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you are answering yourself, if you do it too much it can "get your energy out of control" would you take pschycoledics very frenquently? probably not. Same with this.

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can you relate to this?

any specific video?

In my opinion, no. If you have 0 interest in what you are doing sooner or later you are going to kick it and send it to shit. You cannot fight your emotions all the time. But what if you are a nihilistic and you don´t have interest in anything you have to do? You are f···· up forever? I have had this problem my whole life. Always doing everything out of negative motivation. Always fighting my emotions to get shit done. Always doing things very poorly because I have no genuine interest in them.

Have enought money so I don´t have to do thing I dont like and I don´t have to think about money or jobs anymore. Spend the day in spiritual work, some exercise, social life, nature, woman, drugs, family... mm I don´t think is something I can choose. It is like a biological mechanism. Man is a sociable animal and if they stays out of society they begins to touch depression.

I am not sure what are you asking about? Parapsychology?

That is very useful what you are saying. The devil is still very strong on me. I am very attach to thoughts and emotions. And I still don't know very well how to combine get thing done with letting go. They look like opposite forces. Anyways, much work to do (personal and transpersonal)! Thank you.

Of course a lot of things. But that things are "sensations", not things. I am nihilistic because I am only interested in subjectic experiences (ultimtely God) but I am not interested in relative things like politics, progress, builiding things, get things done, finance, sports, new, etc. I am just interested in mysticis/spirituallity/metaphysics or whatever you want to call it. I am not interested in material things. I don´t care what society thinks. But since I am not enlighten I am indentified with my ego; and the ego is constructed in the society. The ego=society. This is something that humanistic psychology describes very well. At this moment I identify myself as a failure and it is something that I cannot change. At other times when I was successful, I identify myself with a boss. Well, in my country it actually is haha. I applied to literraly thousands of jobs in the last 2 years.

I meditate like crazy but when I come back to reality problems are there again. I don´t think meditation solve personal problems. I can be more equaniomous about negative emotions with meditation but negative emotions are still there.

Let's put it in a practical way: Right now I want to get a job. Why do I want to get a job? To stop feeling bad about living with my mother and consider myself a useless person for society. I want to get a job not because I have an interest in the job itself but to avoid further suffering that comes with not having the job. I have 0 interest in the academic training of this job or in the purposes of this job. I only have the negative motivation to stop suffering because I feel like a failure without work.

Personally, I would keep focusing on my meditation practice and stop thinking about solipsism. It is neither sane nor useful.

It looks like a regression to lower levels of consciusness (magic stage).

Why do you have to "deal with that"? If he believes that it is ok, just hear him and respect his opinion. You can't get everyone to think like you, it's impossible. I don´t reccomend to debate with anybody (specially women). Only in the specific case that that person has a very open mind. Otherwise this leads to confrontation and if you are in a social situation your goal is connect and be chill with people.

Recently, I realized that I was practicing concentration meditation incorrectly. In my past practice I followed the Leo Gura and Daniel Ingram -first jhana- instructions for concentration practice (or at least what I understood from it). What I was doing is choosing an object of concentration and concentrating very hard on it, like a laser, making efford and trying to silence the background. It made sense to me, since on a day-to-day basis, when I want to focus on something very important, I naturally make a great efford to focus, open my eyes, intentionlly silence my thouhgs, etc; It's an act of great effort, it's not like letting go. But, what I recently learn, based of jhana teachers as Leigh Brasington, Michael W. Taft and Rob Burbea is that the practice of concentration is about efortless and joy, not very hard intention on the object. This is counterintuitive, because it is not how concentration works in ordinary life. Here a summary of the instructions (also Leo Gura and Daniel Ingram dont´mention the pati phase which seems like a central point) : You may also be practicing the exercise wrong, so I think it is important to share this with you.

You can be aware during deep sleep (Some enlinghten people are aware during all sleep phases). So it is not complete emptiness.

You are just avoiding the question. If I ask you what are you gonna lunch tomorow, it doesn´t make sense you use that kind of Nothing/Absolute explanation: tomorrow is a tought, so an ilusion; lunch is an illusion and so on. You answer what you are gonna lunch or you answer "I don´t know" I you haven´t plan it yet. However, when someone ask the death question, many of you use that kind of advaita-vedanta anwer. Wouldn´t it be more honest to just say "I don´t know"?

I am 27 and it happens to me since when I was a teenager. It happens once per month on average; sometimes more, sometimes less. It's the most horrible thing I can experience. It only lasts a couple of seconds, I think that if it lasted longer I would pass out or have a heart attack, I don't think I could bear that suffering. I will describe it below: It occurs always 45 minutes after I have fallen asleep. I guess I am in a point between daydreaming and deep sleep and my mind is very very clear. I suddenly realize that I am going to die someday, that there is no a single change I can´t avoid death; I am gonna die and all "my world" is gonna dissapear. I mean, I can think about the death during the day and nothing happens, it is just a though, but this time I 100% realize it. Then I wake up screaming like fucking crazy (it is a horrible scream, very high pitched and with a high volume) and shaking, I can´t controll it. This experience last 1-3 seconds but it is the most horrible thing you can imagine. What make it so scary is that it is fucking real. I am not so concerned about the experience itself, because it only lasts a couple of seconds, but these things worry me: I wake up and scare my whole family and all the neighbors on my block with the scream. There are children who are scared and cry in the apartment below. I feel really bad about this... Maybe one day when I get an outbreak of these I could have a heart attack, because I go from being calm to being in a panic mode like lightning.

Chek this:

I don't doubt your good intentions. It is just that that thought vs present moment discourage doesn't make much sense for me in many occasions. Thank you for your answers anyway.

Can you specify how can I inspect direct experience while I am sleeping and that happens to me? Totally agree. But I don´t have enoughts balls haha

I also know the theoy but in reality you dont find thoughts, perceptions and feeling separately. These are dualism. All of them happens at the same time and they are interconected. Also, this experience happens when I am sleep, I dont have control over it and it last a few seconds. I cannot say, ok stop, this is a thought, I am not the though, be aware of the thought and so on, like when I am meditating.

Holy shit, I am sorry for you. I don´t know why spirituality teachers doesn´t talk about this. So what is the solution? Just keep meditating to reach an ego death someday and get rid of this hell? I am sleeping. The next thought arise as clear as crystal: whatever I do, it is TOTALLY IMPOSSIBLE I avoid my death. It is not a simple thought but the most real thing I ever know/experience. I cleary understand that I am gonna dissapear. I cannot accep this and I wake up screaming like crazy fighting against that insight. The experience is an insight: a mix between idea and emotions Precisely that is what I do to escape from that experience "death doest´n exist, it is just a thought as spiritual teachers say " but deep down I feel this is not true; I can trick myself for a while but not forever. I deeply believe death is real and death is the end. I am not saying this is true, I am just saying what I feel/deeply believe. I have never experienced Absolute beyond death.

By the way: when I was around 10-16, I could voluntarily acces to that experience during the day, just thinking deep about death. It is not possible to me these days. It only happens to me during sleep now.

You are totally right. I have thought about this several times. If I could accept death in that moment I would get it. But it is impossible for me, it is too strong, I am very very far from being able to accept that madness. The more background meditation I get, the more mental clarity (less ego defenses) I have and the more experiences (or stronger) of this type occur to me. Precisely today I have written this thread because last night I have had my strongest experience of this type in the last 10 years. It has been 16 hours since it happened to me and I am still a little scary after the strong shock. Thank you, appreciate your support.