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I guess I do it subconsciously. After years of do it automatically I find my hands automatically slip into the cigarette pack and takes one to smoke it.

Relapse. I messed up big time im so upset.

This is true and not true.

@Lyubov I think it has more to do with psychedelicds. Leo takes a lot of psychedelics. I remember he did 30 days 5 meo retreat. The psychedelic fucks with your perceptions to the point you start to notice that how the world appears to you is nothing of an objective way.. It's just a hallucination by your mind. So there is no one "objective" way that world is other than however it appears to you.

Who is that guy?

@Javfly33 If I told you "stay as awareness".. Who is there to stay as awareness ? Awareness is already always effortlessly staying as itself. If I told you "don't listen to thoughts".. Who is there to listen or not listen ? If I told you "don't judge thoughts let them come and go"..who is there to do these things. There is nothing there that can choose to do this or that. Even if I say let everything as it is.. That's still assuming there is a you that can either surrender or resist. There is nothing to be done. Who would do it?

@RedLine This is more of a linguistic and conceptual game than it is of any relation to actual reality. There is no such thing as good or bad or love or Love or absolute. Point to any of them in direct experience. And notice you are not pointing to "Love".. You are pointing to whatever you are pointing to. At some point you gotta realize these are just empty words attempting to describe the indescribable. We are merely creating maps with language and conceptual understanding. We give names to everything but we don't know what anything is. And the name does nothing in revealing or unraveling the mystery of the thing. For example you call a cat a cat. Let's call it a dog. A biological entity. A dream. matter. consciousness. An appearance. An illusion. God. Donald trump. Love..... Doesn't matter. The name does nothing. and all names are equally meaningless vibrations. The cat is simply exactly how it looks smells feels etc. And that's it. You can't get more direct than direct. Arguing whether reality is "absolute good" or whether good and bad are inherent or mind created is just foolish.. The entire language and conceptual description is mind created. Reality is not "absolute goodness". Reality is exactly what you are conscious of right now. Stop projecting your bullshit onto it.

Beautiful ❤️

What is holding everything together in a dream? .. The one that is dreaming.

No he is not experiencing "another life" in that sense. It's just that his bubble is disconnected from your bubble. For example when he goes to sleep his bubble gets turned off and you literally disappear from his life. Yet from your pov you didn't disappear. So he is living a different life in the sense that what is occurring in his bubble is not accessible to anyone else but him. Same with you. What you can access in your bubble is only yours. No one in the universe is looking through your eyes right now except YOU.

The (illusory) sense of being a separate self inside the body. Ego is you. Who you think you are as an individual entity. That is the ego in spiritual circles. In psychology it's more of the pride or arrogance. It's more of a trait than an entity.

@r0ckyreed When you wake up from a dream.. you don't say that you were a character because you are the creator of that dream. The entire dream (not the dream elements) is actually you.. not only the character you're playing. The other characters that appear on that dream are just components that make up the whole dream.. they don't have a life of their own to wake up at the same time with you. Don't take this too literal.. just that in real life you're not a character or a human, you're the entire Universe that you're experiencing right now. This is not solipsism . This is absolute oneness and nonduality.

Note: words like "pov" .. "You" .. "Me" are just for communication purposes to deliver the idea. Don't get too hung up on them lol. Once again to my favorite topic lol. The solpisism syndrome : Am I all alone? Other people are real independent agencies or dream characters in my world? If I don't have access to anything other than my pov.. How can I be sure others are real? Well here is the final answer. Your pov is absolute truth. Please notice this. You don't know anything else. and whatever you come to know must be inside your pov. So is my pov. My pov is also absolute truth . How can we have two absolute truths? It's not two ... notice my pov is within your pov and your pov is within my pov. So they are actually one. I exist inside you(your pov) and you exist inside me (my pov) and me exists inside you and repeat and repeat.... So we both are groundless.. For you to exist for me, I must experience you.. And for me to exist for you, you must experience me .. So ultimately none of us are real only to the extent of experiencing each others. =me and you the same thing. Get this? Lol. Another way to put it.... I am nothing but your pov. And you are nothing but my pov. So ultimately none of us are "there" by themselves. We are dreaming each others up. Make sure you get this. This is good for a mindfuck. Everything that can exist for you must be perceived and considered by you. Look and see. Anything literally anything is but an appearance in your pov. So even when you are talking to me you are talking to an image in your mind. If you say "no lol I'm talking to a real person with awareness" .. Then you are talking to this idea that you've constructed. You've constructed what I am and then you are talking to your construction. The actuality is I'm just an an image in your world right now. You are becoming the image right now as you are looking at the text. So yes you are always ever talking with yourself. And ofcourse I'm saying this to myself. It's not a zen deception per say. I have nothing else to do but interact with myself. Hope this ends the solipsism confusion for good. If you have any questions go ahead.

What is matter? Never mind. What is mind? Doesn't matter.

@VeganAwake nothing really matters. Apparently.

Yes that's true. The first step is to notice that literally nothing exists but your perception bubble. That's the entire universe for you. Your bubble is not occurring in the universe.. The universe is occurring in your bubble.. So it's not that my bubble and your bubble are occurring in the universe.. No.. My bubble and the universe are occurring in your bubble?. And from my pov the opposite. Your bubble is occurring in my bubble. So to me you have no reality outside my bubble. And to you..i have no reality outside of your bubble. But see still.. From your pov my bubble literally doesn't exist except as an appearance in your bubble. Your bubble is all that can ever be lol. And ofcourse I'm saying that to myself

That's not actually happening but it is what's happening for YOU. Get this right in your mind. You don't know what's actually going on. For you what's going is what seems to be going on. Leo said "I'm telling you what's true for you.". Don't be silly if no one is here but you then what's the point of communicating with each others. Who is Leo talking to when he is saying there is no one but you lol. This doesn't fly lol. Yet that is what is true from your pov without a doubt. Your pov is absolute. But don't forget that my pov is also absolute.

@Amaal I just made a thread addressing this issue exactly. Check it out. Hope you find it helpful.

Starting from minute 24 is pure madness. Yeah don't watch it if you don't want to get skull fucked.

Because your pov is absolute truth. As I said. There is nothing but you. Even if you become me you would still be you. experiencing an absolute pov.and you will ask why am I someone here and not Gesundheit. It doesn't matter who you are.. The same being is experiencing all people's simultaneously and asking why am I me and not someone else? Because there is no someone else. The someone else is YOU.

Leo during enlightenment experience sharing valuable insights : "Youtube is called YOU Tube.. Ofcourse.. Youtube.. Metube.. Ustube.. We all tube.. For YouTube.. Ofcourse!.. OFCOURSE!!"

Don't worry your life is like a movie it's all scripted. You are merely playing the script out. If there is no "you".. Then there is no you to make of the fact that there is no you anything lol. I'm not saying there is no you and no free will so you might as well just sit on the couch doing nothing. What needs to be done will get done. Kinda like when you have to go to the bathroom you have to go to the bathroom lol. Stuff will still get done via your body mind. It's just that there is no "you" in the middle of this whole thing doing anything.

LOL you enjoyed the group rape? Jk. Nice report and valuable insights. Thanks for sharing.

I'm going to post a thread soon answering your question. Will explain how self and other work. Meanwhile just know you are correct.