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@astrokeen you need to go full circle to see that. brahman and brahma are actually one but brahma is separated from brahman being part of the trinity with vishnu and shiva. brahman contains all three of them, it`s a matter of how these forces interact with karma. it`s about how not that.

it is as if you would discuss if brahma was prior to brahman or brahman prior to brahma. there are two systems competing against each other brahmans love and brahmas love. from far up the cross we sometimes don`t realize that the cross was made by a carpenter.

addressing it again, how can someone be a moderator if the person is not able to solve conflicts by herself? then should everyone do her work, she maybe even created? i don`t get it.

i got two warning points for calling her toxic, someone else had to do it whyever.

because this toppic is a reuptake from a situation we had when i had another identity she posted it the moment she realized who i was while laying out a trail so i would follow to what she was doing. before she wasn`t even posting in the forum anymore only in her diary. i think it`s less toxic to address my real emotions and the person who is playing out toxic behavior towards me, than trying to have a white west by saying i know i`m toxic but i can`t change it that´s why i go on with my white west behavior. but she`s so much in denial that she can`t even talk about why i think she`s toxic. she knows that`s why she can throw a heart. so of course i mirror her toxicity, i have emotions, too. doesn`t change that she is in denial about it. toxic masculinity is addressed here in the forum all the time, so why not address toxic femininity when it`s playing out. how is it different addressing it from my position than from her position? because i didn`t post a heart or what? she says it herself she get`s how she is doing it, then why doesn`t she change. could accept all that if she wasn`t a moderator. if no one says it out loud someone has to. she`s painting herself perfect, instead of helping people to resolve problems, she creates them. you can`t solve that by not addressing the problem.

do you really want to? and then he might get reelected if he was a king there would maybe be no other chance. therapy in oval office nice immage.

find that verry verry difficult to approach as there is a massive possibility in confusing significant size with relative size. of course understanding a situation is close to compassion seeing where a person comes from. but it`s so fast used as an excuse for all devilry he commited, he`s a grown up man who already lived the most of his life and isn`t even aware that he puts trauma on children. he probably had enough chances to develop compassion. can i understand, yes of course but if i would have the choice between one of these children and trump to treat first in a medical situation where it`s about life ans death i would exactly because of compassion safe the child first. why should one life be more relevant than another? i guess i would choose because of responsibility for the life of a person. you could say now: but trump is responsible for much more people than the child is. well yes, exactly. because i would take his responsibility on my shoulders with that.

yes, sounds true. gravity sounds also true, some buddhas have more of it than others, but the ones with the super big gravity or no gravity at all are confused for a buddha while being some chinese zen master poe-tai ho-shang or so. it`s interesting, what you describe i started to read about it in the yoga an kriya book of swami satyananda saraswati some days ago. p604-606 he recommends uddiyana bandha and manipura shuddi. manipura shuddhi is practically what you posted there. agni sara kriya is also pretty nice, but more for the fiery part of the stomach, maybe a little too much heat if the heat is already high, but for me as i`m lacking on agni a little bit it`s very good. found that through another source.

too much tension, too much focus on how you construct the world realistically even though it´s a reality that might not serve you at all. if mdma feels like it is a solution instead of a once in a while experience, it is because you might be missing out on love in general. might be that the world seems too dark and lifeless. concentrate on heart expansion or work on your visionary skills, maybe getting more creative could help to align the power center with vision. it can also be a sign that you have a sharp mind or that you are trying to figure ot something with logic that can`t be solved by pure logic especially if it is a fear based aspect of your life or personality.

yes you are right the space was not big enough to post the whole book. especially the don`ts and dos are so difficult to figure out all by oneself.

@Nadgrowing up in a green houshold i was not very fond of psychatry to begin with, and still not completely are. but with some problems in the dynamics of my parents aggregating over time to huge problems i learned that some dynamics and problems don`t go away, especially because the dynamics use to bite themselves in the tail. with my dad at one point it got better because he finally agreed to stay in psychatric care for some time. i thought psychatry was bad, but it still helped him. afterwards it was easier to change some dynamics. so i can absolutely recommend it to get a foot in the door with that. it`s very difficult to break the habits at home as the space is linked to the habits in the home aswell as memory is. she`s holding onto you because you give her security, holding her hand by leading her to more independence could be a big step. maybe changing the patterns through changing something about the flat or house while she would be away can also feel like a new start for her when she comes back. setting up new rules and habits along with that.

