jimwell

I have read the article. Thanks! I included it in the original post but it expired. Here's a functional one. Humans who seriously go on a hunger strike often end up dead. And why do you think all animals hunt other animals or eat plants? Did he mention how the "enlightened species" would survive?

I'm glad that you at least hope for it. Are you sure that butchers end up having mental problems? How did you know this? I think psychopaths are naturally attracted to butchering jobs. They love it. They can't be traumatized. I'm not even sure whether normal humans get traumatized when butchering animals. It seems like a normal activity for them. I am too self-loving and mentally mature to be torn down by such an ugly truth. Yes, my soul gets wounded, but not destroyed. This will not work. Humans are too selfish to give up eating meat. And an omnivore diet probably is the healthiest diet. That's why providing a safe "meat alternative" is the way to go. With that, humans don't need to sacrifice much. I see your point. Zoos surely have benefits. I still need to contemplate the good and bad of zoos to have better insights. They chose to eat food again because the only alternative was death. Without food, there will be no life and no spirituality. There will only be death or nothingness.

You should remember that the administrator of this forum is essentially the forum's dictator. Leo is not a flawless dictator, I have seen some flaws. But as a whole, he's a good forum dictator. And it's easy to see that the majority of society is dumb. That's why we are still in the dark ages. In theory, this is correct. But this can't manifest into reality because a good dictator needs to be an archangel (intelligent, integrous, strong, but can also be a devil at times to impose boundaries or achieve something very difficult). You can never encounter such a super human in person. All dictators in history have been devils, no exception. But suppose you encounter a super human in real life and he magically becomes a dictator, he still needs his ministers, generals, etc. to be as good or almost as good as him. Otherwise, they will conspire against him and he will end up in jail or dead. Imagine a very good dictator in North Korea. He would not last. The reason Kim Jong Un has been the dictator for many years is that his ministers and generals have the same mental development as him. Their souls are similar - dumb and devilish!

It's more accurate to say that intuition is the divine download of knowledge or wisdom. I have never experienced what my recent intuition has revealed. Did you mean I experienced it in my past life? I don't think reincarnation is true.

I think that you should not eliminate those violent tendencies and anger. They have a function in your life. What you really need is to "tame" them or integrate them. In some situations, your anger and violent tendencies will serve you. I experienced what you are experiencing, but just worse. I experienced extreme anger for 4 years. There was a time I considered murdering all the humans who had hurt and abused me, especially when I was a kid. Yes, I considered murdering my own parents, especially my father, and my relatives. Your anger and violent tendencies surely are a result of the mental-emotional (and might also be physical) abuse you received, especially during childhood. The first step you need to take is to acknowledge that your anger is VALID. Don't try to forcefully erase your anger. It will not work. It will only do more harm than good. In my case, the suppression of my anger turned into extreme anxiety and depression. It was that extreme that I dropped out of college because I couldn't go out of my room. I also had agoraphobia. When I eventually discovered that I had suppressed anger, I simply honored and validated it. I expressed my anger both in controlled and aggressive ways. Yes, there were times when I actually confronted my bullies and bullied them. Yes, I punched my father in the face and created a big black eye there. There were also times when I mentally-emotionally wounded the people who did the same thing to me when I was a kid and when I was weak. But I suggest that you don't do what I did. There is a better way, something more controlled and safer for everybody. Honoring my anger magically healed my soul. The anxiety (GAD, OCD, BDD, agoraphobia, etc) and suicidal depression disappeared. Before I was able to effectively honor my anger, I generated high self-love. Believe it or not, you will need high self-love to heal. To simplify it: 1. Generate high self-love, 2. Be self-honest 3. Introspect and contemplate your childhood wounds 4. Feel and validate your anger 5. Express your anger (more controlled and safer way is recommended) 6. Understand why your abusers murdered your soul (see their perspective) 7. Contemplate the benefits of experiencing the mental-emotional wounds Hint: makes you a more self-loving person with established boundaries, makes you stronger, makes you more empathetic and sympathetic to the weak and vulnerable, and more appreciative of the things previously mentioned 8. The anger has been honored and released (healed) 9. Forgiveness 10. Feeling good It took me many years to heal (4 to 6 years). I don't look for vengeance anymore. But I also honor my past so I don't befriend my past abusers as if nothing has happened. I still keep my boundaries. It's all about balance. And yes, I feel very good about myself. The posts below are relevant.

A few months ago, I asked myself "How do I know whether I'm the only sovereign God having this solipsistic dream? There might be other sovereign Gods who are completely outside my consciousness and solipsistic dream; sovereign Gods who I have no access to, and having their own solipsistic dreams." I experienced Solipsism when I was a kid. So, I have a good idea what Solipsism is. I still don't take it as truth. I am open to the possibility that Solipsism is not Truth. But I intuit that Solipsism is Truth. I'm surprised that your most recent awakening clearly answers the question I had a few months ago. I think the awakening is actually not contradictory to your past awakenings. It is just a step or a level higher. I will reveal here another intuition of mine. In your next level up awakening (probably the highest awakening), you will realize that you are God, simultaneously having access to all the infinite number of sovereign Gods' consciousness (not via telepathy). It also means that you are God who simultaneously sees and experiences all the sovereign Gods' solipsistic dreams. I hope that this is really the case so I will know what to verify. Having an intuition and actually experiencing it are not the same. Unfortunately, I am not in the correct position to verify it myself now because I am still too busy surviving. And when my survival has been ensured, I still want to burn or exhaust my "karma".

