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@Sincerity It's ok .apology accepted. I hope our future interactions in this forum will be nicer . Yes I'm actually seeing a therapist. Do I manage things differently? sure. Is the depression still there, yes. I can manage as best as i can if i have affordable access to therapy, setting goals, exercise, rest, be consistent with my tasks, medications and surround myself with kind people and mindfulness. These things take time and change as the symptoms change.

And to you too. You see ,I don't mind criticism. But you have to do it from above not from below . I treat this forum seriously. I don't post half baked insights .I really always try to make my threads high quality. And when I say I had an awakening I'm not kidding..you have to understand my background and where I'm coming from . I had been depressed for as long as I could remember, right from teenage The reason for my depression was very very vague. I just didn't know why. I felt out of place as if I did not belong to this world. I had this strange yearning, gnawing pain of missing something, but I had no idea what. Although it mimicked ‘sadness’ about regular life issues, it was actually deeper. It was an existential depression. I didn't know who I was, or what I was doing here. Very very uneasy. Only through spiritual work and deconstructing my false beliefs about reality did I achieve even a little taste of happiness and fulfilment. I treat this work as an art form. And nothing gives me great joy then sharing my original insights with like minded people. So yeah sorry about it ..but I will keep posting.

How do you know that ? I've had several awakenings .the amount of work I do before posting a thread is enormous . You just get the final clear-cut picture. You don't see me struggling to piece together my insights in a easy to digest fashion. That being said ..I will keep posting on this forum on a weekly basis. If you don't like my posts just ignore me or leave the forum or do whatever the heck you want .because my style ain't gonna change . I had people messaging me telling me we get great values from your threads and that they appreciate my "work". So yeah.,as you said..it is a problem with you. Not with me .

Stop annoying me . I reported you.

@Sincerity who pissed on your soup this morning ?

I actually agree. We only know about the past because we have memories. Dates, which seem to index past events, actually index memories. Memories always exist in the present so dates are an index of present memories. Indirectly, dates index past events because past events caused memories but past events are not physically present. Only memories of past events are present. The important point here is that if you claim the past and future are mere projections being imagined in the present..then why don't you live your life in accordance with that? Why do you spend the majority of your time worrying about the future and reliving the past? Again it's one thing to understand conceptually the illusion of time or the illusion of causality..and it's another thing to actually embody these so called truths about existence.

What i mean is that in my model ..the present is a product of the past ..because where else did this present moment come from if not from the previous moment ? So that proves the existence of the past . However in your model ..the past is a product of the present in the sense that the past is just a collection of memories that we imagine in the present. Again..If you deny this chain of events from past to present to future (basically deny cause and effect ) then reality will stand still and nothing could happen because there are no causes that bring about effects (which requires time to be real)

People fantasise all the time about weird, freaky, illegal things . incest and rape porn are extremely popular, for example, but the people who watch that don't want to be raped or shag their relatives. Very weird dynamic .

@Jannes lemme ask you this: Is the present a product of the past, or rather the past is a product of the present ?

@Jannes Linear time is not a human construct. The theory of quantum physics theorizes that it's all dimensional. The past and the future are all happening concurrently in a different dimensional space and everything is connected.

I made that shit up

This is an extreme approach that tries to deconstruct as much of conceptual reality. I know what you are talking about . We can keep deconstructing everything like that but then on our day to day life we operate as though the past and the future and the chair exist . So you actually would be a hypocrite if you deny those things . Like i said ..the past exists as memories. Those past instances did happen. It's just that we don't have access to them right now in our conventional state of consciousness.

One would say that the past is just as real as the present. Its just that we, have moved from 'there' to 'now'. Just like you move from one spatial location to another, you've moved from one temporal location to another. However unlike space, we can't move back in time. At least not yet. So, things in the past are just as real as the things in the future. Like, dinosaurs exist and are real. They may not exist in this particular temporal location, but somewhere else. Just like the Eiffel tower doesn't exist where I am right now, but at a different place. However, the tower is just as real as the chair I'm sitting on. Right ?

Imagine you have million dollars...what would you do with all that money? Personally I will spend it on sex and drugs!!! Not kidding..that's what I'm gonna do. Another things on the list as well ..like the best most tasty food and traveling around the globe etc . What about you ?

Well, first let’s understand what’s Ethics. “Ethics are set of moral principles that govern a person's behavior or the conducting of an activity.” do you agree with this definition,? It’s not necessary that you need to have high morals ike Mahatma Gandhi or Mother Teresa. But, It is often observed that, following ethics benefits larger audience including yourself. Let’s take an example, You are walking by a road and find some garbage. Although you are not required by law to clean the road if you find garbage and nobody can sue for that. However, imagine if you do a small act of picking it up and throwing it in the bin and few people watch your act at that moment. You stand at a high chance of influencing them. Imagine how our country would be, if everyone starts to take responsibility to do this simple act. Boooom… You just created a cultural norm which will impact the entire nation in the generations to come. There are countries which have ban on watching porn and Even the GOI tried to do away with that last year with little success and there are reasons behind that. However the underlying question is , would you like yourself being watched during your private moments ? More than half of the content available on porn websites are not staged, but secretly recorded or voyeur . So I ask you is it ethical to treat women as sexual objects just to satisfy men's interests?

