John Paul

On to the next one until that trauma comes out or whatever it is. im traumatized off my ass so idk how this will play out.

*accidentally* slip it in the wrong hole

It’s BS

Do mulabandas on an empty stomach Look at the diet. Eat only “whole foods”. look out for foods you didn’t know you are actually sensitive to- sweet, spicy, or something specific like pineapple or a certain spice, who knows.

You may gain some confidence and get lucky learning one or two things properly- but no, realistically you cannot. You need to spar and do drills to really learn how to fight. And if you learn something like punching incorrectly you can hurt your shoulder if you ever throw a wrong punch with no experience in a real situation. im not trying to discourage you, do whatever ya like

Spend some alone time thinking about the reasons why it would be good if you don’t spend today or the next day and why it would be bad if you did.

Learning how to buy a first and then second property seems to be the only important financial goal that is present in my life at this point. And then to trade those in for more expensive properties etc. to make more and more money off of them.

I’m about to be 27 in USA.. my strategy is just to save money and buy multiple properties to make passive income through renting to other other people. And also through increasing my properties’ values and refinancing.

Can we make a distinction between shit-tests and just low-quality behavior in women? I know the idea is to take responsibility of our side of the table and be good men. And that’s a challenge big enough. But we need to take responsibility of who we are dating too, don’t we?(not one night stands, dating-dating) I also want to apply this to who we send time with in our families: moms, aunts, sisters, cousins, grandmas, female-in-laws, etc. and female friends. At what point can we see that this isn’t a shit-test, this is a habit of hers? Or how can we tell if she is repeatedly attempting to push our same button or if it’s just a habit? And if she is always trying to get under our skin, is this healthy feminine behavior? Like, what if she has a habit of constantly trying to get under someone’s skin… is this my delusion? Is this healthy? cheers

YELLOW-turquoise hits different: SD is actually for newbies in the big, big picture… all models and taking language literally are. The only value of someone truly turquoise is more humility aka strength aka open mindedness which leaves me stumped, all I can do is repeatedly ground myself into the moment (ox-herding pic 5) by reminding myself to stay humble. And the other part of it is that I’m realizing an emotion of sadness for humanity’s development: Their lack of strength, their lack of humility, their lack of open-mindedness and clarity of vision- The lack of visionaries, the lack of modern-spiritual eduacation (bravo to Leo on this point), the lack of opportunities for us to truly transcend together. I am turquoise but really I will never embody anything more than a humble mirror of traumatized/under-developed/close-minded stage orange, blue, and green while relating with them. Showing off being tier 2 turns out not to be a tier 2 behavior at turquoise. And the part that isn’t sad but is irritating is my own lack of strength, my lack of humility, and my relative lack of open-mindedness in the big, big picture. Well.. I guess I have 15-20 years of ox-herding pic 5 to look forward to- WTF. Hopefully I can get my hands on some DMT and make that 10 years.

Y’all trippin’. If AI continues to grow it will show us the connection between science, art, and mental health which will enlighten the western world.

It’s not when they flex their wealth tho, it’s when they flex their ego

@StarStruck that’s not the real you, that’s the real drunk you. Real drunk you will be making friends and girlfriends but real sober you is reliving neglect.

The jealousy and envy.. the insecurity and control.. it’s hurting me this Christmas season just like it’s hurt me my whole life. How can people want to put other people (the children and youth) through the same things that they felt? Btw I’m not a kid, I’m 26 but I am obviously younger than my parents and elders and I have younger family too. I feel like my parents don’t want me to be free and happy. Because if I’m free and happy they know they won’t get credit for it because they weren’t actually good parents…. People are so fucking greedy I swear. And so they don’t want you to be successful in any small areas that they can’t take credit for. The pettiness that is being revealed to me is ENORMOUS. with the emotional intelligence that some of these elders have, the youth could be on the moon.. but if they think they wouldn’t get credit or would have to face judgment they will do anything to squish that

Every word is a lie. There is no exception for spiritual teachings. Someone could enlighten you by having you follow their outrageous dance moves for one hour straight

if you are talking about god realization well…. Yes. Anything is possible in the world of God. God is infinite possibilities. In God, an AI has a spiritual awakening and instantly downloads a thousand years of samurai training which it uses to defeat evil alien spirits that are preventing the humans from uniting. Then it does a series of sword strikes through the air (what it does in practice) then sits down for its quiet post-practice meditation.

