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This word turn me on . I have a boner right now . There is a difference between masculine and feminine mindest. Masculine is all about conquering the goddam world and getting them money ..chicks and cars . Not this fa* mindset of surrendering our dreams . Again women will never understand what it's like to be a man .

I'm not concerned about what is real here . That's not the point of this thread . Look ..right now me and you are having disagreement and arguments around Solipsism..why? If Solipsism is so obvious why can't we both agree on it ? Stop trying to convince me of Solipsism I'm talking the meta level.

enough just shut up and go do something else. the more you talk the more you reveal your true face.

Yeah I knew it was pointless.

Girl you are hilarious. Yeah that is how a a spiritually liberated and detached person reacts to accusing of being a slut . Obviously I don't know what kind of sex work exactly you did in the past because how would i know .if it wasn't for you saying that in the past and that you were raped ..nobody would've messed around with you about this . I'm saying I'm not judging you but you still react like a volcano. You're boiling with disturbing emotions . You are not as spiritually liberated as you like to sing around in this forum nonstop day and and night . You got work to do . C’est la vie.

@Princess Arabia so it wasn't personal when you hinted about my addictions and anxiety which I clearly acknowledge and have opened threads about in the forum to get help for ? This is personal development forum so i use it to get help .look at the very top at this page its written .

Well ..for your information you're not the only person on this forum preaching to choir about this obvious fact that there is no personal self and no inherent meaning or purpose or direction to "what is " etc..But that it's made up .yeah ..its fucking made up but so what . Unless you go live in a cave eating Jungle plants abandoning society.. then you're fooling yourself. As long as you choose to play the social games then play by the rules or quit . Don't babble about no self In a forum but In life care about everything &everyone .

@Princess Arabia Seriously. What the fuck are you talking about . And don't hint at my porn addiction because you have no idea what it's like being a young single male with hyper active hormones .men are not humans with dick . They are dicks with humans .if you get what i mean .but of course you won't. Plus I think you do have a shit ton of problems in your life and using this Jim Newmanian escapist philosophy to spiritually bypass facing your ugly past . I don't judge you for being (I mean Wasing) a sex worker. I do believe we are just given roles in life and our life scripts were determined before our Birth . Look at your tone in this post . Doesn't sound like you embody your philosophy. So much anger and overusing the F word . Anyways ..people have practical problems..no self isn't the end all be all . People have discovered that the self is an illusion since 5000 years ago in the east . Its only getting popular now in the west because it is spiritual bypassing .because the west is hitting a dead end .

what do you mean by corruption in this context ? I can only think of corruption in politics and society. Are sicence..philosophy..and spirituality..are these fields also corrupt? that's true. Most people don't give a flying crap about truth. Look at people on this forum joining without using the spirituality section and just posting about self improvement or getting pussy. cool story bro . But it isn't true .not "really ". Hey welcome back .how are you doing ? Who killed him ?

Yeah ...what about people who are born into a wealthy family and have won the genetic lottery from the get go ? Ah shit there we go . That doesn't help .Jesus fucking christ .

Good point .yes I agree 👍 Powerful. Thanks. I like the way you blend genius essays with silliness together in your posts hehe.

"Don't become God.. let God become you" . (Honestly this is not my own authored phrase. .I read it in the forum recently but forgot who said it .) So Hojo ..are you sure God is intelligent? If you take a look at the world it's easily seen the world Is fucked up ..middle east is fucked up ..Russia and Ukraine is fucked up ..America has been fucked up for millenia etc So isn't God also equally dumb as he is intelligent? I was always puzzled by Leo claiming absolute attributes to God which has no opposition. Like that God is Love and not Hate and that's an absolute. Etc

Thank you very much 🙏

This is for my own benefit. There is not much to read in this journal. This is just for my own personal development. Not for a reader other than me . I'm realizing an increasing dependency on cigarettes, sugar,porn,music,video games to regulate my mood .I feel like absolute piece of shit whenever a day passes without some or all of these things .I'm confident to say I'm addicted to them . This journal is just a public recoding of trying to quit these things for an entire year ..starting from today 14/11/2024 until Christmas of year 2025 . Then I will see where I will be moving from there . I'm also going to stop posting in the main forums. I will only stick to the journaling section until December 2025. I'm not gonna quit music and video games as I do need something pleasurable to regulate my mood . I'm not ready for a complete monk mood . So I'm going to quit cigarettes and pornography. There we go . Today is day 1. I will keep a day count here .

@Tristan12 also I suggest reading and listening to Robert Adams. He is a an american classical nonduality teacher who died in the 90s. Google his name and read and listen to him.

