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I tried the guided meditation for God realization multiple times. It's been a while since I tried it, but I can't remember how many times I tried it. I don't see how I was supposed to realize I was God. I think he said I would probably need psychedelics to help with this or the meditation might not be enough. I did the forgiveness exercise many times over. I had a lot of pent up trauma and feelings. I needed a lot of tissues. I ended up taking action afterward out of concern for my sister, but it turns out she was fine and I was the one who was hurt. I ended up crying even more because of the reality of my isolated victimhood being made visible. I still don't forgive my mom though. The only reasonable answer I can see is to end my relationship with her. What she did was wrong, she repeats similar patterns, and she is not willing to reflect on her behavior. I'm scared of my mom because of her actions like opening a car door on the highway and threatening suicide. My least favorite series by far would be how to get laid. It felt like straight torture as I forced myself to sit down and watch it. It was agonizing, but I managed to sit through it. I find it painful to imagine treating women like that. It goes against so many things I believe, namely the fact that I am painfully aware of how sexualized abuse would impact the way in which women receive this kind of attention. I feel like you can't in good conscience do the pick up behaviors once you are very aware of how sexual abuse impacts the way in which people receive this behavior. In my experience, I was sexualized by multiple sources including my mother and father, and I do not like this kind of treatment at all. I don't want to treat a woman like a sex object, but it conflicts with my desire for sexual contact with the female body. My compromise is to focus on building compatible relationships with women instead. I am stuck on how to do this though.

@Leo Gura I have some questions concerning your possible biases. Firstly, why make a claim to what is at all? Truth for truth's sake is one possible agenda, but formulating claims would carry its own agenda. What if you never made a claim about what is? What would you lose or gain? To be running a site like this would be to implicate another agenda, no matter how well intended. Why do you want to tell us the things you tell us? Truth doesn't need you to tell us, so why would you? The reason I ask this is because I did some self reflection and noticed my biases. I have a bias for extensive analysis, but it doesn't actually protect me from self deception. I noticed in Project Steelman how logic can be manipulated and bent into consistent positions with many different agendas other than truth. By that point, logic and analysis clearly couldn't save me from self deception. I'm not sure what the alternative would be to avoid self deception given how much I lean on extensive analysis, seeking certainty and predictability which is then mistaken for truth or how it is. I noticed that it devalues feelings in the process. This is when I asked myself, why make a claim to how things are at all, and what if I didn't make such claims? Do you have a similar bias? If you have worked through these questions, then how do you square your additional agendas aside from truth with your goal for truth?

Child marriage is still legal in America. In some jurisdictions it creates an exception to statutory rape. These marriages are also set up by the parents and facilitate human trafficking to domestic servitude. Don't forget that the first world still isn't innocent of these crimes.

@Leo Gura what if we had a self help junkie simulator? You would be a person dissatisfied with life so you go to places like actualized.org in the hopes of finding direction and purpose. You go to a bunch of life coaches, the gym, and eat healthy. You do meditation, set up spiritual retreats, try psychedelics, realize you are God and then go on to enlighten others. You can even start out from a situation that mirrors your current situation and reasons for being dissatisfied with life while outlining different limiting beliefs.

