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@integral Do you mean can Neuralink influence the brain chemistry?

@zeroISinfinity @Bojan V @Hello from Russia @Raze @AtheisticNonduality @Moksha @Natasha I sent your questions to my friend. Here's the interview https://www.westword.com/news/ken-wilber-integral-theory-institute-philosopher-boulder-11942807 Thank you for your questions That was an interesting read.

Of course. Good to keep that in mind. Thanks for the explanation. That thought experiment opened up for me to think about Neuralink and in general the concept of correlation & causation in a new way.

That is so fascinating. There are interesting similarities to moments I wrote about in my not knowing journal.

Yeah, that requires some nuance at fringe cases.

@Forestluv Is it known from past research how an animal recognizes that certain neurons like spinal cord neurons aren't needed anymore even when the desired outcome is the same? How would that look like on an intercellular collective level? For example, assuming that a Neuralink had been operated onto my brain without my knowledge. Every action of me typing on the keyboard stays the same before and after the operation, at least subjectively. So, how do I recognize that physically typing is decoupled from the letter appearing on the screen? Is it known how the intercellular interplay looks like for that recognition to happen? Or am I just being naive here by believing that this was already investigated/studied in similar scenarios?

Should we report anyone not showing a growth mindset and just debating for ego-defendence sake?

@machiavelli There is existential Love and relative human level love. It would be bad, if you as God didn't allow suffering of all manifested form like humanity... if you didn't allow that you would be evil and thus not God. This Love (formlessness) is love for yourself that you choose to suffer (form). By suffering you love yourself because you experience yourself in any differentiated form. Suffering points you back home, points you to that what you want and what you already are.

@Bernardo Carleial Check out the thread spirituality memes

Omg I feel the love coming from your words I gotta send this to everyone stuck in that nihilistic state. Right back at ya I just love how direct, self-exposing and self-honest you write, such a pleasure to read Do you mean that it is a pointer to home, God telling you that you can live in a life in flow? Btw Luminous Beings and Eternal Space was just perfect listening to while reading. Hit just right at home

Excuse my geekness, how does that look like on a cellular level in the brain; how is it registered that hand movement and action on the screen aren't correlated anymore?

Yesterday dancing on the bed while hanging out with friends. No story. Today after my cold bath at the lake I chatted with two fellow students. Joking around. There was no me acting.

It is an interesting view that many antagonistic acts of the Russian government are done out of SD Red impulsivity without long-term planning. Doing large scale intimidation just to show strength and get respect.

That is unclear to me. Did they physically disconnect the neurons that control hand movement? If so, I think that the fact of physically disconnecting the neurons was essential for the monkey to recognize that the courser moves just from intention alone. It would be interesting to see what happens when Neuralink is removed and the neurons reconnected. I intuit that the algorithm recognizing the movement would be possible after one makes it muscle memory / automatic. Just imagine playing games or creating art just from thought. I can imagine training the Neuralink for years and it allows for cross-combination of intentions allowing more expression of creativity. Radical degrees of freedom allow for radical creativity beyond what you can currently imagine.

On the way to my friend's home or on the way back (don't know anymore) I looked into face of a woman. It didn't made sense at all. No feel what it meant to see that. At my friends place right before eating together we talked and there was no knowing what this moment meant. In preparing the altar for magick I looked to my friend and there was no context. The story of me visiting him and doing things together wasn't there. No meaning. What seems to be coupled with this not knowing is that there is no identity present. There is just not knowing and there is nobody to have a reaction to not knowing. It is without control. Narrative comes in again after the instant to create the story, however in that moment there is just nothing - no concepts. It is interesting to see that these instances are not resisted. There is nobody to resist obviously.

That stuff is insane and precisely why I want to work in neuroscience.

Lesson of the day By believing to be rejected, by believing that life closes itself off from you, you reject yourself and close yourself off from life. Awakenings don't stabilize. Prime yourself every day and let life flow through you. Believe nothing less than fucking greatness of yourself. This greatness cannot be claimed but can only allowed to flow through you.