Yes. But the few wise people are still part of the fools' society so they also suffer the same karma. It's a tragedy.

Love your ego to death. And also learn to love truth, goodness, and beauty. That's what matters because that's what makes you spiritual.

Normal humans with low self-esteem don't get away with it. Life is hell for anybody who has low self-esteem (or traumatized or deeply wounded during childhood), spiritually gifted or not. But yes, it's worse for spiritually gifted humans. Yes, they are wrong. Spiritually gifted humans exist and it's highly genetics (80% to 90% for Awakening World Champions). That Indian man, Ramana Maharshi was completely spiritually gifted (91% to 100% genetics for The Most Awakened Ever). My grandmother was a very religious woman. She was very kind or benevolent, a true Christian. But she lived and died having severe schizophrenia. Maybe she was spiritually gifted. But I'm sure that she committed the mistake of spiritual bypassing. She neglected her desires, insecurities, and mental-emotional wounds. She also rejected her husband and family. She went Jesus-mode; leaving her family, selling her possessions and gave the money to the poor. But despite that, I love and respect my grandmother. She was the only human in this world who made me feel love when I was a kid. That love was unconditional; not perfectly unconditional but still unconditional. And I saw the biblical Jesus in her, very loving and selfless. This is true. Everybody needs to have high self-esteem, spiritually gifted or not. There is no point in living life if you have very low self-esteem. Life will just be hell and torture. And self-esteem is directly proportional to self-love. Focus on generating self-love because you automatically get high self-esteem and self-confidence, and you have a bigger chance of getting the other good things (wisdom, good health, success, etc.). And how can you love the entire existence if you can't even love your limited, human self? Lastly, be PRUDENT. You just can't talk about spirituality or spiritual insights to anybody, anywhere, anytime.

These are 2 of the songs which make me say "Such is the beauty of existence!".

Love is such a beautiful thing. It surely is.

No, not delusional. You get them back via generating high self-love and self-reliance, and healing your trauma and chilhood wounds. It's also good to learn to establish your personal boundary (an aspect of self-love). I made a post about how to generate self-love a few weeks ago. I can't attach the link here because I'm using my smartphone to write this comment. By the way, you have a suave signature. ?

The point of integrity is itself. Yes, it's true that your integrity and goodness will have no or very little impact on the world because not only those who have the most power and resources lack integrity... even the ones who lack power and resources (the majority) are also very selfish, deceptive, and opportunistic. But the point is to live and die being genuine and integrous. Its impact is secondary.

Because it is. And my post was also aimed at all the other members and guests of this forum. Not my intention to put you in the extreme feminism category. Sounds good. Cheers! ?

I would also like to see more women in carpentry and masonry. Be careful about extreme feminism. Men and women are not similar. Both have their own tendencies, strengths and weaknesses. Ignoring or denying inherent biological and even "spiritual" characteristics, tendencies, and differences between men and women is a big mistake. I'm not anti-women. I even love them. I see their inherent beauty and value. I just don't want feminism to go extreme and self-deceived.

We are all here. Existence is a dream. But if this dream is all there is, then existence is real. Yes, we are all breathing. You're not alone. Don't worry about it.

So you were never genuine. You can only be very genuine if you have a high level of self-love and self-satisfaction. Only then that others' perception and impression of you naturally become much less insignificant. The best form of genuineness is very connected to integrity. The opposite of integrity is being spineless and opportunistic which are hallmarks of both the people pleasers and selfish bastards. This video by Leo about integrity is helpful.

I see it in a different way. I think everybody is capable of love and has loved many things. But nobody (including me) has loved at the highest level - complete, unconditional love. Something limited is not capable of that.

Everybody should always remember this formula: self-deception + spiritual bypassing = zen devilry

It's 4:10 am in my country and I'm sleepy as fuck. But I need to say this before going to sleep: Humans don't even care enough about kids being disrespected and abused. And humans also don't care enough about their fellow humans who are starving on the cold sidewalks. Otherwise, there would have been global protests against child abuse and homelessness, much more and much bigger than the current anti-Russian Invasion protests. There's no chance that humans will care enough about the pain and suffering of butchered animals. It surely won't happen in this century. We just need to be at peace with that.

Cows are delicious. But they also have intelligence and emotions, similar to humans. This inner conflict punctures my soul.

It's good that you see the problems with capitalism and the world's current civilization. But it seems that you have fallen into the trap of seeing only the bad side. Get out of that trap and be willing to see the good side. Watch the beautifully created documentary and then imagine yourself living in that scenic prison. Life is very difficult there. You probably won't survive. With proper contemplation, it will make you appreciate and be grateful for civilization and capitalism. Capitalism should not be erased. But yes, it needs to evolve.

