Loving Radiance

@Rasheed Well yeah, it seems to be the main thing with all the other exercises. Please tag me @ when you give a report on the eye sight even if there's no change.

Maps & lenses are for survival to navigate the terrain. On a relative level of course hehe. Feel free to bust anything. ...of duality you mean?

@bloomer Go to meetup.com & Facebook and search for events for socially anxious people. Congrats! How do you feel about having gone out and socialized? You project on them that they see you as an errand boy. What happened in reality is that they asked a person who wasn't busy to watch their table. You think the thought of being an errand boy. As Nahm said, that thought doesn't feel good. What about picking a thought that feels better like "People trust me to watch over their stuff"? All the other things you said will autocorrect by being consistently social. Remember that no matter what you project on people, all people are approachable. When you make a socially uncalibrated mistake you will learn from it. Come to people from a state of "I give you _____". For changing your self-image (from victim/looser to creator/winner) you can use visualization and affirmations including affirmations that you listen to while you sleep. The more time you spend with being & feeling that version you want to be the more you will feel & act like it. It becomes automatic. It works like magic. Commit to that for at least 3 months and then look back to where you have been.

Correct me if I'm not getting you. You say that all understanding is equal in depth & wisdom, that there is no more advanced and less advanced, and no wise and foolish? That there is no hierarchy inherent in relative human reality?

Can you love the past version that makes you feel guilty? Can you see that you didn't know better? It's like judging a child for not knowing. Loving your past version means that you can decide right now that you will do better. It is being grateful for your past, that it happened. The gratitude might seem cruel with the context of abuse that happened, but can you feel grateful for the experience? Can you see that you are more mature & responsible because of it? Perhaps you can't see or feel that right now. If that's the case, then it's okay, this process takes time and cannot be rushed. The only thing you could then do is to become increasingly conscious of present emotions and how they lead you to actions in your life and how they make you believe things about yourself.

Assuming there are separate humans called prophets: Note that what prophets spoke was recontextualized to the people's understanding at that time. And I also feel that you assumed that prophets see themselves as that - consider that people put that label on them. Also consider that how you interpret their words is that there is someone chosen. Being chosen and not being chosen at the same time. The mind just so happens to project its individuality onto prophets and sides with the side of the chosen one. AND of course zen-devilry (not deconstructing epistemics) is also possible. So, what's the danger you speak of here? From this perspective there is noone deluding themselves because delusion needs the social matrix as authority what the ground is and what not. What could be imagined is bringing your body in danger. And even danger to the body is deconstructed. There also could be the danger of surrendering to non-existence which would be the death of existence. What do you mean? Btw, great trip report. It's mind blowing. I now feel more & more that LSD is better for me personally than psilocybin just from reading these reports.

Having now felt that realization, do you care for her? What is the most loving thing you can do for her and the kids?

@Rasheed Remember, I never had any results with this as I never committed to it. Better ask people on reddit. Maybe watch a video or twice about palming in particular and the specifics might get mentioned. From my layman pov: Just take as much time as you need till the eyes & surrounding tissue are filled with warmth and feel relaxed.

@Rasheed Do you want to try out Bates method for myopia? I never stuck with it, so your report would be amazing to read. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8cZN3ESTzOI

@Adodd So, if I read your op, you don't want advice on what to in this situation right? Then I also suggest what people before me wrote: Before you do any action, first process the hate by doing the forgiveness exercise.

You did nothing wrong mate. You just didn't have the lens to see your life through. If you feel called you can continue all this AND begin to develop your secure monetary foundation. Yes! I feel this way very much. Im very seriously doing the life purpose course and trying to not to let money be too important. But at the same time I cant help but feel a bit like I SHOULD be worried about finances so parts of the course telling me not to focus on money are leaving me unsure of how to feel about it. Your LP can bring money but it's not the sole focus. The focus is what aligns with your values and what you can give to the world that is unique to you and your inspiration. It's okay to take steps to accomplish full focus on your LP. It's okay when the steps look like working at your local supermarket to secure steady income for the moment.

