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Ultimately, you are responsible for you. Also, there is risk to everything. Statistically the condition you have is pretty rare. It's also a side effect of covid itself right?

@Judy2 Lol, dang! Just kidding.

Please take a break. These ideas have nothing to do with your life. Go, relax, take a break from all this stuff. Go talk to friends and family. Take a break from all things Actualized.org for awhile. Infinity doesn't mean you will end up here again and again... It means things can be new and interesting and fun for ever. Not the same thing again and again. You are misapplying the ideas which is stressing you out. These ideas should make life more fun and enjoyable. Your doing it wrong. So, go relax and be normal. Chill, enjoy some nice tea etc. Your just a guy or girl... You are living your life, just like the rest of us. Relax, chill, go play some video games, read a book. This phase you are in will end in time. It's alright.

I took it and I am fine.

Well, they clearly exist so that is false on some level. Description is part of the Absolute itself. But, they aren't the same as Grokking it in its totality. But, what you are saying is obvious to me. I think I explain this in my response. Well, we do. 5meodmt and others... I mean, that at least sky rockets you if used properly. However, yeah. I got my Qigong 'grind' still, and meditation. So, you aren't wrong imo. But, we have technologies that can allows us to grow much faster than in the past.

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But is that really the highest emobodimemt of Gods love? sounds more like a lack of technology

@Apple Juice I get you. Just be patient. I can’t really relate because audios don’t have that strong effect on me… but good luck with everything.

Take a break

Wondering what you think? 1. Not learning to deal with failure 2. Not taking life serisouly 3. Half assing life 4. Letting yourself be distracted 5. Not being willing to really look at how your behavior is shaping your life 6. Not enjoying what is...

No, actually you need to make the distinction between reading my list, and the reference experiences I am pulling from from my mystical experiences. there are many facets to awakening not sure what you are talking about. even infinity is finite… obviously a list of words is just a list of words. But, what they point to (my direct mystical experiences) were actual things I realized in some of my deepest states… the list is a pointer… and a post on a forum. hmmmm, symbolic pointers will always be important when communicating these things to ‘others’…. As is all of Leo’s work or any sacred text for example. That is the key point of implicit vs explicitly understanding. Awakenings are implicit, lists are explicit. and, frankly though I’ve had deep mystical experiences I have many more to come… also lots more embodiment, and integration and maturing to do. other guys list is a different context I think… maybe that is more projection…

I think his work is pretty good embodiment of this… I am very grateful for Leo’s work. I assume he is pointing to his work. It’s pretty fucking amazing IMO. not to blow smoke up your ass Leo. Leo is a reflektor in my books.

I think it’s more like… Classically, women embody more feminine energy while men embody more masculine energy. As part of the Yin and Yang, manifestation of all aspects of reality there is divine masculine and divine feminine traits running all through nature… I have to study this more but… right now I think these are archetypes, metaphors for explaining these polarities. There is also like shakti and sheeva this is also a concept I hear about in a lot of tantric and sacred sexuality teachings and circles when teaching high level sexuality and intimacy… I will note to do more research here.

@Apple Juice Look man, change is constant. The problem may be that you've constructed an identity of who you are. That was just a mask you were wearing and identified with. If it changed, then that wasn't really who you are. That is a painful lesson for a lot of people but, in the end its gonna free you up for more and more joy and freedom than you can currently imagine.

No, God completely understands. However, you are here to experience the duality, to experience the fear and the suffering and the ignorance and then to develop yourself, transcend it and then maybe if. you choose to inspire and help others through your example. Light a candle... Be a lighthouse. Your work is Gods work. God loves that you suffer and fight for Good. To one day be free of all the suffering.

@BenG I love the book "Code of the Extraordinary Mind" By Vishen Laikiani. I mean, liberation is different for others. Who am I to judge.

Don't compare yourself to others. Build the proper life systems and be intelligent about survival needs. AND, you can also liberate yourself. Truth liberation is done intelligently within the systems you are in, given the resources you currently have.

I know you're living in my mind It's not the same as being alive I know you're living in my mind It's not the same as being alive Supersymmetry Supersymmetry If telling the truth is not polite Then I guess you'll have to fight If telling the truth is not polite Then I guess we'll have to fight Supersymmetry Supersymmetry Supersymmetry Supersymmetry I lived for a year, in the bed by the window Reading books, better than memories Wanna feel the seasons passing Wanna feel the spring Of supersymmetry Supersymmetry Supersymmetry Supersymmetry It's been a while since I've been to see you I don't know where, but you're not with me Heard a voice, like an echo But it came from me Supersymmetry Supersymmetry (supersymmetry) Supersymmetry (supersymmetry) Supersymmetry (supersymmetry) Ah, lalala lala Ah, lalala lala Ah, lalala lala Ah, lalala lala Supersymmetry Supersymmetry

I agree. Leo, be responsible. I am sure you are but.. be safe my guy.

@Breakingthewall The goal of my journey is infinite beauty and love. Whatever it takes.

Yeah, my deepest awakenings I realized: 1. Absolute Safety 2. Absolute Love 3. Eternity 4. Infinity 5. Oneness 6. Love and forgiveness of all people 7. Freedom of taboo of the body and nudity/ touching 8. Total Self forgiveness 9. Perfect Peace 10. That reality IS love. 11. Total Freedom 12. This present moment as absolute truth.. When sober there is a lot of questions, ego accumulations etc that need working on. And, I still think I need to have more stable awakenings to really dive deeper and learn more. Then there was the possibility of me being in a slumber and hiding from my true powers.

My deepest awakenings I felt like I understood why every human has done anything they ever did and I realized it was Love. But, love with ignorance. I love and forgive everyone in my highest awakened states. Forever. This is why I teach Qigong and I will be studying and teaching high level Sacred Sexuality, breath work, high level journaling/ contemplation and inner work/ shadow work... in the future. Embodying Infinite Love. It's my ego and cognitive behaviour now, in my day to day that I am improving and I will continue to grow deeply over the next 5 years. I still have a tonne of fears, doubts, uncertainties I am working through. Trying to wrap my head around human behaviour, survival and the social matrix and my own mind. Each day I increase my awareness.

Wait, you wanna kill yourself for feeling masculine? You should speak to a psychologist. Just give it time. It sounds like there is something else going on with you. Just be patient and relax. Call a suicide help line and speak to them. I've had plenty of suicidal thoughts in my life I know it well. I now call the help line right away when it happens so I am not alone with those thoughts. You are loved, and perfect.

Understanding only seems like part of the puzzle.

Do you feel an ego boost or something knowing more than me? just kidding. Take care for now.