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Then you'll LOVE this remix of it; It's also no wonder you're getting all these fuck buddies! You are attractive as hell, one good looking human being

Peace is to be found within the truth. And you can't be angry when you're peaceful. The truth is you had zero control over her, and will always have zero control over anyone. So what's rational about being so emotional over that which you have no control over? She is the one who did the deed, not you. It would be rational if you were angry at yourself for your own mistake, not the other way around.

You haven't talked to her in nearly half a year, and want to get in contact again after she said she wasn't interested? It's over dude. It's dead. In fact there was barely anything alive in the first place TO die. I hope you've been seeing and talking to other girls during this time, because this wreaks of neediness and attachment issues. There is a silver lining though -If you felt you still haven't "let go COMPLETELY" as you've described it, this points with flashing neon signs and air horns to what you need to work on in yourself.

I have to get a bunch of dental work done, but I'm so damn reluctant to go. It's CRIMINAL what they charge at nearly every place for something that's considered a medical service. And how and why the mouth is deemed a separate part of human anatomy in medicine so that it's not covered by taxes in my country is beyond me. A corrupt oversight. They also can't even do me the decency of providing a quote or an estimate nearly every place I go to. Secretaries seem to universally act like clueless fucks for some reason, as if they are coached to be deliberately vague just draw people in. I've noticed this paying close attention to their language, no matter what approach I take. Since they are all competing with each other either too, transferring medical documents and history between offices is pointless. It can be a few month old x-ray and they'll be like, "Nope sorry you've gotta register with us and start from scratch . That'll be $200 please!" Then there is the hygienists. Most of them berate you like hell for not having flawless genetics or dental health, like they don't want you there or to do their job for some reason, even though they are being grossly overpaid for the service they provide. Then have the audacity to think you're being rude for being quiet and expect to have a conversation with (sharp) metal tools in your mouth lmao? I think I've met 2 people in the industry who were decent, caring human beings that actually seemed to have a standard of professionalism, most everyone else has been a cu** to varying degrees. Sorry for my rant and not really answering your question. But God I hate this industry.

Better yet don't use ANY products unless you really need them! Our bodies can handle a lot more than we think if we give em the chance to toughen up. Eat clean and exercise often and most of those personal care products won't even seem necessary. We've been conditioned with unrealistic standards of what health "should" look like.

Maybe if we all lived like medieval peasants, yes. At our current rate of consumptions and modern material expectations though, no. Widespread, environmental systems are already under strain or collapsing and that is only with 5%~ of people enjoying a first world western lifestyle.

Alcohol lol.

Just wait for what we are in store for in the future . Animal agriculture has gotten so out of control that we are breeding super bugs within their populations that are going to be incredibly resistant to so many anti-biotics. We pump our livestock full of drugs and chemicals so recklessly because of our ravenous and unnecessary addiction to meat, it's going to come back to bite us. The universe has a nice way of balancing things out though

hehe great! Yea they are an AMAZING group. Funny story I remember hearing their songs on the radio while working back in 2016 being like "what is this trash?!" and always switching them off because I was turned off by the style of their singers, thought it was just more hipster crap that CBC likes to push. But then I heard this song and decided to be more open minded, gave them another chance and they've become one of my favourite bands! One of those life lessons about not being blinded by bias and first impressions I guess (Now I know - July Talk) Encase region locked Honestly it's rare I listen to any artist and can go through entire albums without hearing any songs I hate, but nearly EVERYTHING they create is a hit. Makes me proud such great musicians are coming out of my home province! This is my favourite song by them, if I had to choose just one; (Strange Habit - July Talk) Encase region locked

I would exercise patience, and take some deep internal reflective time to get in tune with where this desire is stemming from and if there is any inauthentic emotions or thoughts attached to it somewhere. It can't hurt to wait. As others have mentioned 3 months is a little ahead of the norm, even if you are both fully grown independent adults. Keep building your relationship, soak up the shit out of the times you do have together, and tease the idea once in a while to see how it resonates with him. If you are posting about it on the internet and looking for outside perspectives on it, that might be an indicator that you are capable of contemplating more and looking for feedback because you aren't 100% certain of your convictions at the moment. That's ok! Good things come to those who wait That said from what I've read it sounds like you guys could handle that conversation without him getting "scared off". Just make sure you're tactful about it and ask at a good time in the right way. Probably in a more casual setting like while making dinner together "Hey I've been thinking, I have an idea. No pressure, what do you think it would look like if we lived together?" NOT after having sex and emotions are peaked because then he'll feel like he's got to respond from a vulnerable high intensity point and is maybe being manipulated

@EducatedFool your name have anything to do with this banger ?

