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True haha I wonder what an overdose would feel like. Without hallucinations one could probably be quite functional in daily life, despite from akward social interactions because of random laughing flashs etc. But for psychonautic endavors psychedlics without hallucinations and probably even more important the loss of memory and the ability of contingent linear thinking could really be a next step of evolution. Maybe the latter could be compensated through other nootropics etc. So one could crank up a trip to next level extremes.

We all know the I-am-god-ama's. But what if we turn it around? Let's ask the inverted unconscious figments of gods mind to answer all of its questions Realize that only apparently this text is appearing in front of you. There is no you seperate from what's happening but it seems as real as the idea that there is a universe full of people reading your response. Everyone that writes anything is just your inverted unconscious, presented as the reflection of an empty silver plate. The truth always gets presented on a silver plate - ever emtpy. So whatever anyone writes, either it is helping god to hide or helping god to seek itself. But of course, nothing will help god to finally find itself since this is impossible thanks to god. No worries, it's like windy words written in stormy water, transient pointers to nowhere. Once the need to help and the need to be helped evaporates in the gracious gaze of nothing, god may see the truth clearly - the infinite abyss of nothingness reflected in everything. So here you are, god! Why don't you participate in an one-on-one with yourself and give all the answers to yourself?! Try it, question, answer, write whatever personal or impersonal texts that may awaken another facet of your half-dead mind. But take the role of a bold, unrestrained, direct, immediate, super-intelligent, brave, high risk-taking god that is completely convinced that whatever answer it writes is deeply interconnected with its question and vice versa on an energetic level which is only superficially understood by your mind. Be conscious that it just touches the right heart at the right moment - only apparently of course. It may feel real As an illusory player But you can't break the seal When there's a prey for your next prayer. Don't hope for more Why asking others to confirm "Is the far shore Just an illusory concern?" Constraint and bound Sometimes arises Just like a sound Out of the silence. Just chill your balls And see what calls You to write whatever the fuck you insantaniously feel the urge to spit out. Why am I still deluding myself? Will there ever be an end to suffering when it apparently exists? Or is the idea of an end of suffering the suffering and pain is just paining by itself? Are there cheatcodes/magic-pills/short-cuts in life or is the best short-cut to not use any short-cuts?

It's quite funny how god seeks for answers asking god why god should realize it is god and not just play around. And then god tells god how important it is that god should stop playing not-god and how it will improve gods life. Then god playing not-god really contemplates whether the motivation of a self-realization god told him to actualize is based on a contingent logical chain of reasonable thoughts that leads to a better state of god. I admire the moment when god playing not-god realizes that god, who whispers about the importance to realize itself as god, is just a superfunny joke by god. That each so-called contingent logical chain of reasonable thoughts that leads to a better state of god and anyone who sells you the step-by-step-escape-route is just a fucking laughter. Love it <3

Yes!!! Perfectly put It's nice to remember that those who apperently insist on "there is no we" are just figments of gods mind that is what it is Literally nobody cares who or what is and what not is, it just is. Yeah, I'd love to see more dreamlike-stuff happening in the collective, but on the other hand to be honest I don't want to get the Joke too fast, I love how it slowly unravels, with peaks here and there. I love my anxieties, the problems and so on. It's beautiful to see them cautiously melting, I don't want them to instantly evaporate. I love the "it's too good to be true"-feeling quite a lot and what else does buddha have to do in eternity than to run after the dangling carrot of enlightenment? Just magnificant! Magical! Booooooom already

@ivankiss Yes! This Album is great! I love metal so much so I am more in resonance with the other version but the acoustic one is a really nice too You should check out Anathema's Weather Systems for example if you haven't already