it`s only at the beginning where you have to push through it with the mind. if you install habits for your deepest cravings like everytime the icecream (i scream) craving appears supplementing them with a smoothie you will supplement the bad habits with good habits as your body and memory will slowly supplement the bad cravings with good ones. that is where the now, now, now and now starts to be the ever. you might have backlashes from time to time but overall also be attentive to why the craving appears, what are you really supplementing with the cravings - might be that the amount of discipline you have to bring forward during your day to day life is the reason for having attacks on discipline, try to supplement with a good feeling imagine how your body also starts to be more energized and how bananas boost your serotonin, your mood and magnesium levels. they already make you more relaxed just by the ingredients. also don`t go for all of them at the same time if you have huge backlashes, might be because you can`t hold up the intensity for too long a distance. tak on one habit at a time and be more forgiving with the others. it will change slowly. don`t forget the other habbits though - could help to make a list. make it a fun challenge! recipes please

he missed out on lucy or was it carry?

"Why does sight stop when eyes close and sound stop when ears covered?" because you don`t look deep enough and don`t listen what is silence.

yes tsuki internally and you can also work on it externally ? intraterrestrial and extraterrestrial. don`t ask me what is what it`s without gravity.

some body changes in form and experience of itself through yoga, more body power, better body posture, better flexibility. i would not do kria without training the body alongside, because you then feel an untrained body which doesn`t feel so good, it feels better if the body also does for example sun salutations - good starting point for physical yoga, i`d probably do that minimum half a year before i would start with the advanced stuff. until you step into yoga and understand its bodyspiritual background you will not understand it deeply. it`s the body mind movement where you are aiming at. what do you want to do with energy if it doesn`t move the body? it will only get stuck in the head. same with doing only the asanas without trying to understand what`s behind them, will just change your physical appearence.

very interesting, i was not so close to that case as it`s in the us, there are a lot of cases like that, they pop up once in a while and i`m always speechless how the system protects these cases. with the dark triade people it`s clear, they probably want this power and then they work themselfs towards the position where their ego gets what it craves for most. with other cases where it`s because people don`t fill their position and do harm because they are not qualified enough, it`s a different story. sometimes it might be that they didn`t have to work themselves up to the position, they just drop in there from college without developing skills. or because dady put them there (what would be purple, they will go through red to stabilize the position, very toxic). that`s what i now call blue hirarchical structures, especially when they are central organised with strict hirarchical authority structures. what happens toxically between the lines is red in the most cases supported by a blue system, while the people react orange, only thinking about themselfs. the community is like the structure then blue, what makes orange shut up instead of pointing towards the errors in the system. the only ones who go against that are green or higher up stages. there are no orange systems as orange is ego, so the next step would be a green system, what is too anarchic to work out. every individual in the system would need to be green or turquoise for a green system to work (well they exist but not in mixed forms). the problem is that blue makes a lot of people fall back into orange, especially even green people who used to build their relationships on green get sometimes comfy in it, that would be orange/green (selfish green, military or muddy green) they even would if the system was yellow structured because they can`t cope with managing their ego yet to stabilize a system for the communities sake as they confuse yellow for blue - because green transcends orange and can accept blue in a healthy way, only when they are already one step in yellow (mixture of blue and yellow, accepting yellow structure self responsible not egoic) spiral dynamics matrix.

@Charlotte i actually have an advice for you, drop your moderatorship as it`s only a fassade and takes up too much of everyones time including your own. you can`t even be ignored when you start to project your own toxicisity upon others. stop lying to yourself. focus on your lifepurpose instead of zombeing on in threads asking about yourself instead of helping others. are you a moderator or a patient? build real connections again like you did when you where halfways human. you seemed to be a nice person then, still having fun to connect with people.

@Schahin it`s a long way, it might take up all of your time, you might need to focus your whole life towards the maximisation of the love you want to create. and you will not achieve them all, but if you manage to achieve just the maximum of what you strive out to achieve it will count more than hundred percent as it is indeed hundred percent of what you can give. if you maximize your hundred percent your hundred percent will grow indefinately. be wise not to throw yourself away completely as throwing yourself away for completely lost cases, be wise to invest in cases where you see some success, as throwing yourself away is not hundred percent of what you can do. first of all think of what is in your power right now, money? relationships? profession? what choices can you make on a daily basis to get closer to just one of these goals? what would realistically empower you? something you could do with your own presence, hands, or voice maybe? maybe you need to learn how to approach just one of these goals. the industrialisation one is the biggest lost cause, don`t concentrate on that - you can work on alternatives though.

