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Another trap is when you deconstruct your mind... when it becomes groundless you end up stepping on false stones.. this could lead to going "fully murphy".

You could waste time listening to this guy or you could go and awaken

Sounds like she is really just using you. A better girl is out there just WAITING to suck on your cock.

some more based on Leo’s “Full Murphy” comment 1. Thinking you are the chosen one or that you are being called to do something for God like win a grand tournament 2. Taking psychedelics and live streaming yourself to friends and family or clients 3. Thinking that taking a psychedelic means a permanent change in “physically reality” and the workings on the world ? 4. Letting your fantasies run your spirituality instead of deconstructing them 5. Abusing psychedelics 6. Not listening to wiser more grounded people telling you that you are ungrounded and unwell 7. Not going slow and building a foundation of habits, epistemology etc 8. Confusing spiritual work with non-stop fun, ecstasy and excitement 9. Trying to make a show of yourself 10. Thinking you are Jesus or that you are here to pull some kind of wild stunts to awaken man kind 11. Thinking you can tell the future of some kind of divine awakening or mass event or divine plan 12. Thinking that being loving means giving always all your money and losing healthy boundaries and security to others (Conor gave his banking information away to the public) 13. Abusing others in the name of your spiritual schemes 14. Losing connection to reality and the social constructions and culture which you are a part of 15. letting your ego and mental health issues run you and destroy your career, reputation, and financial health. 16. Ignoring the warnings that material is “advanced, I mean ADVANCED” 17. thinking you can go from low conscious sex and prank videos to high level spiritual teacher in just a few short weeks, months or days 18. Thinking you are ready to teach when you are very clearly mentally ill 19. As Leo would put it “Making a Mockery of this work” 20. Losing connection to the long term consequences of your actions 21. saying you are following “such and such” teaching, when really you have bastardized it into some sick form of zen devilry … a spiritual person does by not doing. and I think an important one… Yes, even if in your past you have gone “Full Conor Murphy” or even partially “Murphy”… Keep going, work through that shame and embarrassment, learn from your lesson, become a better person, learn from the mistakes, love yourself, forgive yourself, ground yourself, acknowledge your evil, deluded, selfish, self deceptive ways…. Then, Continue to work on yourself and build a life of wisdom, integrity, consciousness and principles. Past mistakes and bad behaviour is no excuse not to work on yourself not love yourself or your path. Others may have gone “Full Murphy” and we’d be naming it after them. So, alchemize this bad thing into a good thing. Sometimes showing the world what not to do, can be good. Unfortunately for Conor is he was famous. Many of us here working through our own deluded bullshit have the luck of being nobodies. Let’s not kick Conor around for too long. We want to see Conor be stable, healthy and successful helping the world in whatever way he chooses. Seems he is moving his brand towards helping people get over social anxiety. And always remember that “I” love you and that “I” want what is best for you and all whom you touch in this life. Forever forgiven, forever loved and forever understood. This love is unconditional. Put human relation is not. Personally, I was a bit ungrounded a year or two ago and found being able to watch Conor go through his shit was helpful in grounding me and what not to do. I followed him very closely and I actually warned the forum that he was. Zen Devil when he was commenting here months before his break downs really took off. It was this that inspired me to… slow down with my life purpose. Study new forums of spiritual practice like Qigong. Learn accounting and marketing, and build my life a better foundation and continue with the readings, the contemplations, the observing, the cleaning out of fantasy and shadow materials, that grounding in wisdom, consciousness and principles. I am not yet wise. But, each day I lay a stone in its name.

I might just print it off and sell it as my own jk jk I like when I read in a Vernon Howard book he said "It's good to see the bad in yourself" another good one is - 1. Being fooled by peoples ‘spiritual’ outward appearance 2. not realizing people are splintered

@universe It's all good. I wasn't saying its the most expensive in Canada or that this year is the most expensive. Just that, a lot of young people find it difficult. It's not just My city but a lot of young people in Canada in general. Rent isn't the only factor. https://globalnews.ca/news/8898654/canadian-cities-unaffordable-young-residents/ The fact that young people have an average deficit, regardless of province is problematic. Which was my point. Which, seems almost unrealistic to me. This is why education and getting a good paying job, planning long term is crucial. But if you haven't done that. You can still figure it out. You just will have to make sacrifices. It's hard too. Like, are that stats correct and up to date? Quotes aren't great info.