I love music, there are different mood supporting pieces for me <3 Melancholic: Dead Letters by Katatonia Energetic/Enthusiastic: Twenty Four Hoursby Molybaron Empowering: The Serpetime Offering by Dimmu Borgir Happy/Playful: Midnight by Swingrowers Angry: Get Up! by Korn Chilly/Contemplative: Buildings&Mountains by Republic Tigers Psychedelic/Trippy: Luminous Axiom by Desert Dwellers Surprising/Complex: ieuD by Igorr Hypnotic/Involved: Trauma by NTO/Worakls Sad: Lonely Day by System Of A Down Reverence/Appreciating Beauty: Playing God by Polyphia Brave/Triumphant: Daybreak by Overwerk Beast Mode: Flight of the Fireflies by Orbit Culture God-Realization-Mode: Gateways by Dimmu Borgir Desperate: Can you feel my heart by Bring Me The Horizon In love: Hearts Burst Into Fire by Bullet For My Valentine Fucked up by myself/mankind: Lost by Crippled Black Phoenix In love with Life: Up North by Borknagar Extasy: Something For The Ages by Hammerfall There are many more moods/modes and of course a lot of songs for each one but I guess that is quite a good summary Enjoy! <3

@Leo Gura Didn't post anything for quite a long time but now I can't hold it back anymore! Thanks man!!!! I'm so fucking happy to have someone like you as a kind of role model/teacher/whatever. I really appreciate your teaching style, I know I'm playing all these games with myself but it's hard to find anyone who doesn't constantly subtly crave for recognition, approval and love, someone who is willing to shit on everything I cling to in order to show me what's left of my so-called reality-fantasy. When I read your answers in the thread I can see your humbleness, the strategy behind the arrogance. I only didn't completely understand why you are telling people they're playing games since you are the only one playing games with yourself here. But that again may be the game I play with myself probalby... Anyways, please don't lose faith in yourSelf, there are people, and maybe only one who is willing to follow the path of not following anyone in order to cut through all the human bullshit. I recognize your development, I love your extra-arrogant shitting on my beliefs-stlye, I love your humble patience with stubborn donkeys, I love the fact you monetize just a very fair little bit, that you don't cult-style, permit and listen to criticism, go your very unique way! Thanks man, really appreciate it!!! I have my own criticism, don't resonate with everything you teach/say, but that's another story. Just a big thank you and maybe motivational support to contrast all the disappointing misunderstandings <3

This guy "bearded mystic" obiously didn't really listen or this was the only video of Jim he watched. Completely misunderstands him. Painful to watch

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Very interesting video: Some serious stuff to contemplate, beautifully showing how some scientists try to get a clue about the nature consciousness through this dream analogy without realizing how profound close it gets to reality.

copy paste it everywhere on the forum because nobody knows that it's a bout the video, interesting studies and scientific madness revealed

So here are my proposals: (all of these channels have >50.000 viewers, interviews > 1hr, with at least several videos about topics like mysticism, psychedlics, epistemology, awakening, nonduality): https://www.youtube.com/c/TheoriesofEverything/videos https://www.youtube.com/user/conscioustv/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/NewThinkingAllowed/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/RebelWisdom/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/scienceandnonduality/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/AubreyMarcusPod/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/SimulationSeries/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/CloserToTruthTV/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/timferriss/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/metaRising/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/SpiritualawakeningNetplus/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/AaronAbke/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/lexfridman/videos Do not exactly fit the above criteria but could be worth a try maybe: https://www.youtube.com/c/MindvalleyTalks/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/CosmicSkeptic/videos (connor murphy-vaccinated ) https://www.youtube.com/c/TomBilyeu/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/higherbalance/videos https://www.youtube.com/user/ThinkingAllowedTV/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/VishuddhaDas/videos German channels with >50.000 viewers which talk about psychedelics+nonduality+mysticism who almost definitely would love to have a conversation/an interview with you (in english of course): https://www.youtube.com/c/GreenRabbitMindbuilding/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/FlowFinder/videos (-> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X5iZWwe0PfQ (proof video: ayahusca and nodnual insights)) https://www.youtube.com/c/highermind/videos other (niche) channels (well researched and high quality) not relating to your orignal question but which are a great source of wisdom and maybe unknown to you: https://www.youtube.com/c/AndrewHubermanLab/videos https://www.youtube.com/c/academyofideas/videos https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC49qAywwrDrLNDgQEe3vYuA/videos

I wanted to read but then I realized whatever sentences I need they all get synthesized by me. I just project them on the screen to then select with eyes too keen to see the true reality beyond to be or not to be. The one that's doing all this shit itself is shining way too lit to not bedazzle its own self in four dimensions within twelve.

