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General Life Purpose Journal. Feel free to comment on and partake in my journey.

We all feel the itch if shenpa. The trick is not to scratch it

Going to contemplate healthy conflict resolution. I have difficult neighbours upstairs who just screamed at me through a door for leaving a note. This resulted in a shouting match. I want to find a way of being truly powerful in those situations. No hurling insults, not physical posturing, not getting emotionally triggered. At the same time I am not a fucking push over or people pleaser and if you gonna scream at me for making reasonable request your asking for a conflict. I am not gonna live somewhere and pay rent and allow you to speak to me that way. Time for contemplation.

Note: Please feel free to add to the list. 1. You are planning out your weeks, months, and years with some kind of scheduling system 2. You use Onenote, excel, google calendar, bullet journals, reMarkable Tablet etc to plan, calculate, organize, schedule, contemplate and to live intentionally every day 3. You are acting out of love, integrity, wisdom, balance, forethought, patience, self honesty, congruence, with your highest values, long term thinking etc 4. You are acting not from a sense of fear, lack, neediness, or addiction 5. You make decisions from a place of being grounded and of stability 6. You are aware of how your actions affect others, and can see the potential consequences of your actions 7. Your decisions are creating a sense of balance, stability, and self esteem instead of regret, self pity and frustration 8. When you make mistakes you are able to self reflect, admit when you were wrong take responsibility and accept the consequences consciously. 9. You are frequently updating your models of reality and systems for living (check out: Code of The Extraordinary Mind) 10. You are increasingly happy and joyful 11. Your mind is organized, clear, stable, sober, grounded, aligned, integral and in flow 12. You are open minded to ideas but not naive, gullible or impulsive. nor are you dogmatic or closed minded. 13. You are aware of how you are drawn to pleasure and phobic to pain. Instead of letting these things mindlessly control you. You do what is the wisest course of action 14. You take great care in your information diet and and take life long learning seriously. You are aware that your ability to make decisions is based on your database of information, resources, knowledge, experience, beliefs, etc 15. You live based on your highest vision for yourself 16. You are patient and not needy

Expand your tool kit. Notice how you feel and go meet some more people, make some new connections. There are conscious computer geeks out there for sure.

How to think properly

He mentioned like last year he is gonna take a vacation for a month or two every year

Good for getting turnt Can be good when used sparingly for insights, fun, love, creativity and relaxation. I personally find it addictive, and so far it seems I am doing a great job FINALLY quitting.

For some reason one of my 15 second shorts on youtube has exploded and has 600 views! Not sure whats going on but maybe the algorithm is starting to like me.

@Karmadhi Thanks mate!

Sex is a powerful energy! In the Tao it's not stigmatized. But, it was in a lot of religions and philosophical schools. Sex is one of the least understood things in our age.

Definitely, Theses lists are by no means complete. Also, I may have mentioned it in video as I usually go deeper in the talks.

Sassy ?‍♀️

I remember this insight when I was like 10 or 12 as a young endurance athlete. Made me OP because I knew the pain didn’t matter

1. That doesn’t seem holistic to me. Who else is doing politics but God 2. If God tells a white dude he’s that smartest ever and then he goes off into the world making political decisions from that… as the op is sharing here it’s true to HIM. In fact this thread brings together science, politics, belief, mystical insight, God, interpretation… was it really god or a delusion or misinterpretation? 3. I’m not assuming anything other than what I observe around me. People of all colours seem to be pretty intelligent. There’s stats and everything. But, I get that someone can filter out that info or depending on where they are in history have certain beliefs. Your subjective beliefs don’t change all facts. Being a ‘maga’ may make trump the best leader to you. But, that’s subjective. 4. the two last paragraphs seems to contradict on some level. Obviously what someone believes or ‘dreams’ is ‘real’ to them. But it’s not actually real it’s just a mental model or program they run. Reality and perspective is relative. So, are we not imaging an overlay of belief onto an objective ‘physical’ reality when is totally subjective to what is observing it? anyway, I feel like I’m not wording this well. Night fellas not arguing just wrapping head around thread ? not sure if I’m on the right page

Try first dose of Huperzine A 200mg... Will leave reports throughout the week. Going to do 2 doses a week. I notice increased mental clarity. We will see what happens.

