Thought Art

I sense he spoke about it before we had real results! Krya so far is uncomfortable but, perhaps there’s something there.

Getting blazed is sorta chill and fun. Tripping requires mastery, safety protocols, respect, self constraint, careful measuring, etc. Tripping can be very dangerous and requires you to be mature, grounded and to keep yourself held to a high standard. To me getting blazed is fine and fun. But, tripping on something like 5meo is a whole other beast. It requires respect ✊. Lastly, no. You can’t get very far on cannabis edibles. A mushroom trip is very different.

@MarkKol interesting perspective. I think I’m going to continue to study the books on finance, wealth building and accounting. There’s way more out there on personal finance than just rich dad poor dad/ wealthy barber etc… there’s books I’m reading that help you build systems, spreadsheets, debt to income ratios etc… A lot of them have exercises and stuff I never would have done on my own. Also, I fundamentally havent given money the thought and respect I deserve. My financial archetypes were designed through my neurotic, needy, self defeating old operating system I’m working daily to reprogram into an integral and wise mind. I have nothing else to do after work except study finance for this year pretty much. I will also play music and do Qigong, read other materials and contemplate etc But, I’m going to study money more and more deeply.

So, perhaps I realize today that since I am already 26, I am broke and will spend the next two years working two jobs unrelated to my passions or interests... That my life is pretty well over. Well, my life in terms of music or art. I can still enjoy it as a hobby... But, without being able to make it a career I just have to let it go I guess. So, what now? I've been contemplating it. Besides blaming and cursing God for the rest of my life for creating my dumb ass. I think I can only do the following. 1. Focus on my financial health by studying books, saving, paying off debt and getting a healthy savings 2. Focus on my mental health 3. Build healthier relationships by dating, reading books and taking courses 4. Practice deeper and deeper states of surrender and acceptance 5. Focus on tripping on weekends for deeper spiritual insights. 6. Focus on over all health by eating well, sleeping well, and relaxing in when I am not at work 7. Embracing a boring, mediocre life realizing my dreams were crushed by my own stupidity and Gods love for just letting people suffer 8. Focus on reading as much as I can in my free time 9. Maybe go back to school and become a CPA so I can make six figures 10. Maybe create an online Qigong followering (but I don't find Qigong as creative as music) Basically, the only thing to do is make peace with how shit reality is. Then, maybe it wont be so shit. Maybe from that shit I can create a happier life can I ever thought possible? I just, I wish I could in a band like Arcadefire and experience the rush of that sound and that success. But, I feel like I fucked it all up. So, I am going to focus on security, relationships and deeper relaxation and states of health and surrender. I guess, it's like a living suicide. Work on my unconditional happiness. The path of surrender (while still making constructive life decisions) is the only thing that makes sense. Life does not give a fuck about me. So, I just gotta do what I can with what I have.

@Questioner My finger is not a hand. Yet, it is. God can't be separate from what is the case. This is the case. Therefore it's God. You are God, but you are human. Limited to being human in this dream.

It was all an episode of Malcom in the Middle

I think what you are saying is true. My problem was that I put my practicing and performing ABOVE EVERYTHING ELSE for like 3 years. Which is why I am really quite good. Just broke. So, now I am pursuing accounting and Qigong and health and building my foundation, fixing my finances etc. I am taking responsibility, unlike what Heart of Space said. However, I am realizing how the fuck am I gonna be rich? How am I gonna be successful? Is life worth living if I can't do those things? What steps do I need to take? What is enjoying reality for it's own sake?

@StarStruck No one needs to be nice, I really don't care. What they say is not worse than what reality is actually like.

Perhaps that is true. However,I really don't know right now. I am simply focusing on my health, my accounting career, Qigong and my music.... Foundation is key, and just allowing and accepting reality as it is.