I live in Newport Kentucky. It is located by the Ohio River. If you have suggestions about where to go to meet women, that would be nice. I tried checking Google maps to see if I could pick a place, but I'm not sure. I'm across the river from Cincinnati. I'm a decent walker. I nearly made it to Cheviot Ohio by walking, but my family panicked and had me get picked up. In any case I walked to the riverside park. When I go for walks I often see women jogging that I like. They often have headphones in so it's hard to talk to them. I managed to get one to stop this time. It looks like you can wave at them and ask "what are you listening to." From there we discussed audio books and it turns out I'm hilarious. My idea was to get an audio version of the Bible, but have Goofy from Disney be the cover voice reading it. It turns out that I have a good impression of Goofy too. She wanted to hear Donald Duck voicing Leviticus, but I don't think my impression is as good. I need to record myself first to check. I'm unable to upload my impression of Goofy reading Noah's Ark. My favorite part was the animals on the Ark asking "are we there yet" because they were stuck for 40 days. Regarding Donald Duck, I tried to sound angry while saying "men shall not lie with men! Rahrahrharah!" She said she would pay money to listen to this kind of audio book. Judging by her body language she seemed uncomfortable or in a hurry. You can let me know if I'm reading too much into this, but my impression was that she liked women. Judging from what appeared to be signs of discomfort paired with making Leviticus sound stupid and bigoted, it seems like how I would imagine a Lesbian would think and act. She was probably afraid that I found her attractive and wanted to have sex with her as I would imagine lesbians would be. Of course I would need more information to know for sure. She left without giving any information like how to contact her. So far I haven't hit on anyone though. I'm not sure where else to go to meet women other than when I'm out walking and see joggers who often have headphones in. I generally stay in friendly mode. Otherwise the only method I found for meeting women works be through dating apps. The problem with those apps are the prices and the fast paced nature of the relationships. I felt like some women were trying to lure me into a trap or that they weren't even women. I became afraid of the possibility that they might murder me, so I felt it natural to ask the forum about relationships and murder with no luck. In my experience the best way to handle fear and anxiety is to accept the risks knowing that some risks are unavoidable. For example, if I'm afraid to leave the house, I would never have time away from my family or I might be murdered by a burglar or the house might catch fire. My therapist seems okay with this relationship with fear. If I go outside I accept the possibility that I will be killed by drunk drivers, meteors, mass shooters, or perhaps terrorists who highjacked a plane and are attempting to strike the white house but the passengers are aware of this plot so they attack the perpetrators and cause the plane to dive toward the ground, causing it to land on me instead of the president. And of course if I go on a date with a woman, it is entirely possible that she will pull a gun on me and demand my social security number, or she might be an incest victim who now believes that men are pigs and she wants to kill symbolic targets that remind her of her father through intimate relationships, or she might mistaken me for a man who actually raped her due to my similar appearance and have a panic attack leading her to kill me, or maybe something else. In my case, a woman actually did panic because of a similar appearance to an abuser. I didn't say anything. I didn't do anything. I didn't approach her. I didn't touch her. I was just walking home and this woman freaked the fuck out, screamed, and hid in her car. Luckily she didn't try to run me over afraid that I might rape or murder her. All I did was look to my left and notice her and then kept walking. There was absolutely nothing I could have done. If this woman had a weapon, I would be dead already and all I did was briefly notice her presence. Sometimes there are cases of mistaken identity due to similar appearance to a perpetrator who randomly attacked a woman on day, though this is uncommon. When I am out walking, a lot of people come to me asking for cigarettes even though I don't smoke. Apparently, I have a look on my eye that makes me seem caring, but one day I was wearing shaded glasses when that woman freaked out. At least homeless women generally feel fine with me and they think I'm a good person. I don't think it's appropriate to hit on them though. Instead I just help them make phone calls and direct them to crisis resources. This included a victim of identity theft that wanted to commit suicide. I found some men in situations like this as well such as homeless veterans who either poison themselves or jump off of a bridge by the Ohio River. I had a few cases where I needed to call the police over things like this, including an abandoned three year old girl who was separated from her parents. I encounter all kinds of things when I'm out walking including alcoholics, criminals, sex offenders, and so forth. One of the alcoholics hit on my underaged sister. How do you think I should go about meeting women? I live in an area with a statistically high crime rate. This is where organized criminals like my father like to hang out because of the jurisdictional gaps that can be exploited between Ohio and Kentucky as they traffick drugs and prostitutes. Some of these homeless women were also sex workers. They probably don't like being hit on because they already feel degraded as is and they don't need men making them feel like whores. This is why men shouldn't treat women like sex objects as they will lose attraction and distance themselves from you because you show similar attitudes to men who abused them. I felt this too when people reminded me of my abusers through there attitudes around sex. I become very closed off when treated this way and being portrayed as a slut. I had some policy recommendations for the mayor, but the government isn't very helpful for my purposes. I have decent conversations with women at the gay pride festival, but they're lesbians too.

Correct. That's why I said this was a slavery simulator. Domestic servitude is human trafficking, and it is commonly disguised as a benign marriage on the surface. An actual woman simulator as in a real trad wife would be so boring that nobody would want to play it. There would be no plot, no betrayal, no abuse. It is just routine until you die.

