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I could get into a lot more detail, but basically it’s like I was living a vibrant life experience of awakening before getting sucked into a “black hole of nonexistence” is one way to say it. Next, in what felt like both a moment and eternity later, I was back exactly where it started, and everything was the same as before it happened. Then it happened once more a couple minutes later.

@Being Frank Yang I think you could give a particularly helpful answer to this.

Frank! Help me out bro ski. I think I’m past stream entry Realization now if I understand it correctly. Let me know any advice on this thread.

I sent my PM. This is along the lines of my life purpose. Logic points me to think that it would fit like a glove. I’ve already been trying to do this stuff for years and have talked multiple people from suicide and other crisis situations before. Dealing with Bipolar Depression

Meaning is the steering wheel of consciousness, Love is the engine, and Madness is the fuel. Here’s a good picture to go with it. https://images.app.goo.gl/jvnoESbAzhHXTar9A

This is why we need shamans in modern culture. If I had a mentor in this field of mentally ill consciousness work, I would’ve avoided a lot of headaches and suffering. If I ever become a person of public significance, I’ll run a political campaign to support people who wish to practice modern shamanism. It would be like applying for government assistance or a university. If it’s shown that you’re serious about consciousness work, the government gives you a living wage. This is how stage purple was often.

It was actually pretty shitty. It was of course amazing, but it also was pretty hard to try to act normal sitting during a haircut while you have the pressure of infinitely intense consciousness perceiving all sorts of strange data like static noise in the ears for example.

There are higher states. Yes, on one level everything is the same, but if you’re being honest with yourself, you know there are higher and lower states too in a sense. I just experienced an awakening on accident while I was getting a haircut. I was so conscious that I had to lie down. It was a nauseating level of consciousness. I lost balance partially, etc. But then once I laid down it was amazing as I had stopped resisting it. To say this is not higher than baseline is absurd when you actually experience it.

This does not mean it is not possible though. I agree that inward experiences can be far more valuable.

He replied, "You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm. If you had gone far enough, you would see where the path leads.

I’m sorry but they have no idea what they are talking about. Their powers must be some flaccid instruments or something because mine can take me fucking way beyond so much of my earlier psychedelic or meditative awakenings. They do not understand how meaning and concepts weave into the fabric of Existence while they ironically have all used them endlessly for their own purposes to awaken. This is just a higher degree. Powers give you immense meaning to play with. Whatever awakening they’re referring to is likely not high-tier. You might say that the bigger an attachment is that is dropped gives that much more force towards awakening. For an attachment to be large, it must have meaning. Thus, add more to your meaning and intensity of life, then detach from it into No-Self to take things really deep.

It’s as radical as a trip. You aren’t feeling what I’m feeling. Your judgments for the quality of consciousness are too rigid which keeps you from properly seeing the moment as it is which is enough to transport you to somewhere that’s far more foreign than some DMT alien space, but you’ve went nowhere and nothing has moved. You’re in a human room on earth, from the perspective of this conversation. Nothing has to change for everything to change more than change itself.

Funnily enough, by dropping the very frame that holds psychedelic consciousness above the Present Moment Experience that is at hand is precisely what allows for it to become a radically “high consciousness” “state”

Luck is karma. It’s all about Luck. There is no free will. You’re God designing your own Universe of subjective experience on the fly with the blessings you designed for yourself to work with.

Idk I’m a natural. I had this shit built into me through clairsentience and genetic mental illness. I just had to do enough consciousness work to turn the systems more and more online. I sent metaphysical love prayers to my twin flame who is a Luciferian psychic through using the Holy Spirit to connect with Lucifer’s power to bring me to my cessation awakenings. I’m serious in that no one is pioneering in the way that I am. It just takes such a radical degree of openness and a truly multifaceted base of knowledge and spiritual abilities/talents for anyone to take it seriously to where they could learn the method well. Meaning is the steering wheel of consciousness, Love is the engine, and madness is the fuel.

