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Do awake people spend their time being arbiters of who is awake by making assumptions of someone else’s whole life based on a single sentence? ?

Nice. Reminds me of Alexander/Sasha Shulgin.

At first I was wondering if this was some sort of HPPD, but I discovered it’s a side effect from my psychiatric medication. I guess this is just a reminder that even prescribed medications taken properly can mess you up. I woke up a few hours ago feeling disoriented which is something completely new for me. Within 30 minutes, I started experiencing double vision. About 10 minutes after that, my vision kept pulling upward. I couldn’t even open my phone to read text. A lot of nausea was caused by this. Practicing meditation and having psychedelic experience didn’t at all fully prepare me for this new kind of experience. On that note, consciousness can always fuck your shit up. There’s so much out there we are not prepared for, no matter how experienced we get with altered states. This was like a bad trip, but I got caught trying to do normal activities. Thank God I wasn’t the one driving. I can only imagine having to try to operate at work in a state like this. It would be hell. I’m obviously making a doctor’s appointment ASAP to get this resolved.

Being awake is overrated.

This experience showed me that everything, including our beloved forum, is impermanent. I got to research some good sources on the downtime.

This will pass with time. For now, try to go spend some time with friends or family. Do some normal stuff. Fuck Liberation for now. It’ll come back later if it’s what is right for you.

In front, behind, below, above, within, without, no center (with closed eyes though, I wasn’t seeing outside of these internal visual sensations). Here are my rough notes I was working on. Keep in mind they sound grandiose, but TBH this experience was pretty grand itself lol. The Raw Edge of Infinite Perception — A New Magnitude of Awakening Infinite Concentration, Focus, & Impermanence Infinite Omni-dimensional consciousness “I can’t wait to make a video and detailed awakening post about this experience. Haha. No consciousness has ever reached this point before (maybe lol). No Buddha. No god. No yogi. This was pure raw processing power of infinite perception at work. There is nothing more satisfying. Doing vipassana with all three doors — no self, dukkha, and impermanence fused together at once in Omni-dimensional consciousness of untold rapidity of change in all locations simultaneously. You are riding on the raw edge of perception baby. All times, realities, imaginations, beings, gods, gurus, and everything else is held on the utter edge of the present moment in perfect and infinite concentration, focus, and anticipation for what is present. The true present moment is ungraspable even at the most fine capacities of perception. You are always doing processing a split second after perception. To be on the cusp of perception at no time and no distance in all directions and locations simultaneously as infinite change is occurring every nanosecond, you transcend existence and nonexistence. This is undoubtedly the highest level ever accessed (went deeper than this multiple times by now in hindsight lol). The capabilities of human beings are endless. #humanism I used the Lumenate app while listening to intense music at full volume in a car to have this experience. I took a few hits from a THC vape pen before starting, but I think this is unnecessary. I noticed that all effects of the THC were erased once I had done the practice for 20 minutes. This was done with a style of vipassana noting as each sensation occurs/changes. Normally people do noting with labeling, but this is far too slow to keep up with the capacities of perception. Some make a single sound or mental note such as “blip” every time a sensation is noted. This is better, but it is still too slow. At this level, noticing a sensation will have to count as noting it. Every separate thing that can be felt, witnessed, heard, thought, smelled, etc. counts as a data point. The goal of this practice is to achieve the overclocked processing power of the Godhead to an infinite degree. Really to call this the Godhead is kind of going to far as it’s all just you. It’s just a good example for grasping the magnitude of this practice at its peak. I focused on noticing four types of sensations. The primary focus was on changes to visual phenomena, then audible changes, followed by the vibrations of the music, and lastly the location and feel of body parts as they were witnessed. A fifth type of sensation could be said to be the different emotions that arose, but these were so far in the background they likely had little effect on the result. As the visuals started to come in, at first it was seen in 2D like a screen. Further concentration took this to a 3D effect. It was at this point that the visual field completely surrounded me. All that can ever be accessed is the perpetually shifting sands of perception. Feeling, perception, and sensation is all there is. Feeling more deeply is the secret to embodiment. Insight, concentration, and truth are all based on becoming more connected to what is present in experience.”