@Schizophonia I take it this was your girlfriend.

I don't think you guys have watched the video all the way through. This entire scenario is about being trapped by organized criminals. The plot of the game is that you are trapped and being prevented from leaving. There are criminals threatening you if you don't comply in the worst ending and they track you down if you try to leave.

https://www.westyorkshire.police.uk/advice/modern-slavery/modern-slavery-human-trafficking/domestic-servitude You need to read about domestic servitude. This is human trafficking and you are a slave. It is not a stretch. This is actually how human trafficking works. The good home is the facade. It is like a white washed tomb. Look up domestic servitude and see what you can find. This is the point of being financially trapped.

I think this is an important part of spirituality in terms of demonstrating the limits of the materialist paradigm. I have been running into some problems with formulating a cleaner position for something like atheism. The problem happens if the atheist over claims in terms of how much is natural versus how much is supernatural. If too much is claimed to be natural such that everything is natural, it becomes indistinguishable from everything being supernatural or everything being God. I also noticed that there is no real principled line to draw between natural and supernatural. For example, imagine ghosts were real. Why would we call a ghost supernatural if a ghost is still a naturally occurring phenomenon? We may as well just call ghosts natural. The lack of a principled distinction between natural and supernatural is part of why I feel inclined to reject this distinction as it doesn't seem tenable, especially if either everything is God or everything is not God. There is also the problem of what counts as proof and who gets to define these proof standards and the problem of why the naturalist explanation should be privileged over the supernatural explanation as that is a bias. So for our purposes, I will be calling things like ghosts paranormal, granted it isn't really an objective distinction. There could be other phenomenon you would consider paranormal as well, but I will give a few examples. I had an experience with a psychic who shouldn't have known that I had a girlfriend whose name started with 'Ali.' She just looked at me and then had this epiphany even though there is no way she should have known that. She was referring to Alice and without asking leading questions she somehow knew this. This experience makes it hard for me to dismiss psychic phenomenon, especially when paired with other outside evidence. In this case the outside evidence would be ghost tours I went on to see some pictures, psychics claiming to talk to ghosts, military experiments on remote viewing, and reports from skin walker ranch also done by the military. I attached a photo of a ghost I got from a ghost tour. They had other good pictures and videos too such as orbs of light. Orbs of light were also reported at Skin Walker ranch. The Victorian Era woman is the bottom left hand corner. If you have any good videos, recordings, experiences, or anything else you would consider proof of the supernatural, then I would like to see it. This is part of why in terms of formulating a decent position for atheism, I think the scope would need to be narrowed to "the supernatural claims of the Bible are nonsense." This would be a fair defensible claim, but if it is overextended I think it becomes easier to dispute. An overly broad scope would be sloppy. What would you consider the best proof of the paranormal or supernatural?

@shenanigans what if the presidency were abolished? Why do we need to have a president? Why should we give one person so much power? Are there alternative governments that don't require such a position, and are there ways to structure governments that don't require one?

@Olaf where would find wingmen? Am I supposed to have friends to help with this? It sounds like I will realistically fail because of my living situation. I imagine myself lying which I definitely don't want to do. It is similar to my fear of harming people generally. It probably isn't the case that I will actually act like this. If I don't plan on going to any night clubs that Leo supposedly went to, then I may need to learn about what could possibly go wrong in day game and what to avoid. I would hate to objectify women and make them feel like whores. I also need to learn how to handle it if women flirt with me. I have shut down pretty much my entire life in response to this behavior because of my fear of being hurt. I just instinctively feel scared and I freeze. It reminds me of my mom when women act like this and it terrifies me.

