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@impulse9 How much would it cost to make a game like age of empires 4? Also, how come it's not as simple as meditating and simply visualizing what kind of game you want, and then the universe unfolds and gives it you

@Leo Gura Ahh interesting thanks

@Leo Gura Interesting, I always thought the problem with games nowadays was that developers were limited by technology so they have to cut corners and settle. Is it even possible for a single motivated person to make a game of the quality of something like age of empires or civ? What if you use psychidelics?

The end of the first season of avatar. It's such an awesome ending, zuko talks about building a new world based on a foundation of love and peace

@Leo Gura Do you still have any inside info on the gaming industry? Do you know what it would take tech wise to make a jump in the capacity in games. I was playing age of empires 4 recently, and I was thinking how awesome it would be to combine a game like age of empires, with elements of civ 6 and starcitizen. Maybe even have games where you can swap between RTS and first person mechanics. But idk what kind of technology is required for something like that?

I get violent vomiting as well. But fair enough

It's not an allergy. I have the same nausea response. I can't look at an LSD tab without gagging in my mouth, and I can't even consume full on shrooms because of the smell/taste. But if you go deep into the experience of nausea there's incredible relief. Inquire into those feelings of nausea.

Interestingly... I had a peak experience on LSD where I looked like the buddha. I even looked up pictures online and we had the same features and everything. And I'm indian lol

I can't remember his quote but it was something like... @zeroISinfinity "I used to be a materialist/atheist... now I just cry!" I love that guy

For the record I am actually am sorry about a lot of the stuff i've said/done on the forum. I have bad habits around empathy, callousness, racism, sexism, and a bunch more lol. I see no value in being mean spirited anymore. I just want to be the best I can be, and live from love. I'll probably make more mistakes in the future and people are justified in not wanting to deal with me on the forum I can understand that. But I won't let this stuff bring me down. I will rise above everything and live an awesome life.

Can't say I didn't expect someone to blow up at me given how i've acted on the forum

@Loving Radiance I've only had a complete crown opened once or twice so my perspective isn't complete. But when the crown opened it was a complete energetic shift for me. I felt incredibly blissful and energized, but I didn't feel the sensations of my body/being the same way after it opened. There was still other stuff going on after the opening, and I'm pretty sure it started to close again pretty quickly after opening, but once I felt deeply into the sensation of the crown it appeared like that sensation dissolved

@coca These kinds of posts are useless. How is anyone here supposed to engage with this? I understand that from your pov this is true, and it get reaffirmed by watching all these bimbos on fresh and fit or kevin samuels just prove your point over and over. But the reason you're getting so much push back is because the people here realize that this is a limited and distorted perspective and they don't want to keep retreading old ground, especially for someone who is dug in in their position. Following the red pill this dogmatically will let you nowhere. Show me a loving and happy red piller, they don't exist. These guys have serious emotional issues and no one on this forum wants to deal with the world view that is basically poison to the mind

I struggled with understanding how love relates to meditation and awareness for a long time but I finally realized that love is always here and available. You always have the option to just love what is. I was listening to a bunch of different teachers, and I had a clear understanding of resting as awareness and most techniques related to simply being aware but I always felt stuck and thought was something was missing from these teachings. Once I realized that love is here it really tied a lot of things together. Now when I practice being aware I do in sort of two steps, I notice that there I am aware and bring that to the forefront of my attention, and then I just love. It's like a warm, soft feeling and its always possible to just love. Just wanted to share because I struggled for so long not understanding how to love, even though I realized it was the most important step on the path for me. I'm still learning to love more parts of my self, but from here on i've realized that the answer to my problems is just to love everything and anything

Hahaha I was thinking about this the other day. This is so true. This is a game to these guys. They don't care about what's true.

@Scholar Vaush is heartless what do you expect

So i got into an argument on the dating section the other day and it got me thinking... how do I know if what I believe is right? People assume what they believe is right but how do you know? If someone said to me meditation is useless, I would think that statement is wrong/not right based on my direct experience but it still just seems based on my own belief and there's no definite way to determine if I am actually correct/right. How can you know if the position you hold is the right position?

@AtheisticNonduality He's a sex predator, and has no sense of what a good life means and what would be good for society. He has poor integrity and intellectual honesty. He's not a good person. He's a degenerate for being a sex predator. But hes just unwise low intelligence based on his assessment of the world.