Actually, just graduated as an accountant and pursuing this career already. I spend most of my time studying this year studying personal finance, accounting and practical psychology. Qigong is an actual non-spiritual health practice with scientifically proven benefits as well. However, This recent interest in accounting and Qigong (which both started at the same time) will take time for me to reap it's benefits. I am not really into cyrstals etc. I practice Qigong and teach it on the side. So, I actually am taking responsibility Mom. The thing is, taking responsibility sure. But, existentially is that an existence worth doing? Also, your comment was sort of condescending. You must not have read my post about how number #1 thing was taking these basic responsibilities. @Heart of Space

The money is just a means. I want to do a lot of things but, being a wage slave isn't one of them.

In my early 20's the draw of making the best music possible was my main thing. To be spiritually developed, write great poems and music seemed like the best goal I could imagine in my heart. However, Now I am 26 and... though the above still remains I now realize I want to be very rich. I'd like to be a millionaire so I never have to worry about money again. Now, that likely is impossible for many reasons but... I will be reading more books on money, wealth building, investments over the coming years with more intense focus than ever. I sense I am more grounded and sober than I have ever been. I have been laid off for about 2 months and I've been coming to the library after my morning routine everyday to apply for jobs etc. I've been studying excel, accounting, personal finance. I am trying to become extremely organized, pragmatic, sober, clear minded, focused, detail oriented, logical, etc... I've been finding a deep, satisfying joy out of this pursuit. I want to be rich, live in a nice place and develop a healthy relationship. I also want more high quality friends. I will still do Qigong everyday, I will continue to build my online presence (I have about 400 people following me on Tiktok for my online business... soon to be putting out full workouts on youtube and then starting a subscription service over next few years... plus there is the online course). I cry tears of joy when I think about where this way be in the future. I have also been posting on Tiktok as Thought Art. Thought Art is my Journaling coaching business. I teach people about journaling exercises and the mental/ emotional frameworks for how and why to do it. That also makes me cry tears of joy. Then, Engramn is my music and I have so many songs written that need to be recorded and I have a vision for a new sound for the future. I will also being posting Tiktoks for fun. However, all of the above need me to have more money. I need more capital, resources etc to pay for coaching, courses, marketing, gear, clothings, costumes, etc I have to have a long term lens on my projects and if they really mean something to me I will do whatever it takes to make them a reality. For now, Wealth is the major thing holding me back. I will take a balance approach of debt repayment, savings and investing in my education and projects. I will NOT fucking quit until my life is awesome.

Idk, people say it's bad for you. IF you like her, why not try cutting it out and focus on having amazing sex with her?

How would she know if you don't tell her? Are you like, bringing it up?

I've read some of the greatest geniuses really knew how to bust a nut

I feel like this is a good example of the trap of clinging to much to the deep unitive experiences when you return to human existence early on in spiritual journey.

I am very inspired by this channel!

The sad thing is Love is the ultimate truth he says heheh

Seems silly on surface

Seems 5meos are being made harder to get in Canada. May be on its way to being outlawed.

@Michael569 I teach Qigong online and at wellness centres. But, I am really new to it. I've made like 800 dollars over the past 6 months. It's something, but not enough to live on. So, I am focusing on Qigong, studying stress and studying finance. Music will be there when I am 30 and have 30 grand saved and a higher paying job than I have right now. I can't force reality. All I can do right now is develop the best possible habits and vision for myself that is realistic and pragmatic and learn to enjoy being a nobody. Just, do my thing.

Thanks. I just got a new job and start in a little over a week. I plan on getting a second job to pay off debt and save 6 months worth of expenses. My free time will go into eating well, studying finance/ wealth building/ accounting and Qigong. I may dabble in some relationships once the debt and loan are paid off. My main goal right now is simply to save up a lot of money. I am only 26. I think I will become a world class Qigong teacher and stress coach. I will continue to release music on Tiktok on a casualy basis and try to practice at least 20 minutes a day. But, really. I wanted to be a real artist and when I see it just being a hobby I would rather study wealth building and deep relaxation.

