Thought Art

I've got this vision... I am a sailer... I must prove my ability to navigate the seas of life. Find that balance.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0CeLRrBAI60

My first Albums artwork and poster! It was such a fun yet scary and stressful time pushing myself to complete my first creative vision.

This song has always inspired me. I don't wanna work in a building downtown No, I don't wanna work in a building downtown I don't know what I'm gonna do Cause the planes keep crashing always two by two I don't wanna work in a building downtown No, I don't wanna see when the planes hit the ground I don't wanna work in a building downtown I don't wanna work in a building downtown Parking their cars in the underground Their voices when they scream, they make no sound I wanna see the cities rust And the trouble makers riding on the back of the bus Dear God, I'm a good Christian man In your glory, I know you understand That you gotta work hard and you gotta get paid My girl's thirteen, but she don't act her age She can sing like a bird in a cage Oh Lord, if you could see her when she's up on that stage You know that I'm a God fearing man You know that I'm a God fearing man But I just gotta know if it's part of your plan To seat my daughters there by your right hand I know that you'll do what is right, Lord For they are the lanterns, and you are the light Now I'm overcome By the light of day My lips are near, but my heart is far away Tell me what to say I'll be your mouthpiece! Into the light of a bridge that burns As I drive from the city with the money that I earned Into the black of a starless sky I'm staring into nothing, and I'm asking you why Lord, will you make her a star? So the world can see who you really are Little girl, you're old enough to understand That you'll always be a stranger in a strange, strange land The men are gonna come while you're fast asleep So you better just stay close and hold on to me If my little mocking bird don't sing Then daddy won't buy her no diamond ring Dear God, would you send me a child? Oh God, would you send me a child? Cause I wanna put it up on the TV screen So the world can see what your true word means Lord, would you just send me a sign? Cause I just gotta know if I'm wasting my time Now I'm overcome By the light of day My lips are near, but my heart is far away Now the war is won How come nothing tastes good? You're such a sensitive child Oh, you're such a sensitive child I know you're tired, but it's alright I just need you to sing for me tonight You're gonna have your day in the sun You know God loves the sensitive ones Oh, my little bird in a cage Oh, my little bird in a cage I need you to get up for me, up on that stage And show the men that you're old for your age Now ain't the time for fear But if you don't take it, it'll disappear Oh, my little mockingbird, sing Oh, my little mockingbird, sing I need you to get up on that stage for me, honey And show the men it's not about the money Wanna hold a mirror up to the world So that they can see themselves inside my little girl Do you know where I was at your age? Any idea where I was at your age? I was working downtown for the minimum wage And I'm not gonna let you just throw it all away I'm through being cute, I'm through being nice Oh, tell me, Lord, am I the Antichrist?

Engramn -" All is well, all is forgiven. This moment is perfect. Forever." Engramn - "Dance around the Fire light symphony, where everybody loves you that you see. They put their loving arounds around you 'Believe me I've been through it too'" The Album art is actually a Qigong standing posture. I did not know this at the time of it's creation. It's based on the cover page of this book: It's a posture for protecting your heart energy. I also felt like it was Jesus taken down from the cross. Or, the opposite of crucifiction.

My initial idea for this project was to create relaxing folk pop music that is inspiring and interesting. But, I didn't want to create just another folk singer. I wanted Engramn to feel like it was it's own universe.

My current project and my "One Thing" is The Effortless Workweek. An online business focused on teaching and coaching busy professional with skills for relaxation, more energy, mindfulness and greater physical comfort to enjoy their work weeks with joy.

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Engramn is the name of my music, but I like the idea of building a fictional character out of it. I like the idea of writing poetry and music through this character. Engramn is an artistic project. I’ve played shows and festivals under this name. I felt there was real potential there. Sadly, I hit a really hard wall when my girlfriend and business partner was cheating on me and I lost my footing with spiritual foolishness, anger, trying to heal/ hide from the pain. This lead me to Qigong which I think has really been a life saver for me. The biggest reason this project is on hold is I’m focusing on grounding and building solid life skills and systems for living. I went back to school for 8 months and got a higher paying job and I’m about to be certified in Qigong ideally by the end of this week. I am starting an online business called the Effortless workweek to teach Qigong, breathwork and relaxation skills to office employees. The goal is to use this to break free from wage slavery. Then, maybe by the time I’m 30 I can work on my dream music project.

I saw it coming a month before it all went down when he was commenting a lot on the forum. What went wrong was he was using psychedelics without proper grounding and he over used them. He wouldn’t listen to anyone around him. He fell into the trap of grandiose purpose and prophecy combined with child like self deception and game playing. I like Connor. Hope he builds something better in the future. Hope he matures. I like how to doesn’t address in the video how he went way off the deep end. He says it was all an act but I think he is lying?

