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@flowboy use your eye’s peripherals when you need to read something from the screen. Use big letters. You can use the buttons on your laptop to change the slides.

It was an interesting astral projection. To make a long story short: You either have to become a dog of god by getting in his favor and becoming god’s best friend just like dogs is man’s best friend, or you don’t and you become a godless stray dog that serves nobody.

This is really good

So what are you motivated by?

Study power (collaboration) versus force (competition). Read the book. Owen from RSD uses it to teach social skills: You have to be the catch. If you don’t believe you are the catch, and she feels you are trying to catch her, what is she going to do? She is going to escape.

I have my notes on my laptop while filming.

She didn’t know this. If trauma is experienced for a long duration, EMDR is not effective from my exp.

This is my experience too. The weird thing is that my therapist didn't know this.

This one is good to let go of insecurities, traumas, and other ego stuff But what I advice is that you are aware in your life from moment to moment, living from a meditative state. To me it sounds (unconscious) thoughts/emotions get a hold over you and you get paralyzed; you lack consciousness. So be mindful/observing of yourself but at the same time relaxed, confident and grounded. When you observe a pattern you break the chains of that ego. It frees up and it can be used for creativity. Socializing is creativity.

When I’m in a deep state I notice that my neck falls to the sides or to the front. It is annoying because it disturbs my deep meditation. Any other people with this problem during meditation?

@flowboy good points. Coffee, cigarettes, or other substances or activities can be used as coping mechanisms by the mind. I allow myself to have 1 coffee per day. As far as I know I don’t have any backlashes from it.

@flowboy you think even one coffee per day is bad?

This

Therapy is as effective as you make it. The coach doesn't win the soccer game, the coach only instructs and the team wins/looses. The same counts for the therapist-client relationship. From my experience, most therapists are clueless on how to deal with deep trauma. I have spoken to 10+ therapists so I think I can make a fair assessment. There are some good ones but that is like 10-20% of the therapist population. I'm still happy I've put the time into it because of the power of disillusionment. The only value I saw in therapy is the relationship aspect. A therapists that really cares about you is worth the time and money. Deep connection is necessary for therapy to work so SD blue or green therapists are great while SD orange therapy is not that great. But the thing is that therapists are only human and they can only give so many fucks. It is very draining to care about every one of your clients.

You are thinking too much and you think thinking more will solve the problem while thinking too much is the problem in the first place. Just do some meditations to get out of your head because there is no book for what do you do when she flips her hair or rubs against me. Those other guys are not in their head and just let it happen.

Why do all famous youtubers start to box?

@something_else fair enough. Some guys are trolling and I got carried away.

Traumas are your biggest treasures but you have to transmute the trauma energy in the right way

@zurew @Kshantivadin What you guys don’t get is that it is not shameful to be on the lower SD stages. I in fact already admitted I’m working on my SD blue and orange stages. That is why I’m studying Andrew Tate and other specimen. While you guys shame him and name him, that is why you guys will be stuck at your current stage which is probably orange-green. Judgementalism is why you are stuck where you are stuck. If you weren’t that thick headed and learned lessons from SD red-blue-orange + hard work, you would have a fair chance of developing some yellow. I already said there is a lot of value in SD blue; it is stabilizing force for lower SD states + good foundation to build to progressive states upon. There are some deep lessons to be learned from Andrew Tate but you will never gain these lessons because you guys think in black and white, can’t separate toxicity from the golden nuggets. If I told you these lessons it would probably go over your guys head anyway.

Divorce rates is a good thing? Do you hear yourself? I don't get why one would marry to divorce. This sounds like SD green indoctrination. Why would anybody get married then? To get stripped of half of your assets and be fucked in the ass by SD green bureaucracy? Can't make this shit up. The stats aren't lying. You are just trolling + you don't know how to cope with your tier 1 frustrations of not getting it. I'm not looking at it from an ideological point of view. I'm just looking at how things are while you are just throwing temper tantrums and SD green hissy fits because you are not getting my points. I would love a SD green girl who isn't all dicked up and consequentially has traumas and problems that I have to deal with. It is just that with this tinder climate where dick is a commodity and other toxic SD green influences it is hard to find such a girl. A girl has to have a strong character not to be influenced by SD toxic green that is reining right now. No thanks.

It is damn hard not to develop ego. Lately I have been doing new things. Like chess, boxing, dancing, and new approach dating and studying. Especially when competing against others and winning against them pumps the ego. For example when boxing and beating the other, gives a tremendous amount of adrenaline and dopamine. I meditate on it and it gives some kind of clarity to the ties of the ego but now I’m thinking. Can go outer development and inner development go together? I’m doing these activities to get out of depression and I do enjoy them for some part so it is not totally ego games My priority is to defeat the ego in this stage of my life. Should I stop with these activities until I reached a new plateau of consciousness? Because I feel like these ego pleasures make it harder for me to let it go. I’m making it stronger. But on the other hand these ego games also expose my ego which is beneficial for transcendence.

Growth mindset versus fixed mindset. Carol Dweck talks about it. I have insane amounts of fixed mindset and sometimes I only notice it when others point it out and then I still don't get it. For example I don't move my shoulders enough when I punch. My shoulders are locked up and the trainer and other guys are explaining it and I still don't get it. Pff. It is frustrating.

I got into boxing due to Andrew Tate. I think people who are boxers have a certain mindset. It is very valuable to have. But like you said in your own words, it is power, not force. This is what I was looking for: thanks. So I should be watchful that my ego doesn't claim the success. Which will be difficult because I have a lot of ego: and the only way to unwind it is through self-observation.

True, I love your posts. I dated an older lady that was 36 yo and it was horrible. Rather have dated a dude. Toxic SD green women basically act like dudes while wanting to be treated like a princess. I mean, if that is your thing, you do you boo. This topic only shows that a lot of guys think the only "healthy relationships" is SD green relationships which is hilarious. Just look at the current divorce rates which is a direct result of SD toxic green. Every stage has unhealthy and healthy dynamics. This is what tier 1 people don't understand. Also SD blue. From my POV, loyalty and love from blue is unmatched. I just want a girl to be sexy, submissive and feminine: and then breed me some. If I want connect on SD green stage I can do that outside of my marriage. I don't want SD green toxicity in my household. Obviously there is healthy SD green but nowadays it is hard to find healthy ones who aren't all dicked up.

@ivankiss you mean those boats in Belgrade in the city center where people go out? I didn’t know people were doing drugs there.