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Psychedelics are spiritual catalysts. It’s that simple. You will accelerate your development with them. Not every case is the same, but generally they will give increases to your baseline over time and make it easier for you to experience mystical states more often. They’ve made my meditation far more effective and enhanced literally every aspect of my spiritual life. I paid some hefty prices for this stuff though. It’s not all fun and games, but it is certainly incredibly worthwhile for the person who is truly seeking spiritual development and willing to take the risk.

@mandyjw Hey, I just checked out your YT channel for the first time today. You’ve got a lot of good content on there. Let me know if you wanna collab lol. Love and connection is essentially a requirement for it from what I’ve seen. There are different levels or aspects of this. There is a sense that is gained which is quite close to what I’ve heard Christians describe the Holy Spirit to be which is a very specific type of bliss that is shared. Some use the word clairsentience to describe this as well. This is most commonly experienced when connecting with spiritual entities, entities adept in telepathy, and deceased people, but it is also shared with certain living people who have a strong spiritual side. This is still a bit different than the emotional connection which can either be the healing of emotions or the sharing of a specific emotional experience exactly as it occurred. The first type of this connection always feels relatively the same no matter who or what it is with although it can vary greatly in intensity. Another level exists in which you can experience all sorts of sensations during this connection/communication. These have occurred mainly in the brain region for me. Pressure in certain areas or even the sensation of significant movement within your brain have been the most common forms of this I’ve experienced. I wouldn’t expect a living human, regardless of their level of development, to be able to trigger this type of sensation in you. I’ve not experienced this with deceased humans either. It’s quite amazing how diverse these types of spiritual/emotional telepathy can be. I’m sure many other forms have been experienced by others than just what I’ve described here. I would definitely try to develop what you experienced with your grandmother if I were you. For me the connection was cultivated with a specific being/group of beings before it became more generally accessible to me. Your connection with your grandmother is certainly very special if this is the only case it has occurred in for you. Focusing on thoughts of appreciation and love for her would be the best shot for you to tap into this more in the future I would imagine. If it ends up the same for you as it has for me, this would be the first step toward being able to connect in this manner with a variety of spiritual guides, mystics, or beings you have a unique relationship with beyond any limitations of space or time.

@m0hsen What have you heard about my crazy experiences lol? Just curious. The most important thing to remember with this stuff is that these guides or spiritual beings possess telepathy to the degree that they can sense your interest in having a connection with them. Why not try to ask some questions to your guide or guides maybe during a meditative state? Really any state is fine though. You may not get answers in clear English or maybe you will. It’s different for everyone. I am quite certain there are many positive beings who have an interest in you and would love to help. In truth, they’re already helping and always have been. It’s when I’ve expressed my interest in and appreciation for them that I’ve felt the deepest connections. Use your higher emotions to connect. If you’re operating at a high/divine frequency at a certain time, it’s much more likely you’ll be able to experience the connection. Everyone has the hardware for spiritual telepathy/clairsentience/the Holy Spirit or whatever else you may wish to call this type of connection, but it can take some work to get things firing on all cylinders. Feel free to shoot me a PM if you want any guidance from my experiences with this.

You should check out this vid/YT channel. She was part of what awakened some of my psychic/spiritual abilities and connections to higher consciousness beings. I imagine her advice could really be the start to getting in touch with this stuff for yourself.

Is there such a thing as a delusional drop of water? You are judging the experience very harshly and experiencing some rejection of yourself due to this. I totally understand why you want to be “sane,” but just keep in mind that this sort of judgment and placing of experiences into conceptual boxes of acceptable vs. unacceptable, desirable vs. undesirable, etc. can cause unneeded psychological suffering. This period of feeling empty and depressed will pass. Be kind to yourself and your psyche. You did nothing wrong. You are beautiful. You are perfect as you are. You are loved beyond any possibilities of human comprehension. Take a break from psychedelics if this was too much for right now if that’s what feels right. Your ego wanting to be able to will reality however it wants is similar to a child wanting to fly. You want to feel powerful and free because, at your deepest levels, that’s exactly what you are and always have been. Why is there the need for conscious control? Your transcendental divine self has already designed all of this perfectly and operates existence in a perfectly optimized way. At least that’s what I’ve become conscious of. This will all make sense to you one day, and you will see the incredible beauty and intelligence behind all of the suffering you’ve experienced. You already have tasted aspects of this during psychedelic states, but it is hard to really keep this in mind and trust it when trying to survive as a human being. It’s all for your higher good. There are no wrong steps when walking on a path designed through Infinite Love.

