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Yeah I feel ya, 18 (just turned) and kundalini has awakened about a year or so ago. We're in the same boat. Like today, I was walking around at work and it literally felt like no one was in the body. Although, I wasn't scared, I felt very peaceful and have felt recently moments where I have felt absolutely no fear, there are times when I'm dying in fear and I distract myself for hours from myself because I'm deeply scared of my own mind. I can't even get myself out of it, like you, because awareness eats it up. Although I don't like it, as @Anna1 hinted at, this is still something that I'm not going to stop (I couldn't really stop at this time) because I'm enjoying the non-ego life more & I can feel this deeply, down to my soul, that this is what's meant for me. It may be different for you, just know I feel you my man.

Yeah I mean how else are you gonna awaken and live

They say transcend and include. That's what evolution is.

@Serotoninluv OK ?

Okay yall. I have a question I really need answers to. As kundalini goes through my body, and cleanses it, I have gotten to a point where I'm really starting to become pretty fearless. It's insane. Although I'm really at a problem If I become so fearless, I might die ??. It feels like it. Leo was right when he said if I became completely fearless I would not live longer than 1 second But then how do I know what fears to keep and what ones to not. How do I know what to do and what not to do. I'm asking genuinely, because I don't know. Plus this work is about releasing fear. So really, like what the heck am I supposed to do. Like now I'm really starting to take my power back, and not really care what others think etc. But like I'm really scared I might die if I do that completely. But also I want my power! I dont want to give that away. Or like social conditioning. I'm really letting go of that fear of fitting in and listening to people. But this begs the question: if I dont care what other people think, i might die! Like what the fuck! What am i supposed to do! I dont want to be a slave to others but I dont want my power and myself taken away! Also this is on the spirituality thread because I need to figure out how to use this body suit! How the fuck do I work this and feel okay at the same time, how do I do spirituality and keep everything cool in my life. Is that literally impossible because I have to surrender to this divine force??? Like what the fucking hell.

@Nahm yeah I got a bit angry. Truth is the greatest thing I've ever found and yet it's one of the most scariest things for me to embrace. I regret finding it so much and yet I am so grateful and love it so much ??? But OK, so just basically let go of thinking about what fears to let go of and not let go of and just let whatever be be? But also let go of fear and find out through myself through insights and coming more to the present through feeling? I think I'm getting it. Just basically let go more. OK

@Serotoninluv it's literally impossible for my ego to take control again. It's not even awareness as an observer. It's just awareness. My ego has been really fearful lately. Like very fearful. Also I really really really dont know how much fear to keep. Leo says that fear is the thing that keeps you alive. But Idk, that doesnt make sense to me because isnt our body supposed to be running completely free consciousness-wise? I mean no obstructions in consciousness? Why would I want consciousness restricted. Also like leo says that a lot of this stuff is physically damaging, and I'd agree.

You @Martin123 question @cetus56 in his presence. For THAT alone, you are banned.

@Keyhole yes haha.

@Nahm interesting.. not sure completely what that means but I'll keep it in mind & contemplate it a bit.

So I am pretty young (18). I have been interested in all of this since 14, had the kundalini awaken at 16, and now I am 18. A lot has definitely changed, within me and outside of me, although I know i have a lifetime of spiritual work and work outside of myself. I am quite unclear about a few things: What is the long term scope this? Meaning, what is it going to look like in 10 years of work. How has your relation to reality changed as a result? What are the biggest milestones that you have had? What are the deepest things you have uncovered about yourself along the spiritual path? What are the most mind-bending experiences/realizations you've had and the siddhis you've developed spontaneously/consciously? Biggest obstacles (fears, existential resistance) overcome or are facing? Going into spirituality is like a shot in the dark for me. There is information out there but in my opinion but I feel like I dont really know where I'm going and I cant really visualize my future that clearly. Please be descriptive Also I mean for enlightenment + any other "spiritual pursuits" such as: astral projection, Lucid dreaming, channeling, energy work, shamanism, etc. For question #1, 2, 5

@Keyhole I agree with the above. @Lento I'm shocked to see that that's you to be honest.

So it has been about a year and more that I have REALLY REALLY wanted to work a lot, and I have a huge drive. This is something that I REALLY want to do. Somehow though, whenever I sat down to try to do work, I just felt so much internal resistance, I felt myself feeling lethargic and tired all of the time, and also laying down a lot. I though that this was due to spiritual purification, but hahahah, no it ain't. It finally hit me today WHY THE FUCK I couldn't do anything, and that's because my whole entire family is lazy as fuck and pretty much lays down all day, for example my dad pretty much plays video games most of the time, doesn't have a job, and it's the same story for everyone in the house except for the fact that others go to work. I was picking up all of those energies. Now that I'm working at the library, I literally feel driven and enthusiastic and I'm doing my communications midterm with no internal resistance now. For the first time in a while. So a tip for empaths/highly-sensitive individuals --> find a place that you can work where your environment supports you. you will be grateful for that choice. Although, I'm also sure that this advice can be helpful for anyone.

Honestly this is what really started my awakening and cleared my mind, I'm surprised that you haven't awakened this already since I have seen your posts and you seem pretty awake. Ive had so many awakening experiences and I think that is due to kundalini, not my own spiritual practice

[my face]

Just keep doing what you're doing: nothing Maybe if you do that you will become bored with doing nothing, such that you create motivation to do something

One big benefit I know Leo's big on.. philosophy becomes clearer, more open mindedness and less self bias

@fridjonk hahahhh.. i feared that this would be said. @LfcCharlie4 thanks for the detailed answers! I've had moments like you describe where I feel as if I'm in paradise, as I'm sitting in my kitchen ? its lovely.

Moana lol

This is a funny post

Jesus had the messiah complex.

@SoonHei Might as well stay naked. Therefore, you can be 100% truth. LOL

@Average Investor Yeah, it really does. I was with one of my ex girlfriends before, and I was super energetic beforehand and then when I went to go and cuddle her in her house my energy completely depleted within like a second. It was insane.

Beautiful ❤

Wow.. That's insane. Never heard a person's story more interesting than THAT.