There is only one thing to really do. I’m stuck in this reality as it is. I’m nothing special and it’s incredibly complex, difficult, painful and confusing. There’s no knowing if I am on the right track or self deceived as I am always rationalizing to a certain extent my own opinions and decisions. I simply need to be disciplined, realistic , intentional, willing to face the truth of whatever weaknesses I have etc So many weaknesses… everyday I get older and closer to being useless… but, also more useful as long as I am developing skills. maybe music is simply a pipe dream. It’s things like this that make me questions God… why have all this beautiful stuff but make me have to work a wage slave job or have me make all my decisions since I’ve was young that could have been more strategic? Feeling a bit sad today. That’s okay, full feel.

Mastery and success are deeply important to me. I am 26, I feel like I was often very close to success in my life but there have been many internal and external obstacles. I need to face truth more often and let that be my rock solid power. I don’t know what life has in store for me. I’m trying to make something beautiful. Music is my passion, God gave me that. God gave me tinnitus. 1. I shouldn’t be identified as a skilful person in any area of life until I’ve received a lot of feedback and put hundreds of thousands of hours into a thing. 2. my personal finances are not ideal and need to be dealt with. I’ve been pushing to hard to build something and I’m concerned I’ve over stretched myself. It’s doable, I just upgraded from my personal finance spread sheet to using Mint to track it. I’m investing in education mostly. But am I trying to do to much to fast? Maybe it’s my fear of aging. I have to build powerful life systems, skills, mastery, higher self esteem and balance, forethought, integrity, mastery, adeptness

I’d like to write more, record more and play more shows. But, I don’t know how long it will take for me to have the time to do that again. I feel like I have a lot I am working on. sometimes I feel confident but at the same time, I’m Getting older and there’s no denying master takes thousands of hours of practice. I’m not sure if I will make my dreams a reality. Plus, I feel often encumbered by fears.

Okay so here is an example of a deductive inference from the book: philosophy of science a very short introduction by Samir Okasha All Frenchmen like red wine Pierre is a Frenchman Therefore, Pierre likes red wine This is deductive reasoning, says the author because if the premise is true, then the conclusion is true… an example of an inductive inference given by the author is: The first five eggs in the box were good. All the eggs have the same best-before date stamped on them Therefore, the sixth egg will be good too This is inductive reasoning because the premise may be true, but could also be false…. However, I think that deductive reasoning is full of the problem of question begging. Where in reality do you start with a 100% true premise? You don’t. Is the stamp not a partial premise? As is a sentence stating all Frenchman like wine? Both are statements that carry plenty of assumptions. also, even the example given in the book for deductive reasoning is actually an inductive inference because if the premise is true is begging the question. A true deductive inference can only really take place in philosophical abstraction and not in day to day life. I am sure there are contexts in wife when we can treat things with deductive reasoning like in programming or in our business procedures. It can be a totally useful survival tool. But, In truth this is only actually inductive reasoning. However, contemplate the famous painting “This is not a pipe”. There is a blurring and problem with thinking that things are either deductive or inductive when in reality these are not clear distinctions when it comes to most reasoning in reality. When you go meta on reading the actual book, and then think about how inductive and deductive reasoning is done in reality. It’s almost like deductive reasoning doesn’t even exist. In fact, the ego mind can misuse and abuse a false sense of deductive reasoning in science, politics, business, morality, etc This is not a pipe the map is not the territory the limits of symbolic reasoning… The only deductive this in reality is Being and Absolute Truth.

A crucial insight into all of our suffering and worries is… if you are in a room laying down…. There’s nothing there… stop all the dreaming and just be. Perfection.

Extrapolate this into all domains of life

The trick is to find the Truly Good Stuff and to Yoke.

When you are a newbie, the state and it's implications can be so confusing, especially with Leo's teachings. Your ego mind will try to use it, create false stories and all your neurosis, ignorance, wishful thinkings etc can create a storm for you if you do it too often. Er of the side of caution for the first few years of tripping. There is plenty of sober work to do (Qigong, journaling, reading, life purpose, education, upgrading systems for living, Yoga, Meditation, breathwork, etc). "Take the poison of your age Don't lick your fingers when you turn the page It was wrong but you said it was right In the future I will read at night..."

Some people recommend more than one trip in a session as they change in quality as you grow into the state. 5meo is unique in that way because it lasts rather short. Just don't abuse psychedelics. If you do, realize it and change. Take a break. Take your lessons and teach others. Don't hurt yourself or others. Be a good role model for these tools.

I've been healing a broken heart, grounding myself, feeling and working through fear and limiting beliefs.

Wei Chi