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@Dlavjr as I told, if you love some subject, the love pave the rest of the way for you. make sure you don't do it for other people's attention. only and only yourself! you need to be consistent and disciplined in the process. always make a mental note on "gaining momentum", make your learning plan on a daily basis to make sure that you don't fall off track.

stop being needy! that's the ultimate answer! I SHOULD overemphasize that if the person is way needier than the other person, he/she will destroy the relationship by the very his/her hand!! find more ways to enjoy by yourself and share it whenever you need to do with your partner!

@An young being Yes, if you learn to increase your consciousness with any practice, you will begin to grasp things automatically. of course you should also let go of the "need" of deeper insight/comprehension.

doesn't matter at all! if you have love and passion for four things at the same time, everything will go smoothly, if you pursue them one by one. but you should be consistent in every one of them and not half-ass this one here and another there!

again another limiting belief coming from unknown source. pickup isn't always involved with lying and manipulation. it's rather an "Art of Communication" with women. although everything can be wrapped up with mischievous behaviors but it's not good or bad per se.

halting your sexual needs and desires for spiritual growth is another mind trap and is categorized as another dogmatic behavior. the real growth doesn't happen with intentional constant self-harm.

either you're coming from a religious family or from no fap community. you might belong to the no fap community and deprecate ejaculation and see it as if you're losing some vital energy during that natural process. you might have limiting belief about sex and your mind don't want to express itself sexually! find your limiting beliefs and let them go incrementally.

@beastcookie the comprehensive answer: throughout the spiritual journey, there could be thousands upon thousands of opinions, ideas, and perceptions, the thing is that the most stupid thing for us is to take everything blindly without our first-hand experience of that abstraction/concept! for instance, someone could read dozens of legit books about reincarnation and he might get an idea of the reincarnation but it's not that simple to form a mental image in the mind about that and then believing into that for the rest of life. what I really love to recommend for this certain situation is to clear your mind from any abstractions that are taught in any book or video, and prioritize the very own direct experience which is beyond any mental image/imagination/visualization/over-conceptualization! only learn the basics of consciousness work which are more practical and implement them to reach the hands-on experience!

stop investing your time and energy on the thing that is volatile, turn your own life to an adventurous game instead!

those two could be both true on a case by case basis. but the second case which you pointed out the needs as a construction of the mind, in that case, it's brutally hard to break free of! (but being hard doesn't mean it's impossible) I think the logical and more practical way would be meeting those needs along the consciousness works that is being done and let yourself see what will it will bring for you in the meantime! (of course, moderation is the key) suppressing your needs can hinder and set back your further consciousness development, be on the lookout for that too!

seems like you have some extra agitation and you're not patient with the process. just let it go smoothly and don't panic along the way!

just do it, don't ask how, of course you can gain some pieces of knowledge but at the end of the day, it's you who should take an action and be head-on with the brutal work!

of course, you can do it with alarm but it's much better to wake up naturally by your own mental facility rather than something interrupting your sleep cycle. you can clear up your mind from thinking chains and intend to wake up at a certain time before sleeping and it works wonders if you do the work correctly!

if you're being lazy and work-shy and lying on the couch 24/7 and strolling around social media aimlessly and you think all things will work, in that case, yup that's self-deception! but if you're genuinely doing the real work and you have positive thoughts about the outcome so that's not some delusional thoughts, that means you're doing it properly. answering the marketing question, you should be blogging out of love and passion towards the subject, be creative in the process, not ruminating obsessive compulsively about how to turn your blog into a business, let it come naturally, of course, you can learn the ropes for knowing how to do it but if it doesn't work, don't force things and let it happen naturally along the way!

@Mind of a beast whatever! just remind yourself that you shouldn't escape the real work by thinking to yourself that you will find the solution in another book too! just do the real work which is studying for the freaking entrance exam PERIOD.

a prospective life coach wouldn't even bring up those questions here, be creative and know what fits your potential!

don't learn vocabularies independently, learn them inside a context or listen to so many materials that your head absorb those inside context automatically, let it be an automatic process and don't consciously get in the way of your subconscious and vocabularies! it knows how to absorb them!

don't force yourself to think, it's rewarding in terms of money and other stuff in future. just take a moment to think about this: which one of those are really fascinating to you and which one of those would you do without any pressure from your family, real life situation and so on and so forth and just the sake of your entertainment?

your writing was too ambiguous and complicated to imagine your situation. but here is the thing: do what you love, what brings the passion into your heart? what subject sets you in the flow state and you'd lose the sense of time when doing the work? that's your life purpose, other things are just nonsensical mind programs forced upon you!

take what you love, not what your parent forcing you to do! of course, you're free to listen to them too but then again it's your free will, if you want a best-quality of life, you should be doing what you love!

for the moment, entrance exam is the most important thing in this life phase of you! thinking about those other stuff are merely deception that exerted upon you by your EGO thinking that by achieving something in spirituality, you'd be performing in God-Mode! yes, you can still apply mindfulness and mindful meditation to your daily life just before starting to study. but beware that thinking obsessively and resisting the self-image of status quo won't change anything! you should gain traction/momentum by studying on a daily basis and whenever you've done enough of work, you'd see that your self-image improves automatically on its own.

you can still be expert but even learn from those courses which are considered for newbies! so don't think that just because you learned one course, you're good to go! (of course, you can be ready to push yourself when you think you're done but never think you're complete in terms of any knowledge)

it's beyond the shadow of the doubt that if you maintain yourself in that long session, your body starts to gain some primal energy to fix things inside!

why won't you let yourself to be a king?