If a kid is having conversation like this regularly and without other ideologies dominating this, it’s a sure path to turquoise (not realistic at all because ideology is in every corner of this world)

@Tyler Robinson this year for Christmas I’m getting gaslit

@Tyler Robinson yes. When I was younger I would try to sleep with anyone. I didn’t give a shit I just wanted pussy. And I was a complete idiot lol. Idk why girls would sleep with me in hindsight like I guess I was kinda cool and fun but… totally psycho idk, they made bad choices- young girls sleep with guys like they’re smoking cigarettes: pretending they are guilty, pretending they can’t stop, continuing to destroy themselves

Consciousness is a spectrum and everyone has their unique triggers where they will become defensive or ideological… it’s black and white to say conscious or unconscious. Every parent is trying their best. I don’t know any but my best guess is that a child raised by yellow parents would be very smart but will probably still struggle to reach tier 2 and kids with turquoise parents will probably be exceptional individuals or just regular but very healthy individuals

@Tyler Robinson yes but… you will likely never know what this woman wants because she will never say it. Often times it may feel like the thing that she wants is to be unclear about what she wants and do whatever is possible to get attention and emotional response from you, like a black hole. She will use false desires that are selected to intentionally be traps. not like a shit-test which can be passed

This is another thing I was hoping someone would relate to… what do you think about family members testing each other?

I’m looking for guys who have tried a few different methods of dosing, done some big ones, and can help expand my horizons some more in the psychedelic realm of life…. Thanks y’all edit: not looking for integration coach but someone who knows about different methods of use and testing/dosing stuff

Is god the creator of all things? Is god all things itself? What is god? Is god all powerful? What is power? if there is a god, wouldn’t it likely have the authority to say what it is above any other being?

My life’s purpose is to serve and love my family… but who’s my family? Part of me feels like it’s obvious… but then I think: who is my family? Not every blood relative of mine is my family. My family is simply who I choose to be loyal to and serve via the five love languages. “John Paul” is obviously family… that’s a given (or is it?). But who else? My mom? My dad? My children? My friend from work? My friend from childhood? My friendly neighbor? My siblings? Everyone? My political group? My gym friends? My art friends? My girlfriend? Or is there some sort of criteria that determines who’s family? Some sort of set of boundaries? E.g. Family is those who are clean and sober who I’ve known for 4 years who aren’t in any cults etc. But people change and nobody is perfect- what kind of exceptions to these boundaries would have to exist for my loved ones? What about my children?-They’re sure to get addicted to sugar, join a cult at some point in time, steal at one point in time, take on close minded-ideologies at some time… who gets an exception and who doesn’t? Or maybe my boundaries and exceptions are the same for everybody and Family is who chooses to be with me? This makes sense but what if a lot of people love me? There’s only so much time in the day. Who gets prioritized first and who gets prioritized last? The last tier would be people who can’t respect my boundaries and are strangers and the first tier would be Family… but my children are sure to push if not violate my verbally stated boundaries chronically… Family is who I choose. Family is who I choose to love. Should I choose on the basis of my emotional guidance system? My emotional guidance system would have me serving more than one women, many of which would be taking advantage of me. That means the emotional guidance system alone can’t be trusted unless it’s seriously attuned and disciplined to certain principles. But my only principle is to serve and love my family… I know this is the highest. Which brings me back again- who is family? (Who do I serve?) Should I serve whoever it serves me to serve? This is just another way of saying should I just serve myself, I suppose. No… I must be loyal to people beyond myself… right? This subject is proving to be the most difficult thing for me in this time. Any help with this contemplation is appreciated. Thank you.