Sometimes when you speak like this (which I find you do more on the forum than in your videos) it waters down a lot of the political talk you've done. Like, episode on conscious politics for example. God seems to be dreaming as if there are black people outside of my bubble of experience with their own bubble of experience. They are just as smart as anyone else. There seems to be a history of other people doing stuff that I didn't do. Sure, it's just what God is dreaming in it's mind. But, your almost in ungraspable territory where everything simply is as qualia in the infinite void.

Yeah, theres a bit of a logical fallacy there Leo. Just because I believe xyz is true doesn't make it true. Just means I live and act as if it were true.

Sure, but many nutritionist also say that animal fat and processed meats clog arteries. How do you know those books are accurate, truthful and not biased? What science have you done yourself? Not all nutritionist agree so, now we come into the problem of belief and authority. Which idea in the mind of God about clogged arteries is correct? What are the nuances?

https://youtu.be/SniI1RjTaL8 5meo movie

https://youtu.be/SniI1RjTaL8

Recently I was in a coaching program but I had an ego backlash and did everything I could to get out of it. I realized it was simply too early for me and I have to spend the next 3-5 years working on myself before I can start a business. I have some issues with regards to trust, finances, etc. Regardless. I would describe my behaviour as potentially manipulative and devil like. A problem I am finding is that I am almost fragmented. When I feel scared, uncomfortable, etc It's almost like another me comes into play and starts fucking with me. I start demonizing others, feeling paranoid, thinking people just want my money etc. I start feeling this neediness like I need peoples attention. I notice that my perspective becomes constricted, I start seeing all the problems with reality instead of the solutions. I distract myself with youtube shorts or youtube videos. I swear, or curse or I complain or demonize. I think that I actually have a very toxic aspect to myself that needs to be addressed if I am going to be successful. I think my attachment style is something like disorganized avoidant. I want to live a life of integrity. Right now I really need to spend the next 5 years building solid foundations. Because if I don't build these foundations in my: 1. Character, integrity, foresight, maturity, groundedness 2. Financial health and systems 3. Skillset, education, qualification 4. Mental Health 5. Spiritual practice 6. Cognitive behaviour 7. Qigong, yoga/ Skeletal/ muscular and spiritual integration/ alignment I think I need to stay at my current job, build up a healthy savings and enjoy a higher level of groundedness, maturity, well being and develop the feeling of safety and self love. I find myself coming in and out. It seems I am sometimes at a higher state of consciousness and other times at a lower state. I am slowly developing self trust, but I also know I am not to fully trust myself yet. Here is a list of ways I want to start to notice my devil like behaviour and begin to self reflect and correct it because its going to sabotage all my success in life. 1. Start a Devilry file in my reMarkable tablet and begin defining what a devil is to me, build this definition over time and begin noticing how I am actually a devil 2. Be open and honest with myself when I am in a devil like state and begin noticing how I enjoy my devil and victim like attitude. 3. Notice how others are devils in their own way and develop compassion for them and for myself because I know first hand how hard it is to be a good person Devilry is a real issue. I no longer think of myself as a good person but instead want to see myself for who I really am. I will continue along my purification, maturing and life mastery process. Until I build a solid foundation there is no success to be had in the social/ business domain of life.

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Yes, I’ve messaged the company to apologize and to do the wisest more high integrity thing I can going forward. Whether it’s rejoining the program… or if they don’t accept me back allowing them to keep the money as I promised I would pay instead of demanding a refund. I’d rather have self respect looking back at myself in 5 years than see I was being a greasy coward.