30 grams of fresh mushrooms (mostly water weight) is roughly equivalent to 3 dried grams. Most people talk about mushroom doses in dried grams. His dose was a regular/full dose although not necessarily a “heroic” dose. Dosing really means very little though. A highly spiritually developed individual can potentially get more off of one hit of a joint of cheap weed or even endogenous methods like meditation than some recreational and less serious users might get from a heroic dose of a psychedelic.

You are the totality of the present moment as it is experienced, for eternity. Thoughts or silence from thoughts are no more or less You than a bag of potato chips on your lap or Jesus Christ in a white robe standing in front of you. If it exists, it is you. Awareness and the content of awareness is a duality that ultimately must be collapsed. You are all of what is. It’s really that simple. The ego self is just as much a directly experienced phenomena as the smell of a rose or anything else. You are both the container in which these various phenomena take place as well as the phenomena themselves. Separation is always a mental concept. For a line in the sand to be a boundary, it must first be mentally constructed and accepted as one. The separation between the ego self and all of existence/God is both as real and as fake as the border of a country or territory. The border is directly experienced as a real separation, but this only occurs because it is a mental creation which is presently accepted. Ego death is like realizing all along that the border of a country has always been a somewhat arbitrary distinction which we have created. The sand doesn’t change because on one side humans see it as Mexican soil and on the other it is seen as American soil. All of it is the Earth. In the same way, all mentally-constructed egos are all just God the same way the sand on any side of a human border is really just the Earth.

I’ve turned on and interfered with electronics accidentally during periods of awakening. During a meditation, my phone went from about 5% charge to 100% while completely unplugged. I've experienced accidental teleportation of objects in my life on a couple occasions. All of this stuff happens without my direct conscious control. Usually there is a clear intent or desire connected to many of these events. For example, with the phone experience, I was facing a hassle and inconvenience due to needing to use my phone for GPS during a drive which would immediately follow my meditation. I was not at home and had no way to charge it. I went into the meditation with this problem on my mind. The physical teleportation of objects happened once with something I really needed but knew for a fact I had left behind in another city just hours before. This stuff only started happening after a lot of spiritual work. Telepathy, clairsentience, and other “non-physical” abilities are far more common for me and far easier to control than physical manipulations although I still do not have perfect control of these by any means. I can only increase the chance of it occurring through doing things to increase my level of consciousness and focus on certain thoughts and profound experiences or connections. The physical stuff, and even to some extent the less physical stuff, is only under clear conscious control if you are at incredibly high levels of development which are rare and usually only occur for people who likely possess some rather unique spiritual talents and abilities. It’s far easier to develop some psychic abilities compared to learning how to actually control physical phenomena with the mind.