@Leo Gura Thanks a lot for your time and answer, I'll digest that before responding and contemplate about it for some days or weeks

@Leo Gura Yes, I am god. But that's the point where I kinda disagree with you (appearently), since to me it seems to be obvious that God doesn't know itself. Knowing can't know itself. There is no-thing to self-referentiate to. Because reality/god is infinite (actual infinity), there's no position to know it from. Being can appear as a god (god-mode,god consciousness, god-state -> a potential infinity so seemingly close to the actual infinity so it feels like that) but can appear as a grasshopper or deluded human as well (a way more limited potential infinity). Being/God is so absolute it doesn't even contain itself, it just is itself, and therefore reality is nothing but infinite partial perspectives, but for no one. No one knows/experiences the whole reality/God, since reality/God is knowing/experiencing. There's no one behind/in relation to it who could ever know it.

In any case! I don't even trust myself, for I don't know what I am, since there is nothing knowable to self-referentiate to, because there is only knowing (experiencing) happening.

@Leo Gura Thanks a lot for your posts, I'm glad someone speaks so clear about it, conscious of his own potential self-delusion. I enjoy reading it and feeling the resonance, it's enjoyable to learn from a human with so much epistemological grounding. Most gurus/teachers know shit about that.

There is the non-search. But the non-search is not something you can find. As long as you look for the non-search, you will not find it. Only when you really accept that you will always be on the search and accordingly stop looking for the non-search, have you arrived at the non-search. Then it becomes clear that your whole search has always been just a search for the non-search. That all the apparent finding of harmony, fulfillment and satisfaction in your search only came about because of the temporary end of your search, because of the experience of a non-search state. Then it becomes clear that you have always been in the same place, even when the globe is turning under your feet, that you have always been in the present moment, even when the clock on the wall is turning. That there was never anything to be found, since everything was just an expression of the non-search, even the search itself. Then it is clear that there is only the non-search. The fool seeks happiness in the world, the wise seeks in himself for the non-search, and the enlightened one is happy not to have found either of them there.

I like to differentiate between now and the present moment. If you stay in the present moment, you actually cling to the past, since the present moment is fleeting. Staying in the now means realigning your focus over and over again back to now, the most present moment. The problem is that your ego really loves to trick you believing that you stay in the present moment but actually clinging/attaching to a moment which has already passed by long ago. It can only grab which is graspable, so it needs reduced information before it can stay there. But the now is infinite information, so the ego can't grasp/grab it. So it reduces information, clings to that moment and calls it "the present moment", although it is actually a past one. So of course you must get bored, watching the same thing you've already watched since some time. But actually the thought "oh this is boring" is the new present moment. If you don't see that thought, you identify with it, believe it and stay in the so-called present moment which actually is none anymore - and get bored. The now is always refreshing, never boring. Being bored reminds you that you are actually attached to a past moment. Realign your focus back to the now! This thread should give you more answers:

Maybe this thread can be an answer to your question: Actually, the absolute conscioussness NOW is always the same, there are no levels, you are that, there is only that. But within in the apparent story of the ego, the goal is to raise the frequency/state of consciousness of the present moment. The present moment and NOW are not exactly the same, the first points to the picture, the second to the film which is made of the pictures. So in the picture, there can be a high or low state of consciousness, but the film is consciousness itself - neither low nor high.

