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That is great shit, thanks. There are some paid alternatives but free is always better. lol

That is like asking why the world is round after you discovered the world is round. That is not how you ask good questions.

Just lock and load, and stay inside.

Can't vomit on an empty stomach. LSD should be taken on an empty stomach since too much food can lower the effect of the psychedelic.

I just got amazing insights in how symbolic the mind is. The universe keeps sending the person in question the same problems and hopes the person takes the lesson. Its design is just marvelous and so delicate. Just amazing how our paradigms works almost like a clockwork locking us in.

It is hard to predict but panic is basically resistance to something so that is a good indicator to use when following the bread crumbs.

I panicked with my first lsd trip too because it caught me off guard. Just be careful not to get caught in vicious cycles.

Isn't doing self help implying that you are not good enough as you are? It is something I don't get or at least: I can't explain it to myself. For example if you tell yourself you look good as you are and you go and do a nose job, are you really? This can be applied to self help too. You accept yourself as you are and afterwards you are trying to change major parts of yourself. I noticed that my inner self is resisting to the idea of changing and self improving because of this inconsistency. I feel self neglected, being lied to and thus I lose my drive. Self sabotage is also a thing that happens. What I'm really asking, I think, is how to accept yourself, not neglect your inner child, and at the same time try to change him. For me personally I think this feeling of self neglect stems from my childhood.

@LfcCharlie4 I had this thought this morning: one can wish for a good life because it had a bad life and one “deserves it” to ease the pain of that wound or... one can wish for a good life without that compulse. I think the same can be applied to life purpose. You can have a life purpose to fill the void of feeling like a loser or you can have a life purpose without that impulse.

@LfcCharlie4 thanks for the explanation. I’m familiar with stoic philosophy and I know what you are taking about but it is hard to implement. I’m just curious about how an awakened person perceives an addiction. An addiction is resistance or escapism. Your body and mind runs away from a thing. So as an awakened person you can perform an addiction or not perform your addiction, and you are ok with both? It is kind of confusing for me if you are also doing self help. I guess one also has to be stoic when going against your own addiction, if you chose to do so. Quote: “Life simply becomes a celebration and you can do whatever the fuck it is that you want, that's Absolute Freedom, there is NO rules. This is why it's important you sit down and decide what you actually want for your life, and then you go out there and do it, Leo's video on life advice for young people is great.“ End quote. If you chose something for your life for example success, doesn’t it mean you don’t chose the other thing such as failure? How can you be ok with both succes and failure at the same time if you chose?

It is not the fault of the "followers". Gurus tell their followers "enlightenment will solve all of your problems." You said this line more than once. I'm not really judging. I'm curious how people feel about their addictions and procrastination after they declared themselves gods.

I'm struggling with the same thing so I can't help you. ;(

Yesterday I took a deep look into my relationship with myself. I recognized patterns how I treat myself and how I treat others. I saw that I basically was projecting the structure of my relationships onto the world, looking for evidence to keep that paradigm alive, setting up defenses to protect that paradigm, and acting in certain ways to manifest that. Basically the structure of our reality is created during our childhood, the content is our parents, but with time the content changes. We get to know new people and our surrounding (content) changes but the structure (our paradigm) stays more or less the same. This is so core to my existence that it involves literally everything. If you had good parents, and thus relatively less trauma, this is not a problem for you but if you had bad parents it can really skew things up. And enlightenment is just one aspect which can be harder. Actualizing is basically parenting yourself: After that thread I did couple of hours of research that made a lot of things clear for me.

What I'm wondering is that people claim they reached the highest truths on this forum, became God, and in the same breath they tell us they still have problems with addictions, procrastination, bad behavior and other stuff. Isn't that humiliating?

Accepting and letting go are two tools you can use to parent yourself. Actual parents use these two behaviors too. A good parent knows when to accept (give love) and when to let go (let the child unleash). Letting go is like letting a arrow go from a bow. When you are a good parent you don’t push them. You let them “unleash” like an arrow from a bow. Letting the arrow unleash without enough pull (self love), Will makte the arrow not go so far. That is why parents who give a lot of love to their children, have children who make it very far. Love is a currency.