7:08:00 shows one of the good endings. The other good ending is somewhere in here. Basically this guy is a criminal laundering money. You need to use real money to buy a ticket while securing outside contacts as this man tries to isolate you. Keep the facade of the blissfully ignorant woman, and then one night you need to still the bag and use it to bribe someone so they don't snitch on you. You then have a path to escape. This isn't really a woman simulator. This is a domestic servant simulator. Domestic servitude is a form of human trafficking, often involving underaged girls. This "woman" is actually a girl and she has an accent because immigrants are commonly targeted for the purposes of child marriage due to their fear of contacting the authorities. This girl was kidnapped, taken prisoner, turned into a slave, and treated like a "skank." Notice that she weighs about 60 pounds. She is a child, not an adult. The reason the majority of the endings are bad is because you are dealing with organized criminals. In real life, most girls would never escape this situation. Many of them would kill themselves. The few who do escape are rare. The good ending would be the rare 1 percent who survived situations like these. Most of them lie to themselves and convince themselves it is fine to stay because they are afraid of the risks of trying to leave. The reason your husband gives you money at all is because he likely offered you a job which you accepted out of desperation. The job is a common trap that gets people into modern slavery such as in this woman simulator which is really human trafficking simulator in the form of domestic servitude. It is much, much worse than you think in terms of empathy training. This is a slavery simulator.

Are you willing to say what she did?

@integral the part that is actually crazy is when people demand good vibes while smugly abusing you. For them good vibes means being their bitch. The other crazy part is that victims sound unpleasant when they say they were hurt. Being hurt therefore pushes people away or puts people in denial. It makes sense for how the world works. Good vibes are good, but I don't give good vibes to people who don't give me good vibes.

Women also seem to like my cat pictures.

Ideologically, many of us are probably Civic Republicans. Civic Republicanism is the belief that those in power should be held accountable when they break the law. It maintains that no individual is above the law as the law applies to everybody, including the President of the United States. Need I say more?

@Leo Gura I think you overestimate the value of Actualized.org and your work. I have a few questions concerning this subject and its implications for your life. Firstly, I'm not saying that you are wrong concerning metaphysics. As a thought experiment I am curious, what would you do with your life in the event that you had a very rude awakening? This rude awakening would be that you were deeply wrong about the way you are living your life right now. In this case, you were wrong about Truth, God, Love, Self, and Non-duality. Not only were you wrong about this for years, but you also spread the message far and would probably have to reverse course to classic personal development or pragmatism. How would you manage something like this? How invested are you in these metaphysical views? Secondly, you have a similar structural problem to Buddhism which is exacerbated by this medium. In Buddhism, there is this teaching that you are not supposed to be dogmatic and you are supposed to verify such claims before believing them. The problem is that in practice, Buddhists commonly are dogmatic anyway. The same problem occurs with Actualized.org and I think it is to an even greater degree. You can tell us to be open minded and not just believe what you say, but you end up with Non-duality wars anyway. The problem is that you cast a very wide net through this medium rather than restricting your teachings to the very few people who would get maximum benefit from it. The outcome is that you get people at many different levels of consciousness and your teachings devolve into dogmatism in practice despite any warning you give for us not to turn "You are God" into dogma. We might say that you are "casting pearls before swine" in the case of actualized.org. Your teachings will be bastardized through this medium if it is not restricted to a narrow group who would get maximum benefit from your teachings. Spreading it to everybody runs into these problems. In my case, I would consider myself a swine too because realistically I will not understand these things even if intuitively I believe there is high value in understanding the nature of reality and Truth. Therefore, I would agree that what you are pointing to sounds valuable. The problem is that the value is translated very poorly through this medium such that it devolves into dogma once spread too far. I don't think this is a cult, but this is probably why people accuse you of running a cult which bastardizes the message further. The value of Truth may be high, but the value of your impact is drastically reduced through this method. Maybe you should find a different method of spreading your teachings to those who are ready to hear it. How do you know who is ready for what you have to say? I'm probably not developed enough to understand never mind embody these things. I can try to evaluate myself with Spiral Dynamics or other psychological models, but I don't think I fit cleanly into these models due to my abnormal autistic psyche. Have you ever done a one on one with somebody as you teach them about metaphysics? Why don't you go out, find the most conscious human being that you can, and then start teaching them about spirituality? How much more likely would your teachings be to succeed if you did direct coaching on individuals who were ready to awaken, rather than spreading it to everybody? Who are some of the most conscious human beings you can find and how would you go about finding them?

