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Hey guys. Recently i've come to a realization that i embodied my masculine side pretty well. I got better in taking what i want, taking responsibilities, leading and getting shit done. But i feel like i need to get to touch with my feminine side and learn to cultivate it and not be scared of it. Any recommendations on books which will help me understand my inner woman? Thanks

Interesting. Mind telling more about your stay there?

What exactly do you want to escape?

Thank you for your great response in this thread guys. Something struck me today that i must contemplate and get perspective at. I'm not pretty sure that what i call "being angry", "feeling anxious" and generally speaking "feelings" are actually feelings or just a byproduct of a thought. When i feel into my body - it's fucking crazy but it can be pretty still and calm. HOW IS THAT? It struck me - I'm creating my unhappiness. Literally. My thoughts are creating so called "feelings" which are not real, not true. I'm having these thoughts about feeling thiis and that and i don't really know now if i seriously feel those feelings or those are just thoughts creating sense of "negative" feeling. I know this might sound hard to understand but i would love to hear what to do from here. I spend my days lately into practicing feeling. What's the next move? What should i focus on?

Some of them might be true given the context they are relating to.

Well every fail can be seen as a succes. Just give it a time and fresh perspective

Ok. I didn't expect Amorphis here. One of their best songs from great album btw.

It's good that you recognize that the problem isn't outside of you - it's inside. Exactly speaking inside your mind. Keep focus during the day and try to not get lost in the thoughts.

What about cucks?

Yeah, the boy enjoying his matrix, what's wrong with that?

@UDT "Heavy metals?" - no idea to be honest. "Smoke?" - i smoked weed last few years like 1 time a week. No cigarretes tho "Do you live in a house with mold on the wall?" - in my room - no. Bot there's mold in the house, yes. "Do you drink tap water?" - i try not to, but yeah it happens. "Whats you diet?" - balanced and healthy i'd call it. I should add some more veggies into it but it's pretty good.

Hey guys. Since the last couple of yeras i've been strugging with being tired most of the day. I don't even know how does it feel to wake up fresh and rested. I want to sleep atleast 10 hours a day (and still not getting rested). In addition to this i often have massive mood swings, feeling depressed and anxious. My hair are falling down and my skin is dry and itchy. My joints (especially knees and spine) are in pretty bad position. My hands go purple and dry even when it's 20 degrees celsius outside with a little wind. My mother has thyroid issues (taking medication to the end of her life) and her sister got her thyroid removed. I've done some tests in the past. Ultrasound detected nothing wrong at all. My blood works (31-01-2019) FT3 - 3,20 (pg/ml) norm: 2,00 - 4,40 FT4 - 1,06 (ng/dl) norm: 0,93 - 1,70 anti-TPO - <9 (IU/ml) norm: 0,00 - 34 anti-TG - <10 (IU/ml) norm: 0,00 - 115 Blood works from 14-05-2019 TSH - 1,190 (µIU/ml) norm: 0,270 - 4,200 I'm going to do the tests once more next week, what should i tell the doctor? I wanna get rid of that tiredness...

I love your posts man. Keep it up.

@electroBeam Yeah i need some cash if you ask me. Jokes besides - that's pretty fucking glorious realisation mate! Goob job and enjoy.

@electroBeam hey bro i'd love to hear more about your awakening.

@Leo Gura How do you know that heavy metals are the cause in autoimmune diseases?

Great post. I've been interested lately in feminine energy as i block it (consciously or not). Going to try this out!

"I love Truth and I'm allergic to delusion." Sorry my guy, but you are full of shit.

Basically this. Great answers guys!

What are alpha and beta traits? Why are those a traits?

Hey guys. Another quick one from me as i noticed something profound i my life and maybe you can relate it somehow to your life. Sooo lately i've been struggling with tension in my body. It produced anxiety and anger feeling or "feelings" (a thought disguised as a feeling). Yesterday i promised to myself that the next day i take 100% resposibility for myself. How did i do that? I allowed everything to be. I felt Deep drive and anger and i said "fuck it, let it be and let's take 100% out of it". And wow boy. I went to the gym as always but it wasn't as always. Everytime (or atleast 80% of the time) i feel some kind of anxiety or tension during my training session. This time i allowed myself feel my anger 100% and express it. WOW BOY. I just feel sooo light and good. And the other thing is i am kinda crazy. I mean i do some stupid faces, talk some crazy shit but i guess that's the way i am and i need to celebrate that. When i stop my inner needs i become tense. This tension produces anxiety, fear and anger. I think happiness is when you don't laugh at this video but you sincerely understand it and resonatee with it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kyPzl8M4yCE Be your true self. Or atleast strive to it. Godspeed.

Yeah, get some of that trippy acid anal babe! Good luck.

What causes you not love them?

Well for me it's just a part of life now. I mean - i don't think about motivating myself to eat and go to gym. It's just a habit. And i love it. I think for me the greatest motivation is knowing that if i give me best i'll grow my muscles better. I'm a big fan of growing bigger

That's pretty harsh. And untrue also. Seems like you project a lot on those people.