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I have been trying for years and not even be able to enter jhana 1 haha

I have been in medium-low, high and supra level of T and I feel exactly the same. It is similar to nofap, you will feel the difference if you actually believe it makes the difference. All suggestion.

Take LSD/Mushrooms/DMT whatever, all feel the same for me. Sit. Go monkey mind, overthink, for hours and hours. My mind is so agitated I am not able to stop it. I can´t be in silence, meditate, focous on the body , focus on the present, I can´t stop the neurosis. Last time I took 600 ug LSD, even worse than 300 ug. More daydreaming. I want to go beyond the ego-mind but I get the opposite, my mind is more active and crazy than ever... That´s my experience everytime I take psychedelic, a lost of time and slighlty disgusting.

My goal is to be 0% productive. Don't produce anything. Let Reality produce whatever it wants and be a mere channel.

Awakening/authenticty work and pickup are opposite paths that harm each other. With pickup you go deeper into distractions, desire, resistance: samsara. If you meditate so much, you lose your wity tongue and your strong presence; you become slow and unarmed, which is not attractive.

As you probably know, buddhists are against the idea that there are a permanent Ultimate Reality. The ultimate test for them is the state of cessation (nirodha samapatti) where everything disappears into nothingness. However, for Stephen Snyder, both cessation (unmanifested) and manifested reality are expressions of the Absolute. 01:18:40

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If those realms have ontological substance beyong the ego then please explain how is that after the ego is dissolved, the experiences of that realms are not experienced anymore. If they are structures of Reality (as you claim) and not of the self, then it should be possible to experience it both when self condition mateiral is present and after conditioning has been cleared; but it is not the case for the second one. Suspicious don´t you think? If the higher buddhist and advaita achievers thell you to forget about that BS is for a reason, they are ego hallucinations.

Why do you agree? I asked Artem about the nature of material world. He says elightment only removes ego drama but material world can´t be transcended at least you die. Experiences of material alteration when taking high dose of psychedelics is just the ego-mind playing around (hallucinations), the proof form him is that, after enlightment, this hallucinations on psychedelics stop: https://vocaroo.com/1oVjap1JzYNP It makes absolutely sense what he says there.

That´s also my biggest dream, and not he end of the suffering. But I don´t think that is possible. The knowlodege obtained by the mind is not valid, it is just the self escaping from death, trough the creation of castles in the air. "Comprehension", "Metaphysics" these are only the ego pretending to be gigantic and nothing else...

("buddhist") Enlightment does not give you the final Relative interpretation of reality but the fall into the Absolute. Artem is a materialist atheist (consciousness is produced by the mind, nothing after death, etc) but you can also find arahats who are idealists, monists or whatever. The same way you can find not elighment people being materialist and not elighment people being idealists. Enlightment leads to the end off suffer produced by the self but your worldview is something you articulate trough reason and it is independent of that.

For Leo Gura and some others yes, for Buddhism, it is not.

Do you agree with Brahman/Atman/Absolute/God is not the ultimate Truth, Nothing is ultimate truth and relative reality/dualities arise with craving? It is an ugly metaphysics but it seems it is the truth...

If I let go I lost my straight posture and I go into daydreaming. I never understand the let go thing. The times when I went deep into awaraness was trough a combiantion of super efford to be straight and concetrated in the present moment + very very relax. Sometimes I am so tired of doing thing that I let go, I lost my straight posture, my eyes get lazy, my neck go down and my mind start daydreaming by itself for hours. But this is not awakening. This is the opposive. I become lost in mind and away from the present moment.