@Key Elements yeah. tell that to a person in the middle of awakening. it`s all love transaction. thank you! it wasn`t really about that but it`s a really good advice - can see where it`s coming from.

well there are different approaches to medicine and design, there are some with and some without a code of conduct. i`d always check on that first it doesn`t even matter if you get the best of the best in their profession technically, but at least it wont be a desaster. a designer can be like a doctor in that sense, some try to make concious stuff that really works and others don`t and only scratch the surface. i also get where she might really have been ignorant, as of course naivety is not an excuse for being resilient against better knowledge. could also be another reason, narcisists are usually more resilient agains influence than others, might be she had to big of a narcisistic support or it was the position that projected that. but in general a powerposition can trigger that, a narcisist will take the position to support the ego`s claims on the position as the sole ruler more than a healthy ego. i have met some narcisists so well it`s difficult to work with them. but they can show you exactly how the system of power works as you can`t work around them, if you do their ego will do anything to lower you in status while still keeping you under controll, to keep powerposition by all means. it`s differnt than a more healthy ego but of course healthy egos work kind of similar, that`s why some people confuse strong egos for narcisists. just a longterm experience, not a medical diagnosis. don`t forget the dark triad never sleeps, but some of them cut themselves of from the source so completely that they fall the way they should. even though a lot of them don`t. it`s usually the support system that keeps them alive, therefore, position without feedback loop. or a position where everyone just says: you are doing so great while it is not the case.

it`s not the problem as it could also be a design product...and there it`s only about technique, there are a lot of designers who are creating very good medical products together with doctors, they also work constantly on making them better even though the product is already sold. i think a medical drop out can still have really good ideas, you don`t know why she dropped out, maybe it was the money, maybe she realized she wanted to change something on a big scale rather than always being on a man to man show. it`s complicated, the dropping out might not be the problem the bad research on all levels before release though is. and i can imagine that investors don`t want to invest in longtime research without earning directley, thats why some really good innovative ideas might also rott away somewhere. a lot of investors invest in money not in ideas. because it could be that after the research the product dies and they are going for maximisation, cause who wants to loose? of course medical products should be tested and approved, maybe by a third party but controlling them too much will also maybe slow down innovation. as long as the product was medically not dangerous...it was only a scham, no medical disaster, with people dying. in some sense she didn`t get the responsibility shift from a doctor to a designer, neither being a doctor nor a designer trying to be all of it all by herself without the feedback loop a team could have given her. that`s the structural problem.

you can`t make it stick completely but you can remember. although mdma is like selling happyness to the one time experience as your ability to feel that happyness naturaly shrinks with every use, with regular use you will pay with longterm consequences. i`d go for longterm stability of emotions and for more happyness with an adaptative/neutropica like rhodiola. and for the insights, if you still want them, more with the safer psychedelics like recommended by the community. although i don`t know how rhodiola interacts with psychedelics.

@Apparition of Jack mhh yes - we are talking about image/imagination of reality and what`s really the case, both of them are projected outward. an idea can spring from a little bit of turquoise even if the turquoise might be not fully developed. it can be a little shimmer of an idea of what it would be like, but without the right development in all other colours it wouldn`t work out as the decisions that are made are coming from the stage the person is at. it`s a theory/assessment tool of course i`ve tested this method coming into beta phase . wanna buy? what if it`s not about how they make more money, nor power but how they make more ego.

i would not speciffically be so supersticious about that. the way she tried to save the idea by trying to evolve the technology shows that it was not only about money, but a lack of knowledge to do it differently. i mean the idea itself was not a bad one but the way she approched it without testing it first if it could really work that way was naive and halfbaked. she did never arrive in a beta phase of testing but went full monty, in that it was power driven even though the product idea could have been a real innovation. i really think some people want to have a positive influence on society but then they approch it the wrong way, because they never learned it differently. she didn`t make it because exactly her green was not evolved enough to run a healthy business.