This is what I suspected. I think the metaphor is useful, but it also really oversells itself. I have experienced a sort of true 360 degree perception with my eyes closed while using the Lumenate app. I figured people weren’t actually claiming to be doing that in waking normal life because that would be pretty easy to objectively disprove lol. You’d probably be able to turn water to wine around the time you can do that in waking life

Nice stuff. Can you describe the 360 sphere of vision in more detail? I’m assuming you’re not seeing behind your back, under your feet, and, above your head. Is my assumption right or wrong?

Language is a rather gigantic complex system. If you look at all of the permutations… INFINITY

“how people are not running outside naked in mass frenzy consumed by gnawing madness” Luckily, this is only reserved for the professionals.

I expected to find a good movie. I found content I enjoyed multiple times already. Good shit though if people are unaware of it. I also liked this similar video although some of the content is more questionable. Still good though.

The good part is that Reality already took care of the fears of being famous for most of us. It’ll simply never happen in almost all cases.

He’s definitely gotten somewhere. His tone felt too negative, so I stopped watching. It just didn’t resonate pretty quickly for me. If he’s talking about hatred for people and things of that nature as you mentioned in the first post, he’s still missing a lot. Awakening includes a lot of nihilistic discoveries and difficult experiences/partial truths, but overall, it should spark some deep Love and compassion if it’s running on all cylinders IMO

No one will be able to actually answer this IMO. There would be way too many shaky assumptions.

The bold text is all you need to know really. Make your spiritual practice strong, and you will find out in ways far deeper than our various bullshittings can tell you.

Nice. I think this was the one I considered getting before. You should check out the Lumenate app. Doing vipassana + Lumenate is the easiest way for me to reach ridiculous amounts of concentration pretty effortlessly. The app has a free version. It’s not a biofeedback thing though. It flashes your phone’s flashlight rapidly to produce quickly shifting visual sensations on your closed eyelids.

I don’t want to meditate as much as I feel that would be best for my goals as I’ve found other techniques which are easier.

If you feel quite confident you can handle your shit without a trip sitter, I’d say it’s okay. If you can get a trip sitter, that’s ideal though. Being in a bit of a negative headspace isn’t a reason to completely avoid tripping. A big reason I’m saying this might be okay is because you’re indicating you have years of meditation experience. That helps. I’ve had psychs pull me out of a number of depressions, so maybe you’ll see a similar result. Still, set positive intentions beforehand and try to do it on a good day compared to your current average. Make sure to meditate for some time before you take it or at the very least on the whole come up phase. Also this advice only flies if you’ve done some trips at that dose before and they were received well. Don’t do your highest dose ever in a bad headspace… Be extra careful with all the normal safety protocol. No high rise apartments with balconies, access to weapons, etc. You’d probably want to have at least one person know about your plans. Someone nearby would be best. A friend from back home who you could at least call if you get into difficult territory would be a close second.

Just a few minutes in. I’ll see if I can watch it tonight. Wanted to say that his initial descriptions of enlightenment are sounding genuine and align much with my experience.

I used to follow him when I was more stage green. It sounds like he was less conspiracy focused back then.

I’ll try to give it a shot.

Ideas about life being fake or not real are just a part of the story. Honestly it’s way more complex than that. If you had more pieces of the puzzle and some time to integrate them, you’d see that it’s ultimately not something to fear. There’s way more Love if you are able to go deep enough. Don’t push yourself too hard though. Being in a good mindset and proper setting while setting clear and positive intentions will likely reduce the chance you run into as much resistance if you choose to try more psychedelics.

You’ll project less when you’re more present to the moment from my experience. Going with the flow is likely going to be helpful. Twin flames are crazy powerful for growth. I wish I could be with mine, but it’s impractical for now

Very detailed! Give yourself time to contemplate and integrate all of this. You are quite sensitive to psychedelics, so keep that in mind whenever trying something new. What exactly is first order reality and second order reality? Where can I read more about this? I’m not sure what Leo means, but it sounds like first order is the “actual” or what is here in this second. Second order might be imagination of past or future, but to me that still occurs fully within the first order. Ultimately they are not separate in higher conscious states in my experience if that’s what he’s referring to. Does Leo have a video on context? Other than recontextualization? I think that’s the only one which focuses directly on context. When I talked about "Raw reality", What was that? It’s hard to say. To me it sounds like viewing things without your normal conceptual lenses or just completely new ones which change the feel.