Husseinisdoingfine

I'm really genuinely scared and perplexed about where does my life go from here, I thought Physics was going to be my Life Purpose, now Sociology? I'm not dropping out of college because I and my family are too invested in me getting a degree. But I need to achieve success outside of academia, so concretely what do I do? Should I take classes of a softer major, but in the meantime I could invest in and work on another Life Purpose? Maybe I can teach myself programming and launch an online business, and escape wage slavery that way.

Just an update, I have not gotten rid of my rope. I have classes on the campus on Tuesday, so if I make the decision to end my life, it will probably end up on the UMBC Student News website. https://umbc.edu/news-home/ https://retriever.umbc.edu/

No, that’s University of Maryland at College Park. I go to University of Maryland, Baltimore County (UMBC).

Information Update, I mentioned in the OP that I used a suicide website. On that website, I've been complaining about this problem since October of 2023. https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-plan-to-kill-myself-this-weekend-but-im-worried-about-the-pain.150955/ https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/im-suicidal-due-to-academic-competition.138142/ https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-want-to-ctb-because-i-feel-inferior-to-my-peers-do-i-have-a-low-iq.136921/ https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/im-really-insecure-about-missing-out-on-the-college-experience.136792/

The feeling of jealousy is so overwhelming for me, I can't seem to handle it and I'm being driven to madness. How is it that my friends are able to attend BEAUTIFUL campuses, that are far more prestigious than I will ever be able to enter. I'm very insecure about how ugly my school's (University of Maryland, Baltimore County) campus is. I mean, JUST LOOK at theres, isn’t it perfect? Pretty campuses, with raging social party scenes and rich social lives, Universities that are much more prestigious and difficult to enter. My friend who attends University of Michigan, I bet you she got more than a thousand on her SAT. She's majoring in Biomedical Engineering, I bet you she was able to pass Calculus I with a C or higher. I bet you she's also going to graduate on time, and when she does, immediately enter a high-paying job thanks to her internships. MEANWHILE I'm going to graduate late with a Sociology degree that I don't know what to do with career wise. People around me where genuinely surprised that I was at my age and still taking Calculus I. I'm behind and inferior to people who not only attend fancy colleges, but people who attend my college.

Is watching the radical open mindedness video a good fit for what I'm dealing with right now?

But is Sociology a genuine science?

Are you suggesting that I drop out of college? I'm 22 years old living with my parents, and I need some trajectory with my life. If I quit academia, which I can only assume means drop out, will I be just living with my parents teaching myself to code and working some minimum wage job? "Don't worry Mom, I might not be in school, but I'm working on my Life Purpose! I'll be successful in no time". Without a college degree, how will I get a job? Maybe I can teach myself skillz while getting a B.A. in Sociology.

@Leo Gura My former major was in Physics, not Engineering. BTW I was able to get a B in Physics I, its Calculus and Mathematics I have a problem with. But I feel as if only I had done [blank] I would have passed. I can't seem to do the bare minimum to succeed. I don't pay attention in class, and I use ChatGPT to study, which turned out to be a mistake. If I had visited the professor's Office hours, and the supplemental instruction centers, during the summer session, then I would not be in this situation.

Yeah, but you were probably able to pass the classes, even if you realized engineering was not right for you. My issues is that I'm not even able to pass CALCULUS ONE FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. Why am I so below average? Less than a thousand SAT score, 2.6 community college G.P.A., and now that I've failed so many courses, my University G.P.A. is currently 1.7. Why is this happening to me of all people? In retro spect, I could've passed Calculus One on my third attempt during the summer session if I had gone to the professors office hours. Why didn't I do that? I was well aware that this was my last shot! What was I thinking?

If I could change my username, I would have my handle be: Husseinisindeepsuffering or Husseinisaloser

Does anyone else watch Geno Samuel's documentary series?

Its also banned in China, but you won't hear a peep from Elon about this because that's were his Tesla manufacturing happens, and not in America!

Jordan Peterson demonizing Michel Foucault: Serious questions: Are the accusations presented in this video by Peterson true?

I just noticed something possibly chauvinistic and classist about this song. Jordon's character is portrayed in the beginning as a lowly pizza taco delivery boy. In the end, he puts on a black hoodie and joins an antifa march. What do you think he was trying to depict here?

What happened to his right eye? He's getting way too old for this.

Shall we never forget Jordan Peterson's post-modernism song.

There is one specific point in the video where Leo claims that all the least bias-ed humans who have lived in history have been murdered, or never had children. That the humans who live today are the descendants are the most selfish, biased, and egoistical humans. What? The least self-biased humans were killed off? Was this a serious historical event? What happened?

I consider myself a New-Ager, but only because my definition of New Age is a catch-all-term for spiritual but not religious, individualist spirituality where the practitioner doesn't cling to one tradition.

Hitler was objectively right wing as he was a big fan of industry, for whom financed his movement. He was definitely not pro labor as he had abolished the trade unions. https://apwu.org/news/magazine-labor-history/notorious-part-history-may-1933-dissolution-labor-unions-nazifascist

Since this happened in 2015, I can only assume because of Trump.

I seem to be the only one willing to give a serious answer. I think Leo explains it best in his conscious politics series. Watch below from 6:40 to 10:00 But the basic reason is that, if you're going to be going into self-Actualization and Spirituality work, then its not enough for you to take responsibility for your own consciousness and awakening, but also the collective consciousness of society. You are part of society whether you like it or not. And it is much easier to become enlightened and self-actualized in a society that is not overly corrupt, materialistic, a society without toxins in the food and water, etc... If you are part of society whether you like it or not, then politics effects you whether you like it or not. If the most conscious members of society choose to sit out, then what happens is that the most unconscious, selfish, egoist people, they will become your political leaders, and this will effect you.

This could be a clue as to why he did it.