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Yeah, from Pakistan. Huh, I guess it is a cultural thing.

Lol my exact situation. It's a good spiritual test tbh. I've completely given up on changing her mind or making her see my side of things or whatever, that's impossible. She's like a robot that can't take in new information or change herself. She might pretend like she understands on some days, but then the other day she'll be contradicting that. You really have to come to terms with this idea of loving people, even if they are selfish, kind of in an unconditional way. Pay attention to those tiny little moments where she does show you love, or the moments where she is scared. She's just scared of certain outcomes, and her selfishness is how she copes. Also, try not to take anything she says seriously. Like, just laugh about it, she will say ridiculous stuff all the time, you don't need to prove yourself to her or prove her wrong, it's just a waste of energy. I guess the main points are: 1. Do your best to not spend time or energy with her. Don't argue or prove anything, just laugh it off or whatever. Imagine if you were working at retail and some customer came up to you with some absurd idea about how they live their life, you wouldn't act attached and argue with them or whatever, you would just think "ok that's interesting" and leave it at that. This is easier said than done, I know, especially when the person in question is closely linked to your survival condition. 2. Learn to appreciate what she does offer. Think back to your childhood, when she took care of you when you were sick or completely helpless. We're all selfish to some degree. Don't take what she says or does too personally. There are about an infinite number of factors that led her to being that way, and you would be that way as well if you went through what she did. Ultimately, any sort of hate against another person is delusional, because you are imagining an image of that person that doesn't exist, which is an image that lacks understanding and compassion and context for what that person went through. 3. Learn to control emotions, and ground yourself in the present moment. Just study how your emotions work, how they fluctuate, and question all of it. Why do you react a certain way to certain things? 4. Enjoy yourself even when she is around. Take your power back. Don't let anger and grudges stagnate your experience. But anyways, it is a very annoying survival bind. Once I get the opportunity, I'm moving out. But there are quite a lot of lessons and insights to gain while in such a relationship. I also remember Sadghuru had a video on this exact situation but I can't find it now, sad. She always does these exact things to me lmao. I don't understand their fixation with this stuff.

It's like, a feeling of nostalgia or familiarity, created by a memory of the current experience happening in the past

It's really not, when you have honey and sugar alcohols. Only other way to get refined sugar is like if you're eating junk food everyday or something

This has also been the cause of sexual dysfunction for me, but not really anything to do with POIS. Just very weird fluctuations in libido. I can intuit this might be the case as well. The body is constantly trying to maintain homeostasis and adapt to things, and it seems no-fap messes with that a lot.

Can it be trusted? Probably. There are also different organic labels, like for example I've seen USDA organic and I believe that is quite rigorous. It might be worth researching whatever different labels you find.

"OMG no way...the entire universe was the "good boy" this entire time??"

lmao "commit mahasamadhi"

Maybe all those woofs are Zen koans in dog-speak

This happens naturally if you manage to climax without touching your penis, it comes out in short bursts.

Do you have any ideas or theories as to why this might be the case?

I consider bread as sugar, since it will be converted to sugar in your body. Sugar is found in lots of places. Assuming you mean refined sugar, then I would definitely cut that out and replace it with more complex and stable forms of sugar, which could potentially be bread, but refined sugar could never fit that criteria, so bread is definitely the lesser of two evils, so to speak. Also, if you're going to increase or limit bread and refined sugar now, it's a good idea to keep conscious of how much that increases your carbohydrate intake. Even if the bread is healthier, let's hope you don't start eating copious amounts of bread to make up for the loss of refined sugar, that could end up being less healthy.

Hate anime? No way, tell a sensor to watch Death Note Also, I'm guessing its not anime in particular, but shows in general? Or do they prefer shows with real life people over animated stuff? I bet they also hate books as well then, assuming the title is accurate. Idk much about MBTI tho FYI.

