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that's strange I had a really similar dream about my grandfather, I was with him at his house where he had a stroke and the whole thing was a mistake - but the mistake was believing that he had actually died someone told me that a dream like that is a form of contact from them and he was saying exactly that - he didn't die, I don't know if that's right, someone just told me that also the other thing was probably sleep paralysis that happened to me too, very similar, I couldn't move, I saw something outside my windows and I had to use every ounce of my strength to make myself move, after I broke free, everything seemed back to normal, you can google "sleep paralysis" and see - but mine happened on different nights

what does it mean to know something that is not thoughts? or where is awareness if it's not in my mind? is there anything beyond my own mind? transcend the mind? what does that mean... thank you

you guys, thank you all so much it's so amazing that I can ask questions like this and actually get answers, truly amazing

if you have negative thoughts or feelings in your body, is that resistance? so if you don't have resistance to anything then you don't suffer, is that right? but my real question is how do you know if the acceptance is just in your mind? also, what is acceptance exactly? does it mean that you are in that moment knowing your true self, something like that? thank you

@Hellspeed yes now that you said that I know that, thank you, I can totally go with that...I will remember that

go to direct experience, and that's instead of trying to learn more ideas and get more explanations? and you go to direct experience by asking "who is the one who experiences this?" or something like that, basically anything that defines who I really am and what my existence really is? but if you don't look or search for an answer, then what do you do exactly after you ask the question? thank you!

No and no. If you have negative thoughts or feelings in your body then it's just that. What? you have negative thoughts or feelings in your body. if you don't have resistance to anything then you may suffer nevertheless. that I actually thought I had right - because what even is suffering if there is no resistance? pain maybe, but if the pain is accepted then there is no suffering afaik but idk for sure... oh I think I see what you're saying - what I'm doing wrong is identifying with the "negative thoughts/feelings" and suffering with them I don't understand. All is just in your mind, be it negative thoughts, feelings, acceptance or resistance/rejection. I don't know how to say this - there are things that are unacceptable to the mind but you can live with them by doing certain things (that's what I mean by acceptance that is just in my mind)...so what part of you or me is the part that does not see these things as either acceptable or unacceptable? Acceptance it just letting go of resistance. perfect, I see that now, thank you

@DrewNows that was a lot of information packed into a few minutes wow, artwork was enjoyable too thank you

@MM1988 very cool, I will try that, thank you

@DrewNows thank you, that makes sense

yes exactly, I think "I accept this" then I think well that's a thought, a thought can't accept a thought and it just goes nowhere and yes to those best days that you talk about, I have accepted the unacceptable on my best days, but now I'm not sure how that even happened and I feel doubt, like was that real? or did I somehow just trick myself and it was all in my mind

@Serotoninluv thanks, and I didn't know about lisa cairns so I will check her out too

craigslist ask them to answer a few questions so you know where they're at it would be so funny if that worked

yes, but just once - luckily I was with friends who could help but it's super easy to fix, just expect things to go well and know that you can change them just in case basically all you have to do is change the subject - sounds like you have some things ready, your music and your breath check out the surroundings beforehand in case you feel like you need to get out of that room or get some air moving outside can change things a lot

I'm not sure if you can take acid and not be sure if it was a placebo or not, it's pretty intense you can always cut it in half or even quarters just to see what it does all you have to do is remember that you can talk yourself back out of whatever you get into if it's not pleasant, but have a plan ahead of time of how you'll do that if you start to "freak out" or even have someone to call who can talk you back down if the sun turns into a strobe light and all of your skin melts off - it's good to have a plan lol

I thought the exact same thing my favorite prayer is: thank you for everything, I have no complaints whatsoever so the trick is to be grateful for everything - that means everything

when you say you are unable to think, what does it mean for your life? do you have money and are you able to keep a job, etc? thank you

thank you

is there an individual soul?

I am aware, I experience through this body, is awareness within my body? when my body dies, will awareness be within my dead body? is there an individual soul?

my mother is a narcissist, I definitely would not describe her feelings towards herself as love she is nothing but self loathing, fear, and pain she can temporarily relieve that horrific pain by appearing to be greater or better than someone else if someone makes her feel powerful then she "loves" that person but not really, she only loves that they temporarily relieve her fear which is mainly that she is not powerful at all...and so on so her going around appearing to be so amazing looks like self love but it is not and we're all like that just not as intense, not nearly

that is amazing, thanks for sharing I've not seen my true self yet, but I did see the nothingness, it's not nothing but it's not something either, it is nothing but within the nothing is the potential for everything...at the time it was perfectly clear but idk now if that's even right...

if we were born enlightened there would be no punchline...

I saw him in another video where he talks about the experiences that he's had and he says there that he wants to share it with as many people as he can because it's so amazing...so he's doing that which is good, I love him I think the reaction of the interviewer is hilarious, she has no idea what he's talking about, haha that would be me less than one year ago, so funny

I forgot where I heard this, it was rupert spira maybe, but he said that the mind is not putting up a fight but it's showing you the way because every single "negative" thought is a just a prompt that's telling you to surrender again to your true self...