^ What this guy said. First few times you want to just fuck her brains out and lean a bit more to the mechanical side, be cool and loose, find out what both of you like together and have fun. Being too intimate and emotional right off the bat can be overwhelming and make her think "lol is this guy in love with me already because I fucked him? So needy." I mean it really depends on the woman and how long you've known each other, but there are some general rules to follow so you don't get in hot water.

Therein precisely lies your problem - You want to be respected and move on from things, but you aren't willing to pay the cost for it. You can't have your cake and eat it too. The only games you are playing are with yourself. Adults don't play games, children do. Cut it out and block him.

I've noticed over the past 2 years that I've developed much more of a sensitivity to gore and extreme violence, to the point where I'm somewhat avoidant of it if I can be. Contrast to growing up where I could (and wanted) to see pretty much anything without a qualm. A morbid curiosity. I used to browse r/watchpeopledie without ever flinching at anything when it was still running. I wonder what clicked in me.

Then are you really saying with conviction that you are "truly, truly worthless"? Not trying to be a smart ass, just want to help you poke holes in your own perspective a bit so you can let some light in, and know that's possible. Why? Because you don't have 500+ bullshit facebook friends? Because you aren't partying and getting blackout drunk every weekend like other people? Because you aren't sucking cock to get up some workplace or community hierarchy? Who's social game are you worrying you aren't playing well?

Great. Anytime.

For melancholy and contemplation, with a touch of sadness

The "I don't need your caring. I have better people to care about me." was way too abrasive, and unwarranted. Everything else was reasonable though. There isn't much else to do. You forgive him and want to move on in your life. He is just being needy. It should be hard to block him. Once you stop being reminded of him he probably won't come up again in your mind.

As cliché as it is; time is the healer. Yes, but only if you are conscious about it and are trying to grow

Do you want a monogamous relationship together, or not? Idk what the exact dynamics or details are other than what you've said, but I wouldn't be able to trust her again. It's one thing to be open and trusting like we all should be in relationships, but it sounds like she's been playing you to have 2 relationships based off of all the space and freedom you've been allowing her. Which isn't what you want when dealing with a confused girl like this who doesn't know what she wants and is talking about love for you but ALSO that "something changed in him". There is a fine line here where it may seem like you're operating from a place of love affording her these kinds of freedoms, but it's actually coming from insecurity and fear of losing her. What she needs is to be given an ultimatum so she can learn her place. Clear decisions are what needs to be offered so all parties can move forward in a way that's best for them. Don't listen to what women are saying to you, rather watch what they do. Consider that you gave her so much space and had such open boundaries that even when given the chance she couldn't restrain herself from going to spend not only a day with him but also spend the night?! Then she tells you that they were cuddling and she was touching him? Let me tell you what happened, and sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but she is telling you that not just to be "honest" but out of guilt and to get it off her shoulders that she doesn't really respect your relationship enough to control herself, her feelings, or her impulses. Her also saying "nothing else happened" is to comfort you. It's virtually certain she has been fucking him anytime they've seen each other. If you truly really do love her and want to just be with her with no 3rd person around the relationship, you need to set a hard boundary; No more guy friends, no more talking or seeing her ex ever again, period. Or you break up with her. No discussion. I think it's too late though, and you need to learn a lesson and move on. I don't mean this to be insulting, but just to give it to you straight because I really want to help you - you come off as really naïve in all this. You deserve someone who totally respects you and is clear about what they want. Cut her off, take your time, and then go find that person where stuff like this won't happen again.

You want most of your basic values as people to align more or less, yeah. Having the same life purpose or career though isn't really necessary and is usually quite a rare thing. It's probably healthy to have some form of separation within the relationship so you guys have space to breathe and think. Not every couple can have their lives completely intertwined in so many ways like that. It's incredibly demanding.

That's ok. Maybe not now, but they could reveal themselves if you keep the fire of searching lit. You mentioned people only believe things about reality. What do you believe about worthiness? Have you considered that worthiness is actually relative?

If you're doing it for a genuine release it can be a really healthy way to relieve stress and get satisfaction. If you're doing it as a distraction or to satisfy a constant craving that is where you have to watch out.

I'm very sorry. Nobody deserves to hear that, but there is a perspectival logic you can attain that "pulls the rug" out from under these kinds of statements and makes them look like the hollow bullshit they are............. You exist! Regardless of whatever she (or anyone) feels about it. You are here as a living breathing thing. No statement from her, or feelings you have as a reaction impedes the "is-ing" that is happening. Get in touch with and appreciate that. How unique and powerful it is. Once you start to feel that you will notice how her words are just hollowness. And that your feelings of emptiness, unworthiness, and regret aren't actually "truth" either. What is true is that you are. This is a healthy detachment that will help you get "over" it

How does it feel when you get it out though, freeing I bet?