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For me working through this in my own relationships will be huge. There are so many unconsciousness manipulations mechanisms going on within me through my life and relationships... this is what scarred my relationships in my late teens and early 20s. I picked up a lot of these tactics to get the love my parents never gave me, and to cover my self esteem issues.

@benny There are so many factors in peoples situations depending on their genetics, up bringing, tastes, interest, mental faculties, heavy metal toxicity, access to information, age, financial problems, education etc to really say. I think people can do this work if they are willing to try it. I myself fuck up all the time. This work has benefited my life in amazing ways. But, also the misapplication and abusing of self actualization materials has created problems. You really don't know what you know unless you are willing to suffer through loss, confusion and the pain of admitting to yourself how self deceived you have been. We will all take our own path, and have our own capacities. There are so many ways to live in the world and I think that is one of the great things about being human.

Sounds like you've made a lot of growth and have a lot of systems in place. Glad to hear about your mature and balance take on psychedelics because I was putting way to my importance on them. I to think that 3-4 times a year for them is ideal. Or, at least 10-12 times. Once for each month. I am looking to get into pick up and will be taking Owen Cooks online pickup course. I am currently studying accounting and want to gain a high level understanding of finance. I think mastering that area would be important. I want to run my own business so the more skills I can have for setting this up and thinking long term, creating balanced and sturdy systems in my life the better. I have ADHD, and I will likely go back on medication for at least 6 months to see how that affects my focus and thinking. I can't say too much about what you are doing other than it sounds like you are growing into a well balance person despite a rough start in life with mental health. I have suffered greatly in my youth as well. Years of constant anxiety and self hatred. I sense I am beginning to balance out as I am using all the tools at my disposal and figuring out mature approaches to these tools. Thanks for the post!

Really this is a deep question that depends on so many factors. What are you trying to create? What impact are you looking to have? What systems actually work in order for you to do this? What resources do you have? What are you specializing in and what types of mediums do people consume that type of information? What are you passionate about? What is your life purpose statement? ... and more The future of information sharing and when you look at some of the best online businesses right now they are using more than one medium because they know their audiences consume information through a variety of mediums. Once people are working full time in a profitable business they are able to diversify and create powerful systems to serve their audiences in a high quality way. Leo's life purpose course has many powerful aspects to it. However, it's important as the decision maker that you decide what works. For example Holistic Song Writing has: A podcast A youtube Channel A book or 2 Various Courses 1 on 1 coaching Live coaching events A website Some businesses that are doing really well especially with things like Yoga, Meditation, Qigong and other information and health based products and services use: Facebook page and facebook groups Apps like Passion.io It really depends on the business you are creating. Often times these mediums complement each other and feed into one another in synergistic ways.

Marketing in our current world is a stage orange value. I also find myself resisting this but I know in order for me to create the life I want to live I will have to embrace this. It will be up to you to create high quality distinctions and as to what is low con Vs. High Con... Also, let's not demonize any stage of the spiral but integrate them into our lives to become powerful well rounded individuals and citizens. I have to admit to not fully understanding what you are saying in this post.

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This is a great quote and the more experience I gain in life the more I see this as true. I am just as capable of evil and devilry as anyone. This is why my compassion has grown to the point that I actually can't be honest about my opinions around normies. I see myself in everyone. The more mistakes I've made in my life the more my compassion has grown for others. There is a good book by Sheldon Kopp called "Mirror Mask and Shadow: The Risks and Rewards of Self Acceptance" This was a great book for helping me to accept my shadow desires, past mistakes and the inevitable mistakes I will make in my life. It also has helped me to accept just how harsh and cruel reality can be. The past few months I've been realizing this especially. My own ability to harm myself and others, to be deluded, and the shadow and sinister desires the exist within myself. Let this be a lesson on creating false self images, or false mechanical morality. Reality will smash your self image, your morals etc again and again because there is just too many risks and factors that will show up in our lives. I have made so many mistakes over the past few years. I don't have many great role models in my life, so I've made so many mistakes I wish I could take back sometimes... But, I can fully accept my ignorance more and more. The more we accept our fragmentation we can move toward greater unity. I fully accept and embrace the fact that I am not better or worse than anyone else and the people society tends to hate, is actually their own shadow. We all have a dark side. I think there are many books. I think the more often you can fully see and embrace and allow yourself to see these negative desires the better. When we can fully accept these aspects of ourselves without acting on them I think that is better. What we resist, hate, pitty, lie about, etc I think persists and will eventually express itself in harmful and dysfunctional way. We can fully accept reality, our dark desires etc without self hatred. Self love is after all the highest teaching.