You will never have full control of existence. It doesn't matter if you are God or not. In the end, you are still limited. But you can expand and maximize your limits. You do this not via spiritual bypassing. You do this via internal and external self-actualization work; self-love, self-esteem, self-confidence, ambitions, planning, implementation, and luck. Luck is the other forces which you don't have control. God is in full control all the time. Even the things I mentioned which seems you have control over, are actually under God's control which are implemented via you. Everything is spirituality, that includes survival. God is all there is, so everything is spirituality. So, master survival (low level spirituality), and find and then keep your connection to your soul and existence (high level spirituality).

You are similar to a typical Japanese who works himself to death. It is called "karoshi". I have heard many times about young Japanese (early 20s) who worked 12 hours a day with essentially no days off (they don't take their rare days off) for big Japanese companies. They made much money but it was all pointless because they ended up dead in their lates 20s or early 30s. The way they died was horrible. They showed up at work in the morning and then collapsed. It's intriguing that their death occurred in the morning. Why not in the afternoon when they were supposed to be more exhausted? Some hard-working Japanese are able to make it in their late 40s before they get sick and die. The others don't die but get depressed and are forced to quit because they just can't continue anymore. Others just murder themselves because of depression. The last category of hard-working Japanese is the one which my former 55-year-old student who works for Toyota Motor Corporation as an Industry-Design Engineer belongs to. His words: "My life is nothing but work. I have been exhausted and wanting to quit for many years but not been able to. I have made billions of yen but it's pointless because I don't even have time to spend them." He looked frail and unhealthy. I hope he is still alive now and ok. It's obvious to me what you should do. Change the work situation. Try a different job if needed. If nothing works, go back to your home country and then regroup. Additional info: My former student wasn't on vacation when he studied. His company required him to do it, so the company paid for it. Studying was part of his job at that time.

The problem is that you have a very strong aspect which is very self-hating or self-defeating. It's very strong that you even identify your whole self as that one aspect. This is a very difficult problem to solve because this self-defeating aspect is embedded deep in your soul and runs in the background of your mind. This is why you feel a very strong resistance when you try to do something good for yourself. I think you should try to balance it out by developing the aspect of you which is self-loving. It must be there, somewhere in your soul. I have a small but powerful technique to help you do that. But first I need to clarify what love and self-love is. Self-love is: Being kind and good to yourself You honor your desires and do things which serve you; you eat delicious or nutritious foods, you sleep long (more or less 7 hrs) and deep, you chase and bang beautiful women, you do self-actualization work, and you pamper yourself with a big pizza from time to time. Being understanding or sympathetic to yourself When you make a mistake, especially a big one, you don't condemn or punish yourself by judging yourself as dumb, bad, or evil. And you don't restrict your chance of succeeding or doing it correctly. You always deserve a chance. Why? For no other reason but you love yourself. You also try to understand why you made such mistake. You consider your external and internal situation (your beliefs, thoughts, and feelings at the time of committing the mistake). Forgiveness It is connected to understanding or sympathy. It is easy to forgive yourself if you understand why you made a big mistake. You can even go a level higher. Even if you don’t understand for whatever reason why you are being dumb or made such a stupid mistake, you still choose to stop punishing yourself. You are still being kind to yourself, the same way you are being kind to that beautiful girl who captured your heart (might sound cringy ). Having respect and setting boundaries You draw lines or set rules for how others should behave towards you, and you strictly implement such rules. Don’t allow others to insult, bully, or gaslight you. You should be willing to punish anybody who verbally or physically harms you. It is exactly similar to protecting somebody or something you love; a dog, computer game, or $1 million in your bank account. You nourish it. And you destroy anybody or anything which harms it. Appreciation You see and appreciate the good things about you and the good things you do. Those are the essence of self-love. Contemplate them until you clearly understand them. Then start a conscious decision to love yourself and be your own protector and cheerleader. There will be a very strong resistance, but you need to use all your energy and will power to resist the resistance. 1. Look yourself in the eye in the mirror for 30 seconds to 1 minute. 2. Say "I want to love myself." Yes, I'm bad, I'm this, and that, but "I want to love myself. Do this 2 times a day, preferably in the morning, and night. You might want to wash your face first before doing it, so you look better. You can verbalize it or just say it to yourself via thoughts so nobody can hear you. And throughout the day, pause or take a moment to say it (5 to 10 times without the mirror). Do this for a few years. You will know when to stop. But after 1 year, you will feel and see the result. Don't say "I love myself". The resistance will be even stronger, and more importantly, it's a lie. It's better to be straightforward and honest, so say "I WANT to love myself". Also don't say "I want to love you". It's more direct and empowering to say "I", so say "I want to love myself". That might look a very simple exercise or routine and you underestimate its effectiveness. But it works. I generated strong and stable self-love via that. It is via self-love that you naturally become connected to your desires and feel love and excitement for existence. It's also good to have an alone time (1 to 2 hrs a day, at least 3 times a week) for contemplation, introspection, and appreciation. And find a way to implement the essence of self-love in your daily life. It's probably better if you continue your van life until you earn enough money to be able to afford an apartment. Don't go back to living with your family. And playing computer games is surely a waste of time and energy. Here is a thread I started which might also help.