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This morning biking home after my cold bath in the lake. Thinking how the wheels when laid out as a line would cover a distance on the forest floor. The distance of the floor that I traveled in that split second made no sense. Felt like the collapsing sense of distance on psilocybin but with just one category that made no sense instead of two or more categories that collapse together.

In case the attached files are gone, I have written them down below. Note that although edited, I haven't corrected every error. 417. + 418. How Fear Works - The Ultimate Guide To Dealing With Fear What is Fear? A self-control mechanism Core survival mechanism – keeps you alive Helps you to maintain whatever you identify with Important to understand survival Most of our survival is social, cultural and highly conceptual – not that of our body Identity is different, so is fear different Survival at its most basic Gets you to avoid the stuff that will kill you Not just physically – also psychologically (stuff that kills your self-image) Distorts, how you do your stuff What if there’s something that’s true about reality, but which threatens your identity? Are you ever going to find that thing that’s true? You can’t have an accurate perception of reality if you’re afraid and so long as you’re attached to any kind of identity What you are is defined by your fears and what you fear is what you identify as Goes both ways An identity comes with a certain set of fears (mother fears differently) Whatever you fear you’re going to be battling with that demon You made yourself, your identity, up – admit it You fear losing all your attachments – detach! Attachment creates Fear You fear a loss of self: fear is protecting you from losing yourself Epitome of that is death Death is what all fear ultimately boils down to Most of your Fear is subtle and on a daily basis Hard to work with because it is irrational, relentless and directly attached to your survival Doesn’t care about logic, ideals and beliefs Brute survival trumps everything else because beliefs, ideals and logic are survival at work Fear is a much stronger survival force than logic Survival: Fear is the base of the pyramid, the foundation on top of which everything else sits At the top you have logic, ideals etc. Don’t be surprised when your logic doesn’t touch fear Key misconception about Fear: “Fear is natural” – Fear is not natural, because it is not an objective fact Your mind is constructing the fear It’s projecting the fear out of you through the lens of your identity It’s your mind interpreting that situation that creates the fear All fear is imaginary Isn’t it normal to have Fear? It is normal in the sense that 99.9% of people are lost in fear Normality is not a sign of Truth There’s no such thing as an objectively dangerous situation – danger is relative to what you identify with There’s a deep connection between fear and falsehood/illusion When you’re afraid you’re trapped inside an illusion Illusion feels so real that you don’t know that it’s an illusion This heightens your fear even more Self-fulfilling prophecy Exercise to Fear Can’t be understood in the abstract Requires serious mindfulness work, you must get personally acquainted with your own fears What is Fear? Bring up a fear and feel it! Vividly reimagine a Fear from memory or something that you’re currently afraid of Bring it back up to the point where you don’t just imagine it in the abstract, but it actually starts to get you a little tinge of it/starts to affect you Almost as though you’re back in that situation Feel what that feels like – where is it located in your body? Try to pinpoint it as much as possible – mindfulness muscle is important for this Don’t ask externally for answers to what Fear is – it is inside of YOU! If you want to transcend and outgrow fear, you need to change how you react to fear Create a gap, a little breathing room between your fear and your reaction Start to feel the fear in between That’s a counterintuitive move, because every cell in your body wants to react to get you out of the danger and to minimize the fear Fear is something that spikes up in you and then you act in some way and afterwards it subsides – you’re glad that it’s over Once you’re out of the fear, you can’t be mindful of it anymore Train yourself to be mindful of fear as it’s happening to you Fear is a resistance to a future experience Tells you how to overcome Fear Mind is imagining a future scenario that seems to contradict your identity and how you want to feel and who you think you are You have a resistance experiencing fear Fear is about refusing to experience things – tolerate experience! For you to fear, there needs to be an image in your mind The solution is to surrender yourself to the thing that you are afraid of experiencing in the future – live through the thing you fear most Don’t run away from fear – accept fear Surrendering doesn’t mean to manipulate your way out of fear – face the fear! Problem with observing Fear: Fear doesn’t want to be observed Can’t give you enough time to inspect it (e.g. a bear chasing you) Fear is an unconscious reaction Needs a lot of practice Macro Fears List Not being good enough Failure at your career Going broke Competition in your business Partner breaking up with you Being alone Aging and losing attractiveness Health problems Never having sex Being embarrassed in public Wasting money Looking stupid Other people’s opinion People thinking you’re a bad or evil person Criticism Wrong decision Being wrong Disappointing family Losing your faith or religion Sin and hell Being seen naked Losing your freedom Stuck in wage slavery forever Gaining weight Giving in to your cravings What are Micro Fears? “Fears that you feel dozens of times every day” Over a hundred micro fears per day without being aware of it Dominate your day-to-day life Many thoughts dominated by those fears Many habits and survival strategies are based on them Micro Fears List Running out of toilet paper Getting caught in a lie Offending a coworker Late to work Saying the wrong thing Reading an e-mail Checking your phone Grocery store runs out of an item Long line on a Friday night Parents catching you jerking off Looking someone in the eyes Pimples on face Losing car keys Catching a cold Talking to your boss Smelly breath Something stuck in teeth Being pregnant Store closing before you get there Cleaning your garage Doing your taxes Paying your rent Confronting a person Telling parents the truth about something Giving hones opinion Skipping the gym Going to the doctor Making a mistake at work Forgetting something Somebody not texting you back Never finding life purpose Working overtime Someone judging you Starting a new project Calling someone on the phone Checking bank account Missing a great opportunity Breaking a good habit Someone yelling at you Creative anxiety Action Steps Start to notice micro fears Start to observe how fear shapes your behavior Observe how fear affects your thinking Fears are not just in your actions, they’re in your thoughts Start to feel them rather than just reacting from them Final Notes Fear is held in the mind and as tensions in the body Body stores decades of fear in it Fear leads to psychological and physiological problems Fear and love are inverse Life is going to present you with fear over and over again so that you can learn how to love it and therefore transcend it Ultimately, you can only overcome fear with consciousness Avoidance of fear brings stagnation, a victim mentality and can become extremely pathological Fear can be useful (e.g. bear attacking you) and show you a way Fear must be worked through with vision and love Assignment Observe your micro fears every single day for seven days At the end of each day, write out as many of your micro fears as you can Contemplate the following questions: How are these micro fears related to my identity? How am I creating these micro fears? Observe how your thoughts are shaped by fear Expand the list of your biggest fears and become acquainted with them Contemplate: What am I unwilling to experience? A warlord invades a Japanese village and everyone in the town either flees or is slaughtered/enslaved. The warlord walks up to the village's only Zen temple and the only person left in the temple is an enlightened monk. "Surrender to me or I will cut your head off!" says the warlord to the monk. The monk smiles and seems unfazed. The warlord is angry. He yells, "You fool! Don't you see that I can run you through with this sword without even blinking an eye!" The monk responds, "Don't you see that I can be run through by your sword without blinking an eye." The warlord is shocked and amazed and drops his sword and kneels to the monk. Working with Fear Recognize & appreciate: that without fear you would be dead Whatever you fear is completely irrelevant to others Nature of fear is self-biased You are projecting your fear onto the situation – it’s relative You Fear your Self Expand your identity You can’t be completely fearless, unless you go hardcore – learn to live with fears Reality is infinite – there is an infinite number of stuff to fear Resolving one individually doesn’t tackle the root problem Completely surrendering your life Is Fear a thought? No, Fear is a feeling – it’s a distinctive feeling Feel Fear in your body Thoughts contribute to that feeling, when it arises How much of your Fear are thoughts? Thoughts influence feelings and vice versa – vicious circle Try to distinguish Fear from other feelings Is Truth behind Fear? In the absolute sense, all fear is false and inaccurate perception In the relative sense, fear can be a valuable indicator of something that’s going to be harmful or dangerous to whatever you identify with being Every fear is relative to the survival Giving up identity is losing Fear Is it dangerous to eliminate all Fear? Wouldn’t we be dead if we gave up all Fear? If you eliminate all fear, you no longer care whether you are alive If you still care, you haven’t eliminated all fear As long as you’re attached to life you will fear Nothing is going to keep you alive, if you fear nothing You don’t have to physically die to eliminate fear, but you must be willing to You can surrender to the idea The thing that’s going to keep you away from danger is consciousness and wisdom If you want to get good at survival what you need is not fear but consciousness & wisdom Understanding fear should be done through positive motivation, not “killing/beating” fear Difference between Fear and Caution Fear is a feeling in your body – “I can be terrified of bears” Caution is the recognition that something might be dangerous or harmful to you – “I can be cautious of bears when I’m walking through the forest” I can be cautious without feeling fear Caution is about anticipating likely obstacles and threats Condom Example - Fearlessness ≠ Recklessness Methods for Dealing with Fear 1) Face the Fear head-on Bite the bullet and just do it If you’re avoiding the fear because you’re afraid, fear will be deepened Immediate relief 2) Put yourself proactively to challenging situations We get comfortable and find our niche to the point where we get lazy, even if it’s dysfunctional we still get comfortable in it Proactively push your comfort-zone Things that are pushing you out of what you’ve been used to doing Be bold (≠ recklessness) “Well now that I’m scared, I have to do it. It’s precisely because I’m uncomfortable that I have to do this.” 3) Training Do a lot of practice – gain massive experience to a thing Consider the possibility: the only reason you’re afraid of something is simply because you haven’t been exposed to it enough Exposure + mindfulness Feel into the fear Repeat many times 4) Mindfulness Practice Helps with Fear in general Practice feeling very deeply into the fear: all sensations and bodily feelings Practice mindfulness anytime or do it as a daily meditation Fear comes with a certain ickiness attached to it Be mindful enough to notice when a feeling of resistance to the ickiness of the fear is coming up and feel into that resistance – let go resisting, allow yourself to experience the fear 5) Being totally present When fear comes up, if you’re able to be totally present (requires meditation skills), notice your mind jumping into the future It’s projecting images of bad stuff that will happen in the future Stop that and ground your mind in the present moment There’s nothing to fear about the present moment Ultimately, surrender the desire for life 6) Psychedelics Put you face to face with death Erases dualities between self and other (identifying stops) 7) Kriya Yoga Rewires your mind & nervous system 8) Contemplation using a journal Contemplating various specific macro- & micro fears Contemplating what this fear is, why it is arising, where it came from, what function it is serving & how it is connecting back to your identity 9) Sedona Method Letting go technique Raises awareness & thus is very powerful Feel the fear and let it go 10) Breathing Breathing consciously, slowly and deeply as you feel your fear Don’t let your body lock up – relax 11) Visualization & Law of Attraction Crowd fear out of your mind with positivity Overwhelm the fear with positive vision Visualize positive situations and a positive life in general Visualize daily for 5/10 minutes Be a proactive creator of your life rather than sitting back and letting life happen to you 12) Love Opposite of Fear Ultimate solution to Fear In situations of fear, simply practice and experience love Be grateful and more appreciative of life and all of the opportunities and situations that you find yourself in Gratitude is a form of Love The more conscious you become, the more grateful you become for ordinary life Gratitude practice: 5/10 minutes every morning just being grateful and feeling it in your heart Selfless service When you feel afraid, do something selfless for another person Fear is selfishness incarnated – selflessness is required Fears of other people & using it for positivity Notice that knowing somebodies fear allows you to predict their behavior Get inside their mind and figure it out when you exploit other people’s fears or make egoistic moves, this can create bad karma which will create suffering for you helping others with their fears help contributing positivity to this world inspire people Conclusion there is no magic trick for overcoming fear your whole life is for facing yourself, the universe (you fear you ultimately) you’re afraid of love avoiding fear will have disastrous results in your life you’re being pushed to expand into infinity, but you’re too afraid to expand too quickly the surest way to fail at life is to allow yourself to be crippled by fear, and to not be bold but to be meek and to make choices that are run by fear an to succumb to your own fears you’re exploring your own self life can be overwhelming because reality is so vast life needs to be lived bold life is risky fearlessness means that you experience the fear, but you don’t succumb to it, you don’t let