If you find yourself losing ground with reality be prepared to be radically honest with yourself. Speak to others who are more grounded. Speaking to 'normies' can be really grounding like a rope back to the collective headspace. As much as we can judge our culture for being primitive, it's also great for survival which is the most foundational aspect of this work. Seeing reality as it is, mundane, normal, etc. It's important to ground yourself. Try speaking to a psychologist. I personally speak to a professional every week to work through my own personal problems and illusions. This idea that you will find 'Truth' and everything will change, be perfect forever and you will not longer have problems, or you will discover some mystical fate is false. Speak to people, embrace mundane ordinary reality. Take a break from the seeking, psychs, listening to gurus because I have fallen into that trap in the past and it only leads to spinning your wheels. Be patient, realize how long life is and that you don't need to know all the answer today. Let your life be lived. Don't focus on living by all these spiritual rules. Notice how you have lived fine before listening to all this stuff about being, doing, character, ego etc... Life is just what it is. We don't really want to live with all these spiritual concepts that are supposed to free us. They can easily become chains and delusion, despite wearing the robes of 'truth'. Don't chase spiritual and mystical highs. Embrace regularity.

Remember to space your trips out. I was over zealous I think when I first got into these substances and I got myself into trouble. I am currently going through a pretty big paradigm shift, admitting a lot to myself. I don't want anyone else to repeat my mistakes. Be careful, everyone. We need you sane, clear minded and healthy.

Sounds like a nice experience and mysterious experience. What do you personally think happened?

There you go, really you need to follow your own intuition and as long as you take proper precautions to ensure your safety... take it in a fool proof setting and stay grounded then I can't see it being a problem. 5meodmt is a different beast for sure.

Leos talks about how others are imaginary.. Sure it all is. But, God won't let me have what I want or to bend the rules of reality. Yet, Leo says people are imaginary. So am I alone or not? Clearly I am not. But GOD is. Not you, not any of us. That doesn't make sense. If no one else really exists than there should be no reason I can't imagine and have what I want. Clearly, the world is not just 'me' but all of us. Still, it doesn't all make sense from my ego. God clearly is just whatever it is... It's not human. Except, others do exist and reality limits us all as individuals.

I am 25, I am going bald... my knees hurt. I don't have enough money to do the things I want and have to play a long term game in order to save up... The more I learn about mastery the less likely it is music is going to work. I sometimes feel like killing myself so I can restart from the beginning. I am not the self actualizer I thought I was. I am not living up to my own expectations. I don't really have a family. There is no guarantees in reality. I feel like I have all this information but no money or time to implement it all. So, I have to settle for a mediocre life for the time being. Going through a victim thing. I really thought I was on my path to self actualizing my life purpose... but of course women cheat and then the screw you over and ruin your sense of self and business. I have life better than other people. Leo says I imagine others... But, that doesn't add up. Why would I as God be imagining this mundane existence? All of this is so gross and arbitrary. I don't know what is true, don't know who to trust, don't know... Why doesn't God allow it so I can have this knowledge about reality, mastery, life purpose etc at a younger age? It seems I came across this material to late into life. I feel a sense of hopelessness and depression. I know I am putting in the work, my life is moving forward. But, sometimes I wonder if all the suffering and constant going about mundane ordinary life is worth it. I want to live a blissful, ecstatic and creative experience. I want to spread music around the world but... I feel like I am getting too old. I am not proud of myself... This is ego. I've been suffering a lot of ego backlashes lately. Like Leo said.. "Don't shit in the pool"... Self sabotage has potentially cost me my life purpose as I saw it. Why? Why am I here? There is no reason. I am sure I will be fine. But, I don't know if I want to continue with myself sometimes. I am learning to love reality... But sometimes I hate it so much. I just want to be in Arcadefire but, I am not... I am just an ordinary asshole.

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Yeah well. These powerful substances destroy your sense of self and reality. Good luck being mature enough at 21 in our culture to handle this perfectly. How is a 21 year old going to measure their maturity with their little to no life experience? You can really hurt yourself or others with these substances. And when you do, no one will be there to help you. People will demonize you, and there will be no support from others. People already think these substances are bad, so they will assume their beliefs are founded. Plus, people here on the forum can't help you and Leo wont help you. He will encourage you to take the mind altering possibly destabilizing substance. But, the risk is 100% on you. You have to ask if that is a business decision you would make. There is no responsibility in these teachings. Leo takes no risk in your mistakes. That being said, LSD is likely not dangerous at low doses. None of us here know your situation or your maturity. Once you start taking these chemicals there is no way of knowing how your ego will respond and what stories you can tell yourself about what happened. If you do decide to take them. Be very careful, plan the trip out, let people know what you are planning to do and ensure that the set and setting is as safe as possible and be sure to have a day or 2 to do nothing and integrate.

Keep going and don't give up. I suffer from similar fears and limiting self beliefs.

@Gianna That is beautiful.

Interesting interview. Very grateful for Rak!

Yeah, maybe. But, is that absolute?