@universe Thats fine. https://atlantic.ctvnews.ca/young-halifax-residents-say-they-are-being-priced-out-of-the-city-they-love-1.5917501 Maybe you are rich. But, us with average jobs struggle with the ever increasing rent, food and gas prices, and electricity. Obviously roommates and being extremely stingy makes it livable. Renovictions. Regardless this is not related to thread. I am not really sure I appreciate your responses by the way in this regard. Doubting what I know FROM WHERE I LIVE.

@universe Yeah, I get his position. I am just saying. The statement "You shouldn't have any financial struggles at 29" unfortunately isn't a reality even for people with stable jobs. Also, everyone journey is different. Let him figure out his stuff. When rent, foot, electricity, consume all your income. It's a struggle. This is normal for most people in my city aged 25-35 as it's the most expensive place to live in my country. Not related but an example. Yes, becoming a sage isn't likely his main focus right now. Get the basic down. But don't age guilt yourself or let anyone else. Start where you are.

She's not sexually attracted to you. But, wants sexual gratification. Sort of a 180 from a match Leave

@universe Yet, may people struggle to support themselves

@Asayake Could be? It just doesn't sound like the makings for a healthy relationship.

@acidgoofy Ahaha, really.. my biggest problem is financial struggles from being laid off and how that is affecting my mind. I really don't like insecurity. But, it's my fault for not doing proper financial savings over the years. I was pretty well paycheck to paycheck for as long I can remember. Trying to get out of that.

Sounds like you two aren't a sexual Match. It's really up to you what you do. Idk, if a girl calls my dick small, wont touch it, wont have sex with me, but only wants sexual favours from me. Maybe, theres more going on there. For me sex is important. It honestly sounds like she doesn't respect you as a man. Maybe she is gay? You want a woman who respects you as a man, and a woman who wants you sexually. I wouldn't waste my time.

I met a girl recently who was raised by skinheads after becoming homeless at 13. She seems like one of the most loving and open minded people as I meet her. I wonder what her journey was like. Sounds like she just clung onto them for survival as she had no one else. Often times people are just surviving.

@puporing I now recognize the reality of your experience. I'm sorry I'm not always the best at communicating my ideas. It was not my intent to deny your experience. I will work to improve my ability to communicate my thoughts respectfully

https://psychonautwiki.org/wiki/5-MeO-DMT Those are reported symptoms if you look at the physical symptoms reported.

@puporing Understood.

@puporing I understand. I can see how it was triggering in retrospect. My initial interpretation was dismissive of it being a near death experience. It very well could have been. It sounded very similar to my own direct experience when it comes on strong and is very scary and can trigger an anxiety attack because your ego is REALLY dying. I apologize.

I posted this. Then I started reading posts from you saying I was trashing your thread. So, Idk where the drama started but I don't feel like it was me. I posted a matter of fact opinion based on my outsider interpretation and my OWN direct experience. My later posts noted your perspective, and that maybe it was indeed dangerous. But, that took some time for me to understand. I understand that what happened to you was very scary, and you felt threatened by it. It may have been dangerous. I apologize for not validating your experience right away.

@puporing I've left my first post the same, then added an elaboration. What you described has multiple interpretations from outsiders. Get over it. I don't know what you experienced. My first interpretation was: "wow she probably just got scared because 5meodmt is a fucking sledge hammer and really scary" But, then I opened up, expanded and allowed more interpretations to unfold. Like "maybe it was too much, and it was a dangerous situation. I have seen that before as well" But, You seemed triggered. Which wasn't my intention. I feel like I can feel your energy right now. I contain multitudes.

You guys are projecting. I meant to say, if you are doing mushrooms, the degree of ego death is less than 5meodmt. I don't really think thats arguable. I haven't encouraged her to do more, or any higher doses. Your mind assumed things I haven't said. Do I know if she actually had a bad reaction or it was just scary? NO! So, I have done nothing wrong. Your an adult. Take care of yourself. I've very clearly laid out that: 1. I agree with her 2. 5meodmt is dangerous 3. She did the right thing. I can't say anymore. Ya'll can enjoy demonizing me though. Lol what do I have to be aggressive about ahaha

Love is the most powerful force

Thank you everyone for supporting with my recent trigger and negative thought pattern self deception. I found that a small mushroom dose, and hanging out with friends was enough to lift my spirits and change my patterns. I am enjoying myself, though I don't know what the future holds. I think I am trying to succeed with Force, but I need to embody Power.

How is she doing?

@mrPixel It's not like Cocaine at all. It's a mixture of random drugs. Don't think you need to lock the thread as people may have more to add. Seems this stuff is spreading to America and Europe. Please people on the forum, don't take random street drugs. Be safe!