Tl;dr - Experiencing pain and physical stress, especially as someone with a history of spiritual practice, can serve as a potent catalyst for awakening. Pain and suffering are just as much divine blessings and Love as bliss and “positive” experiences. Today has been the most painful day of my life, but it has also spawned one of my deepest awakenings in an effortless albeit extreme way. I was having a follow-up appointment today for my broken toes and foot lacerations from a lawnmower accident last week. It was incredibly painful. I vaped some delta-10 & delta-8 THC on my way to the appointment. THC for me has been just as powerful if not more powerful than any psychedelic I’ve ever taken. One big hit off of my fully legal (federal & state in U.S.) vape pen is enough to surpass or rival 10 tab LSD or 6 gram mushroom trips. I’ve also been pursuing Liberation for about seven years very diligently. With that context out of the way, I’ll get into my story. This is the first time I’ve ever used delta-10 THC. I usually always get tired from delta-8 and delta-9 (main psychoactive ingredient in cannabis). It’s supposed to be very energetic and support a more active lifestyle while also being more psychoactive than similar doses of delta-8 which I usually use. I started to experience a rise in consciousness rather quickly after trying the delta-10/8 combination. Within 10 minutes, I was closing my eyes and pleasantly surprised with a really deep spiritual connection. As I went to my appointment, this feeling increased at times. During the most painful parts of the appointment when my exposed nail beds were having dried bandages and dressings ripped off of them on my broken toes and I was experiencing a strong reaction to the numbing agent they gave me which felt like my foot was dipped in acid that was simultaneously on fire, I experienced Cosmic Consciousness for the first time. I’ve experienced God Consciousness and many other spiritual states over the past few years, but this was a new facet to me. Rather than the God Consciousness or realization that I was literally the Creator of all existence, I became consciously connected to literally everything there is. It was a truly remarkable and breathtaking experience. I’ve had many experiences with Infinity, but this was very similar to my Infinite Freedom experience described in the video in my signature. Quite soon after the Cosmic Consciousness experience, which was actually quite brief, I began to think of other awakenings I’ve had. I was able to recall much of those states I had experienced previously with levels of intense imagination connecting me to the energies felt in the past. This activated a sort of spiritual telepathy/higher chakra connection that I’ve been experiencing and developing for the past several months. At this time, one of the ancient mystics who I’ve found a deep personal connection with and appreciation for, the Sufi Mansur Al-Hallaj, came to my mind. I connected to him through this spiritual telepathy in possibly the most intense instance of this type of experience that I’ve had thus far. This all occurred precisely as I was experiencing really severe physical pain. This gave me an insight into how grounding and physical survival has the potential to serve as an incredibly intense spiritual catalyst. There is incredible intelligence in the design of us experiencing what feels like a physical existence. The grounding aspect comes into play when severe pain and physical distress is experienced. It’s one thing to experience a mystical state through psychedelics or meditation in a controlled and comfortable setting, but this is ultimately a one-dimensional experience in many aspects in that the physical world and mode of existence has become somewhat secondary or even irrelevant in many of these experiences. When this type of “higher chakra” experience happens, it’s common to become disconnected from some of the lower chakras or more basic aspects of physical survival. To experience an intense physical distress connecting you to lower chakras/base survival while also having large spiritual and higher chakra awakenings acts in a way in which the awakening experience becomes exponentially enhanced. It became clear to me that Jesus, the Buddha, and many other ancient spiritual adepts, if the stories are true, actually had incredibly deep awakenings due to the way the human body can support higher consciousness states during periods of extreme stress to the physical body/system. The pain experienced during something like Jesus’ crucifixion, Mansur Al-Hallaj’s hanging/execution, and periods of intense and prolonged fasting or other ascetic practices challenged the individuals involved to face some of the absolute deepest survival-based attachments and ultimately experience a letting go and immense catharsis brought about by awakening. Later in the day, I took a nap. When I woke up, the numbing agent had worn off completely, and I discovered that the nurse at my appointment had tightened my protective boot to the point that it had severely cut off circulation to my foot. I experienced the same acidic burning pain throughout my entire foot for several hours. It was far more painful than when my foot was actually cut and broken by the lawnmower blade and lasted far longer. I called the hospital which recommend that I immediately go to the emergency room. I called my mom to take me there, but when she arrived the pain had become so intense that I refused to move. I realized that if I moved my foot or took it out of its elevated position that it would be absolutely unbearable. After the first hour of this intense pain, my body began to essentially turn off the pain response/signal. It’s as if my body realized that the pain signal was no longer helping and had become worse than any of my various physical issues and symptoms. At this point I experienced an intense euphoria and sense of peace. I began to look toward death in the most positive and accepting way. I realized that if I died right there on my couch I would likely be sent to levels of bliss that would be unimaginable even compared to previous awakenings I’ve had. Part of the reason they wanted me to go to the ER immediately is because I’ve been having chest pains, significantly lower blood pressure, light headedness, and other symptoms. The nurse who I spoke to on the phone was worried about the possibility of heart failure or other serious outcomes. Luckily, the situation mostly resolved itself although I’m still experiencing some pain which comes and goes. Life always has the potential to astound you at any moment without warning. The unpredictability of this life should never be underestimated. Although less likely for some compared to others, you could go from having a boring day to having a sudden awakening to the deepest aspects of reality while even taking a piss or standing in line for coffee. The most abundant source of this comes for most people through the experience of physical death. Even the spiritually uninterested atheist can potentially become directly conscious of their own Infinite nature as the Totality of Existence without any effort in some cases. Existence is pure magic and Love. What was supposed to be a routine appointment and relatively uneventful day turned into one of the most intense and significant days of my life which has contributed to my spirituality immensely.