See, this is the problem with these teachings. There no checks in place for anyone to agree on anything. Why would reality be a game?

This is dangerous advice. You can't know if you are deluded or not, and it's obviously not obvious given all the self deception mechanisms. You can delude yourself and you can harm others. Given what this person has just said about being in a mental hospital saying that makes no sense. You can know given results you get within duality. But, even then.. There is a difference between being 'consciousness' and being sane, clear minded and aware. To me that is awakening.

Reality is not a game. It is real and should be taken seriously.

Honestly this is what makes this work so challenging. I don't know. I think you know whether you are conscious when you get good results, and unconsciousness when you get bad results. Sometimes you increase consciousness in one area, but it throws off the rest of your ability to be aware. It's hard because we are all alone in this. As long as we are keeping ourselves safe, staying grounded... How can we trust our own minds if we never work to discover our own self deceptions? This is really the foundation of actualized.org. The more accurate our models and perception the better. If we are getting ungrounded, scaring or hurting others then we are doing it wrong. Basically, if our consciousness changes radically too quickly there is like a 99% change you are ungrounded. This is bound to happen as we are questioning our own realities foundations, and with all the information that is flowing around the world right now. Knowing what is true, what is false is really the hardest thing and we need to approach this work with the respect and patience it requires. Awareness happens through deliberate practice, constant self reflection and admitting hard truths to ourselves. I want to also say that this isn't a place for mental health problems and it's important to ask this question to a professional. Out of curiosity can you explain in more detail what you were thinking and experiencing and why they felt the need to hospitalize you? Really, a great goal I think other than 'God Consciousness' or 'infinite understanding' which in my opinion are really pipe dreams the real goal could be developing a high level of clarity, balance and integrity. All things I am working on myself. I think it requires a lot of self love and self discipline to admit when we are wrong or deluded. It'll be okay the more you can observe yourself. I know this from observing my own ego defences and my own self deceptions, my own delusions, transference and mistakes.

Yeah. There is no need to rush into psychedelics. There are so many spiritual tools you can use. But, if you are like 25, then maybe? Honestly... I don't know anymore how I feel about these substances. They can be truth revealing but also they distort your sense of reality and can lead to foolish behaviour and ungroundedness. I thought I had a grasp on what they were but I was wrong. There is way to many bad role models in the world to know how they are to be used safely. And there is no way of knowing how you will react... Given your trauma history, ego maturity, and simply because they kill you in some ways. I've learned from direct experience that, they can show you new insights and truths into reality but they can also make you deluded.

Yes. And his work is bigger than any one of us because he serves 100,000+ people. We need to recognize and respect this. I think after Connor Murphy, and the recent suicide I am sure he feels a lot of fear around people misusing his teachings. This WILL continue to happen and is likely unavoidable. I know from doing my accounting program for example how many mistakes I make doing math etc... This is also happening all the time you are listening and creating a map of reality. So, it is a really tough situation where we need to take care of each other. I love all you guys. Let's keep each other safe. Ultimately though we need to just keep our bodies, minds, relationships, social status and finances secure and use common sense. You were God living in your own reality before awakening and you will after awakening. No amount of awakening or God realization is going to change the rules of reality. Videos like "God Realization" Speaking about ultimate power for example is very dangerous and likely to be easily misinterpreted by egos. Leo has said for everyone one of us that awakens and self actualizes 1000 will become zen devils and fuck up theirs and other peoples lives. BE CAREFUL. We need you sober, clear, grounded and healthy with a high level of honesty, integrity and ability to self reflect and own up to your own mistakes and misunderstandings. If you are tripping be grounded and don't go over board. Doing a lot of psyches will not turn you into some kind of super human guru and will likely do the opposite. Go slow, use them responsibility and you will discover some amazing stuff and grow enormously if you do it carefully. But, even if you think you are being careful there are risks. That doesn't mean you are a fucking idiot or a bad person. You simply need to take more responsbility and learn. The problem with psyches with that before you do them you go into it with all kinds of concepts, ego constructs etc.. and while you are tripping and in an altered state theres no knowing what you will say or think or conclude. This is why reading, journaling, meditation, and using low doses rarely is important. It will hurt, but don't give up. So, be really careful and don't expect the 'external' world to change because of your spirituality. Expect to change to meet reality and to serve what is already, and has already been here from a higher state of embodied understanding and wisdom. Sure, there are lots of things about reality that you have to discover and it can be recontextualized a lot but... Be safe out there and be grounded. When seeing the foolishness of others around you, in the world etc. It's easy to see there is no 'common sense'... and as you open your mind up and question the foundations of reality be sure to keep your rope tied to a tree. If you lose your mind, hurt others and destroy your life that would be a shame and a very rude awakening I would prefer we all avoid here. And I need you folks here to help me when I inevitably fall and make mistakes as well. I got you, and I know you got me. All said with healthy boundaries.