Loving Radiance

@Matt23 Thank you for your perspective What you describe is exacly what I meant with constructing a story. It's really feeling how that is for them by constructing the story they are telling and placing myself in their shoes. @Nahm The answer you propose is what I mean by creating space for them. There is listening to the silence, and there might arise a wave from that ocean or not. What you suggest in the short term is what I described as creating a story. I feel that I am truly not veiling their story when I listen to the silence and might pick up a response. I like to see them how they are in their story and at the same time give responses the same as when I create a story.

I find myself constructing a story doing that on autopilot. When going silent internally without making a story there is just stontaneous arising of responses which can surface after some time or don't surface at all. What creates suffering is me wanting to respond while at the same time I don't want to obscure the picture of their story and there might be no response at all. This is already the case. However, it happens very often that no responses come at all and I feel that this is like stopping to dance with them in the conversations. I want to dance while seeing them for what they are. Or is that a contradiction? Idk.

@Nahm

Blue moving into orange Take-home message: All people discovering themselves and their true colors = Discovering what drives you in life, discovering something in yourself that shines so brilliant that it frightens you because you are not familiar with it (e.g. [partial] ego death), discovering what you got to integrate, what God tells you to be

@Forestluv @Emerald

Common themes: meeting people unexpectedly speaking with people being in thought and then collapse of that construct

@Kalki Avatar Very well said ?

@amps Option 3 and then option 2 with the pick-up methods that are authentic to you IMO. Why do you fear loosing her when you are feeling the most authentic and free since... idk, ever? Basically you discovered that: Don't be afraid of growing up. Have courage and be ready to die by potentially loosing her. What you realized in your trips is that you want to meet a whole woman as a whole man. Don't be afraid of becoming whole again. Focus on what makes you a man. Be self-secure and grounded in that. Nobody - even your gf - can shake you in that. Look here for notes:

The field of potential is already created. The devil allows your existence as Thought Art.

ffs

To do: On language & time and how we see/construct the world On language On time understanding it as a human it being a construct Arrival Love (holy shit, I might loose it rn) On suffering, insight and wisdom to suffer in order to learn & have insight Continuation of "On thought, being, love, separation, collapsing materialistic worldview" Deconstructing the materialistic worldview (quotes from that post) Spira: Is there an outside world? (incert video) "You cannot die. What dies is untrue. You are eternal." sth like "On true human relating and communicating" deep green & yellow and perhaps turq radical honesty & authentic relating true listening and letting go of oneself own bias (bc experiences & lens) & projections giving space for someone to explore themselves

@Carl-Richard Your timestamps are weird. The vid is not that long.

A friend of mine just rang the bell and confessed her feelings for me. Just before that I knew that there was someone standing just in front of the apartment door and not ringing the bell from the main door to the building. I opened and she stood there. There was no LR. There was just this moment happening. Heart rate was registered. There was a knowing that holding the door in one hand would seem not embracing or inviting. There was letting go of the door. She talked about something and there was a knowing what she talked about without interpreting her words. It was a knowing. No one listened to what she said. All what she could have said was already felt. There was a knowing that all that happened would be good because it would be happening.

Beautiful picture. I thought of making notes on the movie and sharing it here.

If you are young, be ready to have side effects for 48h after the shot. Be prepared to be sick the next day. For me it was nausea and headache, and on the next day light & constant (and thus exhausting) muscle and joint pain. The day after the shot I could just lay on the couch and do nothing. Teached me alot about caring for the health of your body. Your quality of life is surprisingly reduced because of the pain. Only cold showers helped with the pain. You can use the day after to meditate because any intellectual or manual work is hardly possible. However, I also spoke with a fellow student of mine. He had just some pain in the arm and that was it.

@Giulio Bevilacqua I'd investigate that

?

@Giulio Bevilacqua Who identifies with fear & resistance?

@Giulio Bevilacqua Where are these things arising?

I pasted it into DeepL @WaveInTheOcean Loved the read, thanks. This is what came out @Giulio Bevilacqua. I don't know what to write to you. What I ask you is who has fear or has resistance? Who is sane and who is the doer?

The movie is actually better than the trailer suggests.

I love this! Thanks

@Leo Gura Dream sand indeed

On the polymorphism thing https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0026265X13000544?via%3Dihub Edit: