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There is no end point but God-Becoming. The highest thing a human can do is not only realizing you are The Force, but actually becoming Force-Like or God-Like. Only a few humans have ever achieved that and they are all dead.

The Force or Tao seems like a better name than God. God has too many images and baggage associated with it, whereas The Force is already naturally mysterious and abstract. God is portrayed as a personal, powerful king. The Force is portrayed as impersonal, mystical energy within all things. The Force is a better pointer to Infinity. The Force is Infinity.

You have never encountered anything and no world but your own mind. Everything you see, hear, taste, touch, smell, feel and think is what the world has always been. What you call “the world” has been nothing but consciousness. When you close your eyes, your mind still constructs a world that is not seen. Distance is still being constructed, hearing, other minds, feeling/pain, language, etc. are all still being constructed by your mind when you close your eyes. In fact, all you are doing when you close your eyes is you are making the world black. When you open your eyes, your mind creates color, visual distance, shapes, visual objects, etc.

I am not sure how taking responsibility for my own authority and direct experience is self-deception. I see putting faith in a teacher to deliver you truth rather than you seeking it yourself to be the deception. Kill the Buddha. Be careful conflating Absolute with relative. That realization that there is no you to give away responsibility comes after you have taken responsibility first. The authority I am talking about is direct experience. When I say take responsibility for yourself, I mean to operate from first-hand direct experience, not secondary experiences like thoughts, beliefs, teachings, teachers, others, etc. It is essential to deconstruct the ego, which includes all thoughts, beliefs, teachings, others, etc. Your first-hand direct experience is more so in alignment with what is actually true than anything teaching. All that other stuff is fog on the mirror. To play your game, you might have heard of the story of the Buddha just sitting with a Lotus Flower as his teaching. That is what I mean except you actually have to do that yourself and throw away all the ideas of a Buddha.

Neither. False dichotomy. Your direct experience is the only thing you can trust because it is Absolute Truth. All professors, gurus, and spiritual teachers are yourself, but they secondary sources because your mind has to construct them first in order for them to exist. Your dream characters including your spiritual gurus cannot be ultimately trusted nor can they ever awaken you or give you awakening. It is only when you take complete ownership and responsibility when you have any chance to awaken. As long as you put off your responsibility to others (distinctions your mind is constructing), you have no chance to awaken nor live authentically. There is nothing wrong with learning from your dream characters if you wish to keep dreaming within the dream. If you want to awaken, eventually you need to think for yourself, walk your own path, and deconstruct everything "human," which includes all spiritual lessons. You are imagining your guru's awakening. How they awakened may not be the same for you or anyone else. Edit: It seems like your chain of reasoning is about providing justifications for why you should give away your intellectual and spiritual authorities away to your professors and gurus.

How do you know? If I am blind, how can I know that others can actually see and aren’t just faking it from what they have heard from people who “appear” to see? All ideas of enlightenment are unenlightenment. Edit: What has really helped me cut through a lot of BS is adopting the mindset of a Pyrrhonian. Of course, you will want to transcend Pyrrhonism as well because that defeats the whole point of it lol. Pyrrhonism is nonattachment from all beliefs and ideas, suspending judgment completely. When you do this correctly, you can experience ataraxia, which is complete intellectual freedom. So much anxiety comes from clinging to ideas (that aren’t always ours).

You have to contemplate what it really means for something to exist.

If you ignore Solipsism, you ignore Truth. But yeah there is no point in seeking Truth, Solipsism, or even living a good life. You can take the red pill or blue pill. It doesn’t matter. The fact of solipsism still remains that you can only be certain that you/consciousness exist. Everything else is a belief. Even simulation theory and aliens are a belief. You can only know that, whether or not it is true or false, appearances are happening now.

If I am not awake now, then I am not awake. All of my previous and future awakening experiences are as imaginary as yesterday and tomorrow. I know that if I say or proclaim I am awake, then my ego will adopt that identity so that I never fully deconstruct ego and access God. That’s how powerful and tricky the ego deception is! To claim I am awake is to put me further back to sleep. Too many of you fall into this trap. When you awaken, the last thing you should do is try to “share” it with “others.” First learn to fully dissect it and integrate it so that you are aware of God now. After you are able to live from an imperturbable state of God, then you are at a place where “sharing” just happens naturally. You also have to wonder, if I have awakened, what are some tricks my ego will use to pull me back asleep? “Oh yeah! Sharing and posting about it! Ok I get it now! Why do I want validation and verification for my awakening? Oh you sneaky ego!” I also know that there are many states of consciousness that I still have yet to explore. Deeper awakenings to be had. The ones I have had were mere glimpses, but I am conscious right now that those glimpses never happened beyond my constructing of them right now. I really don’t even know what it even means to “be awake” anymore these days. Being awake to me means being aligned with what is most truthful of my experience right now. If I claim to be awake, that will do nothing for me but stunt my growth.

Then you really didn’t awaken. When you awaken, there should be no doubt whatsoever. That’s correct. Your ideas of Absolute Solipsism are ultimately false. Solipsism is beyond how your mind could ever try to define it as. Other is a duality and construction of your own mind. You imagine parents in the same way you imagine others. When you really contemplate what other is, you are left with nothing but your own mind because other is constructed by the mind. Other is as real as Santa Clause, yesterday, your mom, and your imaginary friend. Without your mind constructing it, it would no longer exist. You are Me! Edit: If the external world doesn’t even exist beyond your mind, what does that tell you about the nature of other?