I just cut my foot to pieces by it going under a lawnmower today. Regardless, I can still confirm this statement. We are witnessing Absolute Perfection at all times.

It depends on the level of consciousness I would be in at the given time. If we’re considering this moment, no I don’t think I would. What are they killing me for? How would my death in any way further my own highest values? I can still pursue my highest values in this life with much more room to improve. I’m not in a rush to end this current version of experience. In full God Consciousness at the time, I’d probably allow it as I am then conscious that nothing is to be feared as it’s all just Me created in service of Me. In this moment I still have plenty of ego attachment. This is why I would likely go against it. If it came to be that I had the choice to denounce spirituality or die in a public execution, I’d probably be fine with death although I’d hope for it to be swift unless I was in a radically heightened state of consciousness. Ultimately, one of my primary desires is for the ego to be completely eradicated. The destruction of the physical body only serves my higher goal. My degree of consciousness at any given moment alters how much I am to be in acceptance of the notion of physical death of this character. Low consciousness, death matters. High consciousness, it matters less. Infinite consciousness, it is of no concern at any Absolute level. "All that matters for the ecstatic is that the Unique should reduce him to Unity" -Mansur Al-Hallaj’s final words as he was publicly executed

Good job ? This is what it’s all about.

Sure someone can be a beacon of relative love without superego, but it’s kind of rare that attachment to the superego wouldn’t still be contributing imo. All actions already come from the Godhead. It is doing everything. Total unbiased Absolute Love, or simply Existence, does not prioritize human survival over everything else as we do. Ultimately, I think it’s a good thing that relative good takes over with most human awakenings. To remain as humans we need some selfishness. The thing is Jesus’ bias to human life is of course going to be celebrated by survival-crazed human egos. If he preached anything else, he would not be as impactful.

@Inliytened1 I mean I was typing out that in full God Consciousness the chance of stopping the rape might be close to 0% also because you wouldn’t even be able to move possibly, but I also thought that at this point you could non-physically stop the rape. I left this out to avoid making it more convoluted than it needs to be lol. Wanting to preserve goodness in any form at higher states of consciousness is the residual individual superego co-opting God for its own selfish purposes. There really is no higher or lower action imo, but you can’t possibly truly grasp this at a visceral level without experiencing what we typically call higher consciousness. As the ego is reduced and purified, the superego replaces it under the guise that it is the essence of God, but ultimately superego activities are just sneakier and more desirable. It’s easy to become attached to them while feeling as if you have reached the final goal. Imo, the final goal is far beyond any expression of relative goodness or order in any consistent pattern. It is a true reflection of Totality in all of its forms somehow represented in what at first appears to be finite. This conclusion is mostly the result of contemplation rather than direct experience though. My direct experience has God Consciousness aligning with relative good in most cases, but it also has moved past this at times.

I would do my best to stop the rapist, but this is not a selfless or good action really. Selfishness runs just as deep of a motivating factor as selflessness here if not even more so for anyone inquiring deep enough honestly. I think it would take some mostly unheard of levels of consciousness, or simply sociopathic tendencies, to be able to allow rape to take place without guilt. Relative good = that which serves the collective ego of society. If I were in total and infinite God Consciousness, I think it’d be closer to 50/50.

You can verify metaphysical information. You can test this stuff for yourself although it’s not as simple as running some scientific experiment. Some people are probably unable to verify certain metaphysical truths due to health or ideological limitations though if not genetic/spiritual talent limitations. It’s not a fair discipline in that way although what discipline has ever been fair? It is quite possible to put these things to the test. This is empiricism in its purest form. Pure direct experience. If it can be experienced, you know that the principle in question has a type of value. With more testing, you can further develop your understanding. Readily quantifiable is not the same as provable. You can prove many things without measurements.

