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It’s otherwise called the cessation of feeling and perception for anyone not up to speed with the jargon. It’s basically a “non-experience” where the power switch for consciousness is turned completely off to then resume as if your life were a movie scene and someone had just edited half a second (or longer for more experienced people) out of your life. There is no “gap” experienced beyond the experience surrounding the cessation on both sides if we’re to put this in linear time. It is similar to deep sleep, but picture deep sleep which lasts half a second but can produce a really strong afterglow which puts any psychedelic afterglow I’ve experienced to shame when looking specifically at feelings of equanimity, joy in solitude, overall well-being, and generally just being on cloud 9 that is reported to last more than 24 hours in some cases. I understand full well that a “non-experience” is imagination in your teachings which I generally agree with. This is framed in time as well, so yeah, as a memory right now, it’s not quite the same either. Regardless, experiencing consciousness power down and reboot in the context of a full waking state has huge potential for insight and exploration in the God-Realization path in my opinion. I will hands down place this experience above any previous awakening, mystical experience, or life event — God Consciousness, Infinite Freedom, and many other extremely radical or subjectively potent events were not this significant. The seconds before and after the cessations were more intense, positive, and truthfully unbelievable than any other state I’ve ever tasted. The fruit on this tree appears to be rather ripe for the existential picking.
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BipolarGrowth replied to BipolarGrowth's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Leo Gura You are absolutely correct. Cessation is an imagination. But the trick is that death is the grandest illusion. NS has the best sustained baseline gains for sure, but the beauty was not the NS. It was becoming perfectly God-Realized before and after which is the beauty in it. Buddhists miss that part. Noobs. I imagine I would’ve chatted with you for a good few hours once in the singularity. Or maybe more like eternity? -
It’s worth it. Once you taste Nirvana and know Truth, nothing can be beyond one who is a holder of such knowledge. Nothing can truly threaten one with such knowledge. Seeking ultimately ends in completion when the forces of Infinite Existence (God) and Nonexistence (Dao) clash within yourself. They are you, and you know this. At least as much as anything could be a you that is. Now there is only the task of helplessly kicking back and watching the movie of God unfold before your “I”-less eyes. You are closer than distance itself to the action, but somehow, you are still aloof. This is pure nonexistence/no consciousness flowing into an illusory portal of infinite consciousness/existence which is in full effortless control of my body/ego/etc. which is typing this. Hey YOUniverse out there ? There’s the same source doing “both” of us. Nada. Zilch. Zip. “That’s it”
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BipolarGrowth replied to BipolarGrowth's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I’ve been going through MCTB a lot since I started digging deeper into the experience. I’ve certainly been cycling a lot as you say. By your definition, I completed a complete phase in 1-2 minutes before having my second cessation. I think the immediate inescapable reality of the cessation forced me into a state where I was just naturally that close to the door again that I’d go through. I had my first experiences of dark night afterwards a couple days ago. I hadn’t had any thoughts or experiences such as these in quite some time. After seeing these with essentially no resistance and essentially passing the test, I’ve been in a long equanimity. There have been several times that my cessations came to memory and my whole body just becomes covered in goosebumps. I usually start to feel closer to cessation actually recurring at these times. It’s like my new Bhakti focus has gone from any other conceivable notions of God, Truth, or Ultimate Reality to the Nirvana tasted in the cessation. Nirvana is when you become God and turn off your own dreaming process entirely. You don’t leave your own dream. No. You take all of reality with you just as Leo teaches. You turn off all dreams. -
BipolarGrowth replied to BipolarGrowth's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Okay, if atheists are right, you are absolutely nothing at your core. Once you die. There’s nothing. Not even awareness of a void. This is what Buddhists believe in many cases too. That there is no soul. Nothing continues, at least for a fully enlightened person. They do not return. They also often fundamentally believe that something came from nothing if you press them with direct questioning for long enough. Atheists and Buddhists worship the same nonexistence as the ultimate reality. They both kind of unwittingly forget that nonexistence then is exactly what produced the temporary world we’re experiencing right now. Big Bang, w/e. The show always stops dead at some point with cosmological questions. It either always exists or something came from nothing. Either way, consciousness, the Light, will return. In Truth, the Light cannot even stop existing. That would make it something other than Light. If the place with no space and time created a place with space and time, why worry about dying and going to a place with no space and time? Why worry of nonexistence? You are existence by nature, so it may never touch you. And you may never touch it. -
There is no instead. God is everything. Nothing can stop being God.
