Loving Radiance

2 weeks ago I rediscovered my desire. It felt freeing to finally express myself after more than a decade of repression of that part. However, the way of expression revealed itself to be immature like an entitled child that knows what it wants and rebels to get what it wants. Feels SD Red to me. Maybe SD Beige too, but I am too uninformed about that. Is it plausible to assume that trauma occurred at that stage of development and that this aspect of myself was frozen in time in its development through repeated suppression?

@Megan Alecia @Elevated Thanks! @Username Very insightful. Thank you.

It feels not good to hold this energy. What helps is stopping the breath completely and just playng dead. Dancing before SB and after is the same. Pure enjoyment. No judgement, flowing where it feels good to go. Childlike in playing with energy. No spike in hunger/appetite. How then do you differentiate between sensing your holes (being hollow; that the foundation is not set) and distracting yourself?

Yes. How do you manage not good feeling energy in the body that "comes up" through breathwork?

@SirVladimir How do you manage the energy? As of now I have to relax after 5min as the energy in the body feels too much to hold. Initially after 30min I was in a calm meditative state and goddess love revealed herself to me in the first few days. In the present my body isn't even wanting to last that long. Exhaustion is not a thing but rather the energy. Energy feels not good and could be interpreted as corrupted.

I now drink at least 2 liters during the trip and also drink more water than usual the following days. Maybe that changes in the future but for now it works.

@Forestluv ? Rings true to me.

How does one go about recognizing the masks one wears?

Lol, what would that video be about?

@Forestluv Uhh, that's 0-1am for me. However thank you for the facebook group suggestion!

"Christians nodding their heads in agreement." Thank you ?

I looked up the most recent press briefing. The "How it's going" pic is tampered with.

@Nahm Sending lots of love to you ❤ At least 3 ounces or so, don't know yet.

@Nahm I want you to. Wait what? ?

Keep going

Awareness & (self-)honesty: The other reflects you and through that you can feel whole because you recognize how you keep yourself not whole. There is loss for the individual identity.

Wait, not so fast. Can you tell that in other words? Pointer to want rather than need?

This quote is a good example of non-ideological evidence based politics:

When the student is ready the teacher appears. When the student is truly ready the teacher Disappears.

Ah, now I see what you meant. I was confused as there was a relative playground and your statement was an existential meteorite.

Dr. Khaled ElSherbini is combining Spiral Dynamics Integral with enneagram. I would also peg him at turqoise, but he seems to be a chameleon in that regard.

What do you mean by that? Aren't the warlords of Liberia promoting devilry?

@electroBeam

Oh boi. Here we go. How come? Weren't you appreciative of the play? What did she report to have felt? (e.g. being full of shit, feeling being imaginary)