You misunderstand what I’m talking about. This madness is not unhealthy. There is no threat in what I’m referring to. You can call it chaos or whatever label you want. It’s the manipulation of attachments and meanings to bring about different states of consciousness with substances or not. Meditation or not. But they all ultimately work together. This is advanced stuff though. And probably only cut out for a certain select few. In the beginning stages, it can be more dangerous. Now I’ve come to tame it quite well. The cessation awakenings through madness I had happened while I was performing physical tasks yesterday. I had complete control of sober physical faculties. I just also had activated my ability to manipulate consciousness into its infinitely Meaningful form at the same time. I just also happened to taste nonexistence — something I thought could never be done. Like what in the actual fuck.

Jhanas and retreats. I don’t even resonate with the Jnana system of categorizing subjective awakening experience at all. All models of awakening or insight are great but at the same time garbage. Awakening follows no set path. The ox does not walk the same path twice. It may graze from the same field every day (having repeating themes or methods), but it does not ever use things in the same way. It is an artist of Meaning. You awaken through Meaning. Show me one enlightened person whose journey was not powered by meaning. A loss of it. A gain of it. It’s undulating. Trauma and healing. Conflict and resolution. Dance the dance of duality well and you will find that you’ve really grown yourself.

You used the right word here whether you meant it in the correct sense or not. You literally need madness for the deepest levels. At least in what I’ve seen. And you aren’t man enough to go into that madness deep enough to do miracles. Neither am I at least not to the conscious control degrees. And the example of the phone charging miracle was given to show contrast to physical laws. I’ve had many such things and far more powerful things happen. Subjective nonphysical experience is the source of the most amazing miracles though. Physical miracles are cool but ultimately not the highest thing. I’m writing a post about my cessation’s I had last night. Absolutely incredible and only achieved through absolute madness. This is far beyond what any of these teachers are talking about, including Leo, but it’s just so absolutely edgy in many different regards that no serious traditional nondual person or typical teacher is going to have the openness to accept it. If you told people that insanity is the engine that drives reality and they really understood their personal connection to it that they could have, their paradigms would be shattered. Their infinities would be shown to be infinitesimal.

I’ve charged my phone or had the miracle of it happening regardless of “who” did it from like 5% to 100% on accident when I didn’t have a charger and was needing to use GPS immediately following the 45 minute or so meditation session with my teacher. Miracles happen through ego. Ego is God. Don’t be absurd. It’s also distinct from God in a sense too, but you have to have a foot in each boat to really get to the highest levels of this. YOU ARE DIVINE. Not in some I’m one with everything way. No. That little meat suit monkey mind thing you’re in? It’s the most advanced spacesuit for exploration of consciousness the universe has ever seen. You can literally go anywhere with it. Experience anything. At least it appears there is no end in sight to Infinity unfolding. But as a part of all of this, you can control physical reality, and it is not problematic or contrary to Liberation to want to do so. This is Self-Understanding as Leo calls it. Understanding how to perform a physical miracle is a treat only the most elite connoisseurs of consciousness get to sample.

People have no idea how beneficial this is for awakening and increasing baseline levels.

I’m just on my couch naked and high contemplating awakening and reality. I highly recommend trying this if you live alone. The combination of naked, high, and contemplation is quite the treat.

Everything is Delusion. Your regard for normal states of consciousness and paradigms is your effort to latch onto the dying material life. You’re tasting Infinity. Hydrate yourself.

