Elshaddai

If this AI could genuienly cause liberation , I would pay for it.

Start with lower doses and work your way up. That's the way to go in my opinion.

I tried some psychedelics for the first time recently and it was very beautiful and profound of course, but I can't help myself and think how can i integrate all the knowledge from the trips into my everyday life since it seems so far out and removed from the "ordinary" state of consiousness we are in most of the time. Meditation and contemplative journaling for a start i'm assuming? Is there even a best way at all? any thoughts?

Yeah that's what I have been doing. I didn't really do anything trip related the next day, just sorta chilled and played some videogames but still i couldn't help but natrually reflect on the experiences I've had. I Thought about going to a forest near my house but eventually I just took a walk to a park instead, Next time I'll give it a try though so thanks!

I chanced upon his videos while surfing the net googling for answers to emotional problems in my life from years ago(I've been watching his vids on and off since late 2014, glad I stuck around).

From my experience, do strong determination sitting. If you are persistent you will probably find alot on your radar.

@Javfly33 You know I really pondered this question for awhile now and examined my beliefs and what I honestly believe and I would say is that imagination is made out of conciouness, just like everything else we experience in this reality.

For quite a long time now i've been trying to understand the concept of nothingness found in most mystical and spiritual traditions in some form and I few days ago as I was driving home from work I realized that in my experience the world i'm seeing visually seems to vanish into non-existence or literally nothing as my car passes through it(my sensory experience in the moment). Hopefully I explained it well, it makes sense if you observe your experience of the world and how every individual experience is impermenant and seems to disappear into non-existence. Then I remembered hearing about the concept of "gone" and "vanishing" from shinzen young which describes this experience very well here for example: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L-7LXHjGHfM&t now I can't stop thinking or trying to understand this teaching So I am just deluding myself or am I on to something here?

Like the title suggests, this is some I really struggled with for a very long time and with mixed results. I'm not very comfortable in my own skin and have a very negative of my self and human society as a whole. Leo's videos on self love helped a bit but I still struggle to love myself if i'm honest. So I guess another way to reframe my question is how can I make it easier to accept and love myself?

@Roy Thank you roy for the kind words I agree! Easier said than done! Ordinary life(I mean work, family, and other obligations) have a habit of distracting me from finding my life purpsoe also I often just procrastinate on changing myself because of fear and desire for comfort and ease I would imagine.

Yeah diet is a good place to start for sure. i've dabbled with the writings of the philosphers you mentioned but i'll definately check them out once i'm done with the book i'm reading. thanks for the tips i'll start applying your ideas and see if i get results

@ajasatya Yes I am

Well generally i don't think low of someone I don't really know. My appearance does sometimes make me uncomfortable since I'm overweight but i think the main thing like i said above is not liking the way i lived. I despise the way i was educated and how much time i wasted in the standard k12 education and how it really was terrible for me since i was very awkward growing up because I have Asperger's syndrome that wasn't diagnosed until i was 20.

Because i hate myself. I hate the life that i lived and all the People i hurt and still do. I wished that didn't live the life I lived thus far. how I fail to meet the gals i set for myself because i'm to afraid, lazy and addicted to persue them. I could go on but I think you get some of the picture

Same here. But it certainly isn't an easy practice but I guess there is merit to fasting since most religions practice it in some form.

I saw leo talk in some of his videos on how love and truth are the same thing and this is a hard thing for me to understand. If you look at most human beings and reality as a whole you will find very little love and alot of selfishness and cruelty. So is there even a connection there at all?

Ok now it just feels like you're answering with a koan. My brain hates those! ?

It's very difficult I struggle with this alot as well. You might lose friends because of it but no matter the cost trust honesty it's so much worth it! It is the best policy as the saying goes.

So just to see if I understand, you are saying that since god is formless it doesn't care if he is causing suffering to its own creation? It's true I am very selfish and fearful, but didn't god create the selfishness and fear in me? I mean, it's not like I woke up one fine morning and said to myself "Ok, from now on I will be selfish, cruel and fearful until the day I die!" By not forcing all living things to be selfless he is forcing them to be selfish by definition. So you mean to say that suffering is relative? what appears to be suffering to one person is not to another?

From my understaning thanks largely because of leo's video on evil I do realize that evil comes from selfishness and selfishness is a limited form of love. What I fail to see is why would god\reality allow selfishness to begin with? seeing how it is a limited form of love wouldn't the most loving thing to do is to make everyone enlightened, selfless and constantly radiating love forever all of the time?

I think this quote from John of the cross really gets to the essence of true christian mysticism and spirituality, even though I am nowhere near to apply everything he talks about in my own life: “First of all, carefully excite in yourself an habitual affectionate will in all things to imitate Jesus Christ. If anything agreeable offers itself to your senses, yet does not at the same time tend purely to the honor and glory of God, renounce it and separate yourself from it for the love of Christ, who all his life long had no other taste or wish than to do the will of his Father whom he called his meat and nourishment. For example, you take satisfaction in hearing of things in which the glory of God bears no part. Deny yourself this satisfaction, mortify your wish to listen. You take pleasure in seeing objects which do not raise your mind to God: refuseyourself this pleasure, and turn away your eyes. The same with conversations and all other things. Act similarly, so far as you are able, with all the operations of the senses, striving to make yourself free from their yokes. “The radical remedy lies in the mortification of the four great natural passions, joy, hope, fear, and grief. You must seek to deprive these of every satisfaction and leave them as it were in darkness and the void. Let your soul therefore turn always: “Not to what is most easy, but to what is hardest; “Not to what tastes best, but to what is most distasteful; “Not to what most pleases, but to what disgusts; “Not to matter of consolation, but to matter for desolation rather; “Not to rest, but to labor; “Not to desire the more, but the less; “Not to aspire to what is highest and most precious, but to what is lowest and most contemptible; “Not to will anything, but to will nothing; “Not to seek the best in everything, but to seek the worst, so that you may enter for the love of Christ into a complete destitution, a perfect poverty of spirit, and an absolute renunciation of everything in this world. Embrace these practices with all the energy of your soul and you will find in a short time great delights and unspeakable consolations. “Despise yourself, and wish that others should despise you. " “Speak to your own disadvantage, and desire others to do the same;" “Conceive a low opinion of yourself, and find it good when others hold the same;" “To enjoy the taste of all things, have no taste for anything.“ "To know all things, learn to know nothing. “To possess all things, resolve to possess nothing." “To be all things, be willing to be nothing “ "To get to where you have no taste for anything, go through whatever experiences you have no taste for." “To learn to know nothing, go whither you are ignorant." “To reach what you possess not, go whithersoever you own nothing.“ "To be what you are not, experience what you are not.” “When you stop at one thing, you cease to open yourself to the All. “For to come to the All you must give up the All. “And if you should attain to owning the All, you must own it, desiring Nothing. “In this spoliation, the soul finds its tranquillity and rest. Profoundly established in the centre of its own nothingness, it can be assailed by naught that comes from below; and since it no longer desires anything, what comes from above cannot depress it; for its desires alone are the causes of its woes.” “When you stop at one thing, you cease to open yourself to the All. “For to come to the All you must give up the All. “And if you should attain to owning the All, you must own it, desiring Nothing. “In this spoliation, the soul finds its tranquillity and rest. Profoundly established in the centre of its own nothingness, it can be assailed by naught that comes from below; and since it no longer desires anything, what comes from above cannot depress it; for its desires alone are the causes of its woes.” TLDR:Renounce yourself completely and give up all of your selfish desires and attachments in order to cling to god alone.