You can make yourself get trapped in any stage. Traps: Orange likes for example to turn secularism into a second religion. The paradigm of secular materialism can be quite imprisoning when the culture is at the same level and one cannot see & envision beyond that. There is also more isolation from nature (cause it's just resources to be used) and less human-centered interaction which is then opened up at green. So, all this judgement is fine, but did you actually change the way you lived your life in that year? Did you focus on winning, getting to the top and primarily wanted to be materially rich (having good looking clothes, car, house, lifestyle)? Was your focus on practical hands-on self-help to make yourself productive and out-compete others? Did you want to get recognition for your success? The thing is that Green emerges best when you exhaust Orange like you having burnout after the one year and turning to parts of life that are feeling good to your heart. A good way to ask yourself is: Do I avoid some part of life like being productive & opportunistic by going into Green when I know I should have the foundation of material security settled? It can also be a trap to disregard Orange when you want to dive deep into Green. 1. Search for a healthy role model 2. Study their work, thinking, system of values and life princples 3. Emulate how they think, model them and satisfy those needs what they are trying to satisfy 4. Make sure you watch out for possible limitations and toxic tendencies You can do all that. What the limitation would be is to search for satisfaction or purpose in having a nicer house instead of making it just a nicer living environment. But don't worry much about limitations. Just be aware of excesses in your life. Well you now recognize that you don't want to have any serious worries about gas money. Perhaps you just need the gas money

20:27 is nice

@ALLIS Is it different to reiki?

I share it every time when I meet someone who is open minded to these kinda topics. Which is rare.

Does one also get a penalty when one shares links to shadow libraries?

Instead of grasping for higher stages go integrate the ones you innocently made a shadow of. A solid foundation for any structure makes more sense than just building up higher and higher. But maybe you have to learn the lesson yourself. Maybe you have to try reaching for the sky without grounding and then realize that the highest tree needs deep roots. It can require letting go of one's pride or precious self-image to go work on the foundation and invite self-acceptance of one's true position in life.

I got you covered

For me it was at first one of those small hand-sized sculptures which are representing deities You know, these one's that stand on altars in shrines or other places of worship. @cetus@Carl-Richard@Fearless_Bum You guys crack me up

From the Absolute there's no judgement, there's no difference between innocent or guilty people getting killed. In fact, there's no difference between life & death. "Care" (beyond human care) for the whole looks like devilry to the finite because the care is "too large" and radical to grasp and to put into finite understanding. By definition Care for the whole cannot be functional for finite survival concerns. If it would be functional for the finite, then it wouldn't be Care. This doesn't make sense when viewed from a survival lens. Precisely because one looks from the lens of survival at the image of god, god will appear disgusting especially when it's thought that death & suffering is injustice or that there is injustice in general. Of course the duality of justice & injustice is functional to survival. On another note, disgust is what is disowned & reject from your identity: Integrating death, suffering, injustice and immorality doesn't mean that one then goes wild and kills people. That imagination comes from an unintegrated identity which innocently projects out its own evil. Integrating it all is letting life flow without control.

Can't stress this enough. Here is my experience: After 2 God trips I saw myself during normal daily life to tap into an insanity perspective. It feels super absolute because, if I would go more in that direction, the perspective would be permanent. The feeling is that it kills me (feels like the body is dying, but honestly it's mainly the identity) - very much a feeling of death similar to a comeup of a very high dose on shrooms. This happened randomly at least once per week. Looking back now I was feeling good to trip again after the 1st God trip, but it was still too close with 3 months after the last one and too high dosed. Now after 4 months after the last trip the insanity perspectives continue with less intensity and less shroomy feeling to them but they're still there nonetheless. Even threshold doses now are already opening the insanity box. Tripping isn't possible for me for a long time. I am not scared by the trips but by the after effects.

Believing to be in control is not to be in control. To let go of control is to get control. Believing to be sane is insane. To let go of sanity is to get sanity.

@Mulky