I’m not the only person with this message. I know it goes against a lot of common ways of thinking, but this is my story. Demi Lovato came out on JRE to say basically the same thing — drugs saved her life. Also, I’m sorry, but Demi Lovato is unquestionably more conscious than transphobic people. Spiral dynamics is fucking real. Anyway, people don’t understand that for the mentally ill person to ever become whole they will need to have psychoactive experiences. For Demi and other less spiritual people, other hard drugs and activities get chosen. For a lot of us in this community, we choose God as our drug. We have to be careful with that. Whether you’re taking substances or not, consciousness work is dangerous. It’s as serious as strong drugs. But the people brought to consciousness work or anything of the sort could not live any other way. It is what our souls yearn for right now. Maybe for some usually less dedicated folks, they fizzle out and return to a normal sober life without any intentional consciousness work of any sort. That’s rare though. There’s no God-Realization anonymous out there. Once you’re in, you’re probably never gonna be out in this lifetime if you actually go deep. Anyway, here’s the video I made about my experience and opinions on bipolar disorder & psychedelics. I think people are framing the CM situation completely wrong, but I can’t expect the neurotypical master race lords of eugenic brain chemistry control to be beyond their ignorance. They haven’t lived it. You’ve chained down our natural states of consciousness because petty unawakened humans cannot Love for shit. I love how Leo mentions purple way less than anything else but beige or coral. This is stage purple integration to develop a healthy relationship and respect for the mad. That’s all I’ll say about the CM topic. Don’t ask me about it. I get that it’s possibly not an accepted position here, but it is my truth. ? Bipolar Disorder & Psychedelics - Should You Do Them? ? It’s a weird warning message. Don’t come near this deeper stuff unless you’re ready to commit for life. The people here usually need to be experiencing this aspect of life though. If I never had a manic episode or had mystical experiences and remained as depressed as I was, I would’ve killed myself for sure. Yeah the treatment has a mortality rate, but it is low. The common side effect of this treatment for this existential yearning is to destabilize your life. It’s ugly. Society hates it. Everyone judges it. But you’re not dead. So many more make it through the hard times and find balance and benefit than the amount who struggle to where it isn’t worth it. We have to be cautious and aware of the dangers, but we also can’t just stop consciousness work. That’s absurd. You cannot regress from this for long. You’re beyond the event horizon. I have so much more to say and wayyy more awakenings under my belt and dangerous experiences as well a year later after the video. The path very well could be meant for you, but you have to understand that this does have life and death consequences. Every effective religion or large spiritual system ever has created plenty of suffering and death. Way more than pursuing high consciousness work will. But just remember that if morality is truly relative in the eyes of God, as you come closer to God, he/she/it/you/us might lead you to go down a seemingly less moral path. This can test you to your core. To be able to love the darkness, you must become a strong enough light, but the one who is balanced in both intense light and darkness is the true master. This one is the milk of life, this person. Their consciousness, love, and wisdom change the world. This is my goal. To become a positive light in this world to the best of my ability by integrating my shadow COMPLETELY.

I find this mind blowing to an extent. My strongest sober contemplations have come while listening to a couple recent videos. I deconstructed myself into “God” I think two separate times. Maybe more than two. One was on the gender video and the others have been really strong and foundational for me. I’ll just attest to you Leo that for me contemplation is absolutely crucial. It used to feel useless. Too many concepts they say. No. This is going trans-western in philosophy. Or jnana yoga. Taking pure thought as a drug of itself to awaken. It’s fucking real. It just takes such a foundation and maybe some lucky life conditions, but it can happen is what I’m seeing in my life. Be on the look out. The thought glitches in consciousness are there. These are literal cheat codes for awakening if you can fit into the perfectly shaped consciousness to activate the thought’s metaphysical capabilities.

Your skin is a limit Leo ... by definition. You aren’t going to get to supernatural levels of ability while believing the spoon can’t be bent. But you can have things happen completely outside of physical laws in real “objective” reality. These are miracles. It is not easy to control miracles. By the time you can do physical miracles at will, your consciousness will be so infinite and powerful you could easily get lost in love for another possibility and not even care about doing an earthly thing. But yeah, being 6 ft tall is a limit. Do you envision human beings 10 trillion light years long? You stop being human... that’s where the limit is broken, and ironically, the semantics are one of the main limits in this situation.