it dispirit you fearfulness is when you succumb to you fear and you are not in control of how you behave What is the most important quality you need to succeed in life? Fearlessness (Consciousness, Love) 464. What Is Wisdom? - The Ultimate Guide To Wisdom To become wise, study the consequences of fools. You need to contemplate for your own what wisdom is to understand the value listening to video alone won't help. What is wisdom? It’s a keen discernment, its good judgment, its having proper prioritiesThere is no good life without wisdom. Wisdom comes from consciousness Highest wisdom is infinite love / selflessness. [Existential/Absolute view] A person who puts higher values above lower values Wise people are deliberate and thoughtful in the way they approach life and rely on contemplation, they don’t take themselves for granted, self reflective, introspective. Wise people are existentially oriented (doing something beyond survival, comfort, pleasure) Wise people exhibit existential humility, rather a epistemic humility Wise people take the possibility of self deception seriously They exceptionally openminded They take the serious possibility of might be fooling themselves Wise people are massively consciously experienced Wisdom is also holistic and big picture understanding of life Value Truth requires lot of contemplation to appreciate value of Truth & to be interested in it is already a sign of wisdom Wisdom is non judgmental, the wisest are least judgmental Keen understanding of counterintuitive nature of life, ability to see twisted way and inversions which life takes, to be ableto foresee that without you face hitting that Long term thinking Patience and willing to wait for what it wants Independence of thought and contemplate every situation through for yourself. To derive your own answers rather than blindly taking answers. How could you trust any one to give you answers coz even they could be wrong, Wisdom is nuanced, recognizing the complexity of life, difficulties and subtleties of different situations of life and there are rarely things black and white Wise people learn very deeply from their own mistakes, and they never make the same mistake twice Very flexible with their minds and can see errors in their world views They can tolerate paradox & and contradictions Wisdom is objective, neutral and unbiased The more wise you become the more you become aware of your self biases Wise is skeptical, a wise person doubts himself first and foremost in healthy forms of skepticism and has a keen nose for smelling out bullshit The wise person is principled, they have integrity and they stick to that principles when it is difficult vs religiously dogmatic (contemplate why integrity is important.) Wisdom is self-disciplining / intrinsic motivation, learning from dangers of undisciplined Wise person has internal locus of control The wise takes responsibility and doesn’t blame others and understands life problems comes through us. The wise person doesn’t escape emotional labor, faces things head-on and doesn’t run away form doing difficult things Wise tends to control his cravings, isn't a slave to cravings The wise person highly values education Wisdom understands life is exquitely balanced on razors edge, its about understanding not taking extreme positions but finding that balance points every where in life and understanding balance points is never in the middle Have high emotional intelligence Wisdom can admit I don’t know ( the one true thing I know is I know nothing -Socrates ) Wisdom is able to admit that its wrong, able to genuinely apologize, doesn’t cover things Wisdom is able to forgive and let things go Wisdom is also very careful when giving advice because giving advice is great responsibility. Different people face differentsituation one thing which has worked for me doesn’t mean it will work for you. Being careful on not to project your situation on someone else Wisdom is benevolent compassionate and selfless Wisdom values solitude and silence wisdom is tier2 cognition from spiral dynamics. You transcend survival values and need to being values and needs Has meta perspective. Makes implicit into explicit Build good habits Wisdom is living dynamic force within you that you cultivate itThere is no good life without wisdom. How do you practically develop wisdom Consciousness work Self-reflection, introspection. Deep questioning of everything -the more obvious something is the more you should question Derive your own answers and don’t ask others for answers A deep curiosity about live which is necessary to fuel you for doing this work. Massive experience, failure, and suffering in a conscious way. Practice selflessness, contemplate what is selflessness and why it is high and ideal value. Wisdom αselflessness Simply value wisdom, study wisdom, study wise people. With the pursuit and embodiment of wisdom Study foolishness, the more you're shocked and horrified, the more you see consequences of foolishness the less you want to be a fool Study your own psychology