Yeah bad example actually ? i don't buy it . If causation were to halt for a while, whatever you do would not have any effect at all. That means if you were cutting vegetable, the knife would not be cutting anything because the effect must be compromised. If you went outside, you would not get outside because your walk would not have any effect at all. When whatever you do were no longer a cause, then effect from all your actions must not occur. That simply means the world in static moment. Nothing could be happening. Causality is the law of nature that keeps everything in motion. even if causation is an illusion, there will still be causations so hard to neglect. We all wish things like causality, impermanence and even death, to be mere illusions, but reality persists and we are sure.

I agree that free will is an illusion. But how is cause and effect be an illusion? I think that Cause and effect is an illusion if the cause is outside of your context. Otherwise it is recognizable. Keep in mind that I am only talking about cause, and the cause of a cause as an illusion. I am not talking about effect, and the effect of an effect. Talking about effects leads to a discussion about deterministic and non-deterministic. Either there is exactly one set of effects (deterministic), or a choice of which effect to choose(non-deterministic). If there is a choice, then cause has less value than effect

@Leo Gura doesn't porn kinda objectifies women and draw exaggerated unrealistic expectations of how sex should be? Do you have no ethical issues with porn ?

I feel that knowing means knowing the full impact of what is going on and being able to forsee what will be the possible consequences of an action or event. Because Basically the world works under causality at least on the thinking level. What I mean is that when we think we always think about what will be the result based on our knowledge, historical data or past experience. Being means acting based on "knowing" or not ..it does matter. Action once performed will have consequences but if the action is performed without "knowing" it will keep the actor not that prepared for the results or the things coming based on the consequences. So you are right .. I know that I'm the whole of reality ..but I'm not able to live based on that knowledge. Therefore I require more embodiment work.

I know that I'm everything but the implications and consequences of this is so radical that I wish I was just this little human who was born for no reason other than biological coincidence and will disappear completely after death . But I'm working on embodiment of these insights.

There are two primary drives that urges people in life. It's the basic survival drives like drive for food and for sex . However..i noticed something extremely strange about the difference between these two drives . Unlike food ..you feel hungry..then you eat and satisfy your hunger .and you no longer need more until after few hours pass and you start to feel hungry again. But once you are full /well stuffed, you no longer crave more. And if you eat more when you are already full ..you will probably puke . But when it comes to sexual desire .its the opposite. The more you indulge in sexual activity the more you crave more . This is something I'm noticing from my porn and masturbation habit .I'm beginning to get back to porn and masturbation after few months of sobriety. I noticed that no matter how many times I cum ..I still wanna do more ..like in my mind I still don't feel satisfied .even though my dick could go numb and there is zero arousal in the body .its still a never ending chase in the mind .you masturbate once .and you think it's gonna satisfy you but you actually feel disillusioned and you crave for more . It doesn't take more than one orgasm to know what an orgasm is .Once you have an orgasm..all you want is more . Actually my brother told me that it's good to ejaculate every day. It prevents prostate cancer and whatnot. I strongly disagree with him. Who the fuck can ejaculate every single day ?I mean I don't care how powerful your manhood is . If you gonna ejaculate every day..then you might as well dig your own grave ?. Also something about pornography. Imo it's the most addictive drug out there . The shit is LITERALLY endless. There is no end to the porn content. So it makes you always chasing your next hit of dopamine. You search for the perfect video. The perfect girl. The perfect scene etc . I'm not sure if real sex have the same effect .but I highly suspect that it does .

So we will never have a theory of everything? Is it completely impossible given that reality is infinite and cannot be encapsulated in physics equations? I mean science is trying but I doubt they will ever succeed. This was Einstein's life goal and he failed to find anything new. If Einstein failed then what chance for others?lol

@Leo Gura @Inliytened1 agreed . Neuroscience has been trying for decades now and they still got no clue what consciousness is. Whereas mystics who lived thousands of years ago understood it perfectly. But to materialist science, mysticism is nonsense. If you accept that there is a hard problem of consciousness...then you have to accept that there are limits to science, and that consciousness is beyond these limits. Not all neuroscientists believe this, but many do. In my experience many scientists consider consciousness to be too vague a concept to be amenable to scientific analysis.

Sex is the highest form of love beyond which a man/woman could not express his/her love. when your words are not enough to express your love towards him/her . Sex makes the partners to connect more emotionally . This actually helps to strengthen their bond. Sex is one of the way of Ultimate communication. But now a days people are trying to find plessure in sex. There is hell lot of difference between having sex with a normal person and with the loved person. When you have sex with normal person you might feel plessure,happy but when you have sex with your partner the feeling is complete different. Sex with love is plessure Sex without love is prostitution.

My ultimate sexual fantasy..I actually fap to her a lot. Is to have sex with Kate Upton . It's a shame that she is just a model and not a pornstar .if she were a pornstar I would completely destroy my dick fapping to her. She is the most sexy and attractive woman I ever saw . I fell in love with her bikini ads since the age of puberty. I just love you Kate ?