You are already creating everything that exists for eternity... it sounds like you’re just not aware of it. True power is in the automatic action of the breath, heart, immune system, etc. It does not have to be consciously controlled, but it is still you doing it. Such is the entire Universe. You do it all, but your ego does not feel how these things are done so they are dismissed.

@snowyowl I think your “math” is a little off. This is my take. God = The Totality of Existence God = Everything Saying God + not God is to simply misunderstand what God is and also what you are. Your concept of God is insufficient, as are all concepts of such a thing. Your divisions between that concept and the concept of yourself are imaginary borders in much the same way a country’s borders are. The outcome or effects of having the mental border is concrete and potentially large/profound, but the border itself is not in accordance with anything that is actual that would divide two things. Your idea of God can never be God. Your idea of a boundary between you and God can never be actual because the boundaries themselves are mostly arbitrary lines of separation not to mention both subjects in this case are merely mental abstractions themselves (the idea of God and idea of you). Reality = God = Everything = Truth = Existence = What is = Love = Impermanence = Infinity = Perfection = Eternity... I could go on.

@Adamq8 why would you assume nothingness is something separate from consciousness?

I have a friend whose autism/aspergers was helped a lot by psychedelics — particularly mescaline.

Nothingness is Love. Absolute Love hardly ever looks like relative love, but sometimes it can.

I know exactly how you feel man. I got my ass kicked by Awakening last year. It fucked almost every aspect of my normal life. I’ve since then discovered that I now somehow have some ridiculous synergy with THC/Cannabis. This new synergy only came after psychedelics, meditation, developing psychic abilities, and much more. It’s very risky for me as a person with Bipolar Disorder Type 1 to take serotonergic psychedelics. Through this purely individual experience, I’ve found a slower yet more natural approach to self development. Through all my striving in other areas and trying to improve in so many different ways, I unexpectedly came to this. You will give in to your true nature eventually. Don’t rush the work. A solution may come along as you continue to improve. There could be a very good reason why you as God designed your journey in this way. You’re sitting in the classroom of Infinite Wisdom. The teacher just might know better than your ego. Try to work with the ego on the way to Ultimate Liberation. Maybe you are like a child wanting to be an adult in a sense. Wanting to mature rapidly is a common desire, but it’s possible that slowing down will make the ride much less bumpy albeit not as quick. You literally have Eternity to get this right. If there is too much resistance at a certain time, realize that is a sign God (You) created for you. I like Leo’s concept of requisite variety. The idea is that you ultimately have to try a variety of enough creative solutions to solve complex problems. If your approach is not creative and nuanced enough, it can be a struggle to make progress. When trying to deconstruct all of Existence, of course it’s going to take a lot. You’ll need a creative, nuanced, and individually-tailored approach. Always being go go go toward ultimate success is a sneaky residual pattern from Stage Orange that is hard to evolve into a more wise approach. The ego/Maya/survival agenda combination is one of the most powerful forces — possibly the most powerful to exist. Rather than fight it, treat it as an essential participator in this journey of development. You are Absolute Perfection making itself somehow more Perfect which is possible due to your Infinite Nature. This happens through the dance of Creator and Creation which is so perfectly choreographed through YOUR Infinite Intelligence and Infinite Creativity that it is truly just one entity. Wherever boundaries exist, be certain that they can be dissolved by Truth. Truth is the favored weapon of God (You & Me & Us & Anything else). There are no obstacles once you defeat your most powerful creation (ego/Maya/survival/physicality) by remembering that all of Existence was created by You for you and all others yous. There are no impurities. You are 100% God. Reality is perfectly designed. It will all make perfect sense once you go deep enough into God Consciousness/Realization. You did all the most horrible things to yourself out of Infinite, Unadulterated Love. They were necessary. Breathe and rest as you are.

@Consilience it’s not as pronounced after I’ve had more time to read through it. I give these points a general endorsement ? Pretty good stuff.

As the person directly above me said, I’ve experienced an array of these phenomena for myself even during sober waking consciousness. Much of it, if not more than has ever been imagined or described, is certainly real.

Of course, but this is not always a foundation for compassion in any normal use of the word. This can also be a foundation for a license to kill depending on individual tendencies, preferences, and conditioning.