YOUR MAIN PROBLEM IS THAT YOU're MORALIZING EVERYTHING
you're always in your head and overanalyzing everything, you make meaning of every situation in your head, and that could even make matter worse
One point, that I wanna make is that we're always in our heads and not fully awake in entire body, there's not right and wrong in this life, and you could do anything you want in your life even the things that your parents are feeling disgusted about!