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I can't. I'm attached to life like a sucker. I only deep down care about pleasure and escaping suffering. I do intuit that full awakening must at first have some Nihilistic periods..but I'm afraid of going all the way . For instance I know that solipsism is true but I just cannot fucking accept it . I can't. Its too much .its too fucking much. I can't. I can't. I can't lol

@Bazooka Jesus if I remember correctly you had a tough time during Covid early days in the hospital and you have posted about It here .....I'm curious what did you learn from that experience? Also (I'm being serious) ..do you consider yourself awake ? Also..do you understand the cosmic joke that is reality at the same depth that I understand?

Yup. I'm thinking about doing it . Maybe I'll do water fasting for few days and isolate myself in a dark room or packing my stuff and go meditate in the mountains in a cave like sikh ☬ type of stuff . Might discover something or might just waste my time

This answer sounds like you are bored or not in the mood to ramble about stuff 😂. I'll leave ya alone.

But the Buddha deliberately looked for it . He left his royal house and went to the forest without food or water to isolate himself in meditation until he became so skinny and was about to die but in a flashy moment he finally woke up so to speak . In all religious and mystical traditions there is some kind of Jihad to reach nirvana. Life will throw tomatoes at you anyways..so why not go actively looking for it to conquer that bitch called life ?

@Inliytened1is it necessary that the ego needs to experience so much discomfort that it has no choice but to give in? Does one needs to push his comfort zone past the limit to reach nirvana?

That's just my personal opinion..but Islam is the most beautiful religion out there . Even though sadly its hated in the west because of association of Islam with terrorism.

I want to feel the full glory and magnificence of God and reality . I want my body to be thrown into outer space and travel faster than the speed of light in all directions to the very edges of the observed universe which of course has no edges but I might enter into a black hole and after getting my body sucked into it I might enter a whole new dimension of existence. I want to explode into infinity. I want a complete Samadhi that keeps my soul in a mystical sufi bless and awe forever and ever. Shit out of look that I have no access to psychedelics..especially that i live in india which is probably the first cultue that began the spiritual path😂

The devil 👿 is made of fire and yet he shall burn in hell fire for eternity. Dante Alighier's divine comedy.

You are me and I am you. I promise..if you get this you will awaken .

I meant an actual fucking mystical experience instead of my endless masturbation over solipsism Ok guys ..Everything I do is meaningless and truly to my own amusement..i feel no reason to change the world whatsoever and truly don't care.I like myself just the way I am and i dont see that in any way shape or form bad to use concepts when you don't have any other tool.

When you see God ask him .

Some people do have this ability . But not the majority. I would imagine these people who possess such abilities are highly expertise in spiritual skills. It's not for ordinary folks like you and me . Its for deeply experienced psychonauts and such.

Bruh

@Yimpa Oatmeal is bad for Testosterone. I don't eat it . Try swallowing 4 raw eggs on the morning

Subjective and objective are relative . Not absolute. Only through intense suffering alone will you realize that reality is objective . Pain makes reality real . On the other hand if you isolate yourself for a long period of time in a room You gonna feel that reality is solipsistic. It's called Solipsism Syndrome.

@Emotionalmosquito let's say you have deep intimate mindblowing sex with the most gorgeous girl in the world and you have 6 explosive orgsams ...... NOW WHAT?!

"Everything " is not like an infinite possibility of potential beings and experiences. Its just whatever exists right now and nothing more . That's the mistake in your reasoning.

@Emotionalmosquito Sex Is overrated. You will know once you finally lose your virginity. Its just in and out robotic movements combined with animalistic moans . There is nothing magnificent waiting for you if you have sex . In fact its the opposite ..it won't fully fulfill you . Nothing finite will ever fulfill you .because you are an infinite being .

What's up with the threads about hell? If hell exists ..then so be it. The only thing that will save you is knowing that all of reality is illusory and that ultimately nothing matters. Let whatever the fuck happens to happen. Unconditional Love .

@Javfly33 of course I'm joking hehe @Leo Gura I know the real reason is you are working on courses.

One possibility is that he just realized that all of his teachings up to now were bs and how full of shit he was . And now he is believing in materialism,dualism, and reductionistic science. He might've discovered that psychedelics are brain induced chemical alterations and have no validity when it comes to understanding the nature of consciousness and such. Especially if you notice recently in his posts on the forum he shits on spirituality saying its all nonsense 🤣

@Osaid Reality is an individualistic thing.. Every being experiences its own reality. Be open that there degrees to infinity . Remember that even mathematically speaking there is omega or infinity of infinities. Which is what Leo (actually George Cantor) calls Absolute Infinity.

"And there is none of you except he will come to it. This is upon your Lord an inevitability decreed." Quran- Chapter called Mary -verse71 The quran says everything shall taste hell . Keep in mind that God is infinite madness .

@Princess Arabia that's bullcrap. You are afraid of death to the brim. 4 years ago I literally was completely done with life . I tried to jump off a tall building..but the fear of death just fucked me in the ass . Even If life is a hell hole..death is worse. You have no other choice but to accept that and become a Mystic. That's why we have Christianity..Islam..Hinduism..Zen..Taoism etc..they give you Panadols to Comfort your fear of death . The Truth is when we die we will be shot right back to the mysterious unknown which we came from . Deal with it.