I've decided that I enjoy music. But, I want to be rich. So, going to focus on that the next 5-10 years. I will continue to build my Qigong business on the side. When I am rich and have more free time. I will make lots of music. We will see how time goes. But, right now for the next 2 or 3 years at least... Life purpose foundation is being set with personal finances being fleshed out. I am tired as fuck of struggling. I have been reading books on finance and stress reduction and Qigong. Because, frankly thats all the makes sense to do right now. This gives me a sense of joy because I know I am building stability in body, mind and wallet. If I do that... many things become much easier. Plus, it will keep me biologically young. I got a new job since being laid off, and looking to get a second in the industrial park for when I get off work. Focusing on killing debt and loans and saving 6 month expenses. I may save a bit toward marketing my webinar and Qigong course I've created as well to start collecting more data. Just, I am in a phase of building my foundation and balancing many things.

So, about 5 years ago I found myself extremely passionate about music. I became basically obsessed with the questions like 1. How do I write really good songs? 2. How do I play shows? 3. How to I get over my stage fright etc. And, I've done a lot of those things. I can write songs, I've played festivals, and I don't normally have stage fright. But, this week for example I tried going out to a few local shows and I found the bands to be really bad/ boring. I also find the music to loud to really socialize well. I used to really enjoy busking at a local famers market, but today I felt like... ashamed of what I was doing. Like a beggar or something. Plus, at this market you can't use sound equipment and people can barely here you. I had a 2 hour block to play, but I talked myself out of it after like 15-20 minutes just packed up my stuff and now I am at the library to do some work on my business, to study and contemplate. After leaving the market I feel sort of a pain in my chest. I feel a bit confused. Should I have stayed and just tried to get into it? But, it didn't feel right. I felt embarrassed to be a busker. I want to be a real musician on a stage ACTUALLY making an impact on the world with my art. Maybe I am maturing and growing out of a childish fantasy? Maybe I am going through sort of a building phase in other areas of my life (finance, foundation etc) and a limbo phase in another (my art/ music). Life without music feels strange. I used to love writing poetry and music and it was an ecstatic experience. But, I am so tired of being poor I am putting all my focus on higher paying accounting jobs and building my business. It's painful and boring. Plus, my tinnitus really confuses me as well. I notice when I get back into song writing mode I think of it more and then I feel afraid of writing or playing. Music on some level is my biggest passion. But, I also find it confusing. I sense making money from it will be a challenge and there is years of foundational work on my personal finance and my Qigong business as well I need to focus on. I have no idea if I can make a sustainable Qigong business and I am working through a marketing course... we will see. I used to love music, the lyrics, the sonics, and the beautiful insights I would discover lyrically and musically. But, all my old songs feel dated now to me personally. I need a new phase of song writing or something. I just don't feel inspired like I used to. I have many courses I want to pay for to help me become a better song writer and producer. But, there is also equipment I want to buy. I am just too fucking broke right now to do anything other than find better paying work and building my business. I will have to contemplate... 1. Have I outgrown music in my life? 2. What can I do to reignite the passion? 3. Do I just need to get my finances and these foundations more fleshed out and then the passion will return? 4. Is it my tinnitus which is causing to much fear for me to pursue this seriously? 5. Have I realized that without the pursuit of pride that music isn't something I am interested in? 6. If I am not smoking weed, do I even enjoy making music? 7. Why was I too embarrassed to busk? Is it pride or a realization I am not going to play for pennies and dime? I will take time later today to contemplate this myself. My dream was to be a successful artist. I think that, my tinnitus and the financial realities have lead to some of my recent suicidal thoughts. Which, luckily I cured with a mushroom trip. For me living a passionate life is important. I don't wanna just survive in my life. I wish there was a way to cure my ringing brain. Music, am I passionate enough about you? God, why you do this.

@OBEler Why not have her check out Kristine Marelle, Holistic Song writing and Michael Walker? Also, should should read and listen to the audiobook "The Addiction Formula" (Applying this will set her apart) And, she should read The Artists way if she hasn't already.