and self very deeply Study the trickery of your own mind Read high quality books Study history learn lessons from history Explore diverse perspective. Go meta on perspective, try to realize the limitation of every perspective. Observation without judgement. Self-education and lifelong learning, the more wisdom you'll develop is after university Psychedelics will skyrocket your wisdom Meditation & solitude. Solo retreat Stop chasing pleasure. Spend time contemplating what is wisdom Ask powerful Question like when you know what wisdom is Is this wise? What would be the wisest move in the situation How am I being a fool in life? How can I become more wise? If you're listening to some speaker ask yourself, "Is what he's saying coming from the place of wisdom?" [can immediately cut through bullshit] If your parents are giving you advice, you can ask is this advice coming from wisdom? What is the wisest way to live life? Opposites of wisdom - The fool Essence of foolishness is poor judgement and lack of discernment The fool has poor sense of priorities and places the low priorities above the high. (sex, drugs, fame, money above Truth) is also lost in minutia and peddyness because the fool is wrapped up in survival like a hamster in a wheel is ignorant and proud of it, the biggest fools are aggressively ignorant. is unwilling to admit a mistake. Arrogance is the key characteristics of a fool. underestimates the depths of problems in life. Life has existential dilemmas that fool is completely oblivious to tends to be anti intellectual doesn’t value education doesn’t contemplate or self reflects doesn’t see value in truth and confuses Truth with whatever serves him or fool confuses his beliefs, ideology, dogmas for Truth what ever reinforces my existing beliefs that’s the Truth. lacks consciousness is oblivious to the problems of self deception externalizes the deception that it is coming from the outside will apply false skepticism and weaponize skepticism is inexperienced and also give strong opinions in fields which they have no experience sees wisdom as foolishness. is deeply committed to staying a fool. will try to get you down to his level doesn’t understand and value importance of openmindedness and will resist any efforts to open his mind. tends to be very judgmental is rash, impatient, agitated and emotionally very reactive. is myopic, quick results oriented, cannot plan very long. is egotistical and selfish. follows the mob, is tribalistic, is highly conformist The majority of conspiracy theorists are fools. They think they are questioning the conformist but are doing in a toxic way and subscribing to their own conspiracy. tends to be a believer, blind follower and dogmatic cannot control his cravings is open to be exploited (advertisement companies, right wing media) is undisciplined avoids responsibility. "The amount of responsibility α wiseness" the more fool someone is the harder it is to convince them of responsibility of their problem is self biased, partial and partisan. The fool cannot see past his self biases takes reality and things for granted tends to be very entitled and expects things to come very easily, doesn’t appreciate the cost of it. (the fool expects good government, but doesn’t understand good government comes from conscious citizens) lacks balance and moderation doesn’t learn from mistakes but doubles down on it. is unable to genuinely apologize has a short attention span and is easily distracted by things, spends most of the time distracted by minutia and not focusing on really important stuff in life (like existential view) doesn’t invest in herself long term - no precautions before the cause. avoids emotional labor cannot admit I don’t know. The fool thinks he knows everything about everything. holds grudges and cannot let things go talks a lot without thinking. Blabbermouthery. loves to engage in gossips and speculation will push advice upon you & Even his own advice isn't working for him coz he got it from bible. rationalizes a lot and uses justification & logic and doesn’t understand the limitations and deceptions of self justification. Tier 1 is various levels of foolishness thinks their foolish leaders are actually genius is spiritually disconnected from existence Examples of fools Trump Stage blue people Drug addicts Conspiracy theorists like Alex jones The tribalism of sports. Sporting fanatics Gambling, smoking, hedonism Not using a condom Gossip tabloids Junk media Chasing get rich quick schemes Cheating peoples Criminal behavior Staying in a toxic relationship Anger blame Scapegoating Joining cults and ideologies Wasting life - smoking weed and playing games.

You mean oxidative particle caused by heating?

@Max_V I see you and I love that you shared this despite feeling shame. Expressing this is essential.

@freejoy Expect to have massive backlash to inspecting the stuff below. The mind won't allow that.

@Nahm Thanks for the heads up. Dangerous stuff we are dealing with here

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