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I’m already doing this but it is a good post. +1

I concentrated on my breathing because I was flipping out. I have issues with relaxing.

It is called Mexicana truffels.

Pork has health disadvantages because it is a dirty animal if you mean that. Many alternatives out there. I avoid pork because one has to be careful with worms and so on.

I live in a country where it is legal to buy it. You can just buy it off couple of well-trusted sites but on every product page it says “not for human consumption”. They probably say that as a warning or should I take it literally? Full product name is 5-MeO DMT free base powder. I watched Leo’s video on the subject and I’m still doing research because I know this is going to be very difficult for me (I have issues with relaxing). Probably will need a buddy (if I can find one) to do it with.

@Serotoninluv thanks. After reading reports on 5 meo DMT I got a little bit afraid. My only experience is magic mushrooms. Perhaps I should try LSD and couple of other things before going for the (god) head.

Last video from Leo was very interesting to put things together. Leo says all problems root in the absence of self love. Today I was thinking about it and doing the exercise Leo gave about loving parts of oneself that we don’t love. Recently I read the book transurfing. This book says that all problems root in giving too much importance for a desired outcome. I tried to combine these two school of though and this is what I came up with: one should love all outcomes equally. What do you guys think?

Thanks for sharing.

Leo basically borrows all of his content from the books on the book list. Only after reading every single book on the list you can complain about the absence of pre-chewed videos.

What do you guys think about personal possessions? Personally I have a lot of useless but sentimental possessions from my childhood. I thought many times about throwing it away or keeping it. Mostly these possessions, like drawings, games and tools, I keep for sentimental value. I would love to switch to a minimalist household. I just have too much stuff hanging around. Obviously the easiest option would be to throw some of it away and keep the most sentimental valuable stuff, for now. Sometimes I think I just hold on to these possessions because it strengthens the ego/role that I created for myself. If that is true keeping these childhood possessions is not healthy. I’m not sure what I want to do.

Exactly. That is the point of meditation; becoming more conscious. First step is becoming conscious. Second step is treating the emotional wound. Third step is recovery process.

I will pick up that book and literally clean out my closet. Thanks guys.

I think I know what you mean. @ajasatya

I’m taking mushrooms every two weeks. I noticed a clear trend where underlying personal issues pop up every time I take them; such as where I’m going with my life, my life purpose, my insecurities If I can do it and my personal problems like procrastination and laziness. Obviously I’m not ignoring these and I’m addressing these. Is this stage normal? I would like to hear how others would act in my situation. Obviously there is a lot of personal things I need to sort out before I can even become enlightened and less self absorbed It sometimes I feel like I feel guilty of not being there yet (where more enlightened people are). I don’t know how to deal with that feeling.

@ajasatya probably if I don’t have a choice. Like probably on the edge of being homeless or having no food (without others helping me). I usually really “do” stuff if I’m necessary out of my own unless if I power through without a lot of effort and misery.

I’m 30. I want to act upon them but my motivation doesn’t line up. For example some days I don’t meditate and I feel guilty. I’m planning to read one book very two days then don’t do it. I want to write and contemplate more in my journals but I rarely do. My Unconscious is sabotaging. I have the time and the ability to do it but there is a part who doesn’t. Most of the time he gets his way.

He is on 3k per months with 560 donators. That is 5 bucks per person on average. The same people who pay 10-13 bucks per month to Netflix.

Leo has some videos on it on his YouTube channel.

Keep going. Don’t get stuck in the nihilism. I was in that spot too

I have this problem of over intellectualizing I think. Thanks for the heads up.

Any books on the book list on this topic?

I’m going to a seminar of RSD soon. The inner game stuff can be used on relationships on general.

I have been practicing the letting go technique. It is an interesting exercise. I have noticed that my personality changed for the good and the bad. For example my relationships have gotten better. So that is all good. Now the bad part. I have been making stupid decisions too such as putting a too large of an order of supplies for my webshop. It is all good. I can return that and I can learn from it. But what really gets to me with the letting go technique is getting things done. If I have the urge to read a book and it is kind of a boring book but necessary for my self development I have a hard time starting to read and keeping reading without fear or desire. I would like to read how other people deal with this.

If you fully understand you are going to die one day, you will feel the heat under your ass but that isn’t a guarantee you will do work though. Procrastination is a multi pronged problem. I have problems with it too. Don’t underestimate diet though. Find out on what foods your body works best on. For example I added bunch of green vegetables and fish (and fish eggs) and that took away my low energy. Too masturbation could be a problem too. Just don’t masturbate for a month to three months and see what kind of beast you become. Too much masturbation decrease dopamine and that lowers your incentives to do stuff.

@The Blind Sage generally yes unless you numb your brain so much that your dopamine receptors get less sensitive.