Nice list. That's a cool website. I like the character feature. I'm motivated now to study MBTI so I can identify other types and look them up lol For any INTPs reading this: https://www.pinterest.ca/search/pins/?rs=typo_auto_original&q=intp&auto_correction_disabled=true

Well, it seems quite a few of my specific quirks and mannerisms are common among the INTP type, whereas before I thought it was arbitrary and unrelated. You're right when you say it's super specific, unlike a lot of astrology posts. This is like astrology for smart people. A lot of the posts were describing specific quirks or mannerisms or phrases, which was funny to see articulated in a post, but it was also behavior I myself was mostly aware of, I just never bothered to associate it with being an INTP, so it was more entertaining than useful. But there was also some insightful stuff about how we interpret and react to stress and other challenges in life. Overall, I'm pretty impressed.

recently binged Pinterest's posts about INTPs and that was quite the experience

Gotta be Runescape for me as well

I have also felt lost or confused. Like I am stuck in some state of limbo where everything is the same, and no "real" passion to pursue. I was constantly obsessing over this idea of finding a god-given "life purpose" or talent to pursue, and I was running all these different ideas through this litmus test of whether I enjoyed or liked it. If I thought graphic design was an interesting endeavour, and it felt boring or didn't click for me, I would just say "oh this isn't my purpose". I had a chat with my brother about this, and he told me that you don't find a passion, you create it. Think about all the things you are currently passionate about. Were you aware of them as your passion since birth? As a kid were you like, "I want to pursue this exact thing". No, a lot of your passions only became your passion when you became really good at them and worked hard at them. You weren't always good at them, and it is possible to have a passion you didn't like at some points in time. Some things you are naturally very good at, and so it is very easy to become passionate about them, some are harder to get good at, and so developing passion there is harder. I'm even just talking about things like being passionate about video games, people get very passionate about certain video games, and yes that is a proper example of passion. Being passionate about a video game is a very specific passion, it's not something you would say is a god-given passion since birth or whatever, but it is indeed a passion. This shows you that passions are created by your interests and skills, and whether you decide to pursue them or not. I'm rambling a bit here, but realizing this has made me slightly less lost. Now I see certain endeavors like creating music or writing books or creating graphic designs as opportunities for creating passion.

So, instead of everything being predetermined, everything is determined right now. Kind of empowering. I like it.

Lol you will develop fetishes or do "nasty" things if you are horny enough. I mean look at anal. I would even argue the normal sexual activities are gross to a certain degree, but sex isn't really about being "clean".

Pretty much the same result after my first 30 days. No urination problems but my prostate was clearly under pressure. No fap needs to be done carefully and seriously, not forced though.

You have the coolest pictures ever There is something satisfying about using something more accurate than words, AKA pictures and visuals, to showcase your ideas and personality. You're basically finding a way to tangibly plant an aspect of yourself into some other form of creation, like what you see visually.

How much were you edging during this. Was it pretty moderate? I would expect such a long period to fix things, seems like it kind of did for a bit. Interesting, so that's some progression. Maybe

Do you ever get wet dreams while abstaining? They become more common when you abstain. Do you feel ill after those? You might benefit from some sort of spiritual sex practice. Shunning or demonizing sexuality will prevent you from feeling good after doing it, you can at least minimize the projection and negativity that comes after. Something I also noticed is that certain methods of masturbation leave much more sexual energy behind. For example, If I masturbate without touching my penis or if I have a wet dream, I still have much more sexual desire left over. And also, depending on how long you abstain, your sexual energy wont go back to 0 after doing it once. You still maintain the effects from abstaining even after doing it once. This is just my experience of course, seems like yours might be different. It might also help to question your motivations, if masturbating diminishes it. Ask yourself why it matters so much if you masturbate or not in regards to your motivations. It might help to have some other activity or project or motivation to tend to after you're done masturbating. Showers are really good at cleaning out the thought patterns and belief systems you've accumulated throughout the day, it's similar to meditation in that sense, actually it kind of forces you into meditation because the constant stimuli of water hitting you pulls you into the present moment. Ah ok, so there were still physical symptoms. I would still consider that sex by my definition but maybe the lack of intimacy does play a factor. Sure. The question is how big of a part is your physical chemistry playing in this though. POIS is recorded clinically, after all.

@AtheisticNonduality Beat me to it. I basically never listen to piano by itself, but when I do, it's Clair de Lune.