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Bascily I value popularity, being recognized, make friends just from showing off, constantly looking over the shoulder to see who's doing better work etc.. This realization made me hate myself even more. Things that I value most in life feel wrong but those things were also what brought to the place I am now in terms of the type of skills I gathered. Big problem I have in my hands now.

Remember that most people are in stage red/purple and won't be moving to stage orange in this lifetime, quite the opposite. Rebelling agaisn't the figure of authority isn't an step up in awakening.

Scientists convince themselves their method will work. Alternative medicine practicioners convince themselves their method will work. Only who gets cured can tell if it worked or not.

Maybe you could work on the foundations first before focusing on taking spiritual ideas into practice? Create sustainability, independence, pursue knowledge that you think it's useful for your goals etc.. tldr go back to basics.

You must do the right choices which is hard to know, especially if you're young. You were created by external forces and external forces dictate a lot of your actions if not all of them. Understanding Free will is a good subject to study. The better you are, the better your life becomes. You help others and you help yourself because of your hardwork.

Not sure what it takes to be "best" artist, really.

50 euros for me allow to have a complete meal at a good local restaurant at least 3 times.

"Giant Forest" Original Oil Painting on Cotton Canvas. Colors may be a bit distorted from the original piece.