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Hmm, Yeah feeling fear and uncertainty right now. I need to grow, and develop myself to be able to make money from my online business. There are no problems. Only opportunities.

I believe I can do the job with excellence. However, it may take time. This will be my best week by far, and I will continue to work very hard even though I suspect this is coming. I have to admit I really don't know.

@Illusory Self Yeah, I am doubting my work ability as well. I think they may need someone with more experience in this role. I am learning a lot and growing every week. But, I think my experience is limited, and they may want someone with more experience. I have heard from others that people speak about me behind my back. I feel the energy in the room. It's, obvious people think I am strange. I think my skills matched what they were looking for when they initially hired me. But, because of the structural changes the expertise required for that position is higher than what I can currently offer. Plus, it's really a toxic work environment for me now. I am doing well because I practice and train to have my effortless workweek. I am. I really find it hard to connect with people. I think I am an over sharer. This will be a trap for me as long as I have to work for others. Also, it's an important part of my social skills to develop. I really should socialize more. But, I also have so much work I need to do. Either way, I think staying where I am with this job I will continue to grow. I am going to work my ass off anyway because I care about developing my skills. I feel confident this may come. I want to be prepared for it. There is currently a high turn over rate. I suspect this could happen, that I will be let go. I just , I am getting the sense from management and the culture.

@integral I personally think there is an even deeper maturity that I have discovered which is…. Though I realize I’m a construct, I am a construct. For now I am in this finite form, with a finite mind, finite story. I know it’s all a construct. I don’t identify with anything. But, this construct is the ocean I swim in. David Richo has a good book as well, it’s called “When the Past is Present”. What you deal with when things from the past that affect you now is called “transference”. It’s important to understand this in more depth because… without you would be dead. And yet, it also contributes to some of your current suffering and what you don’t want to be identifying with. There is a lot of juice in being who you are, as a construct, as a human. I think it could be a mistake to not want to enjoy that juice.

You know, you have a point. Our thoughts, memories and stories are constructions. But, at the same time you are a human. I really think the Tao of Fully Feeling book will open your mind to see something more which will grow you more. He talks about going through what you are right now, and how it was a trap. I personally have a different idea of growth in this context. It’s more for me, of a taking full responsibility for these stories, thoughts and feelings. The thoughts and feelings, though constructs…. If you are experiencing them they are real. You have a human psyche. You aren’t going to unidentify your way out of thinking about the past, or feeling some negative emotions. I realized that a lot of our emotions are stored in not just our brain, but our body. They are deep, and physiological which is why Qigong is a big part of my work… and then, journaling practices, and reading self help is another big pillar in my work and my “Growth”. Because I realize that I am a construct, even as a human not to mention my memories and story, etc then the real question is… as a human psyche how do I Grow? For me, it’s about feeling more, journaling, reading books like I’ve suggested here, studying rational cognitive behavioural therapy, practicing Holden Qigong, psychedelics, etc. To grow in this regard is to work with the construction. To simply not identify with it and expecting it to go away is like… no longer identifying with being obese… okay, sure you aren’t your body. But, the obesity is still there and it’s time to do some exercises. Some of these spiritual teachings like not identifying with thoughts etc is a useful aspect, or lens of this growth we are wanting to have. But, realistically they are far to partial and limited. Human psychology and physiology is far more complex. True healing, true growth… requires deeply feeling. You may be in a trap of spiritual bypassing. Just, be wary and take care ?. You will figure it out.

@Average Investor Yeah, there is evaluations for each meeting. I think even the table talks get evaluated. I did get best table talk this week

@integral I still feel like I need more detail from from you as to what that means.

@integral It’s okay to fully feel the full range of human emotions as well. I don’t have much time right now to go into this. But, some books that come to mind are The Tao of Fully Feeling by Pete Walker Loving What Is - Byron Katie Besides that really, Can you define/ describe what you mean by growth in this context? What is growth, and what would it mean to be grown?

@Average Investor what do you mean?

@Jacob Morres It’s bigger than just sales. I work on sales with my marketing course every other day of the week: copy, brand/ branding, social media, sales calls/ scripts, copy. Etc ToastMasters is to work on my speech and presentation skills, leaderships skills, networking. Public speaking is a powerful marketing technique. There’s also pathways on persuasive motivation. I want my brand to be well known, and have a decent impact on the lives of people with busy stressful jobs. I’ve got a long time horizon on this as well. I am still young, immature and growing. There are many sales/ marketing strategies each with a host of different tactics. Public speaking and networking are in this. I am still working through this. I just know I’m 12 months I want to be well versed in toast masters. This will make me stronger, more confident, a better speaker, leader etc. They also have a coaching pathway which interests me because I am becoming a coach. I am also looking at doing IPEC in next 3 years.

I am building myself into a Man and a leader. I want to be well known, and well paid stress coach and Qigong teacher. I want to be able to speak at a professional level, and teach Qigong to westerners at a professional level. I am definitely in a learning and building phase. My day job is pushing and challenging me every day My Qigong education is pushing me every day My marketing course and business is pushing me every day And my art pushes me too and spiritually I am growing all the time I will act now I will persist until I succeed I will live this day as if it is my last I will laugh at the world I will greet this day with love in my heart I am Nature’s greatest miracle I will master my emotions I will multiply my value a hundredfold I am the greatest salesman in the world

@Kconsciousness cool lookin spot Not sure what you asked me Bon Iver is an Astuarary King

@DrugsBunny okay that’s a suspicious response

@Osaid Leo’s leg are myth

Lack of love was part of it for sure But, it was love that looked objectively, love that set the goals, did the work, failed and is still growing and improving and over time succeeding today.

LSD is very philosophical for me

Okie Dokie I was just taking about this today.

I don’t what causes but it’s definitely a phenomenon. About a week after tripping I’ve noticed reactivations. Mostly while sleeping but at times during day.

Always clean your house and trip in a place where nothing can get knocked over.

@Leo Gura Focus on the reality of it, objectively. Good and bad.

@Leo Gura I am worried about how this technology will hurt democracy. ”I know a time is coming all words will lose their meaning… BLACK MIRROR!”

@Squeekytoy People who are jerks to me, I’m not nice to. I’m going to be assertive when I see people are obviously being foolish or a jerk to me. Which includes you. Stop being a jerk! That, or I’m just ignoring some of you guys. Ignoring is probably what will happen. I personally am working on not being nice. I also have to observe myself because… it’s likely on this forum jerks aren’t going away anytime soon because many of you lack maturity. It’s probably going to be, 1. I am assertive, 2. I am focused on learning and providing value and 3. I’m engaging less and less with fools and jerks.

@StarStruck Grow up you fool

I don’t know. All I know, with regards to Leo’s level of knowing, he definitely explains reality and articulates things like no other Guru. His methods also are powerful when done maturely.

What’s a mature response to you?