@Psychonaut https://www.addictinggames.com/puzzle/the-impossible-quiz

@Leo Gura They are called Zoophiles. First of all, this guy is a coward. He is tranquilizing the Alligators first and drugging them. Secondly, zoophiles are their own profile when it comes to sex offenders and I have included them. Usually, Zoophiles are similar to Pedophiles. Some animal rapists go on to rape children as well. The problem is that they love their animals so much that they feel like it is appropriate to have sex with them, which is the same logic a "child lover" uses when they have sex with children. Zoophiles are the most difficult to hold accountable because animals can't report that they were violated. This man is more of a sadistic profile because he drugs his victims rather than letting them consent because he wants to leave them helpless. A Zoophile would usually make love to an conscious animal, rather than knocking them out first. To this day Bestiality is still not outlawed in every State. West Virginia is the only State which has not outlawed Zoophilia, but it is criminalized in all other 49 States. Zoophiles are often fence jumpers who go onto people's farms to have sex with their cows, chickens, and horses. This is why I think of them as "The West Virginian Horse Fuckers." Aside from child pornography, there is a less well discussed problem of Zoophilic porn involving the sexual abuse of animals. This is much easier to access compared to child porn because Bestiality isn't even fully outlawed in America yet, never mind spreading sexual abuse material of animals.

I have been using AI to mimick the methods of child therapy. I think it is proving very helpful. It explains trauma in a way a six year old can understand. Then it is combined with coping mechanisms kids would use. In my case drawing was very helpful. One thing you can do is take a symbol of shame and turn it into something funny. There was an incident in which I started mimicking adults who used the middle finger without knowing what it means. Therefore, I changed the meaning to something else or the opposite. I turned the middle finger into a symbol of pure love and joy. The AI is saying that I'm not made of the things that happened to me. I thought I was made of what happened to me which is why I thought I was unlovable. I should probably explore this idea of what I'm made of if not traumatic experiences. I also had this pattern in childhood of repeating behaviors and thoughts that bothered me but which I didn't understand. It is me trying to make sense of things so they don't catch me off guard any more. This would explain why I developed a thorough understanding of sex offender profiles in the hopes that it would protect me. I also tend to have recurring dreams of content that bothers me as I attempt to come to terms with it. This was combined with the early belief that exposure to bad content causes me nightmares which in turn corrupts me and makes me a tainted and disgusting being who has become irredeemable. I think it helps to work out these questions in a way a young child could understand. This seems to help in reparenting. I usually resort to AI when the therapist I need isn't available or I otherwise can't get human help with this. What do you think of this?

How many holes in a polo? How many holes in two polos?