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BipolarGrowth replied to Dodo's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I know Lucifer well but not the devil. Mind the distinction. -
BipolarGrowth replied to BipolarGrowth's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Yeah this is how I feel now. It’s like I blew myself out with such a strong No-Self on that live awakening a couple weeks ago or w/e. Since then, my ego and “Self” are in so much harmony because I know the unreality of any substance or truth beyond the appearances. People act like they understand this shit all the time, but without some quite deep awakenings along a lot of different lines and angles and states of viewing all this, it’s not likely you really can appreciate the Truth in the wisdom you’re still mostly parroting out of a thin layer of remaining faith and also skepticism of the most radical teachings. You can bust the ground out from under yourSelf though too. That’s what full, waking state and vibrant cessation is. I’d wager to say my NS cessations were probably more impactful than most because it was like God Consciousness & beyond awakening for 30 mins - 1 hr > NS cessation > God Consciousness awakening for two minutes > NS cessation > God Consciousness tapers down rather quickly and is replaced by the most serene peace imaginable. If all deities and such powerful beings existed in a single physical marketplace, I’d become the richest of them all if I could manage to bottle up the post NS & God-Realization multiple existential orgasms into a consumable product. It’s like smoking a cigarette after sex, but you didn’t have a single flimsy human physical orgasm. You became both the Dao and God and had sex with these different realities and immutable energies and had that kind of an Orgasm. Then you had that kind of satisfied equanimity and bliss to a corresponding degree. All of Existence and Nonexistence rest in the true primary and eternal reality which can be spoken of and perceived that is your awareness. It’s all You baby. -
BipolarGrowth replied to BipolarGrowth's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
It’s a wild story. I don’t have the energy to write everything out. All I can say is that, you’re always practicing. Everything is your teacher. You can watch some of my latest videos if you want a rough idea. -
BipolarGrowth replied to BipolarGrowth's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
The atheists view of death is 100% correct. Except they completely misunderstand the implications. If death is nonexistence — no time, space, not even darkness, not even emptiness — all of reality and all beings rest upon a Nirvana which is true perfection. It is the absence. “Nature abhors a vacuum.” Well, imagine God with infinite power & eternal existence is the “substance” trying to fill a “space” that can’t even exist in theory. That’s what we live in. Nothing can ever die because nothing has ever exclusively been alive. Every being you talk to, every plant, every rock, imagined deity or nightmarish fear, is simultaneously death and life. The source of all phenomena is that which cannot be. That which is not. It’s quite strange. It is the mind-fuck of mind-fucks. Both existence and nonexistence exist within you. Nonexistence is within everything as the true ground. The true ground is no gravity, no time, no perception, no self, no consciousness, no soul, no god. With such an impossible and imperceivable Reality and Highest Nirvana, how could you ever feel the pain of your fall?! That’s the beauty of the groundless ground. -
BipolarGrowth replied to BipolarGrowth's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
The issue is that you can talk about all of this before cessation, but it’s likely you won’t embody it until after cessation or a similar strength Realization. Whether cessation is an imagined event or memory or is conceptual doesn’t quite matter. There typically must be a conditioned situation (you having a prior enlightenment experience, spiritual practice in general) to ground this in any sane way. Concepts are no hindrance. Don’t be shortsighted. They are tools that have their uses, and one use is to awaken. Any human being who ever awoke seems to have always developed concepts as far as I’ve ever heard. I wonder, I wonder. If you can be in Nirvana without concepts, what process do you think yourself as Truth separates Divinity from words/ideas/maps? There’s no separation. And there’s no separation between ego and Truth if you have a nuanced understanding. Everything is always Nirvana, but it cannot be tasted in full beauty without first awakening the character. Isn’t that what you’ve seen? “There is no character.” Yeah, and that’s not how you saw it before when you were a character though. It’s a tautology. You changed your dream through selective focus on dream aspects to be a dream in which the dream character would become all of the dream and anything beyond the dream. It’s lucidity. Only a dream in which characters exist can the Truth be expressed that characters are not. -
BipolarGrowth replied to BipolarGrowth's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
When you see what lies beyond Existence, you find that you somehow saw something in the very moment nothing could possibly be perceived. But you know true nature then. It should’ve been obvious enough with dreams, but with nirodha samapatti, you’re forced to see that there is nowhere to die to. If anything it should be thought of as your safety net for life rather than a source of fear. When everything stops, you’re as safe as you ever could be. -
BipolarGrowth replied to BipolarGrowth's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
You get it. -
BipolarGrowth replied to EntheogenTruthSeeker's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
It’s worth it man. Once you taste Nirvana and know Truth, nothing can be beyond one who is a holder of such knowledge. Nothing can truly threaten one with such knowledge. Seeking ultimately ends in completion when the forces of Infinite Existence (God) and Nonexistence (Dao) clash within yourself. They are you, and you know this. At least as much as anything could be a you that is. -
BipolarGrowth replied to BipolarGrowth's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
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BipolarGrowth replied to BipolarGrowth's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
This has a lot of good tools to use and somewhat fresh perspectives to offer. The most important singular concept is that your focus determines the probability of what you will experience in the future. Watch it for a minute at least to get a feel for it. -
How to Use Meaning, Attachment, & Imagination for Advanced Spiritual Development (Enlightenment) This is an advanced video. I don’t spend much time trying to cover the basics of non-duality. This video is mainly for people who have a good understanding of non-duality and would like to look into new practices.
