Loving Radiance

@Carl-Richard The mind wants reality to be a description of things. I wanna check the creation of the mind. [using the mind to question the mind lol, as if that helps, who knows where that leads]

@Nahm But I know it too. What are you gonna do You cannot confuse me now. It's so weird, when there was thinking about your "it's still a story" answer there were two flashbacks to the feeling state of the Infinity trip. After all the mind seems to be a bit more open to confusion. Or just broken who knows.

@The0Self It is so radical ? Thank God for conceptual understanding, otherwise the identity would be long dead.

I never felt anything more absolute and true that this. However it now makes sense that everything is God because Infinity isn't finite. I didn't grasp what "infinite cannot know finite" meant. Edit: I now know what it means.

@Terell Kirby Out of experience I can say that this is too focused on the content for Leo. I know he now releases more videos on popular topics but I still suspect that is not something he wil dive into. Rather than looking at the content of America's constitutional amendment Leo is looking at what defines all government systems. I think he also mentioned the 2nd amendment in his libertarian video.

There is so much spiritual bypassing in this thread. I collect insights and don't embody them. Instead of creating my expanded identity with the insights I download I continue to be this character moving on autopilot. Love tells me to die, to be reborn anew. I am afraid of dying. Being ice is tangible, supposedly stable. Water is not. Water is potentiality, not yet crystallized. Just let go.

God's Love I don't know what to do. I am in limbo. Just like a year ago when I just didn't start doing anything for college. The days are passing by me. I'm afraid to die. I'm afraid of being great. It doesn't feel good. God tells me what I am and I resist. You think you are not great and perfect, but you are. You can deny it all you want, but it is within you. It is your nature. By going into the cold water, you feel resistance. But it subsides and then you flow. The jump into the dark cave is frightening. In the cave you see again. I have identified with a lazy side, so now I don't want to let go of it, even though it doesn't feel good. You are so wise. You already know what feels good. Start small. Take the first small step. Surrender yourself to love. It's a process. It's okay that you don't radiate 100% of your love right away. By letting go, you will be reborn. Let go and flow. You feel that you are the water. You are love. Love destroys you and gives birth to you again and again. You are so loved. You are my child. You are perfect. You are too good to believe in yourself. You are pure goodness. I will come back to you. Thank you.

What you are is perfection.

@The0Self Insane stuff Instead of getting another identity with which I thought I would feel better I just got no identity and thus insanity. There was acceptance that this body would live from now on in a in a asylum for insane bodies. Crazy reality. Makes totally sense which is in itself totally insane. Oh well.

I met the Creator almost 2 weeks ago. I wanted to be another person but thought that I wanted to let go of this person. Well there was no person. Just Insanity. Infinite warping of experience, no form. Even before that while watching Leo's 13 back-to-back awakenings video I realized Love of Existence. Too much love to contain in this human body.

@StarStruck Even with you being not needy it's a flake. Expect all gals to flake, especially those ones that seem to be most flattered by and attracted to you - keeps you sane. Plan your day as if they would flake & be flexible enough, if the date really happens. You can construct whatever story you like about why they flake, but it's just a story you use to comfort yourself and preserve your self-image. In the end you don't know. Be comfortable with not knowing why they flaked. Don't even give a shit about any reason. For you there is no reason. Either they flaked or not. Also have clear boundaries about the number of flakes from the same person. Doesn't matter if she's attractive or what. The need to minimize flakes in daygame is coming from a limited lens. Be fine with or without her flaking. Keep doing daygame and soon you won't care about flakes.

That is a good lesson for you now Getting a feeling of op's frame is important.

Sounds like Black Mirror's Nosedive

@Preety_India Instead of avoiding fear embrace it. Embrace it like a child that you feared for so long. The child just wants to be held in your love and nothing else. If it feels seen and wants to go elsewhere then let it go. Detaching from fear means to be able to swim in the water and coming out dry. Feel into the water. Notice every detail. Notice that the story isn't true because it doesn't resonate with you. That it isn't true and that you detach doesn't mean that you push it away, demonize, avoid or distract yourself from it.

Look into authentic relating, radical honesty and listening blocks.

I won't address all of your post. However, the quote above striked the thought in me that you get what you focus on. Instead of not wanting fear or rejection, you focus on what you want in that moment. "I feel fear when chatting someone up I am interested in. Instead of avoiding fear, I want to [be connected and present to myself / let go of the outcome with the girl] here right now." Fear doesn't resonate. Fear is not true. What is that what you want that fear points you to?

Just because he said that heavy metal are for sure not in Pfizer and Moderna doesn't mean it is guaranteed to be in the J&J. Here's is what I found: recombinant replication-incompetent adenovirus type 26 expressing the SARS-CoV-2 spike protein citric acid monohydrate trisodium citrate dihydrate ethanol 2-hydroxypropyl-β-cyclodextrin (HBCD) polysorbate-80 sodium chloride Seems to be very similar to the Pfizer ingredients which I had looked into. In general, heavy metal containing molecules are used in some of the conventional vaccines as preservatives. I haven't had virology in university but it seems to be unique to RNA vaccines that heavy metal preservatives are not needed. However I haven't looked in all RNA vaccines, there could be exceptions. @Forestluv I can wholeheartedly agree with @tuckerwphotography and thank you for your work here. It is very educational to see the focus on the map on Paris distort the map of Europe, and I also love to project that onto myself how I do that too. Enlightening for sure ?

343. All Criticism Is Untenable

Authentic relating Radical Honesty

For every single night since the infinity-insanity psilocybin trip on April the 16th I woke up not knowing what I am, what this ape body is (with knowing that this is an ape body, same as tripping). How am I here. Feelings, impulses and actions feel to be guided/directed from another entity. At the same time there is a knowing that this is temporary and it's over when the body rests again into sleep.

@SQAAD Of course you create things out of thin air. You will reality according to you: Do you want to drink? Then reach out to the cup of water. Wanna have a straight spine? Sit upright or do yoga. Pure magic. In the trip you become conscious of more ways to create reality. The judgement of delusion is coming after the fact. Are you delusional right now? I would say no. What happens with this elevated state of consciousness is in the trip. Why should there be judgement of what happened in the trip? You are here now. Memories of beliefs are memories. This feeling of emptiness is so still. Settle into yourself and feel into your stillness. Feel how still you are. Just rest here till you feel you want to express yourself in another way. Have faith that you can't see it now. Fruition takes time. You might not even recognize how it influenced you. Perhaps what you need right now is to feel emotional distress without having answers or a knowing. How would that be good for you? Ponder that. However, that doesn't mean that there aren't methods to record the insights. Write it down, if you want or make an audio recording. Note that high states of consciousness seem trivial or too simple when recorded. You won't usually see their scope when you aren't tripping. It is always helpful for me to come back to my foundation of meditation and journaling (besides general learning for uni). Before the trip is after the trip. Nothing changes. Everything is changed.

@alchemizt In addition to universe's comment above, what you can do is to slow down the breath or to even breathe out fully and hold the breath for as long you can. However you can play with the breath a bit: try breathing in with force and letting go on breathing out, that you only are active while breathing in. I for myself will slow down or stop the breath when the hands begin to hurt. @Forestluv

Seems good so far... https://www.technologyreview.com/2020/12/09/1013538/what-are-the-ingredients-of-pfizers-covid-19-vaccine/

@WaveInTheOcean Of course I am crazy. Anything else would be a lie. It was fresh from the grow kit. In retrospect I was surprised how strong it was. I also was somewhat reckless because I didn't test it with a lower dose. I expected it to the same as the other grow kits that I ordered before from the same source. However that was also ok.