Self-actualizing is actually parenting yourself. A good parent accepts the child’s flaws, and let’s the child accept its flaws (by explaining), this part is important. If you can’t let the child accept its flaws, it can’t transcend its flaws. That video I posted is actually really good. Many of our inner castles that we created to defend against another part of ourselves are the problems in itself. For example if you a procrastinator and you resist yourself being like that (create defenses not to be like that) you fall in your own trap. I think the sequence of accepting your inner child and then encouraging your inner child to improve is important. Just discarding your inner child and bullying him to change will force the child to disown parts of himself (create inner castles) and the destructive parts that he tries to defend against will hit him even harder. These inner castles are in our sub conscious and most of them we are not even aware of. Just dissociating of the castles of the sub conscious won’t let the castles disappear. That is why telling somebody “you are not your personality” is like telling a donkey he is not a donkey. Even if the donkey is not stubborn enough to accept he is not a donkey , he will just be a donkey who believes he is not a donkey. The crux is letting the subconscious of the donkey convince itself he is not a donkey. For example I see people who pop 20-30 mg of 5 MeO DMT and they say they become god and shit. And the next sentence: I still procrastinate, lol. It is also important what stage you are. From what I understand is that people are stuck at the emotional level that they had with their parents. If you are a person who had parents who pushed you to disassociate parts of yourself you will disassociated a lot of yourself. If you keep doing what your parents did to you will just reproduce the circumstances of the parental relationship. 1. Accepting: you first need to do a lot accepting yourself (giving yourself self love). 2. Letting go: And if you are done with that you can move to the next stage which is encouraging yourself to reach your potential by “letting go” That is what parenting is: accepting and letting go. If you skip part 1 and move to part 2 you will make the part that you are trying to improve even worse from what I understand. Anyway, these are just my interpretations of my research.

@James123 I know the theory but actualizing it is hard.

I didn’t expect to end up here. 14:39

You are god is probably the funniest and the most truthful thing you can say to somebody.

@mandyjw agreed. It makes me uncomfortable to think about it like that. The self-help literature always told me those borders existed you know.

@mandyjw You say there isn’t a higher and lower self but then you proceed to explain the difference between the two. I’m confused about that. I’m not sure how to proceed now. Negative self talk and taking away from self love when I fail my high standards is definitely something I need to work on. At the moment I’m pushing myself to work harder. Something that I’m not use to. It just creates stress and I think I need to be mindful of how I interpret these sensations. Part of me says (traumatized part) just wants to stay where it is and the other part wants to move to newer places. Both parts want the same thing but it is hard to sell.

@mandyjw there is a lower self and a higher self. For me it feels these two are always fighting. I do notice that I can lash out at my lower self. When I try to be nice to the lower self things go much smoother but there is still this inner struggle between the one who is seeking comfort and the one who wants to be a higher self. Your comment about higher self lashing out in not-selflove is something I didn't notice. That part of me always told me I'm lashing out because I love you and want you to be the best. How can I sabotage myself if there is just 1? Do you need two persons for sabotage? I'm kind of confused about that question but I will think about it.

Less thinking and more doing. That should be something you should write on your fridge. The mental prison is build on fear and you need to seek what puts fear in you and then do it until you aren't afraid.

Do you guys use any techniques or a model when journaling? What do you track? Are you consisted? I'm interested to know how others journal.

@IJB063 I'm addicted to content. I consume much more books/podcasts and other multimedia than I write about it or contemplate about it. I tried to stop with consuming information and I notice it is very hard. Probably it is a good idea to go cold turkey and stop with books, youtube and podcasts for a while but it is very hard. There is thus negative sensation in my body if I don't indulge in my addiction. Self help has become a form of escapism for me. I think my first priority should be to heal the addiction for information and then create a healthy balance between consuming information and self-actualization. I'm not sure how I'm going to do this. I have to turn inwards. That is what I know and then get my hands dirty. Just being present and deal with life is something I have been neglecting. It is so much easier to neglect the present and indulge in endless self-help material.