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BipolarGrowth replied to The Don's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Watch the video in my signature from 12:35 onward for a couple minutes. I describe a palpable experience with prayer which was quite amazing. It’s not some magic reality manipulation machine. It’s more about sharing your love with those who need it and aligning with LOA better than getting gifts for yourself. -
BipolarGrowth replied to RMQualtrough's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I mean as a hypothesis it’s plausible under normal philosophies, but I personally don’t have confidence in it myself. I used to love ideas of the higher self and such things connecting us all to Brahmin, etc. but I realized that whole time I was just believing in a model I was given just because it sounded plausible really. Cut down belief and concepts to the degree in which there is no such idea as solipsism during your consciousness work. That’s way more important than spending time trying to figure solipsism out. If you awaken deep enough, maybe you really can find a definitive answer. -
BipolarGrowth replied to RMQualtrough's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Are you sure you’re not a robot? Trust me, the ego runs itself. -
BipolarGrowth replied to Leo Gura's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
This is a good point though. I had already suffered enough to be fully comfortable with total annihilation. But still these insights, when framed properly, are good safety rails. I think an important thing is to stop talking about physical death as if it’s the same as psychedelic death. This is a big epistemic error imo which had the dangerous outcome we saw. We don’t know beyond all doubt what an afterlife will contain. The difference is in the psychedelic case you have a functioning body left behind in this specific dream once you come down from the trip. Physical death... ain’t nobody coming back. -
The Vice episode really makes him look like a joke compared to seeing him in a proper context like this a few times.
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BipolarGrowth replied to EntheogenTruthSeeker's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Fasting should likely be grounding overall. It creates physical pain, cravings, and general lower nature drives to be at the forefront of focus often. These things can help bring his state down. The issue is that if he managed to transcend these things due to their intensity pushing him to do so, that could certainly trigger more of a heightening of state. If he is intermittent fasting as it sounds, he should be good. Of course he could always have some rare reaction, but intermittent fasting with enough calories and nutrients should not significantly affect his state regarding the creation of stronger manias. -
BipolarGrowth replied to RMQualtrough's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
There is no such thing as a conscious process at the deepest levels of this. You’re letting the continuity bias of the waking state/dreams give you a human body and feeling of a center of experience. Your interpretations label things as “conscious,” a “process,” etc. At the end of the day, even consciousness as a label must fall. This should typically be done once you have some true and deep no-mind and No-Self awakenings. You can literally run on autopilot without conscious control. Why would others require it? There’s no self here. Why would there be other selves? Now this is precisely where Leo makes his leap to solipsism based on having no direct conscious experience of something outside his consciousness. Leo is basically saying, or should be saying, that the mechanics of consciousness do not all for “two consciousnesses” to be experienced at once in one person’s consciousness — it’s a tautology. As soon as you become aware of an “other” consciousness, it has precisely been assimilated into your completely nondual and boundary-less existence at that very moment. The fact that nonduality is real — if you take this as a given, it’s up to you on that — means that anything to ever come into your consciousness is You. This is a problem of verification being shielded from possibility due to definitions and tautology of consciousness always being one “field.” -
Quite good actually. I can’t believe that Vice piece on him made me see him as a fake. I’ve started seeing more of him on here, and I welcome it now that I’ve lost the temporary bias.