Someone here

You do

Well "who" deserves it? It's still framed as if "someone" has lost something.. But actually it's that "someone" who is not found.

@Osaid thanks bro. The thing is this is obviously not the first time I have no-self experience. But this time it was so obvious and shockingly clear that it was scary and annoying.. I could actually catch the thoughts as they are arising in my awareness without a single input from me. For example I'm aware now how my hand is just writing these words automatically after years of conditioning and learning how to write without any single input from me.

@Galyna I'm reading it. A bit long gonna take some time. But I get the general idea. Moreover I don't believe in any spirtuial concepts at this point.. Call it awareness nothingness etc .. All of that ultimately should be transcended. It's an endless process of transcending delusion after delusion untill... Idk

@Galyna I swear this guy will destroy what's left of my sense of reality lol.. Nahm should be illegal lol jk

@Galyna thanks. But I doubt that it's something you should wish to reach for lol.

@Galyna no worries you don't exist in the way you think you are.. So there is no one there for me to be upset from. The one who did that weird situation with me a month or so ago is not the one who is talking right now.. Will not be the one talking five minutes later.

There aren't any me .

Again "you" and "need"..no such things. Look closely there is no "you". There is no "need". Nothing "needs" to happen. What happens happens and that's that. You never find something out there that "needs to happen". You only find something happening.

Yeah that's insane dude. It's just a voice in the background with no one behind it.

I know. It's not a "thing" tho. Welcome baby lol

@Red-White-Light the point is it's all happening by itself. No one is doing anything. So stuff like "you" "need" "should" "because" are completely nonexistent.

This is this bro no such thing as "nature of...". It is what it is exactly as it is. This is it. Always. So a thing is itself. If you are asking but what the hell is a thing other than saying "it is what it is".... Well.... Are you serious???

I don't know if this freeing or crazy

Yeah bro the boundaries are completely imaginary. I'm gone btw so don't tell "me" do this or that lol..

You could say it's changing from age to age. I mean when it completely dissolves.

You have no idea how hilarious this sounds to me now lol.. Just looking at my mind.. There is no me wtf lol I'm gone lol.. I'm not tripping btw it's just a moment of oh my fucking God!

Thanks. @James123 The one who is talking in my head tho is not me and doesn't stop talking. It's a perfect insanity. I don't recommend doing self-inquiry. It will only lead to the realization there is no self to inquire about.

My only advice is don't go down that rabbit hole if you care about your mental health.

@zeroISinfinity well that's the problem there is no difference between insanity and normal..going insane is just realizing that normal =insane. Thanks bro appreciate your help. But again you are telling someone or something that doesn't exist to do this or not do that.. It will settle when it will settle.. Maybe it won't.. I have no say.

At this moment I'm completely aware that it's pointless to tell "me" do this or don't be that.. I can't be or not be anything.. It's just happening automatically.

This will lead to death if it didn't stop somehow. The sense of ego was not so pointless after all.

More thoughts

What makes you sure you are seeing via your eyes right now? Right now in this very moment as you (supposedly) looking into the screen there is only the screen and the "you right here who is looking at the screen right there" is just a thought.. a conceptual construct that is being added on top of what is.

@allislove I'm always clear my bro. Someone here doesn't fuck around.