the same. The unconditional love is amazing! I also feel there are so many destructive lemmings being raised intentionally that way, and that innovation of brilliant minds is so often squashed by society. So, I also enjoy raising a tiny force of positive change! That said, it was a tough call....because the world is so overpopulated! That's why I have been firm for decades that I would only have 1 child...

@Lynnel Sorry, miscommunication again. I wasn't talking about specifically making friends with the sole purpose of eventual romance at all. I meant, make friends with women for the sake of actually making friends: 1. These ladies will have more female friends for you to meet. 2. Attraction in women often blooms as they get to know you personally. 3. It is helpful to learn from ladies in your life, they are an asset on your journey. I agree with you, there are magical soul-mate type connections that happen for strange reasons, even spontaneously on the street. That said, many people have happy relationships with great sex, from a bond develops more slowly overtime (like co-workers, etc). What you personally find attractive has absolutely no bearing on weather or not a lady has anything interesting to say. I think it's a very limiting belief; that you would only want to be friends with girls you find "attractive" (plus her friend you haven't met yet could be the most gorgeous girl you've ever seen). The idea that it would "suck" to be friends with an attractive person you can't fuck, is just as limiting. Ok, yes that might frustrate you at times, but there is so much more to all of our relationships (and again she could have super hot friends). Having an open mind to women, friendship, and different types of relationships is a powerful tool!

Hello Community, what do you think of these status titles, and how they function? (Greenhorn, Member, Master, Adept, etc.) I can totally imagine the vision Leo had for this, those new to personal development can seek wisdom from the more experienced. We all love a good mentor! I think, for some of the Master, etc level people in our community, that they are a fantastic resource for us all...and I wouldn't want to loose that. That said, is this system functioning as intended? To be honest I don't really know how it all works, (don't really care, I assume it has something to do with the number of posts or something). I feel, for some, this may be like a video game for them trying to "make it to the next level" with a secret trap door, instead of doing the actual work. My opinion is, that labeling administrators, etch that Leo has chosen to help is awesome, beyond that, I have mixed feelings: Is this system too authoritarian? Do I personally want to "rise through the ranks" with various titles I may not be ready to embody like this? Do I want to have a tittle at all? Are there some people achieving a title beyond their skill level, and, could this cause problems for others with misdirection, or would the community unite to resolve this? I am not intending to target anyone with this, and have no specific person/ people in mind, this is just my confusion about this system... if you respond, I have one request; that you do not make this about anyone specifically or engage in bullying.... so much love for you all!

@Mal My first three negative reputations have all come from this thread...The fact that I noticed, and care slightly is pretty fucked up...lol...(I am pretty good at not giving a shit in the real world now, but I'm new to this virtual community thing) ...I feel like the new neighbour on the block that brought the food-poisoning dish to the BBQ or something...ha ha... I have been at a green stage of consciousness for about 2 decades, and this is a huge wake up call for me! My very green dislike of hierarchy can definitely rub others the wrong way. Another prime example of why I need to rise above this final fear stage. Anyone, ....suggestions? If I was offensive, I sincerely apologize. I do not regret asking a question or challenging the status quo though....and I actually do still have some concern with this system being misinterpreted by the venerable...but for the most part, this is totally my own ridiculousness...and I will now, hopefully, cease my troll-lee-post-necromancy...

@Lynnel I didn't mean take NO action, I meant that taking different action (like making friends first) would likely yield someone looking for more than a night together, and a more meaningful connection... I totally agree with you that there are differences between genders. That said, for me, it doesn't usually work the way you suggest. If someone tries to talk to me in an insincere or creepy way, I will politely excuse myself (or impolitely if it's nasty, lol...). I make the effort to talk to people of both genders, in a friendly way, and most other ladies I know are the same. We are super introverted, but learnt long ago that it often effects enjoyment levels, so...we just suck on an imaginary bravery mint, and make and effort to communicate. Like I said, there was one exception, where I was "picked up" by a kindred spirit, but the rest of my relationships began in a friendly way (and some even stayed friends). "The seeds we sow are the ones that grow"... if you keep focusing on male inequality, and what you are lacking, it will likely effect your results. Would it really suck to have more female friends? Probably not...at the very least they can give you insight into women, styling tips, and be wing-ladies on your adventures...and at best, your relationship with them could blossom into more....

Of all my past boyfriends, only one "picked me up" in that way.... lol.... most of the time, to most girls I know, any lascivious intention is repulsive (in the beginning of a potential relationship context)..... even if the person is "attractive", we generally do not want to be part of an addenda, or hear too many insincere and generic compliments....i'm sure you've heard the blah, blah, about making friends, but it's true.... consider Leo's suggestions like joining activity clubs with people that have similar interests.... and surpass neediness if possible.... also, Leo's video about how women become attracted to men overtime, based on conversations etc might be helpful....(it's not mostly an instant physical thing like it apparently is for men)...sorry I forget what the video is called.... consider that the whole anti-virgin thing is just ridiculous peer-pressure your ego has taken too far.... you don't need to go to any of the extremes you suggested (escort/pick-up).... patience and caring less are likely all that's needed.....

@HGGabrielF I personally think that genuineness aka authenticity, is most important.... for me, a shy person is superior, than someone fake or acting... but if you can pull off "fake it till you make it confidence" just by being yourself with an extra dose of courage, that's even better... that said, I know other girls that are different, confidence rules..... Also, I suggest avoiding lascivious behaviour or innuendo completely, at least at first.... lol... at best, this often results in temporary relationships only.... that said, for some girls that may not be the at all....also, I feel what Leo says about neediness is unbelievably true.... both sexes...best to strive to surpass it.... @MIA.RIVEL so true too... it barely hurts to try....happy adventures in flirt-land....