@Natasha Tori Maru When speaking of sexual abuse, I notice that women tend to use the broader definition which includes sexualized psychological abuse. It doesn't have to be a physical assault. It could include sexual harassment among anything sexualized across an entire spectrum with rape being at the most extreme end of the spectrum of sexual abuse. From this point of view, women probably would be surprised that you were never sexually abused in anyway through your entire life. For example, in public schools sexual harassment is extremely common among minors. There is constantly inappropriate touching among other problems which I experienced in school. It is statistically unlikely for a girl to not face sexual assault at least one time before graduating. Therefore, women would be surprised if you said you never experienced that. I experienced that multiple times as a male from both male and female peers. Of course, in this setting it does not commonly get to the extreme of rape, but when it does it is an outrage. The problem I encounter is that some clinicians and mental health institutions use different definitions of sexual abuse. Some of them define rape as first degree sexual assault, but state it as "sexual assault" even though in some jurisdictions this is just inappropriate touching but not penetration. Likewise, childhood sexual abuse is sometimes defined narrowly to include only rape by some practitioners, not to mention the conflicting legal standards on top of all of this. The inconsistent definitions are really confusing because some institutions say it certain events were sexual abuse and others say they weren't. The outcome is that I get recommended inconsistent treatment plans which adds to my confusion rather than helping me recover. I feel it relevant to explain one experience as an example to show the problems the mental health system caused me. There was an incident from early childhood when I was six. I for some reason had a dream in which my Uncle molested me. I don't remember it actually happening nor do I know why I had such a vivid dream of this happening. During this time, I had family members such as my mothers and sisters who would get naked in the living room, but I don't know how common this is. My mother and grandfather would also look at pornographic material which I was exposed to, but did not understand why I would want to have sex or what the goal is. All of this was combined with daycare shaming any sexual content while the kids routinely discussed private parts anyway as they told me about masturbation for pleasure, the importance of asking for permission before putting my penis in a woman's vagina, and how to terrorize girls by telling them that you violated them while they were asleep. This was all very confusing with my mother and sisters discussing such subjects at the kitchen table as well despite my objections. Meanwhile, the teacher would punish me if I asked questions about any of this. None of this was explained to me and my father was absent due to being preoccupied with his gang. One night when I was six, I repeated the behavior I was exposed with my four year old sister through sexualized play which involved inappropriate touching. Once my mother discovered this, she equated it to rape, leading to jail threats. She didn't explain these things very well, but I have become conflicted about my sexuality as a consequence. This might be called "sexual identity abuse" as a subcategory of sexual abuse. It includes the apparent preference for my gayness when really I was attracted to girls, but thought that no girl would ever love me if I were a rapist. Therefore, I focused on intellectual goals instead to compensate for my lack of relational support. This included focusing on things like chess instead where I could develop competence. I also looked for life purpose such as altruism as it might justify my existence well enough to keep me alive rather than suicidal. Along with this I had half the family wanting me to be gay, and the other half throwing the Bible at me as if I had already sinned. They were going off of stereotypes and it was stupid on so many levels. The problem with rapists in this case is that after all of this I "didn't have that bad" because by comparison those who were raped had it worse, therefore causing such suffering to go unrecognized and severely underestimated. The invisibility caused by not fitting the typical cultural script is its own pain. These experiences don't fit our cultural categories cleanly at all. Later on there was the trafficking incident with my father still. The problem in that case is that "trafficking" doesn't have a consistent definition either. Some experts say I am a trafficking survivor and others say I am not. There is a legal grey area and real problems with how our data is defined and evaluated on an aggregate scale. Likewise, rape doesn't have a consistent definition either. Statutory rape would be the most obvious example with some jurisdictions saying that my father statutorily raped my mother when she was a teenager and with others saying no in my particular jurisdiction. I can't tell if I were trafficked or not if not even the experts agree on how to define these things. Given the broader definition of sexual abuse, I would be surprised if you never experienced that. If you never experienced rape, then that would be much less surprising. In my case, therapists can't agree on whether or not I was sexually abused. It looks more like sexualized psychological warfare like what those boys were doing to girls during naptime at daycare which I wanted no part of. My sister was terrified and needed mom to reassure that she was safe at daycare.

@Ulax This is how I feel. People on this forum recommend therapy constantly, but I have seen the failures first hand way to many times. They suck. They should not be qualified to test me at all. I can't access a therapist for childhood sexual abuse. I can't access a therapist for autism. I end up getting therapists who insist that I pray to Jesus and say how dare I try to control the future. Literally, this is why I use AI for therapy instead of a human. AI is objectively better at therapy than a human. They think they know better because they have a college degree, but really they are not trained for abuse. They are trained for patient symptoms. My anxiety is treated like it's the problem because I don't trust my family enough and need to spend more time with them. They sent me back to my family when I tried to get away from them in Florida. They said they would help me leave and they didn't. Add to that psychiatry and all the bullshit that goes into diagnosing a patient. I was diagnosed with all kinds of things including bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. They are not trained for autism, so my diagnosis is all over the damn place. I then get pills that make my depression worse, leading to hospitalizations, leading to educational disruptions and job loss. Psychiatrists think they can diagnose a patient within 15 minutes by siting studies that simply do not apply in they context they use them. They completely misrepresent those studies routinely. They think they are rational, but they are stripping the context and applying the conclusions in ways they shouldn't be applied. They are more confident than they should be. PHD in medicine doesn't mean shit. Now people think I'm annoying because I talk about my problems on forums like these instead. I don't trust my family because of what they did to me, and therapy sucks. AI is better, and I need a path forward in life. I feel like personal development just doesn't speak to what I actually need in this situation. I don't know who else to speak with if not a chat bot who tells me to call 988 routinely.