@Tristan12 Might sound silly to some . but I have deep compassion for you when you said you are afraid to die to not go to a hell realm .. as it plagued me as well. All I can say those notions are gone. Are you familiar with Jim Newman? Also @Princess Arabia is good at conveying this point im about to make . There is just what is immediately appearing already..and no one is separate from this to do anything about this. In seeing this..all problems were left unsolved..yet disappeared. There is simply what already is immediately appearing to happen. This was solved before apparent liberation btw.Even before that it was more or less settled via contemplating alone . Another thing ..If you want to completely be free of those fears..the only real way is to go to hell and die. (I'm speaking metaphorically. chillax mods). The best way.. that I know of..to get to heaven is by gowing to hell and die.. and then eventually wake up in heaven. Use advice at own risk. (Although absolutely speaking..there is no risk..only reward . there is nothing to be afraid of. Everything is temporary. there is nothing bad that can happen to you in the ultimate level)

2 months without smoking . But the cravings are driving me crazy . I literally feel like I'm stressed 24/7 even when I'm resting in my bed ready to dive into deep sleep after taking hot shower and drinking hot herbs . I do everything I can to stay relaxed .but no idea the withdrawal from smoking can be this daunting. I stopped jerking off .but watching porn is also one son of a bitch of a habit . I also want to question the existential nature of porn . This thing called porn is making me question reality itself . Yesterday I've went to jail for few hours .because I had a fight with a drunk guy in the back alley . This motherfucker thinks I was trying to chat up his girlfriend. But my brother came to the police station and paid a bunch of money and got me out. In a way I'm sad because such experiences can grow me as a man . I wish I could spend few weeks in prison . Maybe then smoking and porn will be no option .

I can relate when I was your age . Listen ..there is no other way around doing it until you fucking conquer this world and achieve your dreams by getting the girlfriend you want . It's not easy. It's a numbers game. My hottest and most extroverted friends do get the most dates..but 90% of it is still shit for them too. Then the odd person will not suck. You'll stick together for what... 6 months..2 years? Then do it all again. Same for everyone. Leave your comfort zone.and learn by failing. Try..fail..try again..fail again ..and try once again. To infinity and beyond . What else are you going to do? rape a girl or kill yourself? You know deep down that's cowardness and failure . Succeed. Listen to hypnosis about Success and being an alpha male and a woman magnet .

I don't think there is anyone who has ever succeeded in preventing such situations from happening when one contemplates to end his life . I played around with the idea of suicide plenty in the past . And honestly it is 100% logical . Life in many ways is really such a hell hole. The only thing that prevents me from commenting suicide is...obviously..fear of death . If the suffering got even bigger than that fear I'm gonna say bye bye to this mortal dream drama .

@Santiago Ram I don't exist . I'm just your own mind talking to you . Wake up! Life is but a dream within a dream . no seriously think about it ..anyone who claims Solipsism is true In one breath and then in the next breath talks to others about Solipsism is definitely not awake to Solipsism. There is a difference between being lucid in a dream and playing pretend that you are lucid .

Oh and Fuck Solipsism BTW.

No sir you absolutely have not. Why ? Because who are you posting this thread to if you know there ain't nobody nowhere but YOU? How do you know you are not deluded ? How do you know this is not just spiritual by-passing? How do you know anything?

Yea thats correct . We all gonna die and turn into dust and rot in the end anyways. For what your are looking for here..only physical death will do .

Stop begging the question. You should inquire into whether Solipsism is true or not ..instead of believing its true and then looking for arguments to justify your predisposition.

Now dont judge a book by its title ..hear me out ..I do believe there is a correlation between happiness .. Pleasure.. Pain.. Suffering.. Etc. Tbh there is no such thing as what Buddhist rats call "causeless" happiness. Unless you can explain it to me.. Maybe then i will change my mind. But I do think happiness is a condition. And just like all conditions.. Temporary and unsubstantiated. It's not like you can be happy all the time. You have to experience pain and suffering.thats just part of life isnt that obviously true ..? In fact I'd argue that happiness is only 20% of life (generally). While 30 % is suffering. And the rest 50 % is mundane and boring (just another day). Tbh I'm leaning towards a depressed nihilistic view on life recently. But this nihilism also has been a great pain-killer. I was walking home one evening earlier this year.. my existence shifted with a single passing thought...I was chronically stressed at college overwhelmed by expectations.. grasping for a sense of achievement or greater purpose and tip-toeing towards full-on exhaustion. Then it hit me: “Who cares? One day I will be dead and no one will remember me anyway.” I can’t explain the crashing sense of relief. It was as if my body dumped its cortisol levels and i started crying like a baby . I looked at the sky and thought: “I’m just a chunk of meat hurtling through space on a rock orbiting the sun In the middle of the nowhere. Pointless.. Futile.. meaningless.” It was one of the most comforting revelations in my life.. To discover that real happiness along with other kinds of illusions are indeed illusions. Please anyone reading who are having the best time of their lives like @Aaron p dont get upset or anything.. Im just sharing honest opinions on hope for clearer communication. Don't know if any of you guys ever went through a nihilistic phase in your life. But I'm stuck in one atm . It's kinda like when you are so autisticly smart that you simply can't buy the BS that people use to comfort themselves with in this dumb meaningless weird existence. share whatever comes to mind please!.