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The first time you will remember your whole life and will also probably set the tone of your sexual life. If you do it don't do it out of desperation but from a more sincere/clean position.

I love TikTok. Sometimes I'm in a need for a laugh. There are actually some posters who are grade A comedians.

Also just ditching all friends, feels very inhuman. Social connection and touch is a biological need and it has been proven that it can have bad effects on your health if you stay lonely for long periods of time. This is the reason why Leo might have health issues, although he says his diet is good. These are just my opinions but ditching my non-spiritual friends if I don't have a lot of friends feels like throwing my bad food away because there is no good food around. It is in the hierarchy of Maslow, you need it. You just have to do with the toys that god has given you. If humans hadn't done that, we wouldn't even come so far. In an ideal situation I would only have actualized friends but the actuality is different. Personally, I don't think god has created us to be god, throw away all of our wants&needs and be inhuman. God created us to be human and reach our highest potential. What kind of world would we be living if everybody believed he/she is god? Lmao

To answer the question. It is not either or in my view. Important not to be egoistic and feel better than other people. In my eyes, friends are for mutual spiritual development. One doesn't have to be at the same level or higher for me to be friends with them but there definitely needs to be a give and take. For me it is also matter of demand/supply. If I had a lot of options for making friends, I would be pickier.

Organ meat can be super delicious but you have to be a great cook to make it so. With muscle meat there margin of error is much smaller to dish a bad dish. Just experiment around.

@Dutch guy that one is good.

@Dutch guy it feels like an orgasm but non sexual. The meditation can be found in his books. He also has a YouTube channel.

If you do that concentration exercise and then do Eckhart Tolle meditation you will get cosmic orgasms. Highly recommended.

Do shamanic breathing exercises to test your lungs. If you can do this exercise for 30 minutes you have healthy lungs and have nothing to worry about.

Road less travelled. It is basically the bible of self-help in my eyes.

@Javfly33 so he didn’t disown self help in favor of enlightenment.

@Javfly33 I think we are saying the same thing but from different perspectives. It has to do with paradigms. Everybody is stuck in their current paradigm. Somebody could tell me that meditation should be done for the purposes you tell me but that just goes right over my head especially if I'm needy as fuck. It has to do with spiral dynamics in the sense of one needs to fulfill their current needs before it can level up. By the way I agree that it is not a good idea to put all your eggs in one basket. Perhaps the topicstarter can comment on that in how far he has done self-help.

@Javfly33 that is in contradiction with spiral dynamics. Most people that come to actualized dot org are not zen masters. They in the lower stages. One can't just jump spiral dynamics stages. If you try, you will just fool yourself and people can fool themselves for a very long time.

@28 cm unbuffed I use the powder form and I mix it with water.

I take these: fish oil vitamine d Wheatgrass

I wonder how it is with other people. I just observed it in myself how I create problems or rather want a problem be solved (like wanting a business or wanting to start a family) and then self sabotaging myself so I don’t get what I want. This is also robs my of the chance of getting it and discovering that is not it. Part of me still wants the things I want but I will be trying to apply radical honesty to my actions in my daily life. A lot of the things I do is just to escape the moment or to avoid a state. I think some people can even use enlightenment to escape. Eventually something will trigger them to snap back to reality and they will see their life is a bigger mess than before + time lost. The naive thing I believed in for years is that there will come a time that some enlightenment will come and everything will be fixed. That has to be earned and the price has to be paid. And such future moment of salvation doesn’t exist. It is the now. It is so unsettling.

You really don’t like Trump.

I wonder what the bug was thinking looking at you.

It was the same with tobacco. The science told us it was bad but it took decades before it sunk into mainstream consciousness and dignity. Porn will be recognized the same way as tobacco one day, but it will take time.

I read that book a while ago. There are still people who say porn is innocent. Man. It still hasn't caught the mainstream.

I feel like a lot of people will come to this position you described, sooner than later. I have been on this forum for couple of months and there are a lot of people who hold onto enlightenment. Pursue the ox like a zen devil and get trapped instead of letting go and transcending. When you are enlightened you continue life. Enlightenment is not about escapism. At least you are brave enough to make a thread about it. Some people will waste much more than 6 years so consider yourself lucky. What if you lost 12 years instead of 6? Hopefully some people will read this thread and save themselves.

I finished Derek's course. I expected more. His assistant who did a recap of every segment was more helpful than Derek himself. The only thing he did during the whole course was bragging (perhaps to inspire?) and his assistant gave really good advice. It helped me. For people who are into enlightenment I advice RSD transformations by Julien. His program is a great fit for people who are at orange-green and bellow. Especially his trauma release, meditation techniques, paradigm shifts and model of enlightenment is great. I noticed that most of his teachings are "inspired" by David R. Hawkins. Those books are great. It is a good alternative if you don't want to spend a lot of money on a program.

This guy is a selfmade man. Interesting person to listen to. He is the antithesis of spirituality. Interesting to listen if want to learn more about stage orange spiral dynamics. He got some interesting programs.

Just use OneNote. Keeping all my notes at one place works best for me.

Second go Dose: 8 mg 5 MeO DMT Intentions: none Preparation: read into infinity (form and formless, actualized and non-actualized, in particular) It was the same setup as last time. I expected the same as last time but I kept an open mind. Last trip was full of fear. During this trip I got into the same realm as last time. I felt sinking into my bed. My ego was struggling to keep up trying to hold onto anything. I was literally dying. Last time I couldn't stop my hyperactive brain (thinking about being judged for screwing up). It was silly but the thoughts were impulsive. I was just sick of it. I gave up. I just let everything go and at a certain moment I broke through a barrier and I saw that I was in a cloud of fear (one can say matrix) but no more. I broke through it and there was peace. There were no clouds, just sky, endless sky. This trip was such a contrast to my last trip. The last trip was fear induced (fear I was projecting ). This trip started the same but I feel like I transcended myself. I don't feel depressed any more. It is to soon to say but we will see. This trip started so bad. 1 minute into the trip I said to myself where did I get myself into but somehow I managed to turn that around taekwondo style. At this moment I realized I have many matrix's in my psyche that just make me locked in my paradigm. This trip gave me so much to write about in terms of self-actualizing. Most of the things I wrote above, I already knew, but 5 MeO DMT helped me see it by forcing me to experience things. In my experience, fighting back (not surrendering) is impulsive. I'm mentality saying to myself "don't fight back, don't fight back" but I can't help. At the end I surrendered but it was like a war, where you slowly retreat, instead of full surrender. Probably at high doses of 5 MeO DMT that will be a different story. Main lesson: fear is temporary, love is infinite