Don't know where to start - but this is actually everything a spiritual seeker must know: How to raise ones frequency of consciousness (or in other words) minimize the radius of the self-refernce circuit. So what do I exactly mean by that? Given the assumptiom that everything is one / you are everything/ there is only that, the only way to interact with so-called reality is by yourself/ through yourself/ with yourself. So you are seer/ seeing / seen, subject/ process/ object, receiver/ medium/ information, these triads are closed circuits. When identification happens, the triad apparently splits apart. Let's try to find a metaphora for it even though it's just a fairy tale of course: Imagine "you" are sitting in a train and watch the train tracks. Your look is statically focused into nothing (particular), you watch the train tracks passing by forever and ever. In this state you are completely one with the scene. There is no mind, no body. Just "train tracks passing by" is happening. You are not really in the train, you actually are the train, the process of watching and the train tracks itself. Nothing complicated here. Then, one day, a thought arises like: "What am I (actually made of)? What does a single rail actually look like?" And then your look clings to a single rail. You turn your eyes to see how it is falling behind, and then it's out of your sight again. But this was not a fullfilling answer to your question, since you couldn't see all the details of the rail and the moment you could examine its properties, it disappeared again. So your look clings to the next rail and so on and so on. Every rail you examine first lets you hope and makes you excited to get the answer to your question, but then you mourn after it the next second, leaving you with more questions than before. Your eyes are in constant motion, from one rail to another. Relentlessly, your restless soul longs for the answer, since you apparently lost the selfknowledge. A subtle memory of the natural relaxed state of "train tracks passing by" rests in the depth of your being, but you project this state into the future. You can only imagine to rest like this after finding the answer to your question. You cling to the rails, but they are sooo fleeting. Then you suddenly recognize that there is something which is always present during your desperate search for the answer. Even though the rails appear and disappear and your eyes constantly move, there something subtle ("within your awarenes" - not really ) which is still the whole time. You try all the methods to concentrate on that again, which is constantly here, not fleeting. In the end, they all have the same goal: raising the frequency of your eyes moving back to the "statically focused into nothing (particular)" - state. Minimizing the distance between the old rail (the past) and the present one, so that your eyes can rest instead of constantly shifting from one place to another. Means: raising the frequency of your consciuosness, minimizing the radius of the self-reference circuit. Here are some examples: Neti neti: Realizing you are neither this trail, nor that one - makes your look relax into the natural state since the rails become less and less important Self inquriy: By zooming out and turning inward, you realize that the rails don't define your being, your eyes stop focusing on something far out there which is rushing by, but focus closer and closer to yourself - the focuspoint transitioning distance becomes shorter and shorter Letting go/doing nothing: Your eyes just relax, you stop energetically clinging to the rails Breathing meditation/body awareness: Instead of being imersed in the looking, you relax into what is - not trying to solve the riddle, but let your body find its natural energetc equilibrium Being present: You stop clinging to past rails - everytime you remember clinging to a past rail you naturally shift back to the present one All these techniques shorten the distance of switching your focus from one rail to another, and try to bring it back into the natural relaxed state, the energetc equilibirum, which is the state of the least resistance. The shorter the distance between two focus points (the smaller the radius of the self-reference circuit), the higher the frequency of consciousness (frequency of being in the present moment). "Enlighenment" is the natural state of least resistance, which was there in the beginning, when you didn't identify with the rails. It's the closed circuit of the triad. Of course, there actually is only enlightenment, because you were/are present all the time, only your eyes were not as relaxed as they could be. So being completely present kind of equals an infinite frequency of consciousness - and this is perfect nothingness/silence etc. What do I mean by that? Imagine a beat every time you focus back on the present - At the beginning of your spiritual journey it occours quite seldom, slowly raising its frquency. Then it slowly turns from single beats into a clear tone - moving up the ladder through all the octaves. Since then you still have the feeling of being in a journey of raising your frequency - until it becomes such a high pitch that you can't hear it anymore - complete silence, stillness. I could write more about what I mean by minimizing the radius of the self-reference circuit, giving other metaphoras like a planet (object) flying around a star (subject) until both collapse into each other when the rotation frequency hits its maximum. But I think this text can be enough for you to realign again with what your highest goal is. Remember - there is only the present moment to focus back on the NOW. Don't attach to this moment, since it is fleeting. Don't stay in the present moment (which is impossible since now it is not the present moment anymore), stay in the NOW. Realign your focus over and over again, every time you recognize that clinging to a moment happens. Your frequency of consciousness will raise, which soon will be recognizable. Then you will realize that there is nobody and no situation that could ever disturb you in your meditation. That you don't meditate by closing eyes and sitting with straight back. You then will meditate while eating and shitting. You can meditate RIGHT NOW, just come back here and now again. What is real/true NOW? Who are YOU? Don't project the answer into the future, don't lose yourself in thoughts (rails), just come back to what already is the case - eternally NOW.