This cannot be answered through words. But I will try lol. Mind = Direct experience. Everything I experience is a mind. I am asking what a mind is with my own mind. I cannot grasp the mind because I am the mind. Just observe and bask in the mystery of being. Self = identity based off of the illusion of separation. It is the mind tricking itself into thinking it is behind the eyes look out at a world. The mind isn’t behind my eyes. The mind is what I call the world. Nature of Substance = Cannot be answered through language only experience. Another = Myself. I create other in the same way I create a self. Life = In short, direct experience. I am inside of a living mind. Everything is alive. Socially, life is a moving thing that we believe has consciousness of its own. But all there ever is, is Myself and Myconsciousness. I am Life itself!

That is a misunderstanding of Solipsism. Solipsism with the recognition of Beauty, Intelligence, and Love is what is meant by Awakening or Absolute Solipsism. Again, there are no others conspiring against me. I am conspiring against myself to create myself and reality. Why do I trick and delude myself? Life is a dream or self-deception because I have to be asleep/tricked/deceived in order to dream or create reality. If I am not becoming more selfless and aware of Beauty, Truth, and Love, then I don’t understand Solipsism. There are enormous benefits when I am aligned with Truth and not self-deception. A good life is aligned with Truth. The benefits I have attained from Truth is emotion, intellectual, and spiritual freedom. Nothing matters so why ever be depressed or bothered by anything? There is so much freedom in realizing that nothing matters and that everyone is you and everything is love.

What is the ultimate fear, the mother of all fears? I used to think that the ultimate fear was the fear of death. But now that I look at it, I think the ultimate fear is the fear of loss, fear of eternity, and fear of not-knowing. Why fear any pain if it is temporary? Why fear death if you knew what death is? What you ultimately fear is loss, the unknown, and experiencing those simultaneously for eternity. There is much deeper to fear than death. Fear of death boils down to the fear of loss, eternity, and not-knowing. All fear is based on the illusion of ego - a separate self. Fear isn’t bad or good, it is part of survival. Without the impulse of fear and without the energy of love, you cannot accomplish greatness. Why do you fear death? You are afraid of losing your attachments, the ultimate being yourself. Now, think for yourself. Throw away all Buddhist and Actualized.org Bullshit and answer: What is the ultimate fear? What is the root of all fear?

No problem. But before you say something is not true, think it through. If God’s nature is selflessness, then fear/anger is going to put you in ego or selfishness. But God is so selfless and whole that it allows for selfishness.

Experience includes all that you see, hear, feel, smell, taste, and think. Experience is absolute. Your emotions are God's emotions. I could say the same thing about awakening, cessations, psychedelic trips, meditation, etc. All of it comes and goes just like emotions. Emotions are linked to states of consciousness. Certain emotions like peace correlate with unity, oneness, and awakening. Regardless of whether you think emotions are relative or absolute, they do correlate with your level of consciousness nonetheless. Edit: It is not like you are less you when experiencing an emotion, it is just that some emotional states can help or hinder you in seeing who/what you are. Peace/Love is connected to God, and anger/fear is cut off from God.

I would question that assumption. Emotions is a state of consciousness and has everything to do with awakening. Some emotions will hinder you from awakening. Don't underestimate the importance of emotions. True. No other mind can ever verify my enlightenment because fundamentally, I am the only mind and they are me.

There is no technique per se. Meditation isn’t a technique, it is a lifestyle like contemplation. Just sit down, be present, do nothing, watch, and be satisfied with just this right now. Very simple. Or is it? Another thing you can do is sit down, observe direct experience, and realize that I am the only mind that exists. Repeat the mantra "I am the only mind that exists." Sit in that solipsism and bask in it until you awaken.

Location 3 According to this test, I am awake lol. But I am not. Everyone claims to be awake these days because the standards for an awakening are misguided and are set really low. Awakening is beyond cessations and non-dual awareness. If that is all an awakening is, then I would be awake, but obviously, I am not. And many people who claim they are awake are really asleep.

Make a bucket list together and create a conversation list together of questions you have for each other. Sorry for what you are going through. Fortunately, you have time to really connect with your mom in a way many people may not have. Savor the moments. I wish you well.

Wow! Thanks so much! Gold mine here! What is your favorite book on that list? I am interested in improving my critical thinking skills.

Nice. Congrats. What traps and self-deception did you overcome? Can you give us some specific examples of the traps and self-deceptions you had to overcome so that a total noob could know where to start and how to overcome the obstacles? Cheers mate!

Read my posts as well and actually contemplate them. You then may understand why I don't work with "actual" teachers or operate from a teaching or school of thought because there is little point deluding my mind with various belief systems. None of that serves my top value for Truth and Understanding. If you really want to aspire to be a Truth-seeker, then at some point, you have to drop all teachers and teachings. The teachers I have worked with have inspired me to meditate and pursue truth, but ultimately, I had to walk my own path and discover what they were pointing to on my own to discern whether it is actually true. If you can't do something as simple as deconstructing Buddhism and all of religion, then what makes you think you can deconstruct all of reality? Maybe one day you will understand or not.

Add Buddhism to that list of ideas. That is right. It is hard for people to let go of Buddhism because it is a conceptual matrix in trying to grasp reality through concepts and beliefs. That is the whole point of the post is to deconstruct Buddhism and be a disciple of Truth not of Buddhism or any ideas.

Congrats mate! Good achievement. However, how do you know you are actually awake? How do you know you aren't self-deluded? How did you manage to overcome self-deception? What tricks and traps did you have to overcome along the way? How will you prevent yourself from snoozing back to sleep, in other words, how will you remain awake and lucid in life and avoid being dragged down back into the dream? What methods did you use and how do you know those methods can be trusted to produce a genuine awakening? If you had a genuine awakening, congrats. If you are fooling yourself, then there is no shame in admitting that and modifying your course because that will put you back in alignment with the Spirit of Truth.

How do you know? All that you described was something and not Nothing.