Yes i have haha. Funny story. I've had a bunch of trips where I basically got stuck midway, because reality started to dissolve and transfigure so I thought I'd try visualizing an amazing real life orgy with hot angels and then contemplate/inquire further while having an orgy haha. But it never worked and I basically got bamboozled by my own horniness. I actually had one trip where it felt like I was being given a handjob by an astral being, I couldn't see anything but I could feel my sexual energy center getting massaged from sheer desire and will. Sexual repression is a big one for me i'm still working through this and my libidio is still largely repressed. I think a big thing for me is learning to accept any gay feelings I have buried. I still can't say I would be okay if I were gay because I think it's preferable to be straight and I really want a beautiful wife and family, but I definitely have some issues with being close to men because there's probably a subtle fear of being gay. Another interesting point related to sexuality. I've had many trips where masterbaring and orgasm served as a lubircant to feel into those buried energy centers/trauma points. Like when I would orgasm I would feel so good, and because I felt so good in that moment I had a reference point for that feeling and what the source of the pleasure was, so then even after orgasm I could still feel into the source of the pleasure

Called this a while back and got pushback. This guy is a degenerate

Haha. Your name just went to the top of the list.

So I started meditation about 5 years ago because Leo recommended in a video, I was doing a sam harris guided meditation for years but it was kind of mechanical and I didn't really understand the path. I got serious about the path in the fall of 2019, started posting on the forum and experimenting with psychedelics' and saw enlightenment as something achievable for myself. I managed to have a peak experience after only a few solo psychedelic trips and that's what really opened me up. I was basically laying in my bed, and after a few hours of just listening to music and trying to process the complex emotions from the trip, I repeated a zgochen teaching I learned from Sam Harris, Look for yourself/ Be aware of being aware, and from repeating this I was able to quiet the mind and I had a sort of energetic unwinding, culminating in my attention going to the center of my head/behind the eyes and then my head kind of popped open/crown opened and I had an incredibly blissful and energizing experience. I realized that reality is all good, and I had never felt so incredible in my life. I've done probably 20-30 trips of LSD/shrooms since then but It was always a mystery to me how I reached this place so I've been kind of tracing my steps and trying to understand how i got there. Following that trip It was very rough. I was doing trips, but I couldn't reach that same place and i ended up getting really depressed and suicidal because I felt so hopeless that I couldn't reach that same place again. I thought my life would be forever transformed, but even though I knew about how good life could be, i just wasn't living from that place and it was awful. A big insight i got from my psychedelics' trips was I noticed that I would always get very horny on my good trips, and a lot of my trips involved overcoming deep nausea and vomitting. I actually can't look at a tab of LSD without gagging, and when I take psyche now there's a good chance I'll vomitt or experience severe nausea. But i also realized that the nausea can be sort of cleansed from your system if you go the root of the sensation. I've had experiences where I felt super nasuea on shrooms, and because I went deeper into the nausea and the sensations of headache in the head, I found a sort of energetic hotspot and when I felt into the hot spot it felt like the suffering/nausea got completely wiped from my system. Almost like a computer getting debugged. I've had stomach issues my whole life and I never really understood them, but I knew they were related to suffering and unhappiness. I never really bought into materialist paradigms around what causes stomach issues. Right now I can literally feel a discomfort in my stomach, but I haven't given too much attention to just loving my stomach sensations, but I will moving forward. I also realized that uncovering my sexuality was a big way to relieve suffering for myself. On my trips when I'd get very nauseous, I realized that one of the only things that worked to help alleivate the suffering, aside from vomitting, was to feel into my horniness and let it out. It's like being horny was the cure for my headaches haha, so it felt better to watch porn or something then just sit here in agony from the headache. I have to work on this too, my family is entirely sexually represeed, I was thinking the other day that I actually have never seen any sign of horniess from my mom or dad, and I actually thought my parents never had sex until I was like 20 and realized they probably did it in secret. I think the key here is just to create space for sexual feelings, and thens tart to love accept them as they arise. I also realized that my nasal congestion was related to my spiritual blockage. I am someone who always has kind of a stuffed nose, and I never cry. But on my good trips it literally feels like somoene is breaking my nose, which is probably my sinuses getting cleared out, and the end result is feeling way better and a full perceptual shift in how I view reality. I also noticed that vomitting helped clear my nose but so far I haven't cleared it fully without psychidelics. Interestingly, during my best trips my nasal passage become so clear it felt like I was breathing bliss clearly into my being from the entire univerise. It was like I had tubes flowing into my being from everywhere, and when I would breathe it was fully of bliss haha. Sorry it's disorganized but I just wanted to lay out as much as I could. Feel free to ask for clarification on any point

@The0Self Haha i was just making a pornstar joke because of the photo but I hear you

@Alysssa No problem thank you! Yeah for me it's all about healing and integrating the emotional body at this point. I've known that i've had sexual repression and stomach issues for a while from my psychedelics' trips and those are the areas that need the most love. I like the charka map because it reflects what I feel in my meditations. Just last night I could feel almost a pulsing sensation moving from my lower back into my crown chakra. I actually don't feel anything in my heart center right now, but even when I put attention there I notice a instant sort of relaxation and an energetic unfolding start to occur. Thanks a lot!