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  1. ate it 20 minutes ago, nothing's happening.. how long does it take for stuff to happen?lol im watchig this
  2. 21:21 😬 oh look synchronicities already happening
  3. @integral ok i’ll do less than 2g then. I don’t have anything to measure exactly though. I’m eyeballing it. I just know there’s 2 grams here lol So I’ve changed my mind I’ll do it right now and then see what happens. There’ll be plenty of time to ride it out until I have to go to work tomorrow. I’ll work late in the afternoon. That’s plenty of time. Cmon it can’t be that
  4. ok guys I’ve ignored the warnings❤️😁 I’m gonna try it tonight actually, like at around 4am so I can trip it out and then work later in the day (I work a bit on Saturday too)
  5. wonderful video LEO
  6. Cool, I’ll do it in the early morning right before sunrise🌅 ☀️
  7. No, no time Can I do this and still go to work the next day ?lol
  8. I’ll do it alone 😬😬😬 ok I got 2 grams im excited don’t no wot to expect when I was a kid I fearlessly went to all scary rides in amusement parks so wots the difference if shit go bad 😬😬😬
  9. Ok 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻
  10. 😬😬😬😬😬😬😬😬
  11. @Leo Gura is there a difference if I try it at night versus during the day??
  12. Lol aren’t these supposed to be traps in NOT doing spirituality and self development🤣🤣
  13. Hellish Stay strong. You need friends and a community for health. It’s non-negotiable
  14. For someone who’s never had this, does it look CRAZY looking from the outside?
  15. I think I’m going to come up with stories to tel my coworkers so they think I’m an interesting person
  16. I’ve felt depressed all my life. I wish for non-existence every single day of my life, unless I really distract myself so I don’t think about it. I can’t wrap my head around people who actually enjoy life i now got a job which is MIND-NUMBINGLY MONOTONOUS. And I keep losing focus all the time. it really sucks man i might do it tonight honestly lol (I won’t) idk wot to do am sitting at a restaurant right now during break from work holding back my tears
  17. When I imagine myself carrying out suicide this is what I feel happens.. Becoming disembodied and spiraling infinitely out of control in my own dillusional mind... SCARY. I try to imagine that god will embrace me and understand why I did it, but that’s not what I feel happens in reality
  18. But that metaphysical realization is actually amazing and mysterious and feels full not empty. our guy here is talking about loneliness and feeling disconnected which leads to depression and possibly suicide or some kind of premature death not spiritual bliss
  19. Dude if i gave up on life why would I wanna go to India to be a monk or help Africa?
  20. oh god i'd much rather lie depressed in bed for the rest of my life
  21. Were your parents present and engaged and loving with you when you were a kid growing up? Was is it a peaceful, engaging, encouraging environment at home? Usually kids learn to disengage and disconnect from life when home environment wasn't so good. Probably look for therapy if you have the motivation and means to do so.
  22. I really don't want them to suffer because I did it they've tried really hard all their life and i dont want them to think its their fault or something am i imagining the whole thing? will they be alright