@bertharmorrison Hi Bertha... To be honest, I had no idea what a Doula really was when I was pregnant... my midwife recommended one and I'm soooooooo glad she did! The Doula will be with you way before your midwife shows up, days before! Plus, they have incredible skills! I was run over by a truck, across my hips, twice...so child birth was really difficult! The Doula spent hours clamping my hips with her hands and my pain was significantly reduced. The Doula always knew something that would help, in every scenario. Here, in Canada, you can get one for free, as they need to attend a few births before they graduate (maybe same for you?). One thing though, I ended up in the hospital when I became incapable of home birth... and they were extremely prejudice against Doulas there.... I noticed that even my midwife had to pretend to agree with the anti-Doula comments, to keep her respected status at the hospital.... but don't let that detour you, Doulas are amazing!

I am not totally astrology centered, but I do believe it can actually be another tool in our personal development tool boxes... to assist us in uncovering our (often hidden) inner truths.... even if you don't think it's "real", it has the potential to spark personal insights regardless... for sceptics, if you get past the potentially flaky seeming stuff, astrology is often strongly advocating life purpose, self-love/personal power, and real inner work... open minds, now sexier than open shirts... lol...

@Mal @Kenya My concern is that: I, (future-higher-forum-status-me, and potentially current high-status others) may be taken more seriously than I/we should be..... Actually Mal, you got me thinking about this, in relation to these titles...when you said how "you" (myself and some others) don't know what we are talking about....I thought how true that is.... there are people bringing up serious topics in their lives (even suicide etc)... the story you provided was actually a perfect example of what I am saying.... so, Are venerable members potentially imbuing more trust/ value/ truth into the suggestions they receive from others?... and.... Is this potentially, dangerous, or unhealthy for lost souls at times? I don't feel that I have personally constructed any sort of hierarchy... but who knows?... I feel that the actual names of these titles, inherently denote a hierarchy in themselves...given the dictionary definition of each status.... that said, you are probably right, that I have over-constructed this mentally...made things seem more significant than in the universal reality...I had only guessed that the intended purpose for increasing levels of status may have been to help newbies find mentors...I have no idea if that is actually why the status titles are there...I still don't really get it... are they just to encourage posting? Mal, I am so sorry that you have felt pressured to coach, that shifty/unfair....(they could at least pay you, kidding). Personally, I believe that there are lessons we can all learn from each other... and status is irrelevant in this regard... an individual just beginning to explore consciousness, may surpass most others in a specific realm of thought, where their unique mental skills are truly able to excel.... and the opposite is also possible, even for experienced personal development mentors...

Thanks @Kenya, I suppose if it means nothing, it doesn't matter then, thanks! At the same time words do have power, so, the same way I trust that a "Moderator" is here to help, I feel, even if only subconsciously, that I could put more trust than warranted in another's tittle, maybe even my own... So, this is my first, and probably only Forum (especially after Leo "10things you don't know you want video", aka the meaning of life... lol). I suppose I 'd join one more forum if it matched my life purpose, or something. Anyway, the fabulous Wiki, explained this forum stuff, some what ; Despite my innocent, inquisitive intention with posting this, I have probably become a "Troll" with this thread, and I am definitely *unintentionally* one of those post-necromancers, etc. too! If my intention is mis-read as an attempt to mutiny this ship, or something, please delete it! Thanks! Here's what Wiki said about how this system works: "Internally, Western-style forums organize visitors and logged in members into user groups. Privileges and rights are given based on these groups. A user of the forum can automatically be promoted to a more privileged user group based on criteria set by the administrator.[10] A person viewing a closed thread as a member will see a box saying he does not have the right to submit messages there, but a moderator will likely see the same box granting him access to more than just posting messages" (like how we cannot "thumbs up", someone on another level, I just want to give a positive reputation toward any comment that resonates with me... it seems silly that there is this restriction... or maybe i'm silly... oh right, I am... lol....)

Some instincts, like avoiding poisonous plants, are very valuable.... and I believe this extends to our interpersonal relations as well....I think it would actually be potentially devolving to move beyond some of these..... there are obviously some instincts that are not healthy, that we should learn to move beyond...I feel the challenge is learning to properly distinguish between these, and systematically overcoming those that do not serve us...

Ok, now we are mixing western and eastern astrology, good idea! .... so, .I'm a Capricorn - Fire Dragon. Having all of the typical Capricorn traits, mixed with fire dragon is actually a good way to describe me... it's a crazy combination! I love that there are a bunch of other Capricorns here.... any other Fire Dragons?

As an optimistic dreamer I am with you @MrPeak! @Pelin, totally, not for everybody, that lifestyle. That said, it will have a benefit for the marine world, not a negative effect. Please watch their videos with an open mind before you make judgements. I do completely understand why you would think that though...if the typical western human lived at sea, the way we usually live... it would be terrible... One important thing you neglected to mention @MrPeak is the purpose of seasteading; to bring together brilliant innovative minds, away from the current restrictions of any government, to develop revolutionary, fresh, abundant ways for humans to live in harmony with nature!

Attn: Administrators. Is it possible to create an additional alternate version of this thread that does not have every song link to a YouTube video? (it takes FOREVER to load this way, I'd love to see the songs, but don't have the time), Thanks for considering! My song options: The Police - Spirits in the material world (classic rock). Chris Murray - One Everything (acoustic ska). NoMeansNo - Victory (old punk).