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Not quite . You as God have created this limited existence and incarnate as a human is for you to experience what its like to be limited. Before you were born you were in Nirvanic nothingness aka God mode and you were blessed out enjoying your infinitude and perfection . Why did you decide to imagine you are a limited human? Because well ..why the fuck not ? you have eternity to be infinite ..and only few decades to be finite . Make the most of it . Or quit and go back to Nirvana. Choice is yours . For me personally I know everything happens for a reason.

@integral i made a thread before about something similar somewhat to what youre asking . Please read it and tell me what you think .

Confused. Confusion stems from two factors : 1- illusion of self .there is no one who is at the driver seat of this body . The self is just a thought . So Confused thoughts don't Confuse the self but rather the self is a Confused thought . 2-lack of Calmness and clarity in solitude. No shit I'm Confused when I'm being distracted by 1000000 source of information all of them are contradictory. There is like 100000000 religious beliefs and philosophical schools. No wonder people are Confused monkeys.

Reality just is . No experience of the material world will or can bring happiness and joy .because these things are the very juice of existence. If we squeeze existence down to its core..we will find boundless perfection . People try drugs or have sex or achieve money and success because they want happiness. Can happiness come from activity or is happiness inherent in existence and obscured by seeking it in external conditions?

Lately I've been sleeping all day and staying up all night . Something in the darkness makes me calm . The noisy sunny day is making me panic . I hate society. I wish I could just live in a cave or something.

Still struggling with anxiety .I've been taking medication for 3 years now . Still anxious to get out of my house to the real world . Still living in childish fantasised virtual realities. Nothing has been accomplished in the real world . I feel like I've hit a dead end in my life . My life lacks novelty and purpose .I don't know what am I supposed to do anymore .I don't know what is wrong and what is right . My life is the same boring routine every single day. I'm convinced that life in general is meaningless but that might be spiritual bypassing.

It's tricky . The ego doesn't have free will . I don't care who says we have free will . Free will is a total horseshit . If you pay attention to your experience you will notice that. I like this experiment.. Try to stop your thoughts and movements for just few seconds.. And notice how your body will carry on thinking and moving on its own. It can be a very scary experience. You have zero control over your body. I had a hard time with this realization few months ago. I thought Im losing my mind.

This is true from the absolute level because everything is exactly In its right place and everything is unfolding as it should and nothing is ever a mistake from God's pov . So even if you end up as a homeless broke or end up in jail or suicide yourself ...it's all OK from God's pov. But this must be realised by the ego to align itself with God's will . If someone has a big inflated ego he cannot get this .ego must surrender to Allah .

Huge relapse . Smoked one cigarette yesterday and jerked off to some weird ass porn . Resetting the counter . I think I've got serious damage in my brain .maybe I need a 12-step program or something more than a public journal. I think I have to fill my time with positivity and healthy habits to replace the bad habits .that way I can feel like smoking and porn are not worth it to ruin my efforts which I have put into positivity. So I will try to add healthy habits like daily meditation and exercise. Porn: day 0. Cigarettes: day 0.

I agree . For me personally I don't want to know more about life . Because there is infinite amount of things to know. Which is the same thing as saying there's nothing to know . Leo and Sadhguru and some new age people are in this business of figuring things out . I lean more towards Ramana Maharshi and Robert because their approach is very simple and direct . They don't stuff your head with relative knowledge and conceptual maps . They point you directly to liberation.

nailled it 👍

@Breakingthewall everyone including leo ..osho ..ralston ..Sadhguru..etc are clowns and you are the one who showed the fly out of the bottle? Humble yourself son.

🙏 the gist of his teaching is that The one who believes they have free will is the ego. If you can release the need to have duality between programming and free will.. you will know true freedom. Or what in Hindu tradition called Moksha . No one to choose.. no one to suffer. Nobody to do anything .

He does not mean it in the sense that there is a god who has written your life script before you were born . He means you are just a collection of conditioning. Itthat our ego is kind of this shitpile we have gathered..so to speak. We have gathered enormous amounts of different garbage and glued it into ourselves.. forming the ego. This ego makes us act in different ways to various situations..you can do stuff ..the ego can do stuff . but the decision is not an expression of free will..it's just the conditioning reacting to stuff in various ways. For instance..One thought says "ooooh thats sum good lookin cookie" and then another thought says "No...it has so many calories don't do it" Then another thought says "just one!!! its no big deal" etc... and then lets say I take the box of cookies and I throw them in the lake!!!! It does seem like I decided with my free will to throw that box of cookies in the lake. But actually.. What happens is.... The thought that says good cookie is in fact a result of previous experiences and substances in your brain that you have/had no control over.. That clashes with the thought that it has too many calories which you believe to be true from the bs you've gathered from medical and magazines area (no control over that either)... It's all programming..

@Javfly33 you're welcome. You can download it from here : https://m.moam.info/collected-works-of-robert-adams-sat-sangha-salon-pdf_647999de098a9efe738b45e1.html?utm_source=slidelegend

Yes it's a common theme in his writing . I've read the entire 3000+ pages pdf of his collected works. He says even how many breaths you will breathe is predestined. Everything was preordained. I like the simplicity in his teaching. I highly recommend to read his book.

Very good .that's inspiring. I'm hitting rock bottom as well and trying to change my habits and conquer my addictions Good luck 🤞

You are right. Your old signature was "the path to truth is walked alone " something like this right ? I will be honest..I use this forum as a form of entertainment .and also.. where else in society I can talk with like minded people about philosophy and spiritual topics ? If I tell my mom that I'm God she's legit gonna think I've lost my beans and went bananas . It's a form of expressing ourselves. We are all doing this .no one is excluded. Hell..even Leo himself have said this forum is sort of a longue. If we want to awaken seriously we must quit this Tom &Jerry games and go to seminars or overdose on some DMT . It's good to be clear man .

@Javfly33 bro for God's sake its called "it is "and then you continue...not "is......". 😁🙏

@Princess Arabia @Inliytened1 guys seriously though its all just mental masturbation unless one is speaking from direct experience. I know you two and Breakingthewall and Razard86 and Javfly33 and others are speaking from direct experience. It is clear for anyone who does actually have experience. But we are using words like God..solipsism..awakening..imaginary ..your dick doesn't exist unless you touch it etc do you realize that people are reading our posts ? Some beginners on the spiritual path might literally find this a form of psychosis. Much love 🙏

My keyboard got freezed for some reason. It was a typo.

@Princess Arabia more like this part @Inliytened1 I fucking love you man 😂.

@Princess Arabia

to the average folks this forum sounds like insane asylum.

Eat books . Literally become a reading psycho. Get obsessed with reading . Read philosophy first and foremost . The highest quality. Spot on. 👍